I always thought that taking the graduate school entrance examination was the hardest period of my studies in more than 20 years, but I remember one time I had a fever and shivering in the middle of the night, and the bed creaked, I took out my mobile phone and looked at the time, three o'clock in the morning. I shuddered and typed a line: "Honey, I'll go tomorrow night and help me get a seat in the library." Then got out of bed and took a slice of ibuprofen. Until now, I have told people everywhere that going to graduate school is the hardest time for me in more than 20 years, but if you think about it, the hardest time is probably when I just entered high school.

The moment he was separated from him on the playground, I made up my mind to study hard and mix up. One is for my parents, I don't want my grandmother's family to look down on them, and the other is to be able to be with Yue Happier, because I have a hunch that he is not a piece of learning material, and if I can become an excellent person, there will be a lot less resistance between us. That's what I really think in my heart.

In fact, that's what I did. When I first entered the school, I only lined up for more than 600 exams, and I was still peeking at the test papers of the people next to me, and I have to say that this incident hit me deeply. So I listened carefully to the lectures every day, bought a lot of extracurricular tutoring books, and arranged about three books for myself in one class. I only talk to my family once a week, and of course I cry whenever I call, and my dad will always say on the other end of the phone, "Be strong, son!" ”

There is less and less contact with Yue, to be honest, at this moment I just want to improve, I just want to learn, but I always have Yue in my heart. I put the mud heart he gave me in my pencil case, as if he was fighting with me. A month later, my ranking rose to 400, and my table mate to 500. After tasting the sweetness, I worked harder than before, every day at noon and at night, I ran to the canteen at a speed of 100 meters sprint, without queuing up to go directly to the canteen brother to get a box lunch, every time he said: "What are you running, you slow down!" "And I finished eating in five minutes, chewing and swallowing a mouthful of food in my mouth, and then ran back to the classroom, where I would meet my old acquaintance on the way.

At that time, I knew that time was of the essence! Every time I went back to the classroom, those girls were still eating, and they looked at me in surprise and said, "Xuanxuan, have you eaten?" I'm done! Then I picked up the book and started studying. When the other students had to go back to the dormitory to rest for a while after eating, I came to the classroom early to read. What's even more exaggerated is that I set an alarm clock at five o'clock in the morning, vibrating mode, and put it next to my pillow before going to bed, so that I can hear it and turn it off immediately without waking anyone else. Then he secretly took a biology book and put it in his arms and pretended to go to the toilet.

I tiptoed into the bathroom, locked the door, sat on the toilet, opened the book, and began to memorize, what cell wall, the concept of cytoplasm, etc. I never made the same noise as everyone else, and by about six o'clock I was quietly returning to bed, looking like I had just woken up. At that time, I studied secretly, as if getting up early to study was like doing something wrong. It didn't take long for my roommate in the upper bunk to let her mom accompany her, because she always cried in the middle of the night, and the other thing was that she had more than 700 exams at the end of the month. She was ranked the lowest in the four-person dormitory.

After she left, Qiu Qi also went out to live, and Li Dan and I were left in the dormitory. It has given me a better space to study. Every day after lunch, I ran back to the dormitory, sat directly on the top bunk, picked up the book and started reading. Why do I sit on the top bunk because first, Li Dan doesn't know what book I'm reading; Second, I can clearly see what Li Dan is doing. At that time, I hated her a lot, maybe it started when she ate hairtail, or maybe it started when she cried and mourned all day long, in short, I hated it very much!

I have less and less contact with Yue, sometimes I take my mobile phone when I go to the store to buy a pen, as long as it rings I know that it is a message from Yue, sometimes I ask me what I am doing, sometimes it is a text message of blessings, but I am always impatient, because I can't wait to run back to the classroom to study after shopping, and it is a waste of my time to reply to text messages. I don't understand what I did at that time, how much time can I delay in replying to a message? Even if I reply: baby I'm busy, honey, I'm going to study and so on. But I didn't reply angrily every time. If I had known that I was so idle at this moment, I should have had a vigorous relationship at that time.

After such intense study, I was ranked third in my class and 80th in my grade. Mom and Dad are proud of me, and I'm happy for myself. This is my best grade in three years of high school, and I have earned it with my hard work. My little table mate couldn't help but sigh when I became so powerful, but I could see that she was a little disappointed, after all, she was much better than me. And the head teacher also began to look at me with admiration, let me give a lecture to everyone in class, and many classmates surrounded me after class, and I became a good student in everyone's eyes.

However, my stomach became worse and worse because I didn't eat well and ran to swallow food every day. When I was studying in the morning, I couldn't straighten my waist because of stomach pain, and I didn't want to ask for leave, so I had to insist on studying in the morning even if the big beads of sweat dripped down, and for a long time I suspected that I had a serious stomach problem. At that time, I didn't know that the body was the capital of the revolution, but I just believed: "As long as you don't die, you will learn to die!" "As everyone knows, it may be that this time has laid a hidden danger for me to get sick later, of course, it may also be because of other reasons, such as emotion.

The funny thing is that I tried my best and only eighty, there is a gap between people and people, you can't deny that some people are talented, compared to talent, hard work is not worth mentioning, at least I think so. Now that I think about it, the reason why I achieved such results at that time was only because I had consumed all my energy when others didn't know how to work hard and were still greedy for fun, not because I was excellent, but because I realized it early, but this realization didn't last to the end, otherwise my life at the moment wouldn't be so bad and so dark.

I think the estrangement between me and Yue probably started at this time, isn't there such a sentence called: the casino is proud, the love is frustrated. As I got my grades, I was also losing my love for me. After all, I'm not good enough, aren't adolescent boys and girls just about caring for each other, communicating with each other and sharing their lives? I only know that I study blindly and live up to my concern.

[Friends, you must know that the flowing water is not the first, the competition is endless! 】