In fact, many people overestimate their inner desires.

That's because many times you don't know yourself well enough.

Just like the saint at this time, she never imagined that one day she would become so humble and work so hard because she wanted to live.

Her life has not been smooth, but in the past, although it was a little difficult, it was not that she couldn't get by, and it wasn't that she really had no way to go.

It's just three words of unwillingness.

And these three words pushed her to her current position step by step, and because of the title brought by the word "saint", she can never go back to the old time, and she can no longer be as peaceful as before.

Or, she's already dead.

It's all just a dream now. It's just that this dream is too real, and she has no way to escape it, so she can only grit her teeth and persevere, even if she can't see hope, even if there is little hope of living.

But......

Something is better than nothing.

She wasn't very familiar with this palace, but she still knew the most important places.

Princess Chen gave birth in Qianyuan Palace, she just gave birth, and such a strange thing happened later, she must not go far at this time. What's more, there is chaos everywhere at this time, and no one can move her at this time and let her go somewhere.

Therefore, the saint is only looking for it in the vicinity of Qianyuan Palace.

Everywhere there are palace maids and eunuchs who fled in a hurry, but did not know where to flee.

She looked at herself, the clothes on her body were really a little too eye-catching, and after thinking about it, she finally chose to tremble and take off a set of clothes from a palace maid who no longer knew whether she was dead or fainted, and changed it with the fastest speed in her life.

And then keep going.

It didn't take long for her to notice something unusual.

The small courtyard behind the Qianyuan Palace was too calm at this time.

At this time, there were still people walking around the yard, instead of fleeing in a hurry.

So far, no one in the palace knows who the people who came are, and no one knows what those people will bring when they come in.

So it is really unexpected that he can be so calm and stable at this time.

She bypassed the eunuchs walking in front of her until she reached the apse, but whenever anyone came over, she would play dead.

Hengzhi has seen a lot of dead people along the way, and compared to the panic and nervousness at the beginning, she has become much calmer.

Eventually, she was sure there were a lot of people here.

She thought about it for a moment, but gritted her teeth and got into the dog hole on the side.

Just when I didn't know what to do, I saw a little eunuch coming, "It was Gonggong Hong who asked you to come over, right?" Do you have milk?"

The saint was a little confused, and did not understand what the other party was saying at all.

But the other party didn't care so much, and he didn't even say a few words, so he just pulled people inside.

"Hurry up, hurry up, I can't find anything to eat now, and the children are dying of hunger."

The saint was pulled in by her directly, and when she got inside, she saw at a glance the lone man who was busy in the house.

She subconsciously wanted to go outside, but Duhuo had already seen her.

He looked up and down and frowned, "You're a nurse? It doesn't look like it has milk."

The saint felt that she was not a very smart person in her daily life, but at this moment, she reacted in an instant what kind of misunderstanding had happened here.

She even learned the accent of those people in the suburbs of Beijing and said, "Some of them have just been born for less than two months."

Duhuo looked a little troubled at this time, and then glanced at the child who was still crying on the bed, "Will you feed?"

"Yes!"

She nodded without hesitation.

Duhuo looked at her, then at the child, and finally said to the little eunuch, "Watch here, and return ahead."

You want me."

The little eunuch immediately nodded in agreement.

The saint saw her go out, and her heart was beating wildly and could hardly stop.

This kid ......

Yes, how could there be any newborns in the palace, so this is Princess Chen's child, the son of King Chen.

She had only seen Duhuo twice, and both of them wore veils and painted with the makeup unique to saints.

In order not to attract attention, she smeared her face with ash and took off her veil, and Duhuo didn't recognize her at all.

Seeing this, the little eunuch on the side was displeased and said, "Hurry up, don't you see that our little prince is crying? Didn't I come here to nurse my baby?"

The holy woman came back to her senses, with a flattering smile on her face, stepped forward to pick up the child, and then showed a little embarrassment, "This little brother...... Can...... Turn your back and go?"

The eunuch was stunned for a moment.

Before he could say anything, he heard the other party still say in such a shy tone, "Although I have already given birth, I have only been married for a long time.

You're a man, and I'm a little embarrassed to look at it like this."

The little eunuch has been around for a few years, and the people of *** shape don't know how many they have seen, where in this palace will anyone treat the eunuch as a man.

Although this woman is said to be shy, doesn't she still think of him as a man in essence?

It was a strange feeling, and the initial desire to say no had subsided, and he stared at her several times before he muttered, "Isn't it just a breastfeeding? I used to see a lot in our village."

The saint did not speak, but smiled a little awkwardly.

Such a shy appearance seemed to make the little eunuch embarrassed her anymore, and she really turned her back.

After waiting for a while, the baby's crying still did not stop.

He couldn't help but feel a little anxious, "What's the matter with you? Will you be able to breastfeed?"

said and was a little uneasy, "It's better for me to look at you, after all, ......."

When he turned around, when he said the same thing, a metallic luster suddenly flashed in front of his eyes, and then he couldn't talk anymore.

He subconsciously reached out and covered his neck, where a bloody hole had already appeared, and blood was gushing out frantically.

He tried to shout loudly to get attention, but before he could open his voice, the blood poured down his throat.

He could only watch with open eyes as the woman ran away with the child in her arms.

Before he died, he remembered that face.

The saint felt that her heart was about to jump out of her throat, and she actually killed someone, with a hairpin.

This was the first time she had killed someone, and the man's blood was still splashed on her hands, and she still can't wipe it off.

I don't know why, even though she has been running out for a long time, she actually feels that her hands are still hot.

She has to go back to the East Palace, this palace is not safe anywhere at the moment, only the East Palace still has the power to guard, wait for the prince, wait for the prince to come back.