I decided to go back, everything was bought, and when I walked to the station, I stopped again.

What am I going to do when I go back, is that home my home? The camel is not at home, what do I say when I go back? Is it homesick, or parents, or reluctant?

Forget it, I sat on the chair on the platform, watching the cars come and go, thinking that I didn't know where to go. The rental house has expired, or I don't even want to live there. If I say that I am disgusted by the current environment, it is better to say that I want to change myself completely, leave this sad place, start anew, go to a place that no one knows, live, and be self-reliant。。。。。。

There is a phone call, the phone vibrates in the hand, look at the number on it, it is the person calling.

I hated him so much, really, I felt incredibly disgusting.

I really regret it, I really feel so stupid, how can I believe that it is true!

The camel was not put back, but he was deceived by others.

I took a deep breath and the buses came and went; Another one came, closed again and left. People in the station came and went, but none of them were familiar. Or, it's my lonely self-appreciation, this place, at this time, no one cares about a woman, a wandering and homeless woman. No one came to ask, no one came to shout. Here comes the car, get in the car! No, I've been sitting there for almost an hour, and no one has come to say a word to me.

Li Shang, that bad thing, hurt me like this. The camel had a knot with him in his previous life, and this knot was that the camel was imprisoned by him. If I didn't have a family with the camel, or if he didn't have a family, maybe I would follow him--- because he cares about me, unlike some people, who don't care about me at all. A woman with a man who cares about herself should feel content.

Why doesn't Chen Gongming care about me?

When I thought of Chen Gongming, I suddenly felt a pain in my chest--- it was clear that I cared about him. The man who made me want to stop, thinking about his head and his eyes, I really felt sad. I remember that in school, he was so sunny, with long black hair, bright and charming eyes, and even the back of jumping and picking leaves. Especially the way he looked at me, the heartbeat when we paused to look at each other, the feeling of intoxication really stuck in my memory. It's a pity that in the vast sea of people, there is no willow benefit from now on。。。。。。

The phone rang again, and someone was looking at me. I didn't answer the phone, I got up and left.

"Sister, your thing!" A little girl called me and waved at me.

Is it? I looked back, really, I forgot about things that fell on the ground.

Is it the kids out of school, what time is it?

Sure enough, as soon as the bus arrived, many students were out of school.

Looking at those innocent and lively students, thinking of the former student life, it is really enviable. Thinking of the schoolbag he had carried so much, he jumped and ran to his grandmother's shop.

Grandma, why did you leave so early, I didn't even study junior high school, and you left.

If I am still at that time, or if my grandmother is still by my side at this time, I will not leave the house at all, and I will go home on time every day to accompany my grandmother. However, my grandmother is no longer there, and the grandmother who loves me the most can no longer see me carrying my schoolbag home.

My tears flowed down unconsciously, and when I thought of my grandmother, my grievances and sadness came to me, and I really wanted to never grow up when I was still a few years old。。。。。。

Your beloved grandchildren are now homeless, grandma, do you know?

My parents, the parents who gave birth to me and raised me, didn't know my life and death, no one ever called me to greet me, no one called me back for a reunion dinner during the holidays, no one gave me a blessing at any time。。。。。。

I don't know how I got back to the rental house, I felt like I was an empty shell, out of this world.

When I woke up, I found that it was getting dark, and I saw that it was already dark outside the window.

My stomach was pounding again, I was hungry--- I didn't seem to have eaten in two meals. Yes, I haven't eaten two more meals, what's wrong with me, I don't choose to eat every day, I don't eat at any time. It doesn't work, but I don't want to move. In fact, I found that my head was a little dizzy, and my whole body was weak.

I want to call Liu Mengling, thinking that with her, my appetite will be better. But at the thought that she might have gone out and hadn't come back, I didn't have the strength to call.

A call came, and it turned out to be Mengling's.

It's really heart-wrenching.

"Dude, I was out there, and I called you as soon as possible, proving that I love you very much."

"Yes!" I replied lightly. "What are you going back to?"

"Listening to your voice, it seems like you're working again?"

"Humph! What? ”

"Which one are you fighting again?" Liu Mengling was disdainful, "Don't lie to me, I'll stand in front of your window!" ”

"Don't be scared!" I looked at the window.

"Really, I don't dare to disturb you when I see you dying."

"I haven't eaten, so I'm still struggling for my life!" I sighed, "Where are you?" ”

"Why, I'm not around, don't I eat?"

"No, I don't want to eat it!"

"Miss me?"

"Hmm!"

"Dude, thank you!" Meng Ling was full of gratitude, "My sister, don't be hungry, I'm not around, you want to eat some!" This doesn't work, I'll order a takeout for you, you send the address, I'll order it. ”

"Forget it, Mengling, I don't want to eat!"

"Listening to your weak breath, it looks like you've been hungry for another day!" Meng Ling seemed to see it. This sentence seems simple to say, but it makes me feel so tragic, and at the end of the day, I finally heard such a sentence of concern for me, which really made me cry.

"Tell you, if the guy surnamed Huang looks for you again, you just ignore him!" Meng Ling said suddenly. "That man had eaten black before, and he was a police officer, so we didn't treat him anything."

"Why do you say that?" I said, "I know, I will." Meng Ling, it's over, it's over, and he's down now, as if the above has dealt with him. ”

"Well deserved!" Meng Ling said angrily, "He thought he was the emperor and covered the sky with one hand, so Lao Tzu didn't believe in that evil!" ”

"Xiaowei! A question for you? Meng Ling suddenly whispered, "I heard that you saw Chen Gongming?" ”

“。。。。。。” I hesitated, "Hmm! ”

"Really?" Meng Ling shouted loudly, "Is there a play?" ”

"No。。。。。。 This. ”

"You slept?"

"What?"

"I mean, you guys?" Meng Ling seemed to be very excited, but then she changed her mouth again, and her voice was lower, "As soon as people are out of the family, they don't open meat." ”

I was about to say, but Meng Ling continued, "Xiaowei, Chen Gongming is alone now, you have to work hard, I am optimistic about you, I missed it before, and now I can't be wrong again!" ”

"I 。。。。。。" When I think of Chen Gongming's apex point, I am really at a loss.

"He doesn't rape you, you rape him!" Meng Ling shouted at the other end, "What's wrong with the monk, the monk doesn't eat!" ”

"Mengling, you。。。。。。 Why are you so rude! ”

"Rude?" Meng Ling seemed to be aggrieved, "If you are not rude, good men will let others rob you, if you are not rude, you don't even have to eat." ”

Is it? It dawned on me that it was my stupidity and hesitation that made me miss the opportunity and the past. Or, as Meng Ling said, many times, some people and some things cannot be hesitated.

Tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, I'll start all over again.

I want to start over, and I can't be indecisive.

Or, it was a warning, a turning point in my life, and Mengling woke up as scheduled.

I can't do this, at a new starting point of work, I want to have an upward spirit, a full attitude.

Really, whatever it is, I'm going to fight for it, work hard!

I'm going to quit this house and never come back.

Start everything from scratch, adjust your mentality, and live well!

Even if it's a person, you have to face it positively!

"The monk doesn't eat!" Yes, monks are also human beings, and if they are human beings, they have to eat, this is a sentence and a truth.

There is a law to everything, and that is the starting point.

I can do it, nothing will bother me, because I am the best!

Thinking about it, I hope that the sky will soon light up.