He squeezed my shoulder and said, "What does this mean?"

I looked at him with great sadness, and said faintly: "At the beginning of the creation of the world, Our Lady Yuanjun made a decree: born as a god, you must not kill yourself, and those who kill themselves will violate the way of heaven and cause disaster to a family or relatives."

He gasped and fell to the ground as if deflated, not speaking for a long time.

I choked up and said, "Yin Xiu, as the god of war, I have no choice, I have to face it after all."

He slowly raised his head and said with a sad face: "I used to think that you were a Yaochi elf, and I just looked forward to staying with you for a lifetime. But now that you're the god of war, I can't even think of that anymore. ”

His words made me extremely remorseful, and I bit my lip and didn't dare to look at him.

He stood up and walked straight out, and I looked at his back, and my heart ached.

After a few more days, Yin Xiu did not appear, I sat in front of the window and looked at the green leaves in the distance, and said, "It's autumn, but there is no sign of autumn here, and it is really different from the world."

The autumn wind was blowing, my heart suddenly felt empty, my eyes were also fascinated, and tears kept pouring out.

At this moment, there was a knock on the door, and I wiped my tears and answered, "What's the matter?"

Venerable Penglai said, "The little god is here to deliver medicine!"

I opened the door and saw that he was holding a steaming decoction in his hand, so I turned sideways and said, "Come in!"

He put the decoction down and was about to say goodbye, when I quickly said, "Wait, I have something to ask you!"

He said respectfully: "God of War, please speak!"

I looked around and said, "Do you have ...... A thing of sacrifice? ”

He was slightly stunned and said embarrassedly: "If the god of war needs it, the little god will arrange it immediately."

I waved my hand and said, "If it's inconvenient, forget it."

He replied: "The little god goes and sees, and then goes back to the god of war."

I said as usual, "Go ahead!"

After a while, there was another knock on the door, and I immediately opened the door to see that there were incense candles and paper money at the door.

I looked around curiously, a little surprised in my heart, and I couldn't say anything strange.

found a spacious place, put incense candles, and said silently in his heart: "Once you and I say goodbye, there will be no time to see each other again." Ren Fanchen turned back and forth, and there was no one Xue Maoling in the end. ”

Looking at the jumping candle flame, the sorrow in my heart gradually became heavy, and I gave birth to Heng'er, suffering from the separation of flesh and blood. Now that Shu Yu has been born, I also have to bear the pain of this heartache.

I couldn't stop sobbing, I blamed myself and hammered my legs, and read: "I failed to protect my child, I don't deserve to be a mother, I'm sorry Heng'er, and I'm sorry for Shu Yu!"

I cried for a long time, and slowly got up, but I couldn't stand still.

"Light!"

Suddenly, I was helped up, turned my face sideways, and saw Yin Xiu looking at me with a concerned face.

I tugged at his shirt tightly and cried, "It's all my fault, I can only watch everything happen, there is nothing else I can do!"

He hugged me into his arms and said softly: "Don't blame yourself anymore, no one blames you!"

I clutched my chest and slurred my words: "I have never been able to forgive myself, it is my incompetence!"

He didn't respond for a long time, but gently picked me up and went all the way into the inner room, and laid me down on the couch.

He stroked my brow and said movingly: "Heartache should not be watched for a long time, such a bone-eating pain is too hurtful."

I climbed on his shoulders and vented the grief in my heart with tears, and I listened to his long sigh in my ear, like the helplessness and despair in my heart.

After a pause, he said, "I can't bear the suffering you have experienced in the world, but now that you know half of your pain, you will be able to bear half of the burden."

I shook my head and buried my head deep in his neck, still sobbing uncontrollably.

He continued: "Light, the path you have chosen has never been wrong, we each have our own missions, and we can all end up together on different paths, and I will always guard you!"

I knew he had never really blamed me, but now his words seemed to hold my torn heart in his hand carefully.

I snorted over his shoulder, "I'm sorry, Yin Xiu, I can't stand you!"

"My love for you is not a little love, I don't love you because of things outside your body, it seems that I was born to treat you like this, this is fate!"

I met his gaze, and there was a little more life in my eyes.

I slammed his lips on it, greedy and refused to move away.