"Auntie."

"You're here!"

Huo Jing suddenly appeared in Fengyi Palace, it turned out that the queen saw that Lu Weimang was depressed, and she was worried that today's events would have too much impact on her, so she would have a bad temperament, so she called Huo Jing to come.

"You little couple go out for a walk and relax."

Originally, the grand ceremony of the ceremony ended hastily, According to the popular science that the queen mother originally gave to Lu Weimang, this gift of the ceremony was to be lively all day, but I didn't expect it, but Shen Shi returned.

Just now, the queen's maid had briefly told Huo Jing what happened in the Anguo Mansion today, so at this time, Huo Jing also had some understanding of the origin of Lu Weimang's low mood.

"Do you feel cold?"

The two were walking side by side in the corridor of the palace, and Huo Jing suddenly spoke.

"Hmm... Not cold. ”

When Lu Weimang has something in his heart, his perception of the outside world will be weaker.

"Let's go, come up with me."

Lu Weimang looked at the hand stretched out in front of him, put his hand up, and followed him forward.

The two of them came to the castle tower again, the early winter weather lost its power under the barrier of the big hair cloak, Huo Jing draped the cloak he brought on Lu Weimang, and took her to look at the Kyoto City where they lived again.

"When I was a child, I was like you, I only talked about right and wrong in doing things, and when I saw it, I plunged into it, and I wouldn't give up even if I hit my head and bleed."

Lu Weimang looked at Huo Jing, "And then?" ”

"And then it really hit the head and broke the blood. At that time, my father was still there, and after something was unsatisfactory, and I felt wronged, I was very aggrieved, very angry, and I didn't talk to my father for three months, thinking that he was not a man, but a worldly old slippery head. ”

"And then?"

"No, I didn't understand it, it always exploded like a dynamite keg at the touch of it."

Lu Weimang looked at Huo Jing, who described himself like this, and his eyes were full of disbelief.

"It wasn't until the news of my father's death came that I secretly ran out to join the army, and at that time, I suddenly understood, but they just had their own positions."

Lu Weimang was at a loss, "I know that everyone has their own position, but in my case, right and wrong trump everything. I myself will not hurt others because of my own desires, nor will I let my family hurt others because of my position, even if it is unintentional. I have a clear conscience myself, so I have the confidence to ask others to do the same. ”

Lu Weimang said, his body seemed to have regained some strength, and he was no longer as dazed as he was just now.

Huo Jing saw that Lu Weimang had regained his senses, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "You are right, it should be so." ”

"Then today's Anguo Mansion, the queen's mother..."

"A glimpse of the whole picture. Long before His Majesty ascended the throne, in the land of Longxing, the character of An Guogong was well known to everyone, but today, the Anguo Mansion is acting like this, which shows that they have changed and are no longer as upright as they were back then. And did An Guogong and others know? You must know that there are ways to deal with gentlemen, and there are ways to deal with villains. There are times when there is a need for immediate results, and there is also a need to see people's hearts for a long time, so don't make a hasty decision. ”

Lu Weimang breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought..."

"Why? Think Niangniang is not what you imagined? Feel like you need to re-evaluate how you behave? ”

Lu Weimang nodded, "I hesitated for a moment, because Niangniang is someone I respect." I misunderstood Niangniang's thoughts, so I would subconsciously start from her approach and question whether my approach was correct. ”

"Don't just doubt yourself. It is impossible to solve everything smoothly at once. But the days are still long, right? Don't put too much pressure on yourself. ”

Lu Weimang nodded, "Well, maybe you're right." ”

Lu Weimang looked at the big Kyoto City, and suddenly felt like a world away.

"When I woke up at home, my mother took my sister to remarry and left, and I was the only one in the family with two younger brothers who were like little turnips, and there were no elders to teach me how to behave, so I came out of the village with my two younger brothers and struggled to survive. You know, the children in the village, if they can live, where will they teach the children? How to behave with people? When I go outside, I have to observe everything with my eyes and summarize it with my heart. During this time, there were people who talked about how inconsiderate and undesirable my actions were, but I didn't listen, because, as you said, I don't like things that are too worldly. I'd rather grow up recklessly than bend my back against my will. ”

Lu Weimang said quietly, she was talking about the process of stumbling to adapt to the hierarchical society from the past life where everyone was equal to this life.

Huo Jing listened quietly, what he was thinking about was a little girl who didn't understand anything, like a blank sheet of paper, with her two younger brothers, who would rather bend than bend and struggle to survive.

Although it sounds different, there is a common idea, because there is really not much difference.

Because of the difference between the hierarchical society and the previous life, Lu Weimang is really adapting to this society like a blank sheet of paper.

For example, today, if Lu Weimang had no official status, she would not have given herself and Huo Jing a chance to open her eyes at all, and when she raised objections, it was common for her to be killed immediately.

And the origin. In this society, low background is the original sin, and many little girls look down on Lu Weimang, discuss and find faults, in the final analysis, it is because she was born in the countryside and does not have the insight and experience to match these aristocratic ladies.

Lu Weimang was glad that she took her two younger brothers in Feng County to earn money by selling coolies with their hands, and did not sell themselves as slaves, otherwise, this would be a stain that she could not wash away in her life, with this stain, even if she showed great ability, she would not let His Majesty make an exception and send it to the national prison, let alone enter the court as an official. Maybe her life will be limited for life because of her temporary weakness when she was a child, whether it is her future or the person she marries.

It is impossible for Lu Weimang to challenge the rules of this era on his own, so he must understand the rules of this era and make himself more suitable for the rules of this era without touching the bottom line and principles.

Lu Weimang has always felt that she has adapted very well, and her persistence and principles have been supported by people she thinks are important, such as Chengyang Changfeng, as well as her father, Huo Jing, and even His Majesty and Niangniang.

They are all tolerating themselves intentionally or unintentionally, and Lu Weimang clearly knows this.

She knew she had a lot to offer, especially in the inner house. It's an area she's been avoiding all along.

Thanks to her father, she didn't need to bother in the so-called inner house relationship, but as she was about to get married, this problem became more and more unavoidable.

Lu Weimang is really the same as the queen's mind today, and she went with the mentality of learning, and the result was miserable.

In the inner house, there seems to be a set of its own rules and standards, and Lu Weimang is out of place there.

She was there, excluded, despised, faintly envied, and secretly concerned. But if she makes the slightest mistake, she will be infinitely magnified.

It can be said that staying in the inner house is more difficult than her journey to Qionglai. This made her feel very anxious, because it was a question that she couldn't avoid after she got married.

"I don't seem to be able to play the role of an inner house woman, this thing requires talent, but I don't have this talent."

Lu Weimang said.

"It's so hard. Because it may be faced with all kinds of old and old in-laws, subtle close relationships, handling of severity and seriousness, and relationship control, it is too difficult, Huo Jing, I may not be mentally prepared to be your wife. When we get married, I'll probably mess up your inner house. Maybe your in-laws will turn from relatives to enemies because I don't handle my relationship well. ”

Lu Weimang said very distressedly.

Huo Jing beside him turned his gaze, but Lu Weimang didn't dare to look.

"Do you want to go back?"

Huo Jing's cold voice came, colder than the wind in early winter.

Lu Weimang shook his head, "I won't regret what I promised." However, I need to warn you in advance that if you marry me, the consequences may be a mess, and I am not as smart as you think. ”

Lu Weimang turned around and looked at Huo Jing beside him.

"From my previous life to this life, I have an idea, that is, if anyone marries me, it will be really bad for eight lifetimes."

Huo Jing was amused by Lu Weimang's serious tone.

Lu Weimang's expression became more and more serious, "Don't laugh, I mean seriously, I think so, it's not a day or two." ”

Huo Jing grabbed the hand in front of him and held it in his hand, which was warm, indicating that Lu Weimang was really not cold at this time, and then looked at Lu Weimang and said, "No one said that after marriage, men and women must be male and female." If you don't have a trip to the house, don't go. Anyway, I don't have parents, brothers and sisters, and you don't have parents-in-law, so brothers and sisters-in-law have to deal with it. Except for these innate flesh-and-blood relationships, nothing else matters, you can do whatever you want. In this way, are we a natural pair? ”

Lu Weimang's expression was so serious that he was about to cry, and he was amused by Huo Jing's sudden humor. Lu Weimang smiled bitterly, "Why are you like this?" I mean it. ”

Huo Jing also nodded with Lu Weimang, "I'm also serious." Maybe I have parents and siblings alive, and because of the ties of blood and family, I can't handle the relationship between you well, and I may also make you feel wronged. But, it just so happens that I don't. So, you and I are the happiest and most compatible pair, right? ”

Lu Weimang nodded helplessly, "Don't always say that you don't have parents and brothers, which makes people feel uncomfortable when they hear it." ”

Huo Jing sighed and hugged Lu Weimang into his arms, "In the future, I only have a real family like you, but you want to retreat." What can I do? You can't beat or scold, you can only make you feel sorry for me, and you can't give up on me. ”

Huo Jing's words seemed to be light and far away, making Lu Weimang unable to tell whether it was sincere or comforting. However, she knew that Huo Jing was not a casual talker.

In an instant, Lu Weimang's heart was even more sad.

"I don't want to back down, you know me, dead eyes, after the marriage, there will be no one else."

Lu Weimang put her forehead on the chest of the person in front of her, saying the truth that she didn't dare to say before.

In his previous life, would he be laughed at when he said this? Because of that era, the prosperous and charming eyes did not worship sincerity and sincerity.

But now, on the contrary, this is a time of slow carriage.

"I know. But no matter how confused you are in the future, you are not allowed to use this as a premise and think about other possibilities, you know? ”

"Also, we are all really living in the present, living in this life, and in the future, let's not talk about how it was in the previous life, okay? Your last life exists in your imagination, and I can't participate in it. That makes me feel alienated. ”

Lu Weimang listened, sighed, raised his hands, surrounded the person in front of him, and felt the real entity, "Hmm." I try my best. ”

(End of chapter)