"Is this advisable?" Nan Jinyi asked very sincerely: "My master also said something similar to me, but I always feel that the heart is something that cannot be controlled, but I really hope to be able to control it." ”

"Girl?" The old woman looked at Nan Jinyi with pity in her eyes.

Nan Jinyi smiled slightly and shook his head: "I grew up with Master, I don't remember my biological parents, and I don't know what their relationship status is." My master is not married, he is obsessed with only two things. One is medical skills, the other is Taoism, I think he lives quite well. As for me, I just don't want to get into trouble, especially after getting used to seeing other people's affections. ”

"I'd love to tell the girl the answer, but I don't have an answer myself." The girl clutched her heart: "I don't know what that's all about, it's like a dream of mine." I don't remember how I met him or how I got married, I just know that he was my husband and treated me very well. I didn't know if I liked him or not, I felt hesitant and at a loss. ”

"Does Mademoiselle want to see him?" Nan Jinyi asked.

The girl shook her head busily: "I'm scared." ”

Lest Nan Jinyi didn't understand, she added: "I'm afraid to see him, I let the nurse keep looking at me, but I'm still ...... One thing is strange, when I am sober, I am obviously afraid of him. But once I entered that world, once I saw him, I couldn't help but get close to him and become happy. When I woke up, I felt scared, I felt that I was missing a piece of my heart, and I felt very uncomfortable. ”

"I've never seen such strange symptoms." Nan Jinyi circled around the girl: "What is the matter that the nurse said?" Is there a connection to something that's happening to you? ”

The girl glanced at the nurse and said honestly: "I discussed it with the nurse, and the answer is that we don't know either." If the girl is interested, I can talk to her. ”

Nan Jinyi nodded, and the girl thought for a moment and said, "This matter has to start with my mother's death day." ”

The girl's surname is also Xu, and she has already remembered her mother's death. Although his father had no love for his mother, he never thought of letting someone take her place as the young lady of the Xu family, even if he later married his beloved, even if his mother died of illness, he never had that thought. The Xu family, except for the mother, the rest are aunts.

Every year at the beginning of September, she would follow the nurse up the mountain to worship her mother.

There is a Tianfu Temple in Linquan County, my father set up an immortal tablet for my mother in the temple, and she will live in the temple for half a month every year, eat fasting and chant Buddha, and accompany my mother. Today, as usual, she and the nurse went up the mountain on the last day of August, and nothing happened along the way.

That night, as usual, she went to bed early after taking care of everything, but the strange thing was that she had always had excellent sleep habits, but she couldn't sleep after tossing and turning. She had a strange feeling, like something was going to happen.

The Zen room she lived in was a suite, she lived inside, and the nurse lived in the outer room with her personal maid. She lay on the couch, tossing and turning, her heart was very irritable, but her ears were surprisingly good, and all the sounds that she couldn't hear on weekdays echoed in her ears.

The snoring of the nurse, the grunting and grinding of the little maid, and the footsteps in the yard.

The footsteps were soft, like stepping on cotton, again and again. When the moonlight fell on her face through the window lattice, she saw a strange shadow in the window.

"What strange shadow?" Nan Jinyi asked.

"Peach blossom is the shadow of a peach blossom." The girl thought back to that night.

"What's so strange about Peach Blossom?" Nan Jinyi pinched her ears.

"The meditation room is in the west courtyard, and the west courtyard is planted with bamboo, where did the shadow of peach blossoms come from?" The girl seemed to be asking Nan Jinyi and herself, "There is no light in the meditation room, only a little moonlight through the window lattice, but I can see everything in the meditation room clearly." I knew that the peach blossom shouldn't have appeared, and I knew that I should wake up the nurse to check it together, but I just couldn't help it. I walked to the window, through the window paper, and stroked the peach blossom with my hand. The peach blossoms pierced the window paper and stuck to my fingers. ”

The girl stretched out her right hand to show Nan Jinyi, and there was a small red dot on the tip of the index finger of her right hand.

"I didn't expect that peach blossom to move, and I didn't expect it to pierce the window paper and prick my fingers, so I habitually held my fingers in my mouth." The girl explained embarrassedly: "My hands are very stupid, when I learned to be a female celebrity with the nurse, I always pierced my hands, and at the worst time, all ten fingers were wrapped." Ten fingers are connected to the heart, and when the pain hits, I will subconsciously exhale with my mouth. After a long time, it becomes a habit that cannot be changed. “

"I have this habit too." Nan Jinyi shook his hand: "It's not to learn from female red, it's to learn acupuncture." ”

Nan Jinyi's words made the girl's face soften slightly, and she continued: "I never knew that human blood can also become sweet, and it has a peach blossom flavor. I tentatively pushed the window open with my hand, and the peach blossom fell to my hand. In September, early autumn, in the mountains, the blooming peach blossoms, and the thin and cool moonlight have become the most beautiful memories in my life. I fell asleep with the peach blossoms and had a dream full of peach blossoms, and when I woke up, the peach blossoms were gone, leaving only the hole in the window lattice and the red dot on my finger. ”

"Dream Demon?" Nan Jinyi thought about it and examined the girl's eyes.

The girl's eyes were clear, and there was no sign of being haunted by nightmares.

"I told the nurse what happened at night, but the nurse didn't believe it, saying that I was dreaming." The girl glanced at the old woman: "After breakfast, I went to the Buddhist hall to recite sutras to my mother, and when I passed the crescent moon gate, I collided with a farmer. He carried a pole in which turnips and greens were placed. I was embarrassed, and hid by the crescent moon gate, and the farmer gave me a stern look, and then his face flushed. ”

"He likes you!" Nan Jinyi affirmed.

"Yes, he likes me." The girl said, "He said this to me when he was wrong. The nurse was very angry, saying that he was a toad and wanted to eat swan meat, and said that he should go home and take a good look at himself. I thought the nurse was too much, so I apologized to him. He just likes me, not offends me, I think the nurse is making a big fuss. ”

"Miss is kind-hearted." The nurse said indignantly: "He doesn't look at what kind of person he is, with his background, is he worthy of worrying about Miss?" ”

"Nurse." The girl whispered, "His origin is not something he can choose, just like me, I can't choose who I am." ”

"Miss is right, if you have a choice, I think there will be many people in this world who don't want to be what they are now." Nan Jinyi said: "For example, I may become a cook instead of a doctor." It's not that it's bad to be a doctor, but this path was not chosen by me, but arranged for me by my master.