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Chu Nan glanced at Guan He, who was crying pear blossoms with rain, without the slightest intention of soft-heartedness, looked back at the smoky Buddhist hall, frowned and walked outside, and said slowly: "Perhaps, I was really too indulgent to you before, you were too presumptuous and nonsense!"

Guan He's face became more and more pale, it was the first time in so long that he had seen Chu Nan have such a big fire, biting his lip and following Chu Nan, watching Chu Nan sit down with a faint expression, he felt very sad, lowered his head and thought sullenly, his own thoughts, can he understand?

Chu Nan looked at Guan He, who was standing there, and felt a little bored in his heart, if he wanted to say that Guan He was smart and shrewd, he naturally knew it, but the smarter the person, the easier it was to get into the horns, and once a smart person identified something, it was really difficult for outsiders to change it, even if he was the closest person to her. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Guan He stood there, Chu Nan didn't speak, and he didn't dare to find a seat to sit down, but his energy and physical strength were about to be exhausted, and he looked a little shaky, and his eyes looked at Chu Nan with some grievances.

Chu Nan turned his face away from her, and said lightly: "I need an explanation." ”

Guan He hesitated, lowered his head and said softly: "The Buddha hall in the back is not dedicated to any evil Buddha, and I have not participated in any evil church, so I will not cause you trouble." ”

Chu Nan had a headache, waved his hand as if he wanted to drive away something annoying, and said impatiently: "You should understand, it's not these things I want to hear." ”

Guan He bit his lip, plucked up the courage for a long time and said, "I am from Qinglou. ”

Chu Nan was stunned, he didn't know what Guan He was doing when he mentioned this, so he said in a slow tone: "You know, I don't care about ......"

"But I care!!" Guan He interrupted Chu Nan's words and said loudly.

Chu Nan rubbed his eyebrows, didn't know what to say, and waited quietly for Guan He to continue.

Guan He's eyes were a little sloppy, he looked at a certain place in a daze, and said softly: "Actually, I know, a woman like me generally has no good end, and when she is young and beautiful, she may be coaxed and held, and in the end, she still has to commit herself to others, and being a concubine is already the best ending." ”

Speaking of this, Guan He was full of self-pity and self-pity that could not be concealed, and said in a chattering voice: "When you really become the concubine of a big man, you will completely become someone else's plaything, of course, because of your background, your status has always been low, humiliation and beating are inevitable, and even if you are unlucky, you will be sent back and forth as a gift, and you will completely cut off contact with the outside world, because in everyone's opinion, a woman like us will be born to hook up with men, and if you don't stay at home, you will definitely do things that violate women's morals............" Chu Nan simply closed his eyes, everyone would have a knot, but he didn't expect that the knot in the heart of Guan He, who was so cunning and intelligent, was so deep that he looked a little enchanted, suppressed the irritability in his heart, for fear of stimulating Guan He, who had become a little neurotic, and said carefully: "Good, others are others, you are my woman, I really feel sorry for you, you can go out if you want to, don't worry that I will give you away, I am not so bastard, and I am reluctant." Guan He raised his head, his eyes were full of love and pity, and said softly: "I know, you are different from other men. It is precisely because of this that I tried my best to risk being beaten to death by the people of Xinyue Tower, told countless lies and caught you in my hands, and the result also proved that I did the right thing, God has mercy on my hard work, and my efforts have not been in vain. ”

Chu Nan smiled a little bitterly, shook his head and said: "I'm not as good as you say, and it's not worth your doing, perhaps, at the beginning, I was like someone else, I just wanted a beautiful canary." ”

Guan He sighed softly, shook his head and said, "Actually, you don't know that among all the past Oiran in Xinyue Tower, I may be the one who has the best life. ”

Chu Nan also knew that Guan He was very tired and bitter in his heart, and sighed: "It's not good enough now, as long as you don't toss around blindly, I promise that it will be better in the future." ”

Guan He didn't seem to hear Chu Nan's words, and continued to say in a deep voice: "At the beginning, I also felt very happy and satisfied, this is my home, quiet and not lonely. Later, you saw that I was bored, so you took me to the poetry meeting, you don't know how happy I was at that time, really, I have never been so happy in my life............"

Guan He's face flashed a little painful, and he said in a low voice: "However, since then, I have known that in the eyes of many people, I am still the Qinglou woman who leans on the fence and laughs, even if you spoil me, you can't change it." ”

Chu Nan regretted a little, maybe he really did something wrong, he shouldn't have taken her out in the first place, maybe he single-handedly broke Guan He's monotonous and peaceful life, which made this originally a little happy woman start to panic, and even began to use gods and Buddhas to numb herself.

Guan He lowered his head, and his voice gradually became inaudible: "You don't know how disdainful and disdainful those people look at me, in their eyes I am like a clown who suddenly broke in, no matter what I do, it's wrong, I can't stand that kind of gaze............"

Chu Nan closed his eyes, he couldn't force others to have the same thoughts as himself, and it was impossible to change the deep-rooted concepts of this world, some things have been deeply engraved into the bone marrow, even Guan He himself, he subconsciously thought that he was impure, he was born inferior, he barely squeezed out a few smiles, and said: "Why bother with them, you can go to Yue'er to play, I promise that she won't look down on you, you can also go to the opposite side to find Mrs. Wang, aren't you like a sister with her?"

Guan He sighed again and said lightly: "Yes, I believe it." But do you know what? Madame Wang is worse than me, she has never been out of the house since she married Scholar Wang, and none of the ladies on this street want to be close to her, even if she is the wife of a scholar. Moreover, there are always people who make fun of her, even if she is a scholar of Wang, she can't be angry, because she, like me, is from a Qinglou. Mrs. Wang even had to pretend not to care about persuading Mrs. Wang, speaking of which Mrs. Wang was indifferent, but I could see her pain and helplessness. ”

Saying that, Guan He lowered his head and sobbed softly, like a child who had been greatly wronged, and muttered: "I don't want to be like this, I want to go out with you like Yangmei, everyone will only envy but not look weird............"

Chu Nan's anger gradually subsided, he stepped forward and hugged Guan He gently, and sighed: "I understand what you said, what is going on with the Buddhist hall behind you?"

Guan He raised his head and looked at Chu Nan, his eyes lit up: "There are a few high-ranking monks in the Baoguo Temple outside the city, saying that they only need to worship the Buddha according to their piety to eliminate their own sins............

Chu Nan sighed slightly in his heart, he wanted to persuade him, but he was still doing it, Guan He's heart was so deep that he had reached the point of falling into a demon, and it would be difficult to find a way to get rid of it, even if he knew that there was little hope and credibility was not high, he would still use it as a life-saving straw, and he would not believe anything if he persuaded him, as long as he said euphemistically: "Since you are willing to believe, you can do it, but don't be confused, you have to know ............." ”

Guan He leaned softly on Chu Nan's chest, wiped his eyes, burst out laughing, and said with a smile: "Are you worried that people will be cheated of money and sex?"

Chu Nan was a little embarrassed when his mind was exposed, but there are countless people who have used such a church to insult women throughout the ages, and when she saw that Guan He still had the heart to joke about it, she knew that she still had sobriety in her heart, maybe she was just taking this opportunity to find peace of mind, no matter what, her background was a major problem for Guan He, and now she will not let go even if there is a 1 in 10,000 opportunity.

Guan He pressed his cheek to Chu Nan's chest and explained softly: "I was also very surprised to know those monks, and later I learned that it was some noble ladies in the capital who got together to come up with this thing called the Red Lotus Society, instead of taking pity on themselves here, it is better to take the initiative to go out, maybe this is an opportunity............"

Chu Nan hugged Guan He with pity, and naturally understood what Guan He meant by the opportunity, Guan He is a member of the Chu family after all, and he has broken free from the quagmire of the world, and it is also an existence that ordinary people want to look up to, but unfortunately her background is really a big drawback in the traditional aristocratic circle, even a small nobleman will despise it, but if she is recognized by the noble ladies circle in the capital, even if she takes another step, her background will be diluted, and Guan He can also go to the heart disease.

Guan He stretched out his hand and hugged Chu Nan's waist, and whispered contemptuously in Chu Nan's arms: "Actually, I also feel guilty in my heart, and I am a little unworthy of you." In fact, even if what those eminent monks said was false, I would like to go through these hardships for you......... Every time I suffer a little more sin and suffer a little more, I feel a little closer to you...... I can't tell the joy of my heart............"

Chu Nan was in a complicated mood, indescribable pity, and he gave up his plan to continue persuasion after a long time, Chu Nan believed that if he taught Guan He a lesson with a straight face, Guan He would not go against his will even if he was unwilling in his heart, but he was afraid that Guan He would bury the knot deep in his heart in the future, and he would fall into his heart, patting Guan He's junior and saying with a smile: "Okay, as long as you are happy." ”

Guan He listened to the long breath, but he didn't do some ambiguous and fragrant tricks like Ping Yue, he just hugged Chu Nan tightly, rubbing hard in Chu Nan's arms, and there was a faint intermittent sobbing sound.

Chu Nan stroked Guan He's pale cheeks with both hands, pinched the towering on Guan He's chest downward, and said with a smile: "Whether you believe in religion or worship Buddha, you can't skip eating, look, you have lost a lot of weight here." ”

Guan He's face flushed, and he lightly slapped Chu Nan, and only then did he look a little more charming and moving.

(To be continued)