[If I used to have nostalgia for this world because of you, my father, and many friends around me, then after I was diagnosed with a terminal illness, all my hesitations have disappeared, and the weight is too heavy and the balance has completely deviated from the direction.

Ah Xiao, do you remember, many years ago when we first met, I taught you to write under the old locust tree in Grandma Wang's house, and the first thing I taught was the word "Shengshi".

So when I really leave this day, Ah Xiao don't feel sorry for me, this is the best ending I have ever thought about about me.

The only people I have the most peace of mind in this world are you and my father. 】

At this point in the letter, the handwriting trembled, and it was evident that the person who wrote it was also restless.

Gu Xiao only felt that he had made countless lives on the battlefield, but at this moment, he could no longer hold this letter.

The pain almost overwhelmed him, and the words on the letter reminded him all the time that such a kind and gentle girl who had to plan for others when she was dying would never come back.

[A few days ago, I was overthinking, and after I called you to say goodnight, I still couldn't sleep peacefully while lying in bed.

The scene that emerges in front of us is the years we have known each other.

Although I was born in a famous family, my father was always busy with state affairs when I was young, and my health was not good since I was a child, and the housekeepers were afraid of hurting me and did not dare to do activities with me, until I knew you, and the pale and lonely youth had a little brilliance.

I still remember the first time we met, you were beaten on the street by pharmacy guys for stealing medicine, and then after listening to you tell you the story of your family, I only felt that your life was miserable and strong and sensible terrible, except for pity and admiration.

It wasn't until I left you to cross the ocean, and it was also in such sleepless nights that I often thought of the first time I saw you and me, and every time I remembered it, my heart ached even more.

I hurt the hardships you suffered when you were young, and I hurt that this world is always very cruel to my Ah Xiao.

Now that you have finally held the power in your hands, no one has bullied you and insulted you, and I have been diagnosed with such a disease, and the future is bleak. 】

The letter has dried up water marks, and it is the tears left by the people who wrote the words and wept blood, and it seems to be really painful and ashamed.

[Thinking of this, the pain in my heart is unbearable, if you see my appearance, you will definitely persuade me to rest and recuperate.

But my heart can't be saved after all, it's just the difference between a year and half a year, I have already looked down on life and death, it's better to do what I want to do when I'm dying.

To get back to the point, the pain in my heart is not because I don't have many days, but because I can't be with Ah Xiao in the future.

When I was a child, Gu Baichuan didn't recognize your biological mother and resented you, and the only grandmother who took care of you was seriously ill and difficult to recover, and in despair, she went to the pharmacy to steal some medicinal herbs and was beaten half her life on the street, when you were a teenager, you helped people on the dock to do hard work day after day, refused to eat and wear, and all the money you saved was to buy bracelet gifts for me, although I entered the Gu Mansion when I grew up, but in order to protect the Yu family, you also worked hard to manage and contain it, and then finally mastered the power to defeat the hope, But I can only say goodbye to you.

Looking back at you and me, the more I look, the more painful it is, the more painful it is, the pain lingers and superimposes, and before I get sick, the pain in my heart seems to have gone to half my life.

Now I don't have many days, the biggest hope is that after I leave, Ah Xiao can live well, this world has been biased towards my Ah Xiao for more than 20 years, and the rest of the good days should always be his turn to enjoy. 】

(End of chapter)