People will learn to release, but they will gradually close off......

Su Wan, who has just come back, can guard her "difference", has a frank face, and can control everything......

She has changed, and she is shrouded in the confidence that she gives herself, that God gives herself.

But she's obviously not such a person.

Su Wan is weak, and it can even be said that if it weren't for her weakness and hesitation, she wouldn't have said so much that she didn't know, and she wouldn't have so many regrets.

Onigiri reads a book

She is such a person, such a person, although she learns to disguise and change, but when the torn mask falls off, the self hidden in her heart is released again......

The room was dark, and there was no movement.

If the living room is tense and anxious, then there is an inescapable silence in the room.

Until Xu Wenjun entered the house, it was still the same.

"Xiao Wan ......"

Xu Wenjun turned on the light in the room, probably because the light was too dazzling, Su Wan lowered her head and buried it on her knees, without saying a word.

But she really heard Xu Wenjun's voice, her hair was not tied up, her hair was exuded, and she didn't have the same vigor as before, and it can even be said that this is the most ...... Xu Wenjun has seen a long time ago The most indescribable Su Wan, the spirit of the whole person seems to be dead,

It's not her dodge that evades the problem and makes people angry.

It's really dead, and there is no longer a little bit of spiritual energy to face him.

But she still cried, this voice would make her sad, it would make her angry, not angry with Xu Wenjun, she hated herself, and began to hate everything she made and all the choices she made......

If she hadn't repeated, if she had followed her steps, if she hadn't just said she didn't know, if she hadn't lost Xu Wenjun...... How nice.

My eyes were already swollen and swollen from crying, but when I buried them in my knees, tears flowed down uncontrollably, and even crying was just numb tears.

How long has it been since I saw him? Two days, or three days?

Xu Wenjun felt that it might be a psychological effect, Su Wan seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and she was relieved to let go and shouted that the dignity of her brother and sister-in-law was gone, and the delicateness in her bones could not be suppressed at all, and she was extremely pitiful.

Xu Wenjun walked over, Su Wan was in the corner, hiding herself, I don't know how long she has been in this position, Xu Wenjun wants to help her and go to bed, but she has no stress reaction to Xu Wenjun, just didn't say a word, her eyes lost concentration,

But her knees have been bent for too long, and they are already a little unstraight, and she will not say that it hurts, but she cries more tears and looks more painful.

Xu Wenjun didn't know what to say at the moment, and hugged Su Wan back to the bed, and he didn't know if her legs could be straightened now, so he let her curl up on the bed, sat on her bed, and tightened the quilt for her.

You can't let Su Wan be like this and be in a hurry......

Xu Wenjun put down all the questions and helplessness, and just gently asked the most urgent questions at the moment.

"Hungry? Do you want to drink some porridge? ”

There was no sound at all, Su Wan waited until her knees had slowly straightened her legs, and her helpless eyes looked at the white ceiling, which seemed to be boundless, but it was trapped in a corner, within reach but difficult to touch......

How much do you love Xu Wenjun?

For Xu Wenjun, she is a catastrophe that he can't escape, a corner of his heart that he can't avoid.

And for Su Wan, he is also a young girl's companion for many years, relying on ..... I have to admit that if I don't know, I won't care about anything, I don't have anything, but it's painful to know and understand.

It can be said that she doesn't know how to love the eighteen-year-old Su Wan, who has spent the most wonderful eighteen-year-old in ignorance, and she doesn't love Xu Wenjun so much, but it must not be said that the eighteen-year-old Su Wan doesn't love Xu Wenjun......

From the appearance of Qin Muge, Su Wan, who has woken up, has been in love with Xu Wenjun for ten years...... It's long, and it's unwilling......

Maybe the current Xu Wenjun, the current Qin Muge, and everyone now don't know how much she loves Xu Wenjun, so much so that she seems to have only three words for all her goals.

And when she saw everything, everything was the same as before the third year of high school, just like the hospital before...... Things were pushed to the last thing she wanted again.

She didn't even know how she should face Wen Jun, facing a world that might not have Wen Jun and might never be able to enjoy Wen Jun's warmth again......

If Xu Wenjun sought relief after coming back after more than ten years of hideousness, then Su Wan had loved and regretted for more than ten years, and came back to find a remedy......

"But I messed it up, I messed it up with my own hands."

Oh, it's me again, it's my hands again......

Am I a waste?

Isn't it useless?

Think you're smart, think you're different?

"I ...... Shouldn't you just stay in the corner, don't talk, don't expect anything from yourself, just hide in your corner, where is suitable for you......"

Su Wan has completely denied herself, even if she sees the current Xu Wenjun, she wants to escape and hide herself, she feels that everything she has is unworthy, and even pounced on Xu Wenjun, hugged him tightly, and said loudly You don't want to leave me, it is unworthy.

A woman who threw Xu Wenjun away several times, oh, I'm not worthy, I should ...... Die in this corner, silently......

God, horror, a feeling that Su Wan exudes now, as well as the state of her whole person at the moment, makes Xu Wenjun feel fear.

Xu Wenjun thought that as soon as he entered the house, Su Wan would rush over and hug him tightly, saying that I was wrong and I regretted it, I, I shouldn't have left you, I shouldn't have repeated, I shouldn't have left the capital...... Xu Wenjun, I'm sorry, I can't forget you.

also thought that she would hold herself completely unreasonably and hold on, Xu Wenjun thought about a lot.

But really, really, I didn't think about it.

Su Wan didn't say a word...... Just hide there.

Don't even dare to look at him.

This......

If a person collapses, but she is still talking to others, it means that she has hope in her heart, but if a person collapses, she has no sound and is completely numb, either she is dead, or she is on the way to death......

Death in a double sense.

Because of her spirit, she has long since died, and she has no desire to survive......

It was the first time for Xu Wenjun to be so flustered, but he was afraid that anything he said would not become Su Wan's life-saving straw, but a life-saving talisman for her, and he could only stay by her side, not leaving an inch, just by her side.

Quietly.

Time passed minute by minute, the muffled sound of winter and winter was very soft, Aunt Su and Uncle Su, including Xu Wenjun's parents did not dare to make any movement and tiptoed up from downstairs.

Seeing that Su Wan would let Xu Wenjun get closer, and let him help her on the bed, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, at least, Xiao Wan let people get closer, let Wenjun get closer, and they couldn't touch Su Wan......

And only half of the breath was relieved, because Xiaowan was still the same, lying on the bed, only tears, but not crying, still quiet, like ...... Like death, eh......

Looking at Xu Wenjun, who seemed to be silent and powerless, the adults left temporarily first, not daring to disturb.

Gently brought the door over.

After a while, a little porridge fragrance wafted down the kitchen, Xu Wenjun's mother carefully picked up a bowl of preserved egg and lean porridge to Su Wan's room, and then beckoned to her son,

Xu Wenjun took a piece of paper, gently wiped the corners of Su Wan's eyes, and then covered her quilt more tightly before getting up, leaving the room, and pulling the door down, "What's wrong, Mom?" ”

"Boiled some porridge for Xiaowan...... "The old mother held the bowl in one hand and the spoon in the other, and from time to time she blew on the side of her mouth, and sighed several times, "You bring it in, try to feed it, you haven't eaten or drunk for a few days, how ......can this work?"

Xu Wenjun took the bowl without hesitation, "I'll try, you go down first, there is me here." ”

"Well, hey......" The old mother looked at Xu Wenjun and stopped talking.

"Mom, what do you say directly......"

"I don't know if it's right to call you back, Xiaowan has become like this...... I, and you, Aunt Su, and Uncle Su, are actually a little ...... We don't know the details of the matter between you, Xiaowan kept saying sorry to you yesterday...... It stands to reason that I shouldn't have called you back, you have Mu Ge, you can't be so mixed, but Xiaowan grew up watching, and I always thought that we would become a family......"

As my mother spoke, the tears couldn't help falling down one by one, and she quickly wiped them with her hands, and then said, "But my mother really can't stand it, such Su Wan is like Su Wan who can't live, let you come back and mix, don't blame Mom...... Mom, I'm a little sorry for you, and I'm a little sorry for Mu Ge......"

Xu Wenjun bent over the bowl and rested it on a chair, and it could be seen that the family was indeed very worried.

I carried paper with me in my bag, touched it out, wiped my mother's tears, and then handed the paper to my mother, "What do you say sorry to me, what's so sorry about this, Su Wan and I grew up together, whether you call it or not, I will come back, where is she sorry for me?" Hey......"

I'm sorry for her......

My mother was afraid that the porridge would be cold, she hadn't eaten for so many days, her stomach was empty, and it was not good to eat cold, so she cleaned up her mood and patted Xu Wenjun's shoulder worriedly, "Son...... Xiaowan has a diary on her, have you seen it? There's a password locked, and we don't dare to take care of privacy at this time, you try, see if you can ask for the password, or guess the password, it's really not okay, you look at Xiaowan's reaction, open the diary, and see what she wrote, why...... I can't get close to you, Aunt Su, I can only rely on you, Wenjun. ”

When Xu Wenjun had just helped Su Wan, he saw the diary, the diary he had read in his previous life, although he didn't know if the content had changed...... Xu Wenjun sighed, bent down to pick up the bowl on the chair, and nodded, "I'll try, you go down, I've rested early today, I don't need you to guard the door, I'm here." ”

The chair at the door is also used for the family's vigil.

Wait until my mother turned around and went downstairs three times.

Xu Wenjun puffed and blew on the bowl and held the bowl, pushed open the door and walked in again.

Su Wan's bedroom.

It's still clean and tidy, although the family is not allowed to get close, but as long as it is not close, it is okay to clean up the house.

Xu Wenjun turned on the light, Su Wan now likes to shrink herself into a ball, so she curled up in a ball and curled up on the bed, Xu Wenjun picked up the diary he had taken from Su Wan's arms without much effort from the bedside cabinet, and then put the bowl on the bedside table, looked at Su Wan who was lying down, put the diary on the bed, reached out, and silently picked her up.

For Xu Wenjun, she couldn't face it, but she couldn't refuse, and she let Xu Wenjun pull her up without her eyes, "Wan, sit down." ”

Xu Wenjun cleaned up, picked up the bowl on the table, and blew it one by one, "Come, open your mouth." ”

Su Wan didn't seem to want to eat, she didn't avoid it, but she didn't hide either, she just didn't open her mouth.

"Well, open your mouth and drink a little." Xu Wenjun's voice was gentle and soft, but Su Wan still didn't move or react.

Xu Wenjun put the spoon on Su Wan's mouth, and gently persuaded her for a long time, but she didn't react at all, didn't speak, didn't look at her, and looked at her weakly, Xu Wenjun told her to really not eat, and she was a little anxious, and her tone was a little heavier, "Hurry up, open your mouth!" ”

At this moment, Su Wancai trembled, had a little reaction, and her lips moved cutely several times before opening slightly.

Got a play? Xu Wenjun breathed a sigh of relief.

The porridge in the spoon was fed to Su Wan's mouth, but she wrapped it in her mouth and didn't chew or swallow.

The current Xu Wenjun, facing Su Wan, who was pitiful to the bone, couldn't say anything Chinese, and his tone was soft, "Swallow it." ”

After talking for a long time, seeing that Su Wan was about to die of anger, Xu Wenjun tried to change the context again, "Swallow it!" ”

It's really useful!

I saw Su Wan swallowing it, so she really grunted and swallowed the porridge.

"Co-author, now you still eat hard rather than soft."

Xu Wenjun had no choice, so she asked her to eat, this is a big progress, don't pick and choose, so Xu Wenjun fed Su Wan one bite at a time in a serious tone, and finally, Su Wan ate, a bowl of porridge, was fed to her by Xu Wenjun, and she ate cleanly.

Xu Wenjun watched her eat and even had a little aggrieved face, felt angry and funny, covered her with a quilt, put the empty bowl aside, Xu Wenjun went to bring her a glass of water, the cup was next to her lips, and she didn't open her mouth.

Xu Wenjun had no choice but to murder her again, "Hurry up." ”

At this time, Su Wancai opened her mouth again and drank the water pitifully.

Xu Wenjun's brows furrowed together.

tentatively said that he would take her with him to wash his hair, and then go out for a walk.

Su Wan didn't speak, she resisted a little, her whole body shrank hard towards the head of the bed, Xu Wenjun tried to persuade her with good words, but Su Wan didn't want to, after resisting, and Xu Wenjun had no choice but to pinch it gently......

Su Wan was immediately honest again.

Honestly, let Xu Wenjun carry him to the bathroom, and vaguely looked at his lips and seemed to be slightly pouted, looking aggrieved......

Xu Wenjun's brows were furrowed, and he looked at Su Wan at this moment with a sad face......

She seems to be sick......

And not lightly ill?

......

ps. It's not a mess, (the pen is a fresh graduate) got up at half past 6 for the interview today and sat in the car, and then the interview lasted all morning, and I was sleepy in the afternoon, and I was even more tired after sleeping all afternoon...... The code word is tired at night, the code is 8000, and the 4000 is deleted, and there is no way to only have 4000 today.

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