It's been a long time since this happened.

The last time she entered the school was when she first entered the university, when she gave up P University and only took Z University as her first choice, prepared for a whole summer vacation, and stepped into the campus full of hope, but she got nothing. Compared with the loss of Ye He's appointment, it was more of a panic that he seemed to have evaporated from the world, leaving no archival records.

Slowly, with Song Shinuo's investigation and understanding, she knew that Ye He was found by the Ye family soon after entering the school, and she took a leave of absence, but the Ye family in Kyoto was far away beyond the scope of her reach, and that panic turned into anxiety. She was withdrawn and didn't like to talk, until her mentor Chu Yan noticed it and introduced the psychological counselor Shangguan to her.

During that time, Song Shinuo was the only frequent visitor to the school's psychological counseling room.

After more than a year, Shangguan was slightly surprised when he saw her again: "Long time no see, Shi Nuo, how are you doing lately?" ”

Shangguan's full name is Shangguan Rong, and he got the top qualification certificate in China when he was less than thirty years old, young and dry. The Shangguan family is also in the upper circle of Kyoto, and Song Shinuo inquired about Ye He from her at the beginning. It's just that Shangguan has no interest in the family industry, is dissatisfied with the family arrangement, completely severs the relationship in exchange for freedom, studies the psychology major he loves, and stays in Z University after graduation. Because one of her dissertations during her graduate studies was highly recognized abroad, the school attached great importance to setting up a special consultation room for her, which is on the top floor of the multi-purpose building.

The consultation room is neatly and softly furnished, with a goose yellow color palette that warms the light, and acoustic panels that create a quiet space, quiet to quiet. Song Shinuo was lying on the sofa, closed his eyes, and heard Shangguan's voice gently, with a sense of sleep coming from above his head-

"Relax and imagine yourself in a free sea, surrounded by the sound of the sea breeze and the crashing waves. You just have to answer my questions truthfully. ”

"Yes, the person you've been looking for, right?"

Song Shinuo nodded.

Affective deficit disorder with mild depressive tendencies. This means that she is unable to clearly express or dispel the unfamiliar emotions inside, and can only rely on the outside world to guide her. There are only four ways to help you recover: feel, name, evaluate, and express.

"So, are you happy to see him? Or did it generate some other emotion? Shangguan asked. Hearing this, Song Shinuo's long eyelashes fluttered, ushering in a pause-like silence. After a long time, she spoke: "Happy." However, I met a person. ”

Erasing the name and replacing it with letters, Song Shinuo briefly stated everything that had happened since he met Huo Yizhou by mistake. Shangguan listened carefully and summarized it from a third perspective:

"So, in order to get news of the person you've been looking for, you acquiesced to the approach of another new character and took advantage of him."

Some saw the crux of the problem, and Shangguan lowered his tone very lightly:

"Shi Nuo, you have new feelings for this new character. But you don't know what that emotion is, do you? You're bothered by this, so subconsciously deny it. ”

It's difficult. Affective deficit disorder, also known as emotional apathy, is completely consistent with the literal word, because it is unable to empathize, so the perception of others is too low, even if the surface is close to normal, it is different from ordinary people. Nature cannot be understood through conventional lenses.

Shangguan thought for a moment and proposed, "Shi Nuo, this may require you to evaluate that person yourself. To assess the security of the relationship with him, to try to accept, to define the relationship. After understanding it in her freshman year, Shangguan already knew that it was the environment in which Song Shinuo grew up that shaped her small world, which was the cause of her incurable.

If the person she had been looking for was to be compared to a beam of light, which had guided her on the right track, and since then it has been the source of light for the small world even if it has dimmed and dissipated; And that new person may be a new luminous body, wandering alone outside the small world.

The process in which it is allowed to enter is the process of Song Shinuo's self-suffering and self-game.

Maybe it's quite long, maybe it's a short moment. You can't predict it, and you can't rush it. Shangguan patted Song Shinuo's shoulder and signaled that the psychological intervention was over. She signed the list, opened two bottles of melatonin and handed it over: "If you still can't sleep well in the past two days, you must remember to take it according to the dosage as instructed by the doctor." ”

"Shi Nuo, don't worry, go back and think about it." She smiled, "Come back to me next Monday for counseling." ”

Song Shinuo went out and left.

There were not many people in the multi-purpose building at this time, so she didn't go downstairs, and walked directly from the corridor to the computer science building, ready to stop by the laboratory to have a look. Unaware of the visual blind spot, Lin Nanxin at the staircase on the other side noticed her back, and traced in the opposite direction with some confusion-

On the top floor, except for an open audio-visual room that has not yet been renovated, there is only psychological counseling.

Coincidentally, she remembered that the counselor Shangguan Rong and her brother Lin Weiyao had been in love before. Lin Nanxin stomped her feet, proud that she was about to catch Song Shinuo's handle, and knocked on the door with a smile: "Sister Shangguan, I ......"

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After class on Monday afternoon, Song Shinuo appeared at the door of the counseling room on time, and the psychological counseling was over, and everything was as usual. At night, when I was about to fall asleep after eating two tablets of melatonin, I suddenly received a strange text message on my phone.

Her eyes swept over the text, her brow furrowed, her heart soaring.

From an unfamiliar number –

[I'm Lin Nanxin. 】

"I know your secret. 】

Secret? What secret? Song Shinuo's immediate thought was Ye He.

Did you know that I knew Ye He? Or have I been looking for Ye He? What does Lin Nanxin want to do?

She hesitantly read these two sentences, and did not reply rashly. The other side waited for a while, but I didn't expect to be ignored, obviously impatient, and then sent:

[If you don't want me to shake it out, meet at the school coffee shop at two o'clock tomorrow afternoon.] 】