I suddenly want to talk about such a paragraph because today's state is really bad, all my thoughts are disorganized when my head hurts, I want to write but my attention will unconsciously drift to other aspects, but to complete a certain amount (multiples of 1000) of updates, maybe there is no better place to vent, so I thought of writing such a paragraph.

I feel that people who can write novels are more emotional and sensitive, and there will always be interesting stories in my head, and I am too, because of my parents' work, I spend a lot of time alone, even now, when I was young, I would stay with my mother for a long time in the supermarket where I sold books, let her buy me comics at the newsstand, hide in the quilt at night and secretly watch TV, go out with neighbors and friends, and he stepped into a puddle, helped him back, and was reprimanded by his mother......

The topic is far away, and I want to briefly talk about the question of "what should others think of you". Of course I scoffed, to be honest, I don't care what other people think of me, what image I live in other people's mouths, these are not painful for me, the sun will still rise and set tomorrow as usual, the earth is still spinning after leaving it, private time is absolutely free, it can be willful, but after work, why can't I indulge myself? What is the purpose of framing yourself, for a compliment from your parents, for a compliment from the elders in the family, and for living as a "child of someone else"?

I don't have such a high aspiration.

When something bad has happened, I may regret it, but I can't live in this emotion all the time, so I lower my expectations and goals to balance it. Adolescents with mental illness are common, and the premise of working for 50 years is health, physical health and mental health.

So why this rhetoric?

It is inseparable from the education and growth environment of the parents' generation. Most people have experienced an era of poverty, when there were really people starving to death on the streets, there were really people who gave birth to girls to other people to raise, there were really people who dropped out of school at a young age to make money, gave up precious reading opportunities to their younger siblings, and read a book in which a woman did not have the ability to raise her children and entrust them to others before she died.

If you can't afford to buy meat, or a few bucks, it's good.

They love their children with a narrow and stagnant mind.

They are the victims of failed education, and they live in the mouths of others more than we do.

When my parents told me about it, I was furious. First of all, I don't think I'm bad, at least better than expected, I thought I would be an ordinary student, but luckily I have experienced a lot more than others. Secondly, I hope that my parents will feel more sorry for me and will know that it is not easy for me, but maybe in their hearts it is more important to tell me than to care.

I became a sinner at home because of playing games, and I was talked about for more than ten years, and I could always bring it up and talk about it on any occasion.

However, the real background is that I was alone on weekends in elementary school, alone in junior high school, and alone in high school, and I always had to find something to do for my boring time, and finally chose games, this low-level happiness.

A person's personality is inseparable from his upbringing, and my mother jokingly asked me if I was autistic.

But in fact, it's just a relatively homely, and my spirit is rich.

Will anyone wonder if I would blame my parents? Actually, no, when I think of this, I will only feel that I have been lonely before, after all, they are also forced by life, and the burden of life has crushed many people.

As far as I know, many people may have an indescribable and painful time at school, betrayed by friends, and treated unequally by subject teachers...... But thankfully I didn't. I'm a nice guy to get along with, maybe I'm nervous, and I haven't had a dispute with anyone about it, maybe I'm a lover of peace?

At any given time, it is more of the victims (the wave of people whose rights and interests are being persecuted) who speak out, and it is the beneficiaries who are indifferent.

Whining aside, from the perspective of a person who has come before, I hope that any reader will have a good life.

The game will get tired of playing one day, and the idol on the phone screen will only know how good it is until you meet it in person. The college entrance examination is an important watershed, which divides people into three, six, nine and so on, with different connections and resources...... grit your teeth and persevere in the hard days, welcome a better future, and talk about a love on campus in the spring under the sun.

I understand the reason, I won't talk about it, I hope you are all well.

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I'm a science student, the university is an engineering major, the writing is clumsy, I don't want to consult some relevant information when I write these, and it's only 1,300 words after writing, so I'll go to two more chapters, I really can't bear it, and I'm going to go to the field tomorrow.

My student years were a lot of waste, and this is a regret that I have always regretted.

Good night and hope you all are well.