Qingyue came back from that day, and it was really a little abnormal. Sometimes the water poured into my cup spilled half outside, and sometimes he spoke to the chair next to me.

Until that day, I put on the clothes that Qingyue gave me, and she was very happy. She knew that I liked purple, so she gave me a purple fairy dress.

The skirt is fluttering and flowing, and the cuffs are embellished with small fluorites of the purple aurora. I was accidentally soaked in tea and hurriedly changed it to dry, and changed into a plain jacket, thinking that I was not afraid of being dirty.

Qingyue took my hand and said mischievously:

"Light, you are really clean and dusty when you wear this. The purple color really sets you off, and it makes me fascinated to see it."

I glanced at my clothes and shook my hand slowly in front of her, but I didn't respond. Gently calling her name, she met my eyes with my voice.

I came closer, and her face was the same. Tears ran down my cheeks and I covered my mouth to keep myself from crying.

I knew she didn't want me to find out her helplessness and she didn't want me to feel bad. I pretended nothing had happened, and held her for a long time.

I tried to control my breath a little evenly, for fear that she would notice my irrepressible emotions. It wasn't until the housekeeper came to look for her that she left, and before leaving, she quietly asked me to wait for her.

Looking at her back, I felt a little sad. I have solitude and leisure, while she has bustle and restraint. She and I both envy each other, but always follow our own choices, or are we born with no choice.

Loneliness and relaxation are the life I have long been accustomed to, and I am woken up by the noise of the front yard in the afternoon. I walked in front of the porch and called the servant and asked:

"Why are you in this inner court, what happened to the front court?" Although the little guy didn't know who I was, he also replied respectfully and thoughtfully:

"The head and the eldest lady went to Fengyang Temple, and as soon as the head got out of the car, the horse seemed to be crazy, dragging the carriage and running like crazy. After a while, she disappeared, and the eldest lady was still in the car. The head of the house is looking for no success, and he is angry! Immediately I fell to my knees and sat down on the ground.

The little guy was about to step forward and help me, and I waved my hand and said:

"No need, thank you." Then he glanced at him again, like a life-saving straw. I was very eager to say:

"Please look for it with all your heart, if you can find it, we will be grateful." Later in the evening, all the people in the family went out to look for it.

I guarded the deserted house, and my heart was empty as if I had lost a treasure. The hand holding the cup kept shaking, and I thought about every scene with Qingyue, and my heart ached.

But what can I do? I may be more distressed that I can't repay what she can give me with all her might.

I don't even think she's worth it, why should such a waste be worthy of her love. My heart is extremely unbearable at the moment, and the guilt and self-blame have tormented me with a splitting headache.