The final change in the bottle made Xie Songhua's mood a little complicated.

I was glad that Xie Di was not tricked, and at the same time I was irritated about the real reason for Xie Di's change at this time.

"How?"

Xie Di's voice called her back from her emotions, and Xie Songhua hurriedly put the bottle away, "It's okay, it's me who is too worried."

Xie Di smiled and nodded, then poured some water from the teapot on the side and washed his fingers, wiped them dry, and picked up the embroidery bandage again.

"Tu'er, that day was chaotic, I think your emotions are also very complicated, so I don't want to ask too much, now it's just you and me, you ...... Can you tell me why?"

Xie Di's embroidery action paused again, and this time she finally raised her head, her gaze becoming serious.

"Third sister, you don't have to be so careful," the smile on the girl's face was a little faint, but it smelled clean, "This happened, I know that the person who really cares about me is you."

"No, it's actually ......."

"Third sister," Xie Di interrupted her, the smile on her face somehow revealed two points of sadness, "There are some things that I just want to tell you, but I'm not sure if you can understand it after I told you."

These words made Xie Songhua unable to say what he originally wanted to say.

She originally wanted to tell Xie Di that the people in the family cared about her, the old lady cared about her, her aunt cared about her, and the eldest brother and sister, in fact, everyone was worried about her.

But Xie Di's words made her understand that when she said this, that is, her real thoughts only wanted to tell her that she was different from everyone else.

This is a heavy trust, and Xie Songhua can only follow.

As if she had made up her mind, she set the embroidery aside and then got up and pushed the window wider so that her vision would be wider and it would be difficult to see her surroundings.

He slowly poured a cup of tea and handed it to Xie Songhua, "I'm not happy."

Her first sentence made Xie Songhua stunned.

Xie Songhua keenly felt that what she was talking about was not this marriage, so he simply closed his mouth and listened quietly.

"For so many years, I've not been happy," she tugged at the corners of her mouth, her eyes looked like a misty spring rain, not majestic, but it made people feel wet and cold, "Because I didn't rely on it, I was a child with a family but no parents, very small, I was in my own home, under the fence."

"Tu'er."

This made Xie Songhua sad, and she unconsciously called her softly.

"At that time, when my eldest sister had just been diagnosed as unable to marry and have children as a normal woman, I was sick and happened to be lying in my grandmother's house, I heard it, and then after my wife and master left, I heard my grandmother complain to Shen's mother, saying that my wife gave birth to a useless one, and that year, I was five years old."

Xie Songhua opened his mouth slightly, but did not speak, but just gently held her hand.

"When the second sister was eight years old, she showed the second wife's account book to her grandmother, pointing out the omissions in the account book, and I heard my grandmother praising the second sister's ability, I don't know why, I always felt that my grandmother's eyes at that time seemed to be looking at a satisfactory embroidery.

Then when I embroidered the first piece of embroidery that was approved by the master, I saw that look on my grandmother's face again, and I didn't know at that time, what kind of eyes it was.

Until one time I went to Jinxiang Hou's house with my grandmother as a guest, and the four girls from their family came out of the pavilion, and when my grandmother and Mrs. Hou talked about the marriage of the four girls, I saw that kind of look again." br>

"Tu'er, you can't just think like that."

Xie Songhua was a little sensitive and precocious until Xie Di, but she didn't expect her to be so sensitive.

Xie Di pursed her lips and smiled, "I know, I know that it's easy to think like this, and I also know that my grandmother doesn't really see me as a tool, but the third sister, when I understand this, I was already in my teens."

That is, in the crucial years of her growth, she

I always thought so.

Xie Di knew from her expression that she understood what she meant, so she didn't explain too much.

She looked up at the sky outside, "When I was a child, I envied every sister in my family, and then I carefully hid this envy, but I kept thinking in my heart, wondering when I would be able to free myself from this envy and caution, until I saw my second sister come out of the cabinet.

I peeked into the room and saw her red-eyed, but she cried with joy.

I realized that I wasn't the only one who felt like I was in a cage."

Xie Songhua remembered Xie Yun's exit from the cabinet, at that time, she had only been here for half a year.

is still in a strange feeling of everything, and there is not much affection for this second sister.

Even if she had a good relationship with Xie Di at that time, she didn't notice her sensitive thoughts.

The smile on Xie Di's face was a little more, "I saw that she was married, and I actually had some envy in my heart, because since then, there is such a person who can give her a correct position, she is the ***, and she will still be the mother of her own children in the future, no one will care about how her parents are, and how she was treated at home."

"So, from that time on, you were actually looking forward to getting married soon?"

A red cloud flew on Xie Di's face, but she wasn't really shy, she nodded lightly, "Well, I think when I get to that day, I can also have a home of my own!"

But at that time, I was worried that my grandmother and the person my family would choose for me in the future would not like me, and what would be good if they didn't love me, at least ...... The second brother-in-law seems to be very satisfied with the second sister.

Then, third sister, you tell me that we can choose our own attitude towards marriage, if I don't pursue those so-called husband and wife feelings, then there is or not, it doesn't matter much to me.

What's more, I later found out that even though the second brother-in-law, who seemed to me to like the second sister before, it turned out to be nothing more than that, so I believed in this even more."

I didn't expect that the concept of marriage that she talked about with Xie Di had such a big impact on her, but even now, even if she and Xiao Yu have raised their eyebrows, she also feels that what she said at that time was not very wrong.

"So, I don't have that little fear anymore," Xie Di's eyes bloomed with an indescribable beauty, as if injecting some vitality into her whole person, "I just want to wait for my marriage to come, I only hope that the so-called marriage does not require too much from me, and the future life is best to be able to see the end at a glance."

Speaking of which, what else does Xie Songhua not understand?

Even though Xie Di had hesitated and was uneasy about the Su family's marriage at that time, it was just a girl's anxiety and panic in the face of a completely different life that was about to appear.

When she calms down, she can naturally accept it calmly and calmly.

No matter from which point of view, the marriage of the Su family is very good for Xie Di.

"When I think about it carefully, this marriage that Xie Li doesn't want is simply a gift from God, is there anything more suitable for me than this?"

There was a bit of confusion in her eyes, like Jiangnan who had just finished a spring rain, looking misty, but with a unique charm, "I really want to marry the third sister, I have a relationship with that person, but not all of them."

"So......" Xie Songhua's lips trembled slightly.

Xie Di finished the rest of the words for her, "So, even without him, it's not impossible."