I have two lives.

One is a phoenix that is petted, does not know sorrow, and is high up.

One is a lowly stench, insidious and cunning, maggots under the mud.

And I will sit on that phoenix chair in the name of this maggot, and defile this noble reverence.

1.

There was once a wandering Taoist priest who said that I had two lives, and I could climb the phoenix position twice.

The Taoist priest looked in bad spirits, and no one believed what he said.

Unexpectedly, it was really an old fairy.

For I am dead and alive again.

Died three years ago, in a cold and lonely cold palace.

As soon as I swallowed my anger, I woke up and became a little girl whose parents died and was sold into the Chu Pavilion of Qinlou by an unscrupulous uncle.

What surprised me was not just the resurrection of the corpse that should have come true, but the face.

When I saw my face in the mirror, I was so frightened that I thought she had come to me for revenge.

Now, at the age of sixteen, I am almost exactly like her, and I smile very similarly.

"Ouch, my good girl, why haven't you dressed up yet, the lobby is about to be crowded, if you don't go to those masters, I'm afraid that there will be a fight."

My mother pushed open the door and shouted at the top of her voice, for fear that I would be deaf and unable to hear.

I'm even more afraid that my procrastination today will affect the price.

Yes, I'm going to be auctioned today.

There is nothing in the Qinlou Chu Pavilion at all, they are all going to be red-headed, but the talented and good-looking ones can afford to sell at a price, and they can also take the road of being a young man in the future.

In fact, when I was sold in, I was going to be popular, but I made a deal with my mother and let her see the benefits, so she allowed me to get to this day.

And today, it's time to cash in on the deal.

I glanced at the water show that walked in silently, and when I saw that she nodded, I got up and followed my mother downstairs.

The lobby was already full of stinky men holding silver and stretching their necks to make me popular as a newcomer.

At a glance, I saw a bright presence in the crowd.

And he noticed me, and the surprise in his eyes didn't have time to cover it.

Yes, this face, for me, for him, is too dazzling.

"My master wants to redeem this girl and make a price." Before we could descend the second floor of the stairs, someone around him blocked our way.

My mother was stunned, obviously she didn't think that someone would be willing to redeem me so soon, and she didn't know what price to make so that she wouldn't lose money.

"One thousand taels."

I made an offer for my mother.

My mother gave me a fierce look, and she thought I was driving too high, and I didn't know how thick the sky was.

Even the Oiran of Tianxianglou in the capital is only a thousand taels, and I am just a chick who has some reputation for relying on piano skills, and two hundred taels is already a high price.

"Bring me the deed."

Before the mother could open her mouth and turn around, the man had already stuffed the silver ticket into her mother's hand.

My mother looked at the silver ticket, stayed for a while, and even reflexively went back to the room to get the deed and handed it over, and explained to me: "Yueniang, you are really blessed, you will serve your master well in the future." ”

filled my mother's belly, and I didn't bother to say much to her, so I followed the man out silently with Shui Xiu.

2.

I didn't see him again for a month.

That day the carriage took me to a mansion where I was housed.

The mansion is not big, and there are few people, except for me and Shui Xiu, there are only four or five servants, all of whom are mute.

"Girl, what do you mean by the person who bought us? Just keep us here? Looking at this simple but not simple house, Shui Xiu couldn't bear it anymore.

"Isn't it good? It's much better than our previous days, and you don't have to think about it. "I embroidered the veil, and was content with all the words, but I knew in my heart that it was about to come.

After another three days, he finally came.

When it's ugly.

The sleeping water show has been moved.

"Slave and maid to meet the master." I got up and saluted into the darkness, bowing my head and not looking at anything.

"How do you know I'm your master?"

"The slave and maid slept lightly, and when they heard the voice of the shadow steward calling the master, they guessed that the master was coming."

He didn't speak, it was silent and dark, like a beast engulfing everything.

Half loud, footsteps approaching.

"You're pretty smart."

His voice couldn't hear joy or sorrow, but it hit his heart, making people unconsciously daunted, and he didn't dare to tell half a lie.

"Slaves and maids live in that kind of place, and since they were young, they have to learn to read words and colors, and listen to all directions." My voice trembled slightly, revealing inferiority and helplessness.

He was silent again, but I knew that he was happy with me.

This night, I turned red.

I used to look down on the people who were the most disdainful and regarded as lowly and popular.

But now I have no sorrow or joy, I am no longer the phoenix that is proud of the clouds, but a maggot crawling out of the dirtiest mud, even more lowly than him.

What's more, a body, a skin, what do you care?

After that, he would come once or twice a month, each time late at night, and he would get to the point with just a few sentences, and he would leave before dawn.

Every morning the mute servant would bring the soup of the child, but today, there is none.

It's time.

When he came again, the third time of the month.

When he was done, he put his arm around my waist and said in a low and hoarse voice: "Do you want to stay with me?" ”

"The slave and the maid dare not be delusional, the master wants to keep the slave and the maid, the slave and the maid serve the master, the master does not want to stay, the slave and the maid go away, what the master says, what the slave and the maid do." I was well-behaved, as well-behaved as ever, like a faithful and intelligent cat, leaning on his chest and commanding him.

His rough palms caressed my head, and the sound of breathing was especially clear in the darkness.

"Let's enter the palace."

3.

Hongsheng eight years, draft.

The daughters of officials above the seventh rank can run for election.

I went from Yueniang in Feiyan Building to Xie Yan, the daughter of Xie Yan from Wupin Zhizhou, Xie Li'er.

I just stood outside the hall, and I didn't need the internal official to report my name to the salute alone, and I had already heard the soft cry of surprise and joy in the hall: "Lian'er." ”

"Your Majesty, the mirage is all an illusion, don't disturb your mind." The Queen Mother's voice is a little older, but her majesty is still the same.

She wanted to stop the emperor, but unfortunately, the current emperor was no longer under her control.

"You, what's your name?"

I bowed and said softly: "The courtier's surname is Xie Minglian'er, her mother died early, and her father is better to pity the person in front of her." ”

At that moment, I was left with a brand, and half a month later, when the name came down, I only sealed a beauty.

He hugged me and caressed my face like a jewel, showing a little reluctance. "The high walls of the deep palace, are you afraid?"

"With the protection of the master, the slave and the maid are not afraid of anything, and it is the blessing of the slave and the maid to be able to do things for the master." I looked at him with sincerity as if I were looking at a God of faith.

"Good cat."

4.

After entering the palace, I was arranged to live in the Lotus Heart Hall, in the Ruian Palace.

It's not close to the emperor's heart palace, but it's not far, there is no main palace lady in the palace, and I am the only one in the whole palace.

This is the result of the confrontation between the Queen Mother and the Emperor.

The queen mother can't control the emperor to admit me into the palace, but Queen Wu is her person, and I am not born high, no matter what the emperor says, he can't give me a high position, a beauty, it's already good.

But doing so is undoubtedly to pick up the scar in the emperor's heart again, he was powerless in the past, how can he eat this coptis now.

I served the pet that night.

There are red candles lit in the palace of nourishing hearts, and the word "happiness" is pasted, just like a newlywed.

The emperor hugged me and whispered in his ear over and over again: "Lian'er, Lian'er, my Lian'er." ”

"Your Majesty, Lian'er is here." I endured the nausea, called delicately, and looked at him with watery eyes and shyness.

I know him and what he wants.

After this night, I served the pet night and night, and the favor was like this, which was rare in the palace, and the concubines who entered the palace at the same time were already dissatisfied, but they didn't dare to come openly when they saw that I was favored.

They were waiting, waiting for a leader.

Concubine Shu was the first to sit still.

Early in the morning, I was ordered to bring me to the palace of Empress Wu, kneeling, pointing at my nose in front of all the concubines and scolding:

"Queen Mother, the people of this small family just don't want to learn, don't learn the good things next to them, just learn the bewitching master, occupy the emperor every day, damage the emperor's wisdom, and also make the other sisters in the palace sad, we are just old people, but the ten sisters who entered the palace this year have never even seen the emperor's face."

Concubine Shu's voice has always been loud, and she can't wait for the entire palace to hear it.

The words are all reasonable, they are all for the king, and for the stability of the harem.

It's just that I blamed me for taking away the favor that belonged to her.

Although the emperor has not said who has favored him alone in recent years, in the few days of serving, Concubine Shu is the most and the most beautiful in the harem.

The emperor has no prince, as long as she works hard, she can give birth to the emperor's eldest son, the concubine, the position of the imperial concubine is almost at her fingertips, and she even has a great chance to be the queen mother.

It's just that there is a me at this time, and it's been more than a month, and the emperor hasn't been to her palace for a day.

I cut off her chance to give birth to a prince, how can she not hate it.

"Concubine Shu's words are so ugly, Xie Meiren is inevitably panicked when she first enters the palace, where do you dare to persuade the emperor, the emperor is virtuous, and the rain and dew will be even, and your new sisters don't need to worry, there will always be a day to see the emperor."

Empress Wu's soft voice is like a breeze gently supporting her heart, which makes people feel comfortable to listen to, and it is easy to have a good impression.

She has always played such a role, when I had a falling out with her, she was the emperor's side of the interpretation flower, and finally sat on the phoenix chair.

"The concubine persuaded the emperor, but the emperor didn't listen, and the concubine couldn't do anything." I looked at the newly dyed nails, and said casually, and in my gentle tone bloomed this limited arrogance, which I never dared to have in this palace.

All the concubines were stunned, and the concubine was even more furious, and when she got up, she slapped me in the face fiercely, and the sharp armor cut blood marks on my face.

"Slut! Who you are when you are! ”

"Lady!" An angry shout sounded from the door of the hall, and before anyone could turn their heads to look, a touch of bright yellow had already rushed into the hall, helping me and asking nervously: "Lian'er, are you hurt?" ”

I covered my cheeks, my eyes were full of tears, my grievances were overflowing, my hands trembled and I moved away, crying and asking: "Your Majesty, concubines... Is the concubine disfigured? ”

Seeing the scratches on my face, the emperor's face instantly darkened, and with a glance, Concubine Shu was frightened and took two steps back, and forcibly explained: "Your Majesty, it was Xie Meiren who was disrespectful to the queen, and the concubine taught her a lesson, how can the queen be ......the mother of the country?"

"Concubine Shu acted recklessly, seriously injured the concubine, and was reduced to a promise and moved to the Frost Palace."

Concubine Shu's words were not finished, and the emperor's order fell without disobedience.

The severity of the punishment made Empress Wu's eyes look shocked.

was just a slap, and he was not even allowed to quibble, and the concubine who had been favored for many years went directly into the cold palace.

"Your Majesty!" Concubine Shu looked at the emperor in disbelief and shouted softly, she didn't expect such a serious result, she has been in the palace for five years, five years.

Looking at Concubine Shu, I felt like I saw myself back then.

is also like this, until the Guogong Mansion is full of beheadings and a glass of poisonous wine is sent to the cold palace, it is completely cool.

Your Majesty, Gu Dingyun is a merciless person.

Don't talk about Concubine Shu, even for her.

Concubine Shu, no, Yan promised to be taken down quickly, and there was a dead silence in Fengming Palace, and the concubines even held their breath, for fear of making a little noise and causing trouble.

Empress Wu stood up to play a round and said with a gentle and decent smile: "Your Majesty, Xie Meiren is injured, although it is not serious, but in the end, it is on the face, let her go back to the palace and let the imperial doctor take a good look." ”

The emperor didn't seem to hear it, so he put Queen Wu aside, helped me up, and was about to say something, when my feet suddenly became soft and I fainted directly in his arms.

"Imperial Doctor, come quickly!"

The emperor roared in horror and anxiety, he must be very scared at the moment, afraid that the person who had come so hard will be gone.

I swallowed the sickness pill and only felt like I was being picked up, and then I lost consciousness.

When I woke up again, I saw the emperor holding my hand happily and excitedly, the queen stood behind her with a black face on her face, and the other concubines also had their own colors on their faces.

"Your Majesty, what's wrong with the concubine?" I grabbed the emperor's hand in a daze and fear, and my voice trembled, and it was pitifully tight.

"You're confused, you don't even know you're pregnant, and you scared me a lot just now." There was not the slightest reproach in his tone, his face was full of joy, and his mouth was about to crack behind the root of his ear.

It's been six years, and he finally has a child again, and he still looks almost exactly like me, how can he not be happy.

I naturally knew that I was pregnant, and I found out half a month ago.

It's been two months, it's his, not the emperor.

However, according to the doctor, I was just a month pregnant.

The imperial doctor was arranged, so was the sickness medicine, and it was not surprising that Concubine Shu found fault.

First, Concubine Shu was originally a cannon temper, and secondly, Empress Wu would definitely push someone out to try my weight in the emperor's heart.

Therefore, I deliberately chose to reveal the news of my pregnancy today.

"Pregnant? Does the concubine have a child with the emperor? I got up from the bed excitedly and hugged the emperor, laughing so hard that tears flowed.

The emperor paused for a moment, Xu recalled the picture many years ago, ignored everyone's hugging me, and said solemnly: "Yes, you and I finally have a child, I will definitely protect this child and give everything in the world to this child." ”

5.

The emperor ordered Empress Wu to take care of my baby personally, and if there was any problem, she was the only one who asked.

Since then, no one in the palace dares to be disrespectful to me in the slightest, no matter how jealous, dissatisfied, and disgusted I have to bury it in my heart.

It is not good for a little beauty to walk sideways in the harem, so the emperor raised my position.

I became a concubine, titled Lotus, and lived alone in a palace.

I'm pregnant and can't serve my favor, but the emperor is still in my palace as long as he has time to come to the harem, as if there is no one else in this harem except me.

Oh, no, I have to go to the queen on the fifteenth day of the new year.

Today is the fifteenth, and I rarely take a vacation.

I sat under the porch, caressing my slightly bulging abdomen, looking at the spring scenery of the palace, but I didn't feel the slightest vitality.

"Mother." Shui Xiu hurriedly walked in from outside the palace gate, stood beside me and said in a low voice: "The emperor and the queen have quarreled. ”

My hand paused, feeling the slight movement coming from inside, and my heart was filled with a thousand feelings.

But there was not the slightest waver.

"It's time to prepare those things."

6.

June.

The weather was hot, and the queen mother of the Buddha returned to the palace.

Since entering the palace, I have seen the Queen Mother for the first time.

In just three years, the Queen Mother has aged a lot, her temples are gray, and she has a bit of the taste of an old-fashioned dragon clock when she sits on the phoenix chair.

"This is a good look, it looks like a prince, the mourning family has begged the Buddha for so long, and the Buddha finally saw the sincerity of the mourning family." The Queen Mother said with tears in her eyes, looking at my stomach is how happy she is.

"I also think it's the prince, I decided that the child will be crowned the prince when he lands, what does the queen mother think?" The emperor said with a smile, as if he was really asking for the queen mother's opinion.

The two looked at the mother and son, and there were open guns and hidden arrows behind their backs.

Obviously, now it is the emperor who has the upper hand.

The Queen Mother's arrow can't pierce the emperor, so it can only pierce me.

"If it's really the prince, it's like this, the emperor is not young, you should have made a prince a long time ago, by the way, you've been pregnant for a few months, and it's the Buddha's birthday in two months, can you catch up?"

"Back to the Queen Mother, it's been six months, and I'm afraid I won't be able to catch up with the Buddha's birthday."

"It's only been six months? Look at this is not like it, the mourning family thought it had been seven or eight months, the emperor, you can ask the imperial doctor to take a closer look, don't mess with the month. ”

"Queen Mother, you are confused again, Concubine Lian has only been in the palace for less than seven months, where can you be pregnant for seven or eight months." The grandmother next to her smiled and reminded her.

"Really? The mourning family is old and doesn't remember anymore. ”

The master and servant are laughing and laughing at each other, it doesn't seem to be a big deal, but everything in and out of the words is pointing out that my stomach is wrong.

The emperor is suspicious, the queen mother knows it, and I know it.

7.

In August, Mid-Autumn Festival Night Banquet.

The royal banquet invited the ministers, and I, as the emperor's current favorite concubine and the future prince's mother, naturally attended it.

I sat under the queen's cloud platform, before the concubine position, which should have been the seat of the concubine.

But now no one in my seat dares to say anything.

Because it was arranged by the emperor, he deliberately let the officials see clearly, I am pregnant, and he Gu Dingyun has an heir, so he doesn't have to worry about those restless courtiers.

It should be said that it was deliberately made for Gu Yan, the king of Yu who was sitting opposite me, to see clearly.

Gu Yan was born by the slave maid of the first emperor who was drunk and fortunate to have a night court, and he was the most despicable existence in this palace, but he was a ruthless existence, to himself and to others.

At the age of five, he killed the little eunuch who taunted him, stabbed him more than 30 times, and even cut off his tongue and cut it into pieces to feed the dogs.

His viciousness shocked the court and disgusted people.

At the age of eight, I don't know what method he used to let the favored Concubine De adopt him, and in less than a month, his biological mother died in the night court, and it was rumored that he killed him, just to erase his past identity.

He was brave and good at fighting, he joined the barracks at the age of thirteen, and expelled the wolf at the age of seventeen, but the means were really dirty and bloody, none of the wolf Rong's corpses were intact, and the captured prisoners were not treated preferentially, but tortured and killed.

Some are pureed raw, some are peeled layer by layer, and some are steamed alive...... Anyway, what cruelty, what can make people survive and not die.

Later, Wolf Rong thought of a way to kill himself if he couldn't win, but Gu Yan knew the psychology of survival very well, and every time people had hope of being caught alive, in the end, they were desperate and tormented.

This completely shattered the psychology of the wolf, and his reputation spread far and wide, so that the rest of the people were very afraid of him.

The first emperor felt that Gu Yan could no longer be let go, which was not conducive to the new monarch's accession to the throne in the future, so he tied him up in the capital, and one bundle was ten years.

But how can a person with such wolf ambitions as him rest assured, and he has done many unknown things behind his back over the years, just waiting for an opportunity.

Originally, the emperor was not kind, the two brothers were jackals, tigers and leopards, half a catty and eight taels, but the emperor has not been able to come out of the situation over the years.

I, to be exact, the child in my womb, became an important turning point in the situation.

It's just that what the emperor doesn't know is that Gu Yan is the real father of the child in my womb.

But now, it must be confirmed that this is the emperor's child.

"Poof~!"

Without warning, a mouthful of blood spurted out, staining the moon-white porcelain cup in my hand red.

"!" Shui Xiu exclaimed, stopped all the music and dance, and all eyes converged.

Seeing my mouth full of blood, the emperor directly got up and jumped down from the gimble, hugged the crumbling me in his arms, and roared at Shui Xiu and asked, "What's going on?" How can you vomit blood? ”

Shui Xiu knelt down in panic, kowtowed and cried again and again: "The slave doesn't know, the slave doesn't know, the mother was fine just now, and after taking a sip of wine, she suddenly vomited blood." ”

"Don't worry, the emperor is in a hurry, Weichen will take a look first." The Tai Hospital was catching up, holding my pulse, his face changed suddenly, he looked at the emperor, and stopped talking.

The emperor had already realized something, and after glancing at Empress Wu, who had just come up, she ordered the courtyard in a cold voice: "Tell the truth, what happened to Concubine Lian?" ”

"Back to the emperor, Concubine Lian is ...... Poisoned. ”

As soon as she heard about the poisoning, Empress Wu was more anxious than the emperor, and rushed forward to ask urgently: "What poison?" Is there a solution? ”

"Weichen still has to check to know what kind of poison it is, it is best to find the poison residue, but this poison is very domineering, and Concubine Lian is pregnant and can't wait, otherwise the poison will inevitably be damaged by the imperial heir, but if you want to keep the imperial heir, you must ...... Must ......"

"What has to be? You say! "Empress Wu can't wait to open the mouth of the courtyard, my baby is protected by her, and it is extremely important to the emperor's political situation, seeing that it is about to land, something happens, and she bears a great responsibility.

"Disembowelment and childing, but Concubine Lian is afraid that she won't be able to endure it."

Empress Wu's eyes flashed with a hint of joy, for her, the best thing is to be able to leave her mother and child, she is the queen of the main palace, and this child should be raised by her.

But the words can't be said by her, she can only look at the emperor.

The emperor is undoubtedly embarrassed, he needs a prince, but he can't give up my face, the point is, who can guarantee that what is in this belly must be the prince, if it is a princess, take my life, he must not be willing.

But I can't afford to lose time, so I make a decision for him.

"Your Majesty, please keep the child, the child can live, and the concubine will be satisfied, the concubine can serve the emperor for several months is already a blessing, if God wants to accept the concubine, it is also fate, but the child can't leave without being born."

My reasonableness gave the emperor a step, and he instructed the courtyard: "Section!" But you must keep your mother and son safe, and if you damage anyone, I will have to be buried with you in the hospital! ”

When it comes to my own life, the hospital doesn't dare not be unreasonable, not to mention, it has already been arranged, and my child and I will be fine.

It's just that I have to suffer.

It really hurts to cut the skin and open the abdomen, and the bowls of hemp boiling down will not have any effect.

I finally fainted in pain.

I seemed to have entered a chaos, white, unable to see anything and boundless, no matter how I walked, I couldn't seem to walk to the end.

"Brother Yun, a little to the right, a little to the right, yes, is it enough?"

I heard a young and sweet voice, and suddenly a big tree appeared in front of me, and a bird's nest kite hung on the branch.

On the branch sat a young man in a moon-white brocade robe, holding a branch in his hand, and leaning forward vigorously.

Under the tree, there was a bun of double pills, wearing a group of pink cotton, and the pink little girl looked up.

Suddenly, the kite was pushed down, and the little girl reached out to catch it, smiling like a crescent moon, and she was cute.

"Next time, be careful, and I won't pick it up for you if I hang it on the tree again." The boy got off the tree at some point and scratched the little girl's nose, spoiling him.

"If you don't pick it up for me, I'll ask Brother Yan to help."

"No! In the future, you can only ask me to pick it up! ”

"Good!" The little girl responded crisply, with a triumphant smile in her big round eyes.

The white mist suddenly moved, and the picture changed accordingly.

"What kind of thing are you, a slave born to a female slave, even if you are recorded in the name of Concubine De, you still want to marry me, dream." The little girl grew into a girl, standing in the wind pavilion in the imperial garden, looking at the gloomy young man in a black robe outside with a disgusted and disgusting face.

"If you don't marry me, who do you want to marry? Brother Three Emperors? He won't marry you, he is now obsessed with a concubine of a five-grade official family, and he is clamoring to marry him. ”

"Impossible, the concubine said that Brother Yun can only marry me, that concubine just confused Brother Yun for a while, I and Brother Yun are childhood sweethearts, she is nothing."

"Ridiculous, you wait, sooner or later you will regret not wanting to marry me today."

The wind blew again, the gongs and drums were noisy, and the welcoming procession entered the palace, and at the same time, another small sedan chair entered the door silently from the rear side door.

The sedan curtain was lifted, revealing a gorgeous face.

It's my face, no, it should be Su Lian's face.

"Yue'er, now that you are a concubine, you should be generous, Lian'er and you are both important people in the heart of this king, you must treat her well in the future."

The white mist caressed, and the young man in a bright yellow dragon robe came from the door angrily, grabbed the girl's neck, and roared like a beast: "Shen Qingyue! When did you become so vicious! I have already named you the queen and given you the most honorable status in the world, why do you still refuse to let go of Lian'er's child, that child has been formed! ”

"I... I didn't...... It's that slut who directs and acts! It's the slut......"

"Your Majesty! She's the queen! Are you going to kill an unblessed child for the sake of her? The Queen Mother's scolding sounded, but no one was in sight.

The girl was thrown to the ground, her abdomen aching sharply, and red blood snaked out.

With a sharp turn, Su Lian described lying on the bed withered, looking at the girl, and said weakly: "Do you know why I only saw you?" Because you are the only real person in the palace, I don't hate you anymore, I know, it's not you, it's him, everything is him, I'm tired, I'm leaving, I'll tell you the truth before leaving, he, he doesn't love me, he doesn't love you, you don't waste your efforts in vain. ”

"You're going to disgust me to death! He doesn't love you, it's right, I'm a childhood sweetheart with him, no matter what, there's still a relationship, as long as there is no you, we will be the same as before. ”

"Do you believe this yourself?" Su Lian sneered through it, turned her eyes, looked out the window and sighed: "You and I are too simple, not suitable for this deep palace, but I thought that I could be special, and I got into it for a man, it's sad." ”

"It's useless to say more, let's go, leave early and get rid early."

Su Lian closed her eyes, closed her eyes forever, and in the end, she didn't want to look at Gu Dingyun again.

Quickly, the brightness became dim, and in the dilapidated cold palace, the girl was no longer young, sitting in front of the desk in plain clothes, Gu Yan put the poisonous wine on the case and said coldly: "I said a long time ago, you will regret not marrying me." ”

"Phew." A mouthful of saliva was mercilessly spit on Gu Yan's face. "Cheap things, this palace regrets it, but I never regret not marrying you, your Gu family doesn't have a good thing, from beginning to end, they are all selfish and rotten people who don't compromise their means."

A glass of wine enters the throat, stinging every inch of the body.

"Wow wow wow wow~"

The cry exploded in my ears, and I opened my eyes in a daze.

Shui Xiu cried and swollen her eyes, and lay down in front of the bed and said excitedly: "Niangniang, Niangniang, you finally woke up, the doctor said that if you can't wake up tonight, it will be dangerous." ”

I looked at the unfamiliar and familiar face, and it took me half a sound to break out of the dream.

Yes, I am not the Shen Queen Shen Qingyue of the year, but the lotus concubine Xie Li'er.

"What about the kids? Alive? At this moment, there was no more crying, and when I looked around, I didn't see anyone.

"Alive, it's a prince, white and fat, and the nurse took it to the side hall to breastfeed."

I was a little disappointed, but I didn't expect it to be as Gu Yan's wish.

I had hoped to be a girl, but Gu Yan had already prepared a replacement baby boy, so that my child could escape from this whirlpool of intrigue.

That's how it should be.

"What about the Queen?"

"It's been grounded, the Tai Hospital and Dali Temple found out that it was the grandmother next to the queen who secretly put a small dose of poison in your meal, slowly accumulated, and instinctively quietly strangled the prince, but you secretly ate the peaches that you don't like to eat today, which stimulated the medicinal properties and vomited blood."

This matter has been planned since half a year ago, and there will never be a trace of mistakes.

It is impossible to bring down Empress Wu, as long as the Queen Mother is still there.

However, with the first step, the second step is naturally easy to go.

8.

My body recovered very slowly, and the Queen Mother chose another show for the emperor, saying that it was to strike with hot iron and spread more branches and leaves.

The emperor is also quite cooperative, the rain and dew are all wet, and they are all pampered once, even with those who are in the same period as me, Xu also wants to have a few more princes.

It's a pity, after all, it's delusional.

But I am a unique existence, most of the time in January the emperor is in my palace, holding the child and reluctant to let go.

I sat on the soft floor embroidering the flowers on this little coat, he held the child and teased, it looked really quiet.

"The Queen Mother has arrived."

A high singing broke the false beauty.

I got up to ask for a blessing, but the Queen Mother hurriedly stopped: "You don't have to salute, your body is still weak." ”

The Queen Mother smiled and stretched out her hand to hold the child from the emperor's arms, looking at the pink little face, she also gave birth to a little pity.

"This child looks exactly the same as the emperor when he was a child, especially this frowning appearance, like a little old man."

The Queen Mother's words are not a lie used to repair the relationship between mother and son, the child is indeed very similar to the emperor, to be exact, very similar to his father Gu Yan when he was a child.

Although Gu Yan was born of a slave girl, she almost picked up the face of the first emperor, and the emperor was also like the first emperor, and the two brothers were even more like those who were born with one mother when they were young, but Gu Yan was gloomy since he was a child, and others didn't want to see more, and when he grew up, Gu Yan was even more different from the emperor on the battlefield.

So it was the child's life, and he dispelled his suspicions with his appearance, and the Queen Mother couldn't say anything.

9.

Hongsheng nine years, spring.

In just one year, I was promoted from a beauty to a concubine, Concubine Lianxian.

The son was named the crown prince, the prince of iFAST.

The day of the crown prince was set at the 100-day banquet, and the whole palace was in a bustle, and all the civil and military officials came to worship with their families.

Truckloads of gifts were pulled into my storeroom, but the voices of disdain behind my backs were also endless.

"King Yu sent a red jade coral tree, a pair of Hetian jade Ruyi, a pair of longevity gold locks, ten pure gold Buddhas, and a basket of jade ruby lychee carvings......"

The eunuch sang Gu Yanchang's long gift list, each of which was precious, so that the monarch and the minister couldn't help muttering his intentions in their hearts.

There is also an undercurrent between the words of the emperor and the Gu Yan brothers, but the emperor always has the upper hand, because he has the crown prince and a successor, as long as he lives, Gu Yan will not have any chance.

In the years that followed, the emperor and Gu Yan were still fighting hotly, and even murdered me and Feng'er a few times in a decent manner, and asked the emperor to "defuse", but he couldn't find evidence of Gu Yan's action, and the emperor always held his breath in his heart.

I played the role of Empress Wu's interpretive flower in the past, and the emperor was even more fond of me and Feng'er, so he would never connect us with Gu Yan.

But the change came.

After Da Feng'er was born, the emperor was also concerned in the harem for six years, but except for me, none of the concubines next to me had any stomach movement.

Some people have long raised suspicions, but they haven't made too many waves.

But the long-term rumors and the fact that there is no heir born next to him, the emperor is already suspicious, and the seeds have long been planted in his heart, but Feng'er is similar to him, and I have such a face, and he will not act without substantial evidence.

Of course, he didn't do nothing, he didn't stop the Queen Mother from reaching out.

So today, Dali Siqing stood up and revealed that Feng'er was not the heir of the dragon, and I was not the daughter of the Xie family but a person from the Qinlou Chu Pavilion, and arrested the mother of the year into the palace.

When I arrived at Cining Palace, my mother was kneeling on the ground and swinging, and Dali Siqing immediately said: "Raise your eyes and look, but she? ”

My mother hurriedly looked up at me, was stunned for a moment, and then nodded: "It's Yueniang, although there are some changes, but she is raised by me since I was a child, and I won't admit my mistake." ”

"Concubine Xian! How daring! Dare to deceive the king, with the intention of confusing the emperor's heir! The Queen Mother slapped on the case, the sound was deafening, and she was really angry.

Don't be angry.

She never thought I would be so bold.

A widow became a virtuous concubine, favored for seven years, and gave birth to a child who didn't know whose one became the crown prince, what a great humiliation for the royal family.

After all, she was in the same boat when she was at odds with the emperor, and it was only who was at the helm, and once the hull was threatened, the muzzle of the gun would naturally be outward.

I knelt down in aggrieved and frightened and shook my head again and again.

"The concubine is wronged, the concubine doesn't know this person at all, she has never heard of any Yueniang, and she doesn't understand what the queen mother said."

"You're still going to pretend to be now, aren't you? You were sold by your uncle to clear the building since you were a child, you were ransomed at the age of sixteen, and at the age of seventeen, you became Xie Li'er into the palace draft, and you got pregnant in one month, saying that you were born prematurely, but the original imperial doctor said that the child was like a full-term month, so, what else do you have to say! ”

Before I could speak, I raised my head and tears fell first, looking at the emperor incredulously. "This is completely made up, and the concubine was seriously injured is the unbearable person, slandering the identity of the prince, this is shaking the country, just based on the words of this woman who came from nowhere, the queen mother believes it? The emperor also believed it? ”

Such a scene impacted the emperor's memories, and he was a little hesitant.

The Queen Mother understood that my face was a demon to the emperor, and immediately glanced at Dali Temple.

"Concubine Xian, this matter has been clarified, not only one-sided, these are all the records since you were born, a detailed record of when you were sold, when you were ransomed, there are many people who have seen you on the red day, these are all testimonies, as well as the records of the Tai Hospital, as for your Xie Li'er's identity is only born, and there is no record after that, so the evidence is conclusive."

"Records can be forged, witnesses can perjury, the records of the Tai Hospital just write that the prince was born on the large side, and there is no clear full-term, and I was born in an official eunuch's family, and I have been raised in the deep boudoir since I was a child. It's about the reputation of the prince, the royal family is fundamental, Dali Siqing is so sloppy, what is his intention? ”

"Concubine Xian Niangniang is really clear-headed, but how dare the minister not do his best in this matter, he should check the prince's bloodline, scrape the bones and recognize his relatives, which is the most accurate."

Scraping bones to recognize relatives is to drop blood on the bones of relatives, if it can be absorbed, it is related, if not, then there is nothing.

It is generally dripped on the ossified corpse, but how can the emperor's bones be used to open the coffin for examination, then only the bones of the living can be opened.

The emperor's ninety-five honor can't be opened, so there is only ......

"The son is willing to open his bones to prove his innocence." The prince's voice came from outside, and the bright yellow figure knelt beside me, with his back straight, his arms raised, and he was decisive.

The emperor looked at the prince who was almost exactly the same as himself, and he couldn't bear it.

"I don't need you to come, I'm ready."

When the words landed, Gu Yan, who was wearing a black python robe outside, walked in, holding a brocade box in his hand.

His expression contained hidden anger, and he walked up to the prince and opened the brocade box, which was a finger bone.

It was the ring finger of Gu Yan's right hand, which was "accidentally" cut off by the emperor when he was a child.

"The fourteenth brother and I are blood relatives, and there are just young white bones available, if your blood can be integrated, I will not let your mother and son be aggrieved, if not...... I will not tolerate it. ”

The little man did not hesitate for a moment, got up and grabbed the dagger handed by the eunuch, cut his finger and dripped blood onto the phalange.

Under the gaze of several pairs of eyes, the white bones seemed to have dried up for many years, frantically absorbing the falling blood droplets, and the result was self-evident.

Dali Siqing's expression changed from shock to disbelief, and before she could react, her mother had already begun to kowtow and cry.

"The emperor spares his life, the queen mother spares his life, the villain is confused for a while, the adult said that as long as the villain says a few words, he will give the villain a thousand taels of silver, the villain didn't know before he came, it was difficult to ride a tiger in the palace, the adult said that the virtuous concubine Niangniang could not prove her innocence, and the prince would inevitably be seriously injured if he scraped his bones, and no one would pursue the villain at that time, and he would send the villain out of the palace safely, and the villain was like this."

"You ......" Dali Siqing didn't expect her mother to suddenly say such a series of fluent words that seemed to be the truth, and wanted to defend herself, but before she could speak, Gu Yan interrupted in a weird way: "This trick is good, if you don't scrape the bones to prove yourself, the identity of the prince is doubtful, and you can't inherit the unification, if you scrape the bones, the prince is young, and he will definitely not be able to stand it, and he will die in one day, and the prince can be eliminated horizontally and vertically." ”

"Brother Huang, if it weren't for the severed finger that the younger brother had kept for many years, it would be a dead end today." Gu Yan turned to look at the emperor, gloomy and compassionate, with ridicule.

The corners of the emperor's mouth stiffened, originally to suppress Gu Yan and make him clear that he was serving the emperor and the royal family, even if it was a prince whose identity was undecided, he could call him.

I didn't think that now he would help him.

glanced at the Queen Mother, the Queen Mother's heart was dark, she knew that the emperor also had a seed in her heart, and now, it has sprouted.

10.

It was a matter of the identity of the prince, so it naturally had to be dealt with secretly, so it was handled quickly.

My mother was executed that night, and she went without regrets, because she was terminally ill and changed a splendid life for her only daughter, and she died as she deserved.

Mom is a move that I recommended to Gu Yan a long time ago, because I understand the emperor's suspicion and the queen mother's caution.

I'm standing on the cusp of the storm, and there are many people who want to push me down, but if my identity is perfect and I can't find a cat for a long time, people with a heart will weave it themselves.

These people are people who can make up stories with their mouths open, they have the right in their hands, they spend a few years arranging them, and they don't need to be perfect to escape from my control, I may not be able to take it all, even if I can, the emperor may be suspicious.

So, I wasn't going to be a perfect identity in the first place.

What I want is to have a breakthrough, so that the Queen Mother will not take risks and make it up on her own, and it will also seem that I am a real person.

Will the emperor be suspicious?

Yes.

But it doesn't matter if I'm from Qinglou or not, as long as it's not on the surface.

The emperor and the queen mother have a deep suspicion, and the heirs are even more involved in the emperor's rebellion, and they will only think that the queen mother is not dead, and try to use my identity as a Qinglou to get rid of the prince.

Therefore, three days later, Dali Siqing died violently, and a group of the queen mother's henchmen were also beheaded for other reasons, dismissed, and exiled.

The Queen Mother's faction collapsed, and the Queen Mother also collapsed.

Although the emperor and the queen mother have completely fallen out, the superficial filial piety still has to be done.

Of course, it is not the emperor who does it himself, but by me, the concubine of the same queen.

Actually, I don't have to go in person, just let the concubines below go.

But the concubines below couldn't avoid it, for fear of making the emperor unhappy if they went, and even the grace that was so pitiful that it couldn't be pitiful anymore was gone.

I, who have always been kind, how can I bully these little concubines, so I can only helplessly take on the heavy responsibility.

The Queen Mother was very sick and seriously ill.

The medicine stone is inactive, in just half a month, the whole person's hair is gray, and he is described as lying on the bed withered and unable to move.

"Queen Mother, it's time to take medicine." I took the medicine, sat on the edge of the bed, and asked my mother to help the queen mother up and lean on the soft pillow.

With such an action, the Queen Mother was so tired that she was panting.

After a long period of relief, the Queen Mother said with difficulty: "The mourning family is like this, what else is there to take medicine, tell the emperor, read the mourning family to raise him, and give the mourning family a good time." ”

"The Queen Mother doesn't say these nonsense, the emperor is very worried about your body, you have to take medicine on time and recover as soon as possible."

I persuaded without the slightest emotion, scooped a spoonful of medicine and fed it to the Queen Mother's mouth.

The Queen Mother turned her head, flipped the medicine in the spoon, and stared at me with anger. "It's a bureau you set up, and it's been set up a long time ago, right?"

The queen mother refers to me and the emperor, I shook my head honestly, raised my eyes and said to my grandmother: "Go and get a clean bedding to change into." ”

Mama came out in response, and only me and the queen mother were left in the grand dormitory.

I scooped up another spoonful of medicine and fed it over, and said lightly: "The Queen Mother should drink two sips, so that she can hold on for two more days until the death day of your two grandchildren who died on the same day." ”

The Queen Mother was stunned for a moment when she heard this, and in an instant, her cloudy eyes were shrouded in horror, and she reached out and grabbed my wrist and asked, "What are you talking about?" Let's talk about it. ”

"What the Queen Mother wants to ask is, where did I know about it?"

The Queen Mother didn't speak, just looked at me, waiting for what I would say.

I was not stingy, I approached her ear and said softly: "Mother, how can you not remember the child's death day?"

Queen Mother, you hurt me so badly, it was you who pushed the emperor in front of me, it was you who told me that the concubine was not what I wanted, it was you who said that you were my cousin, and you would treat me like a daughter and protect me.

Do you know that the emperor's push that day cut off my child's way of life, and do you know how much blood and tears I shed?

But I have to admit that you did a good job of killing two birds with one stone, getting rid of Su Lian, and also making the emperor hate the Shen family behind me even more, crossing the river and demolishing the bridge without dirty hands, and also breaking the emperor's wings, so that he had to lie dormant for a few more years. ”

The Queen Mother let go of my hand like an electric shock, looked at me in disbelief, and then kept shaking her head and said, "Impossible, impossible, she is dead, the Shen family is dead, who told you?" ”

"Only a few people can know about this matter, except for you and the emperor, everyone else is dead, do you think the emperor will tell me?"

My rhetorical question made the Queen Mother's head gradually stop.

It is impossible for her and the emperor to say a word about this matter, only the dead can know.

"The mourning family understands, you are here for revenge." The Queen Mother accepted my statement, looked at me, and slowly agreed with me in her eyes.

"You have a good face, you use it very well, the mourning family couldn't figure it out before, how can there be a person like you who can handle the emperor so well, just a face, it's impossible, it turned out to be you, then it makes sense."

"However, since you know that it was done by the mourning family in the first place, you also know what the emperor did in it, right?"

I can understand the expectations of the Queen Mother's eyes, different from the dying people around the bend. "Nature"

The Queen Mother smiled.

Laughing and shaking.

"The cycle of cause and effect, you can't run away, you can't run away, the emperor can't run away, you can't run away, you can't run away when you enter this deep palace, it's all the same, the mourning family will go down and wait for you first, you don't let the mourning family wait too long."

"They are all people who are going to go to the eighteen layers of hell, and you have time and wait." I put the spoon in a step. "Drink the medicine, Concubine."

This time, the Queen Mother did not refuse.

And on this day, the Queen Mother was also dumb.

Two days later, the Queen Mother died, and the whole country mourned.

11.

The Queen Mother had just finished mourning, and in the cold palace, Queen Wu committed suicide.

She has always been the most loyal chess piece in the hands of the Queen Mother, and she has no other way to go, so she understands that when the Queen Mother dies, she will have no way to live.

I chose a good one for myself.

When I went to the cold palace to collect the body, I saw the concubine sitting in front of the tattered dresser.

was already crazy, and said to himself to the frame without mirrors: "Your Majesty, do you think your concubine looks good today?" ”

"Your Majesty, you haven't come to see your concubines for a long time, and your concubines don't follow."

"Your Majesty, didn't you say that it is most suitable for concubines to wear moonlight, and the new skirts made by concubines are beautiful?"

"Your Majesty, the concubines are waiting for you every day, the night is so long, they look cold, but as long as they think of you, the concubines are not cold, it's okay to come and see the concubines more?"

Yes, the night of the harem is too long, it grows endlessly, it looks pitch black and terrifying, it looks like an ice cellar.

"Send her out of the palace." At least change to a hotter place, after all, the sky is going to change in this palace.

12.

Spring went and autumn came, and another year passed.

This year, the emperor swallowed all the power of the Queen Mother, and Gu Yan was also suppressed by him and completely became an idle prince.

He has finally become a real ruler, and he can also spare his thoughts to love the concubines of the harem even more.

To me, he still dotes on me.

But I know that after that incident, he had a dislike for me, so he wanted more children.

It's a pity that he never knew that he didn't have this life, and after a year of hard work and still no harvest, he seemed to accept his fate and concentrate on cultivating Feng'er to be a prince.

And I, too, have been entrusted with a heavy responsibility.

To seduce someone.

The first assistant of the cabinet, Liu Yan.

Liu Yan was born in a Qingliu family, and is upright, and now he has succeeded his grandfather and has become a loyal minister revered by the literati and writers of the Great Zhou Dynasty.

And such a breezy and bright moon person, where can he take a fancy to a demon concubine like me, not to mention that I still have such a face.

But who Gu Yan is, there are more dirty methods of the lower three indiscriminate.

He didn't want Liu Yan to be desperate, he just needed to grab the handle and let Liu Yan help.

It's just that it's not so easy to make Liu Yan succumb, his arrogance, even if he is hit by this violent drug, he does his best to shrink into a ball, bind himself with his belt, and stare at me with extreme disgust.

"Concubine Niangniang, the emperor loves you very much, I didn't expect you to collude with King Yu in private, how can you be worthy of the emperor!"

I saw that his hands were tied with bruise marks, and I reached out to untie him, but he immediately shrank back even more.

"Don't touch me! Disgusting! His tone was no longer so vicious, and his eyes gradually blurred, but he still said: "Don't bother in vain, even if you succeed, I will not be in the same boat with you, unless you let me die, otherwise out of this door, I will enter the palace and face the saint, and die together." ”

"Brother Yan, you said that you will help me no matter whether it is right or wrong, why, it doesn't count now?"

Liu Yan's eyes were shocked, and he stared at me.

I took a copper coin out of my sleeve pocket and stuffed it into his palm. "I've paid, you've got to listen to me."

"Brother Yan, it's me, curling."

"Whoa!" The shock in Liu Yan's eyes turned into excitement. "You...... How so? ”

"Xu is God sees me pitiful, can't bear me to die with hatred, gave me the opportunity to borrow the corpse to resurrect the soul, and gave me such a face, like."

"Like." Liu Yan nodded, looking at this face, his eyes overflowing with distress. "Wrapping, with such a face, facing him, you ......."

"It doesn't matter, I have only hatred for him for a long time, and it is all thanks to this face that I can get to this day smoothly."

Liu Yan also understood that without this face, the emperor would not be so indulgent and reluctant to me, and the slightest suspicion could kill me.

He cherished me, felt sorry for me, and brought back memories of the past, and the medicine was more effective.

Looking at me, there was already a confusion in his eyes, and he whispered softly: "Lingering, I miss you, day and night, I think about you." ”

I know what he's saying is true.

He is the only person in the world who loves me.

Once upon a time, I also thought that if I hadn't had a mind on Gu Dingyun, hadn't been bewitched by the Queen Mother, and married Liu Yan, maybe I would have lived very comfortably, just like the nickname he gave me when I was a child, curling like smoke and going with the wind.

Unfortunately, when I was a child, I didn't like these two flirtatious words, and he was not allowed to call me that.

Perhaps, from the beginning it was destined to be inseparable from him.

Now, it's even more impossible.

He loves me, and it doesn't matter who I am now or what I've done, he will always tolerate me.

But I can't.

I'm already a mess of mud, and I can't stain this breeze and moon anymore.

I fed him the hidden antidote and sickness medicine together, and when he fell asleep, he took off his clothes and snuggled up to him, waiting for Gu Yan to come and catch him.

13.

Hongsheng seventeen years.

The emperor is forty, and Feng'er is eight years old.

This year is a great harvest year, and even the war in the northwest that has been fought for seven years has ushered in a big victory, and the emperor is happy and feasts the ministers.

was in a good mood and drank a lot of wine, but when the emperor was happy and staggered and raised his glass to say something, suddenly the whole person fainted to the ground.

The doctor's diagnosis is that it is excessive.

This time, the charges are not on my head, but on the four new ones who entered the palace last year.

Originally, the emperor was not so concerned about the affairs of the harem after he gained nothing that year, but the four newcomers can be said to have their own merits and are fascinating.

Without the queen mother, without the queen to stop me, I am an excellent talker, and the emperor who is in power naturally can't help but indulge.

I gave a ban, and it was nothing big except for the emperor to lose some face.

The emperor seemed to have fallen into an evil spirit, and quietly called the four of them to the dormitory behind his back, and even drank deer blood wine and ate body strengthening pills, so he fainted again.

This time, I wasn't as lucky as last time.

The essence is depleted, and the medicine has exhausted all the good medicines, but there is no improvement.

Just like before the Queen Mother, she was lying on the bed and was served by others.

I am still the one who serves.

"Lian'er." The emperor took my hand, and his eyes were dishonest.

I pushed his hand away and said with a slight frown: "The emperor should take care of himself now, and he must not do such things to sharpen his spirit." ”

The emperor didn't know that he couldn't do those things anymore.

Originally, he was not a lustful person, but I don't know if he was old or on the side, since he hit the newcomer into the palace, he always couldn't control his thoughts.

Coupled with the variety of the four of them, and they were extremely bold, he seemed to feel that with them he had returned to his youthful time, and he sank.

It's not that he doesn't want to control it, but he can't control it.

It seems that there is something hooked, and I am thinking about those things all the time, and after getting it, I am extremely happy, and I will have a moment of peace.

And the longer I don't, the more the idea will turn upside down, like thousands of cat's claws scratching my heart, and it will be extremely tormenting.

At this moment, he couldn't bear it anymore, and begged: "Lian'er, save me, just accompany me, for a while, for a while." ”

"No, if you do something, the emperor will die in bed today, and the concubine doesn't want to bear such a charge."

He paused, and suddenly, as if he understood something, he reached out like crazy to get me.

But he didn't have the strength to lift himself up, so he could only wave his hand and ask me like a demon, "What did you do to me?" How did you make me like this? ”

It's not that the emperor didn't think that someone had done it, he secretly asked the imperial doctor to check himself, and there was nothing wrong with it.

"The concubines didn't do anything, but the concubines have always been kind, the harem concubines are friendly with the concubines, the concubines developed a balm in the early years, the concubines like it very much, they use the flowers of southern Xinjiang, which will penetrate deep into the muscles and bones, and will be harmless to women, but for men, it will be the existence of a soul.

By the way, the four younger sisters who entered the palace last year were also from southern Xinjiang, but they were in different homes, and their incense must be much more powerful than that of the concubines, so the emperor was like this, and he forgot to return. ”

In fact, the reason for the emperor's hard work that year was also because of the balm, to be exact, the things they used in all directions had already been soaked in the pollen.

Over the years, the concubines in the harem have long been pickled, and when the emperor touches one, he dyes a little, and it accumulates over time, until it is almost over, and Gu Yan sent these four people in.

I can't find it, and the emperor has big symptoms in the back, so I don't want to check it.

"Why? I am not kind to you, why do you want to hurt me so much? Is it for Feng'er? Feng'er is only eight years old, and without me, he can only be a puppet, you understand. ”

"The emperor doesn't have to worry, Feng'er has his own biological father to escort him."

The emperor obviously didn't expect me to say such a thing, so he took a few breaths before he asked me tremblingly, "What are you talking about?" ”

I pretended to accidentally say the wrong thing and covered my mouth, and exclaimed, "Oops, I forgot to tell the emperor that Feng'er is the child of King Yu." ”

The emperor's eyes widened, and I knew that he must have recalled that day.

"No wonder! No wonder! Their blood and bones can be combined, you ...... Slut ...... I treat you sincerely, regardless of your background, I have given you the most precious things in the world, you ......" The emperor trembled with anger, and he stood up with all his strength, but immediately fell out of bed, lying on his feet and looking at me embarrassed.

I bent down and approached his face, no longer well-behaved, and snorted coldly in disgust: "Really? What do you say? Are you sincere to me? It's for my face that thinks of Su Lian, it's for my character like Shen Qingyue, and it's just a commemoration of the years when you were young. ”

"You...... Who are you? ”

"Me? I am a ghost who came from hell to ask for your life, and it was Su Lian and Shen Qingyue who asked me to come, saying that you failed them. ”

"Nonsense! Impossible, Lian'er won't, she understands that I love her, I don't want me, it's me she doesn't want, why should I say that I failed her. ”

"Do you love her? What do you love about her?

If you love her, no matter how many people there are in the harem, you will definitely trick her into the mansion wholeheartedly?

If you love her, provoke her and Shen Qingyue, let her be the sword in your hand, and suppress Shen Qingyue and the Shen family?

If you love her, you know that it was the Queen Mother who poisoned her child, and she still pushed everything to Shen Qingyue? Lost two children and blamed the Shen family for everything?

If you love her, let her back down for you step by step, suffer and be wronged, and even make her unable to be a mother anymore, and finally be forced into a desperate situation? ”

"No, no, I made it up to her, I promised her the position of concubine, I doted on her, I endured her temper, I ...... She shouldn't blame me!

Yue'er, Yue'er shouldn't be, I spared her from dying, and let her continue to be the queen, it was she who had to contradict me, it was she who was disobedient, so I had to kill her. ”

I knew what he thought, but I still thought it was ridiculous to hear him say it himself.

In the end, it was all our fault, and he was never wrong.

It was as if my shame had stabbed him, and he argued angrily: "Since they are married to me, they should understand me, and I had no choice but to do this, and they should not be blamed!" Shouldn't! ”

Seeing that I just looked at him coldly, he suddenly became hideous, and asked viciously: "It's you and Gu Yan's who made me unable to have an heir, right?" How do you do that? ”

"What nonsense is the emperor talking about, did you have a child before I entered the palace? Think about it, since when did you never get your concubine pregnant. ”

The emperor naturally remembered, but he didn't want to think about it.

"It was Su Lian who drugged all the relics, didn't you promise to only have children with her? Since she can't have children, then you should be a living eunuch. ”

The emperor's expression froze, and he kept shaking his head, unwilling to accept it. "No, it can't be! Lian'er won't, won't do this to me, won't! ”

"It's your false pretense of affection that hurts you, and you can't blame anyone."

After saying everything that should be said, I didn't want to say another word to him, so I stood up and said coldly: "The emperor should miss the four sisters, the concubines will send people here immediately, and the emperor will enjoy it." ”

"Slut! Slut! Don't go! You're lying to me, aren't you? I shouldn't have kept you, I should have ...... you"

The emperor's invective stopped abruptly after I opened the door and let the four people in, closed the door, and closed the beautiful inside.

An hour later, the emperor died violently.

14.

After the death of the emperor, Liu Yan took out the holy decree behind the Zhengda Guangming plaque, which said that if the emperor died, the crown prince Yifeng would inherit the unification, and if the prince did not reach the weak crown, Gu Yan, the king of Yu, would be regent, and Liu Yan would be the auxiliary minister, and the concubine Xie would listen to the government until the new emperor returned to power.

Liu Yan is a sign of justice, and no one in the court questioned it.

After I moved to Cining Palace, Gu Yan often came to take advantage of the affairs of the court and politics, but he was always doing the things of Fengyue.

After the entire government was under his control, he didn't even bother to cover it up, and stabbed in and out of the harem.

even bluntly told Feng'er that he was his biological father, and asked Feng'er to call his father emperor in private.

Feng'er didn't resist at all, her brows didn't wrinkle, and she shouted with a smile: "Father." ”

Gu Yan was very happy, holding the nine-year-old Feng'er and half-lying on the soft couch to teach him how to review the folds, how to make the royal family, and how to establish prestige.

I sat on the other side, filling a vase with flowers I had picked from the Imperial Garden this morning.

It's another picture of quiet years, but it's a different person.

I didn't feel anything about it, but Gu Yan seemed to like it very much.

One day I got up from the bed, and before I could call anyone, he put his arms around my waist, pressed against my skin and asked, "Little kitten, don't drink that shunzi soup today, and give birth to this king again." ”

"The Lord Regent is joking." I stroked his hand away.

Seeing that his face was displeased, I explained: "I am now a widowed queen mother, and there have been a lot of rumors about the prince entering and leaving Cining Palace, and Liu Yan is even more informed, if I get pregnant again, it will give them an excuse, and it will also have an impact on Feng'er's throne." ”

My analysis made Gu Yan completely wake up from a half-asleep state, and he agreed with my words very much, but he was also very unhappy.

Put on your clothes and go.

Shui Xiu and the others left before they came in with the avoidance soup.

I drank it all, took the handkerchief, wiped my mouth, and commanded in a low voice, "Send a message to Lord Liu, the regent is about to move." ”

"Isn't it too rushed? The slave maid saw that although the regent was angry, he had always been calm, in case it exposed you and Lord Liu, I was afraid that ...... "After many years of getting along, Shui Xiu already knew Gu Yan's ruthlessness and ability to bend and stretch, and she was afraid.

"He used to be able to sink, but now he absolutely can't."

No one who has been exposed to power will not be greedy for more.

Gu Yan was born in the dust in the past and hid in the shadows, he had to be calm and patient.

But now, he is already like an emperor, and he has dominated the world for a year, and he will not feel content, but will be more eager to hold all the power in his hands and do whatever he wants.

What I just said undoubtedly broke his current comfort, telling him that his rights are not enough, and his status is not enough.

He is just a regent, even if he has the power of the world, he can't let me, who once lay at his feet, although he flattened and pinched the round, have another child for him, and he has to take care of his ministers and son.

scruples reminded him of the past when he needed to be scruples and forbearance everywhere, and now he is reluctant to mention it.

He has long been a beast that has been fed by power, and this time, he will definitely open his mouth wide.

Sure enough, he launched a coup d'état.

On the Jinluan Palace, the sword is pointed at the ministers.

What he didn't expect was that the Imperial Forest Army, which had already been divided, appeared on the main hall silently with the Beijing Patrol Battalion, surrounding him and his subordinates.

He had already asked Feng'er to write an abdication letter, and he only needed to suppress the ministers, to be exact, it was enough to suppress these ministers led by Liu Yan, so he didn't bring many soldiers.

"You... Are you all in collusion? Willow Feast! I didn't expect it, I didn't expect you to make this slut lose his mind!

Do you know who she is? She is a lowly embryo who came out of the Qing Building, a character with a little red lips and a thousand tastes, you are the head of the clear stream so depraved! ”

He pointed at Liu Yan's nose and roared, before today, he never thought that Liu Yan would actually fall under my pomegranate skirt.

"Presumptuous, how can the queen mother allow such a thief like you to be humiliated!" An arrow stabbed from the cloud platform with a roar, hitting Gu Yan's heart.

He looked at Feng'er, who was still holding his hand on the bow on the gimbal, in disbelief.

"The queen mother was born as a concubine, innocent, and it was you who tried to frame the identity of the queen mother and me with dirty water, but fortunately, the former emperor Shengming, scraping the bones and taking a blood test proved my identity and washed away the grievances of the queen mother.

After I ascended the throne, you became more and more arrogant, after the early death of my grandfather, you deceived me and my mother's orphans and widows, crossed everywhere, and even openly entered and exited Cining Palace.

Someone came, cut off this rebellious minister and thief with a thousand knives, hung his head at the noon gate for ten days, and the rest of the party members were all sentenced to punishment! ”

Feng'er threw the curved bow in his hand down fiercely, falling down the cloud platform, and settling everything to the dust.

Sitting behind the curtain, I looked at it coldly and silently.

Looking at the cloak, biting unwillingly, Gu Yan, who was staring at me fiercely, was dragged out by the five flowers.

Looking at the young Feng'er's face blooming with joy, smug and ruthless.

I watched Liu Yan let go of the hand he had been clenching and turned his head towards me with a smile.

And I, there is no emotion.

I just did what I had to do, and from the moment I got down this path, I planned everything.

Gu Yan deserves to die, and I deserve to die too.

But I can't die now, I have to live, with this unbearable body, sit in the most honorable position, go down in history, and let the world remember the disgusting of the royal family.

15.

After Gu Yan died, I went to the palace to recuperate, and I spent my days in the palace fiddling with those flowers and plants.

Shui Xiu said that I was only thirty, but I lived like a sixty-year-old person.

I only smiled and didn't speak.

The purpose of my rebirth has been accomplished, and life is just a matter of surviving life, and age has no meaning to me.

But others always want to find some meaning for me, such as Liu Yan.

He proposed to rehabilitate the Shen family, but I refused.

Gu Dingyun destroyed the Shen family because of jealousy, but the Shen family was not completely wronged.

I would have devoted myself to Gu Dingyun not only because of the calculations of the Queen Mother and Gu Dingyun, but also because of the Shen family's many years of side attacks, the Shen family and the Queen Mother coincide, and they both have their own calculations.

And I'm a pawn everywhere.

What's more, everyone is dead, Shen Qingyue is also dead, no matter how whitewashed, I can't change back to Shen Qingyue, so why bother.

"Brother Yan, now I am Xie Li'er, the queen mother who was born in a Qing building, tattered, scheming, and uncompromising means, not Shen Qingyue, and it can't be.

The past is in the past, you don't want to torture yourself, you should choose a good woman now, start a family and have children. ”

I asked Shui Xiu to take the carefully cultivated and Dilian to give to Liu Yan, he looked at the flower, and then looked at me, with grief in his eyes, reluctance, helplessness, but finally took the flower.

16.

Liu Yan married Shui Xiu and gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix fetuses in the second year.

White and fat, very gratifying.

Shui Xiu often brings children to live in the palace, which adds a lot of vitality to the lifeless palace, and I also have some vitality.

The days also passed a little faster.

In a blink of an eye, Feng'er was sixteen, and she looked almost exactly like Gu Yan, but without his gloom, her temperament was more like Gu Dingyun.

But Feng'er is not any of them, he is better than blue.

is more selfish than Gu Dingyun, more vicious and calm than Gu Yan, and even knows how to control the balance of power, and is more suitable for sitting on the throne than any of them.

For me, Feng'er doesn't have too much affection, and I and him are just the queen mother and the emperor.

He came today because he should marry a queen, and I had to ask him about it.

"Does the emperor have a favorite woman?"

"I like the concubine of Li Zhonglang's family, and her name is Li Yuhuan."

I heard Liu Yan say that I met at a palace banquet the year before last, and Feng'er fell in love at first sight.

Li Zhonglang's family is not harsh on the concubine, and is the same as the concubine, this Li Yuhuan is delicate, and the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting are top-notch, and he is also a famous among the nobles in Beijing, and his temperament is resolute, which is similar to Su Lian at the beginning.

"But if it is said that it is suitable for the queen, I think Qin Shangshu's daughter Qin Yan is the most suitable."

Hearing the name, I smacked the scissors in my hand for pruning branches.

Qin Yan, the only daughter of the Hubu Shangshu, grew up with thousands of pets, she was called into the palace by the Empress Dowager for two years, and Feng'er can be regarded as childhood sweethearts, and I still remember the child's smiling face, innocent, and like myself when I was a child.

Li Yuhuan and Qin Yan, will they be the next Su Lian and me?

"Does the emperor want to include both of them in the palace?" I continued to prune the foliage, as if I had nothing to do with myself.

Feng'er shook her head and handed me a draft decree.

I took it and opened it, and there were two words written on the back of the canonization, Du Qingqing.

The second daughter of the Ministry of Rites, not high or low, looks like no salt but quiet and virtuous, IKEA and room.

"I don't think the harem needs what I like, and I don't need help, just have an honest queen, so that nothing unshady will happen, what do you say, Queen Mother?"

He looked at me with a sad look and resentment.

I nodded ignorely, "The emperor thinks properly, so let's do it." ”

17.

After Feng'er weakened the crown, all the government was completely returned, and Liu Yan retreated a few years later.

In his words, the emperor doesn't need him anymore, and he also occupies a position if he stays.

What he said is right, Feng'er is very talented in governing the country, in just a few years, the court is clear, the country is rich and strong, the people live in peace, and the territory has expanded a lot.

The harem is also harmonious, he has no favorite concubines, the rain and dew are even, the queen is also well governed, and the heirs are also abundant.

Since then, I, the queen mother with a bad reputation, have no impact on his reputation as a king.

After living in the palace for thirty years, I finally collapsed on a snowy day.

I lay on the bed, dazed, and all I could see was the figure coming and going, and I heard the sound of a dripping cry.

I'm not afraid of death, I've been waiting for this day for a long time.

"You're just dead? Don't give me a word? I've always been a pawn of yours, haven't I? You've never loved me, have you? ”

I heard Feng'er's voice.

So sad, so sad, so sad.

I thought of him when he was a child, hugging me, and calling sweetly, "Mother, mother, Feng'er likes mother's favorite concubine." ”

I struggled to open my eyes, looked at the intertwined faces of Gu Yan and Gu Dingyun in front of me, stretched out my hand, and caressed it: "Nonsense, how can there be a mother in this world who doesn't love her children." Feng'er, my mother can't stand you. ”

With that, I ran out of strength.

It was as if I had fallen into deep water, and I kept sinking.

The images of the past and present lives continue to pour up from the deepest depths, and I look at the past, with mixed tastes.

In my previous life, I was naïve, always thinking that everything would be what I thought, thinking that the two would be happy for a long time, and thinking that the world was very simple.

In this life, when I opened my eyes, I took revenge on everyone who failed me, bullied me, and trampled on me, and was willing to fall into the abyss, just to pull everyone to hell together.

I don't regret it, I just can't live with Feng'er.

From the moment you take that path, there's no turning back.

In fact, no matter in my past or present life, I was trapped by this harem.

All the people in this palace, as long as they enter the palace, they are in a swamp, and no matter how they struggle, they will only fall deeper and deeper, unable to escape or wash.

Extra: Su Lian

My name is Su Lian, and I am the concubine of the Su Tai Doctor's family in the Tai Hospital.

Although she is a concubine, her eldest sister has already been married, and she has a daughter in the family, and my aunt is a concubine in my father's backyard, and her mother is also fair and kind, and she has never been treated poorly because I am a concubine.

My brothers at home also treated me very well, and often brought me delicious food and fun from outside the house.

I like the words that my second brother brought me the most, some are magnificent, some are turned a thousand times, and some are tossing and turning.

Among them, I like the most two loves, a lifetime of love words, after all, which girl does not have a spring.

I made up my mind that I would also be like the people in the book, find a unique gentleman, stay together for a lifetime, have children, and sit and watch the clouds and clouds.

Seeing that I was seventeen or sixteen years old, there were fewer and fewer people proposing marriage, and my mother and aunt were very anxious, and often asked my sister-in-law to take me to the poetry meeting tea party to show her face.

I met him at a poetry meeting.

He was like the brightest star in the sky, even now he was different.

But for me, it's just a matter of taking a second look, and I don't think much about him.

Until he understood my poetry.

"Looking at the tens of millions of mansions, it is not as good as a corner of pastoral farmland." He pointed to the verses I hung under the corridor and said, "This is a love poem." ”

"Brother Ziya, this wine hasn't been drunk yet, why are you drunk, this is clearly a chic and wanton poem, not loving the building and loving the countryside, how can it be said to be a love poem." The boy who was traveling with him smiled and shook his head.

"It's like this on the surface, but if you look deeper, this vast building refers to the men and women in the world, and the corner refers to the people who are single-minded, who don't love the tens of millions in this world, and are willing to have one person to herd the farmland."

He explained it all right, and the people who traveled with him agreed with it after carefully tasting it.

"Then this poem must be written by a woman, only a woman has the wish to have a heart that is inseparable from each other, but today are all children of the family, in the future in this high-rise compound, which man must not be three wives and four concubines, this woman is also confused, if it is used to make an article in the future, I am afraid that I will have a reputation of jealousy."

"I don't think she's confused, even if she dares to do this, she must be an open-minded girl, and there is nothing wrong with wishing to be a single-minded person, if I can, I want to do it too."

As he spoke, they walked away together, and I stood behind the columns of the corridor, my eyes following him.

I had a different mind about him, so I asked my eldest brother to find out who that person was.

When I knew that he was King Jing, who was now very likely to become the crown prince, my thoughts immediately stopped.

The royal nobles, even if they fail to ascend the throne, as the prince, they must have several wives and concubines, and they can't be single-minded.

We met again at Princess Pyeongchang's birthday party, and I didn't expect Princess Pyeongchang to invite me, but I couldn't refuse, so I went.

Unexpectedly, he actually blocked my way and told me that he had fallen in love with me at first sight since that day's poetry meeting, and he missed me every day and couldn't sleep at night, so he asked Princess Pyeongchang to invite me to the birthday banquet.

"Thank you for the prince's love, the little girl has a low status and does not dare to climb high, and the little girl has a mind, that is, she only marries one person, one person for a lifetime, so she has not married at such an age."

I thought that if I said this, he would immediately retreat like those who came to ask for marriage in the past, but he was happy and said, "I have the same mind as you, and I have identified you at a glance, and I will be you for the rest of my life." ”

My heart was hit by his words, his smile, and the certainty in his eyes, and I felt my cheeks burn, but I still refused to let go and said: "The prince said that he laughed, this matter is not as simple as talking." ”

"I'll prove that I'm not just talking about it."

He left a sentence and left, and later I learned that he went to the palace to find the concubine Niangniang and said that he wanted to marry me, which made the Niangniang angry, but he didn't let it go, and made a big fuss.

My father was walking in the harem, and soon got the news, and hurried home, telling me not to be stubborn in this matter.

He also told me that the princess of the concubine Niangniang's favorite princess was Shen Qingyue, the only daughter of the Shen Guogong Mansion, and it was impossible for me to allow a concubine from a five-rank official family to be the main concubine.

I also knew in my heart that it was impossible for me to be with him, but this heart gave birth to unwillingness.

Later, I tried my best to avoid him, and I didn't even go out, but he didn't look like a prince, and climbed into the wall of my house, just looked at me, and then walked away politely.

It lasted for half a year, no matter how I refused, no matter how I said it was impossible between us, he didn't give up, and once he came, he still had a slap mark on his face.

My heart is not made of stone, and I feel sorry for him, but I never dare to agree to him.

I'm afraid I'll hurt him.

His father finally knew about his climb over the wall, my father was timid, this time he no longer let me, forced me to talk about a marriage, wanted to marry me as soon as possible, and broke off the matter.

I don't want to marry a stranger hastily for fear of being questioned by the concubine, and I don't want to miss him and let him down for so long.

So, I relented.

"Gu Dingyun, can you really do what you say, and be a couple with me for the rest of your life?"

"Yes!" He nodded firmly, and then said with some guilt: "But now I can't marry you as a wife, my parents' orders are difficult to disobey, I have to marry Yue'er as a princess, but you believe me, I only regard her as a sister, in my heart, you are my wife, and I will only have children with you in the future, for the rest of my life." ”

"Well, I believe you."

In the end, I didn't listen to my father and mother, and resolutely married Gu Dingyun as a concubine.

Shen Qingyue and I entered the house on the same day, she carried a large sedan chair eight times, and red makeup entered from the front door, while I could only carry a small sedan chair from the side door behind her.

I don't care about these things on the surface, I only care about where I am in his heart.

As long as I am his wife and the only one in his heart, no matter how many women there are in this house, it has nothing to do with us.

It was only after entering the mansion that I met Shen Qingyue for the first time.

I also knew that the word Bahu can be so specific.

She grew up with thousands of pets, she has never suffered a little, and she doesn't know what understanding and tolerance are.

I thought I could live in peace with her, but she thought that I had ruined her relationship with Dingyun and put all the accounts on my head.

I am not a submissive character, I have had several conflicts with her, Gu Yun is a little muddy, and told me that the situation is very dangerous for him now, and he needs the help of Shen Guogong's Mansion, I hope I can bear it.

I understand that the struggle for imperial power needs to be cautious, although I don't want him to fight, and I don't want to be a mother in the deep palace in the future, but I understand that he is already in the game, and there is no way out.

So for his sake, I tried my best to endure it.

Whether it was Shen Qingyue's rudeness or the harsh criticism of the concubine, I endured it.

Until he ascended the throne and became emperor.

Shen Qingyue became the queen, and I became the concubine.

Some people say that my concubine is no different from the queen, he dotes on me, and Shen Qingyue can only get the fifteenth and two days of the first month as the queen.

But I didn't want to do it these two days, I never wanted to share him with anyone, it had nothing to do with my identity, just because he was my husband and my heart.

But I also understand that now I can't help it, his emperor, he must follow the ancestral system, and I am the same, otherwise I will give people a handle and turn over and pinch me and him.

I'm not happy, it's not what I thought.

I'm like a bird trapped in captivity, the cage is golden, but it's always a cage.

Until I got pregnant.

He and I were very happy, and that day he hugged me and walked around under the banyan tree several times, touching my stomach and shouting over and over again: "Emperor, Emperor." ”

I laughed at him for being stupid, it's only been two months now, where can I hear it.

In fact, I myself was so happy that I couldn't tell the difference between north and south, everything had hope, and he fulfilled his promise.

However, what I didn't expect was that the change came so quickly.

One day after breakfast, I suddenly felt cramps in my abdomen, and I clearly felt the heat gushing out, staining my pleated skirt red.

I tried desperately to keep it, but it was always in vain.

I fainted in pain, and when I woke up again, my grandmother told me that the child had fallen off, and it was a male fetus that had taken shape, and it was Shen Qingyue who drugged my water, causing me to slip the tire.

Gu Dingyun went to the door and slapped the child in Shen Qingyue's belly, and the Queen Mother stopped her, so she was only grounded for two months.

He was devastated, but he let me endure it.

said that Shen Qingyue was the queen, but the matter has not been fully investigated, and the child in her belly is gone.

This time, I can't bear it!

Shen Qingyue and I had a lot of trouble in the palace, and he was powerless to persuade him, so he simply ignored it.

Until the Queen Mother suddenly said that she found out that I had directed and acted in the slippery tire back then, framing Shen Qingyue.

I looked at him and cried out for wrong.

He should understand best that I never care about my position, let alone play with my child's life.

But he failed to wash away my grievances, nor did he save me, so the Queen Mother let me beat me fifty boards.

This board not only cost me half my life, but also damaged my uterus, and there was no possibility of pregnancy.

I held the small clothes I made with my own hands, and tears kept flowing.

I don't understand why this is happening, I obviously want a very simple husband, as long as I have a few children, as long as the simplest life, why is it so difficult.

Am I wrong?

I kept asking myself no answers.

It wasn't until I went out for a walk at a palace banquet because of my heart that I accidentally saw the person who walked with Gu Dingyun at the poetry meeting by the lake, and heard him talk to his friends about the events of that year, that I realized that the poetry of that day's poetry meeting was not accidental, but deliberate.

It turned out that he had seen me a long time ago, liked me a long time ago, understood me a long time ago, and everything was deliberately close.

Looking back, it seems that everything is wrong.

I started investigating, I started to take his words, and eventually, I got the result, one that made me fall into the abyss.

He doesn't love me deeply and can't extricate himself, his attachment to me is just another kind of rebellion against the Queen Mother who has been suppressing him, proving himself.

Those forbearances, those rhetoric, are all deception, they are all pushing me to be his pawn, fighting against the Queen Mother, against Shen Qingyue, and against the Shen Guogong Mansion for him.

Including the death of my child, my suffering, all of them are his handiwork.

All along, I was just a pawn with the other side of him in his hand.

My deep affection turned out to be a void, but I was trapped in this deep palace and there was no way out, and all my ideals became wishful thinking.

I will not see him again, and no matter how much he asks for it, I will not hear a word again.

I shut myself up in my room all day long, hiding in the dark.

Eventually, I'm going to die.

Looking at the entire palace, the only one who could listen to me was Shen Qingyue.

Looking at her, I felt pathetic.

She, like me, was deceived by Gu Dingyun.

Now she no longer has the unruly spirit she had when she first entered the house, and all the anger of the past has dissipated at this moment, so I persuaded her to give herself a way to live while there is still an opportunity, while she has a way out than me.

Yet she was still so obsessed.

So I can only tell her that I have drugged all my things, and I have been in contact with children and grandchildren for a long time, if Gu Dingyun has affection for her, they will definitely have children, otherwise she should understand.

After that, I closed my eyes forever.

At this moment, I felt as if I had returned to the night when I was relieved, and I rejected him.