Is there a possibility that the world we live in is just a story written by ourselves, otherwise why would this world be unfolded in my vision?

I don't know what happened to me, everything has changed since that drowning in the ocean.

There are always strange images in my head, feeling like it's me and feeling like it's not me.

Am I or not.

I lay in bed in a daze, looking at the light cast from the roof, and they were so orderly.

I habitually reached out to my mobile phone to check the time, but I couldn't touch anything, so I hurriedly got up and lifted the quilt to look for a long time.

"Strange, what am I looking for?"

Suddenly I wondered if I was insane.

The door opened, and my sister came in with a medicine bowl and skillfully cleaned up the bed.

"Daddy said that when he fished you out of the sea, he listened to you talking nonsense all the time, and it felt like someone else had been rescued. But Doctor Qin said that there is nothing abnormal about your body, but it just hurts your brain."

As she spoke, her sister handed over the medicine bowl.

"yes, what if I wasn't me?" I smiled, as if I didn't think it was a joke.

"You are you, you are my brother, as long as you are alive, as long as you cultivate well, you will slowly get better, and you will become normal again", my sister clenched her little fist to cheer me up.

"Am I normal, I don't feel abnormal."

I'm also full of wonders, if I'm a psychopath.

"Do you remember your name now, how old you are, and what is your favorite food?" ，

My sister suddenly asked me excitedly.

"Lin Qinghe, twenty-eight years old, likes to eat tomato scrambled eggs", I replied without hesitation.

My sister looked at me in disappointment, shook her head slightly, and said:

"No, your name is not Lin Qinghe, you are not twenty-eight years old, tomato scrambled eggs...... What's that, you've been sick since you were rescued, and I'm really worried that one day you'll suddenly forget who you are......"

As she spoke, her sister wiped her tears.

"What, I'm not me! I'm not Lin Qinghe, this can't be, is it my mistake, or are you lying to me"

I really don't believe it's a problem with my brain.

"Are you my brother or not?" my sister grabbed by my sleeve.

I paused, my sister in my memory was already a big girl, but the sister in front of me was only shoulder-high......

"Then what is my name and how old ...... years".

I began to wonder if it was really me who had broken my brain and had a problem with my memory.

"Chido, nineteen years old, likes to eat dried fish boiled with sea snakes", my sister replied.

"What?"

Nineteen years old is so young, is this serious!

I rummaged around, and I was familiar with everything here, so I quickly found a mirror.

Whew-

I took a deep breath.

It's okay, it's not a monkey face!

What kind of stalk is the monkey, and this black face is like a coal digger, is it really me, I'm quite skeptical?

I tugged at my face hard, and sure enough, it was my own face, and it hurt.

I was silent for a moment and began to try to remember......

It was a sunny day, cloudless, a good day to go out to sea to fish, I stayed on the boat with my father for a day, and I gained a lot, but ......

Just as we had calmed down, a flash of lightning flashed.

In an instant, the wind swept in, the waves rolled, the ships shook, and the sky was covered with dark clouds.

"God says that change will change, hurry up and put away the sails!"

I reacted when I heard my father's words, and hurried to collect the sails, and all the fish I caught were scattered into the sea, but it was too late at this time, and it was a pity that it was important to save my life.

I clutched the mast hard and didn't dare to let go, and I faintly heard the sound of swords colliding in the thunder, thinking it was an auditory hallucination.

But the sound was getting closer and closer, and his head roared, and at some point, there was only cold sea water in his eyes, and he couldn't speak or breathe, and his whole body was weak......

"Brother!"

My sister's call brought me back to reality from my memories.

"Maybe I've been in a coma for too long and have some weird dreams."

I patted my head helplessly, and I couldn't remember those dreams vaguely. But it's so real, it seems to be a completely different world.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not myself anymore.

Looking at everything familiar in front of me, slowly returning to a normal state, this is my life, there is nothing to doubt about the same.

Everyone dreams, and there are so many strange dreams of all kinds that it's not strange to wake up from a dream, is it?

I went out and walked leisurely on the bluestone paved road as usual, with strange eyes all around.

It's normal for me, it's all about my handsomeness, and then look at my body, thin and thin, and the six-pack abs are okay.

"Ouch, it's good so soon"

"It's a big life, but there's something wrong with my brain"

"His skull doesn't hurt, it's time for our skull to hurt"

……

When I hear people pointing at me, I don't care at all, so I think it's jealousy.

But what puzzles me is that they are all neighbors, how can they be so impersonal, this is also a catastrophe, how much to say that it is good, right, but they wish I would be sick again.

"Alas, the world is going down."

I shook my head helplessly, thinking that I had helped them a lot back then.

Help them push the rotten wall that is about to fall.

Help them roast the sick hens,

Help them teach disobedient cubs a lesson. But in the end, no one appreciated it, and they shouted and beat everywhere.

In this broken countryside, wearing broken straw shoes, squatting in the open air when going to the toilet.

What's even more unbearable is to use leaves to solve problems, and it is difficult to explain how to use branches without leaves......

"What time is it?"

I habitually touched the side of my thigh, and it was strange, did these pants originally have no pants pocket?

Hey, what am I going to pay for?

I'm going, it's another foolish disease!

When I got home, I looked at this house made of broken wood, I had lived in it for more than ten years, although it was windy on all sides, and it was still leaking on rainy days, but this familiarity made me feel more at ease.

"Brother, you forgot to drink the medicine again and went out!"

When I got home, I was scolded by this little girl, she was not big, like an adult, she was well cleaned up inside and out.

"Ouch, Xiao Nizi is becoming more and more watery and virtuous, and I don't know which kid will be cheaper when she grows up", I touched her head.

"Bad brother, I hate it to death,"

Xiao Nizi ran out with a red face.

？？？

My face is full of question marks, did I say the wrong thing?

"Hurry up and drink the medicine!"

Xiao Nizi turned around and said again.

I picked up the medicine bowl and smelled it, the smell was so familiar, it smelled so bad, it seemed to be the smell of Huoxiang Zhengqi water.

Snoring, drank it in one gulp, and vomited for a long time.

"What kind of prescription is this Dr. Qin, is he trying to kill me?"

When my father heard Xiao Nizi say that my memory had recovered a little and that I was speaking normally, he dragged me to Dr. Qin's house to thank me, and I didn't forget to bring a few dried fish when I went out.

"I'm fine, I'm almost fine."

Doctor Qin gave me a number as usual.

"Thank you Doctor Qin, Doctor Qin is really a miracle doctor, a few days ago, this unfilial son was still confused, saying that he didn't belong here, and that he was not my son, but it was really thanks to Doctor Qin",

My father thanked me and pulled me along.

"How do you feel, can you remember when you stole my herbs to feed the pigs?" , Doctor Qin's eyes widened and asked me.

"Well, has this ever happened?" , I asked rhetorically.

"It seems that we have to continue to drink medicine", Dr. Qin took out a few more pairs of medicines.

"Spare my life, I suddenly remembered that incident, this Huoxiang Zhengqi Water is too unpalatable, so I don't need it", I immediately pushed it over.

"Huo Xiang...... What water? ”

Doctor Qin's face was full of doubts.

"It's Huoxiang Zhengqi Water, the medicine you gave me", I quickly explained.

"This is a medicine that I finally found, I found that it has a certain refreshing effect, and it is also good for the spleen and stomach, so I gave you this medicine, and you used to use it to feed pigs, which is really tyrannical!"

Doctor Qin took the medicine back, and the old man didn't forget to mention feeding the pigs.

"I'm sorry it was my fault," I blushed, thinking about what I had done before.

Then, wasn't this medicine originally called Huoxiang Zhengqi Water? I feel like my brain is a little messy......

"For your situation, it should be hysteria after severe brain damage, and you need to go out and do more activities and find familiar scenes to recover slowly."

In the end, Dr. Qin didn't give any more medicine, but repeatedly reminded me to go out more activities, which is also exactly what I want.

After that, my father instructed Xiao Nizi to follow me all the time, and she followed me wherever I went, for fear that I would suddenly fall ill.

"Ass, I'm going to the beach to see", it seems to me that I can't remember anything, maybe the beach has the answer.

"You're just a fart, if it weren't for the fear that you would get sick, I wouldn't have come", Xiao Nizi looked unhappy.

As for what happened after falling into the water, it stands to reason that I am very water-oriented, and I should not drown.

"Just go to catch the sea, order fresh seafood on the hour", my sister suddenly became happy again.

Women are fickle.

Living on the shore, you can hear the sound of the waves at any time, but it is still a long way to get to the beach, especially the straw sandals are particularly awkward to step on the reef, and the sand is relatively soft.

Every time I see the sea, I always feel familiar and mysterious, and I always fantasize about what the end of the vast sea will be.

"It would be great if I could engrave the original copy of this picture, and I can remember it when I turn it out later."

It seems that this kind of magical possibility exists in my impression, but the current reality is nothing.

"You can draw it."

While my sister spoke, she didn't forget to dig through the stones to find crabs.

It's not bad to draw, but it's so slow, many of the pictures appear instantly, and it's hard to restore if you miss it.

Walking on the beach and feeling the temperature of the sand and seawater, the memories are getting more and more chaotic.

There is always a figure that keeps appearing in front of me, but I can't remember what she looks like, a vague memory.

With a pain in my head, I crouched down, and at some point a wave hit me and drowned me.

My body was swept into the sea, and I felt the bitter taste of the sea, lost the strength to struggle, and was swallowed by the sea little by little, and fell into an infinite abyss.

A hand appeared and pulled me out of the water, out of the abyss, and it was my sister, who quickly dragged me to the shore.

"It's too dangerous here, let's go back"

Tears kept streaming down my sister's eyes, and she was scared, afraid of losing me again.

"Good"

In order not to worry her, I had to agree, indeed, facing the sea always made me messy, and even made me feel that I couldn't swim in the first place, and that deep sense of powerlessness.

That's what makes me so concerned, as if I'm not me, it's someone else, and there's someone else living in my inner world that affects my thinking, my behavior, my instincts, my judgment.

In the past, I didn't associate so much with a certain thing, let alone analyze the cause and effect.

However, now I don't think it is because I have changed my mind because of that drowning, or is it because people are constantly changing and growing?

And whether that figure is my fantasy or real existence doesn't really matter to me now, life still has to go on.

However, I've also found a way to memorize what I see and think every day, in case I suddenly forget something.

Also, is the sea water bitter in the first place, or is there a problem with the taste of my memory?