The first time I met the Empress was in the summer of the year I entered the palace. The lotus flowers bloomed in the pond in the palace, and I took advantage of the excitement, took off my shoes and socks, and wet my feet by the pond. I'm not a noble girl, and I'm not dirty, so I walked around on the mud with wet feet, but I didn't want to occupy Yuanming's territory, and quarreled.

Yuan Ming was only ten years old that year, and he was very angry, so he raised the water in the pool and poured it on me, and scolded me for being a slave.

I just entered the palace, I didn't know any prince or queen at all, and when I saw a yellow-mouthed boy who dared to bully me like this, I picked him up and threw him into the pool.

When the queen heard the noise, she hurriedly stopped me. The palace man pointed to the two of them to explain their identities and asked me to kneel down and confess.

I was horrified in my heart, I only felt that it was over, so I entered the palace and provoked the master.

Not only did she not rebuke me, but the queen helped me up and handed me a handkerchief to wipe my feet.

She took Yuan Ming aside, asked him to sit down, and squatted to wipe his feet for him, whispering, and looking charitable.

Suddenly I was not angry, but I was deeply saddened. I envy Yuan Ming so much, I envy him for having a mother and a father, when he is in pain, hungry and cold, there are people who ask for warmth. And at his age, I have long lost my child's heart, every word and deed, every move is learned according to Fu Guang's preferences, how to please and how to flatter me clearly, but let me laugh and scold arbitrarily, difficult, too difficult, I have to think about whether it will make Fu Guang unhappy.

Yuan Ming didn't seem to like me staring at them, and after putting on his shoes, he ran over and stood in front of me aggressively, pointing at me and shouting: "You slave is so bold, don't let me see you in the palace in the future!" ”

I don't like him, but because of my identity, I have to say yes.

The queen pulled him over and coaxed: "Bao'er, don't be rude, this is Mrs. Rong." ”

When Yuan Ming heard this, his face instantly darkened, and he stared at me viciously: "Another woman!" Auntie, it's just that there are so many warblers and swallows revolving around my father, and my father doesn't like us. ”

The queen lowered her eyes: "Nonsense, your father likes you, but he is busy with government affairs and doesn't come." ”

Yuan Ming Nunu mouthed, with a look of disbelief.

The queen said again: "Look, how beautiful this Mrs. Rong is." ”

Yuan Ming looked me up and down, and snorted coldly: "So what? She's barefoot, dirty. ”

The queen laughed and asked someone to bring me a new pair of shoes to wear. I knelt down to take it, and the queen helped me up, looked at me for a moment, and only heard her sigh softly: "Alas, it's still a child......"

Fu Guang sent me in, in addition to the emperor's lust, more because the emperor and queen were not in harmony, which was not conducive to his actions in the harem, and he needed to install a new, obedient, and favored chess piece. I was raised and trained by him, and it couldn't be better to send me to the palace.

Fu Guang asked me to assist the queen, and I was obedient, so I circled around the queen all day long, and begged the queen to teach me to take care of things, so that I could share her worries. But I gradually realized that the queen had nothing to do at all. There are three thousand harems, no one asks for peace, and no one cares.

"Niangniang, why is there no morning and dusk in the palace?" I asked her.

The queen didn't say anything for a while, just smiled: "The emperor let people be exempted, saying that no one should disturb me." Although purity is purity, it is inevitably lonely. ”

I stepped forward and grabbed the queen's arm: "Then I'm here, do you think it's lively?" ”

The queen smiled: "It's lively, you and Bao'er quarrel every day, how can it not be lively?" ”

This is true, Yuan Ming really looks at me unpleasantly. The first time I went to the queen's dormitory, he took something to drive me out, and his mouth was not even unfair to his mother, saying that I was a villain who was different from the outside, and that I was weak in front of the emperor, but in fact I was a shrew with no talent and no virtue.

I laughed at the sky, and I was right, because I showed him what a real shrew was—I took a feather duster and chased him around the palace.

The palace people said that after I came, the queen had a little more smile on her face, and finally had heating like a living person.

On my eighteenth birthday, the queen gave me a jade pendant of a winged bird, saying that it was a perfect match for my nickname.

Barbaric, barbaric.

Chongwu Mountain, there are birds, its shape is like a wedge, and one wing and one eye, each other is flying, the name is barbaric.

Male and female are born and die, and they are the birds of the couple.

It was originally a pair of jade pendants, but the other was snatched by Yuan Ming.

He grimaced at me: "My mother's things are my things, it's good to be able to share the same as you, you still want a pair?" ”

I was so angry that I yelled: "You wait for Yuan Bao'er, one day, I will make all your things mine!" ”

The queen looked at us with a smile on her face, but there was endless loneliness in her eyes. She sighed and reached out to touch my face: "You are such a woman, why did the eldest brother send you in?" There is one of me...... Isn't that enough? ”

I took the jade pendant into my arms, close to the place where I bosom. I smiled at the queen: "I was almost sold to a butcher by my father, but Master Fu saved my life, I want to repay him and you." ”

I say it lightly because the years have smoothed out a lot of things, I don't care anymore, and now I can eat, drink and sleep, and I am very satisfied. But I saw the queen's eyes move, tears seeped out of the corners of her eyes, and she asked in a trembling voice, "What did you say?" Will you ...... Sold to a butcher? ”

I smiled helplessly: "yes, I can't help it...... Famine and war, our whole village is dying, and my mother is gone. My father took me and my brother to flee the famine, eating grass and trees along the way, and when I entered the city, I saw that there was meat but no money, so I had to sell me......"

The queen leaned over and took my face in her arms, patting me gently on the back as gently as if she were putting her little daughter to sleep. She whispered in my ear, "The way of the world...... I'm sorry for you, kid. It's all gone, it's all gone......"

I felt something warm coming out of my eyes, and when I touched it, it turned into tears. Since I joined the Fu family, I haven't cried, and I've lived a good life, what's there to cry about? But why do you still feel aggrieved and sad now?

After Fu Guang forced Yuan to death, he forcibly stuffed his sister into the position of the queen. He longs for power, for touching the seat above ten thousand people, to sit on the top of the peaks, to hear the praises of all people, and to see all the people worship. For this, he did not hesitate to sacrifice his feelings, human life, money, everything.

I am one of them, and so is the Queen.

I suddenly felt that the queen mother was so pitiful, she was so high and motherly in the world, she was even more pitiful than me. I didn't reincarnate because I didn't do it well, and this is something that can't be saved. But Niangniang was born in such a good family, with such a good appearance, life experience and talent, why did she still fall into the same situation as me?

I asked the older palace people, and they said that it was because they were not favored. The queen mother is not favored by His Majesty, so it will be difficult to move an inch in the palace, and even His Royal Highness the Crown Prince will not be liked by her father.

I seemed to understand in that moment what I was really going to do in the harem.

On that day, I made an appointment with Yuan Ming to fly a kite together. He tied the paper kite the day before until late, and his fingers were punctured by bamboo sticks.

But spring came, and he said that he saw that I was so interested, so he reluctantly played with me.

It's funny, who is the child, and who is the one who wants to play?

Yuan Ming made up the paper kite with high interest and waited for me in the pavilion of the palace early.

But I didn't show up.