Chapter 44: Grief
I had a long night of sleeping, and I wanted to board the game to relieve the depression in my heart, but I didn't want to run into Rui Xin, so I can't walk or sit now. Luckily, there's also the fake identity of the shemale in the game as the last fig leaf, otherwise I would have to learn how to run a mouse through a hole in the ground to avoid her.
I don't know how long I've been in a daze, I don't think it's a good way to sit down so silently, I want to find something to talk to the red-tailed fox, and then find an excuse to leave her. Who knew that I had just turned my mouth and before the words came out, I found that the fox was actually doing the same thing as me. The two of them looked at each other in surprise, surprised that the two sides were so synchronized, and when they opened their mouths, they forgot the opening words they had prepared for a long time.
"This ......"
"The ......"
I couldn't help but open my mouth for a long time, but I happened to hit the car again, and then cut off my words halfway together. I suddenly felt like I was singing in the mirror.
"You talk about ...... first"
"You talk about ...... first"
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After a moment, the fox laughed out loud: "Leader, are we playing a lame Hong Kong and Taiwan soap opera?" β
I couldn't help but laugh: "You think I want to." When you say you don't say it, I was just about to start talking, and you came to rob me again. β
"You're robbing me, okay?" The fox gave me a blank look, "Okay, I'll carry out the style and let you say it first." β
"Oh, it's like Lei Feng." I pretended to be disdainful and said, "I don't want to owe you a favor, this good guy can't let you rob it." I'll let you, you say first. β
"Which of us is with whom, there is no need for fake politeness." The fox leaned in and made an intimate gesture.
"Stop!" I dodged her and moved a little to the side, "My sexuality is normal, and I don't have much interest in lilies. In broad daylight, don't scare me with this. β
"It's the middle of the night, it's better to three." The fox covered his mouth and chuckled, "Okay, I'm not going to mess with you." I'll talk about it first, I'll talk about it first. β
"Listen to me."
The fox tilted his head and looked at me and said, "Commander, can I ask you a question before I say so?" β
"Questions?" I pretended to hesitate and said, "If it does not involve personal privacy, it does not violate the country's constitution and laws......
"Alright." The fox laughed again, "Who would ask you such a question?" Leader, let me ask you, why did you come to play the game? β
"That's the question." I said calmly, "The game, of course, is for fun." It's always been a part of my mind to play games and have fun, and I remember saying it several times. β
"Are you happy, then?" The fox asked.
"Second question!" I yelled dissatisfied.
"Commander, you're too calculating." The fox pursed his lips.
"After you ask a question, you start talking. Your words don't count. I retorted indignantly to her.
"Captain, you little chicken belly." The fox also began to be indignant, "Answer one more question and you won't die." β
"Okay then." I obeyed her, "If you have any questions, just throw them over, if you don't explain honestly after I finish answering, then you just wait to go to the service street." Just ask! β
ββ¦β¦ You haven't answered the question yet. β
"yes." I looked at the fox's expression as if he was about to be angry with me, and I was the smug in my heart, "Although the NPCs in this game have a bit of a problem with their brains and don't spit out bones when they eat money, and the players have the [Seven Star Society] group of stupid X's powers, compared to the "God Realm", I still have a lot of happy ingredients in general. β
"What brings you joy?" The fox craned its jaw and looked at me curiously.
"The third question." I muttered, but replied, "The biggest difference between online games and single-player games is that there is more communication between people, not just between people and computers." My biggest gain from playing "Divine Realm" and the source of my happiness is that I have met a lot of friends like you who often do things that harm others and benefit yourself. β
"Friends?" I thought the language was humorous, but it only drew a smile indifferently, "Leader, if you don't have any friends in "The Divine Realm", will you continue to play this game?" β
"I won't be so weak, with my own charm, even if I don't take the initiative to go out to find it, there will be no shortage of people who will automatically post it upside down and come to me as friends." I'm not lying to anyone, dealing with those letters that try to talk to me almost bankrupt me, and it hurts in my heart when I talk about it.
"Turtledove, would you lie to your friends, that is to say, would you deceive your friends? Whether in good faith or in bad faith. The fox asked, looking at me sincerely.
Fourth ...... I said something to myself, but I wasn't in the mood to joke with her on this point, and I knew she was talking about reality. I could hear the remorse in her words, but it wasn't enough for me to forgive her. Instead of replying to her positively, I said, "I never do anything against my will." β
"Really?" The fox's head bowed, as if lost in thought. Neither of us spoke again, and we returned to our original peace and quiet.
After a while, I didn't feel the need to sit here anymore, so I stood up suddenly: "Fox, it's not too early, let's find a place to go offline." Staying up late is not good for a woman's health. β
"This is going offline?" The fox looked up, looked at me eagerly, and then tugged at my dress, "Don't be in such a hurry, okay?" There's something I want to talk to someone about it, can you hear me from me? β
I looked her in the eye, sighed, sat down again, and said, "Okay. β
Once I was seated, the fox pondered for a moment and began to narrate, "In real life I am a doctor with good medical skills. "It seemed like a story I already knew, but given who I am now, I didn't say anything but listened to her quietly.
"Since my university days, my grades have been at the top of my grades, and my practical results have been outstanding, and by the time I was about to graduate, I could say that I had surpassed everyone at my school and the practice hospital. According to my mentor, I was born to study medicine. But the irony is that my parents died in a car accident, the kind that died on the spot, and I can only watch the second old man die because of my medical skills. For the first time since I was born, I felt that God was invincible, and I felt sad in addition to sadness. Since then, I have been practicing medicine on my own and have begun to delve into all kinds of incurable diseases. It solved a lot of problems, but more of it only aggravated the feeling of powerlessness that I began to feel after that time. It's a terrible feeling, but it's lingering. Admittedly, this had a big negative impact on my personality. Although I recognized that this negative effect would eventually lead to something that I didn't want to see, I didn't try to eliminate it and let it go. Of course, in the end, it did lead to the tragedy that is happening to me today.
I'll talk about this tragedy in a moment. Let's start with my sister. After my parents died, my sister, who was five years younger than me, became my only relative in this world. I vowed to defend her with my life, for the sake of my dead parents and for myself. It's a pity that she was so stimulated a few years ago that she committed suicide by jumping off a building. β
She took a deep breath to calm her excitement, and I looked very depressed, although I already knew the answer, but I still asked, "Your sister ...... her?"
"If my sister had died at that time, you wouldn't have seen me now. She didn't die, but she was in a vegetative state. The kind of vegetative person lying on the bed with all kinds of tubes inserted into it, relying on cold instruments to survive and the world. The moment I got the news, I was devastated. I don't know what I did wrong, God is going to punish me like this. If I were to be in a vegetative state, I would admit it, but I really can't understand that bad luck is going to befall my family one after another. My sister's life-sustaining equipment requires a huge amount of money, and I am not the kind of person who was born with a golden key, and my parents did not leave me much possessions. I tried my best to practice medicine, but it was only a drop in the bucket. Just when I felt completely hopeless, a man appeared. β
My heart tightened for no reason: "Alone? β
"Yes, alone." The fox smiled miserably, "It doesn't matter who he is, the point is that he has what I need most - money." Many people don't take money seriously, because they think they don't know the pain of lack of money, and the full man doesn't know the hunger. He seemed to know my woes, and he offered a deal. It was that deal that made me realize that the superb medical skills that I pride myself on were nothing in reality, and that my physical body was more valuable in comparison. At that time, I didn't have any choice, for the sake of my sister, at least that's what I said to myself at the time, and I did it with him. β
"Who is he?! How could he take advantage of people's danger? I couldn't help but yell.
"This person is no longer here, he went bankrupt two years ago and jumped off the building with a debt." The fox suddenly smiled grimly, "I did it, I bankrupted him." I thought that I relied on the way he taught me to meet more rich and powerful people, and he was eliminated. Admittedly, some people just like to do it with a doctor. Rich people's hobby is to be different. β
I suddenly felt a shudder.
"But money alone doesn't heal my sister. At this time, I knew that there was a drug in the world that promoted the regeneration of brain cells and bone marrow, which was produced by GENZ Biologics, and this might save my sister. At this she suddenly smiled mysteriously, "Guess what I do?" I slept with a lot of people for that damn formula. There are many, so many that I can't count them myself, and these people also include the famous Guo Xiaotian and his youngest son. β
Rui Xin was laughing, and I wanted to cry.
"Unfortunately, God played a joke on me again, my body is not omnipotent, just like my medical skills, failure always follows when I am proud. They did it with me, but the recipe was still locked in the safe. However, it doesn't matter, I surprisingly know that Guo Xiaotian has a son who ran away from home because of his disagreement. That person's name is Guo Yi, and he is a very capable person. β
Finally, it's me. I didn't say a word, just listened to Rui Xin's almost demented narration.
"I've been in contact with a lot of men, and after a brief investigation of his background and experience, I knew what kind of woman he needed, and then I went and played that woman carefully, and all I had to do was seduce him, make him fall under my pomegranate skirt, and then get that formula for me." Rui Xin suddenly laughed nervously, "Finally, the formula is in hand, haha." Although there were a lot of accidents and twists and turns in the middle, the formula was in hand. β
"Should I congratulate you?" When I said this, I felt like my whole tongue was numb and unconscious.
"Congratulations?!" Rui Xin was stunned for a moment, and then tears poured out without warning, "But I...... I found myself in love with him. β
The red-tailed fox, that is, Rui Xin, fell into my arms and cried bitterly. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what to do, only grief, the kind of grief that went deep into my bones. Who is wrong, I don't know, anyway, it's not Rui Xin.