"They may have been frightened by your magic, but only the brave me, who overcame all odds and dangers, uncovered the outermost curse of the sealing magic."

"What did the magic end up getting you?"

What did you get? Kai Wei thought that his body and head were separated, and he could react on his own, he turned the light to the left, turned the steering wheel, moved his feet to the brake pad, and the action was done in one go. When he turned the corner, he suddenly thought that because he had drunk, he would say such sensual words.

"At least I've gained your trust and made an idiot who is willing to be friends with me, who is poor and white. I felt very lonely at that time. ”

"Lonely? Because everybody revolves around you? Kyung-hee wondered.

"You're right, because they all revolve around me. But I feel like I'm getting more and more transparent, I have to keep a lot of candy or other surprises in my pocket, I have to give the kids beautiful stationery from time to time, even if it's a pencil, I have to keep smiling, I have to be humorous, to make them laugh, they like to listen to me, that's why they surround me, but I also have sad times, I have troubles, I get tired of doing certain things. When I don't have sweets and snacks in my pocket, when I'm not asking for pocket money, when I can't afford to give them this or that, when I'm tired of laughing, when I'm not playing humorous, polite, well-bred children, then no one will surround me because I will only make them unhappy, but who will ask me if I am happy? ”

"Is this about to start the comparison?" Kyung-hee put on a look like he was going to duel.

Kai Wei glanced at Jing Xi, and immediately locked his eyes on the high-speed moving road. Both burst out laughing.

"Actually, it's not for nothing, if you remember the first thing you said to me, you'll be white, why did I suddenly run to be your tablemate."

"But I have the impression that I should never have spoken a word, not a word, to you before you became my tablemate. At best, I can't help but wonder how you do everything you can to amuse the crowd, but I only dare to peek a few times, because after being watched for a long time, everyone will react violently, and they will not hesitate to shout at me, or they will not hesitate to fight with me to force me to look away. Am I that scary? ”

Kai Wei laughed and said, "Because your eyes are too engaged and your expression is too cold, you will make people look at anyone like that, and they will shudder and doubt life, and I am one of them." ”

Jingxi did not refute, but generously accepted such an explanation. He wondered why Kai Wei was uncomfortable with being his tablemate, exposed to his gaze every day.

"Because I'm afraid."

"Scared? Are you afraid of me? Jing Xi was puzzled. He became more and more curious, and Kaiwei always piqued his curiosity.

"No, I'm afraid of human beings, although it's strange to say this, I'm undoubtedly a human being, but in my heart I feel that I'm not actually a human being, because I think I'm different from the people I know around me, especially women, whether it's a little girl or an old woman, I think that in fact, I and them should be two different species. I've been hiding this thought, and the best way to hide it is to disguise myself, to disguise myself as a human being, to be a beloved child, to please everyone. I was scared and insecure, but every time I managed to get the laughter of others, the uneasy feeling inside me vanished. I know it's a delusion, like drinking too much, and the light-hearted pleasure and sensory and emotional paralysis that comes with alcohol is temporary. Like alcohol, if I feel uneasy and fearful, I have to make the people around me happy, and if I can't fit into the human circle, I feel like I'm being found to be a different person. I will be looked at coldly, I will be discussed, I will be abandoned, I will be thrown chalk heads and paper balls, just like you were at that time. So to me, you're special, your life exudes magic. ”

"I still can't understand, you, who are addicted to alcohol, why can you finally quit, stop pleasing and continue to pretend, what about your fears, your uneasiness, they are like farts that you put out of the clouds?"

"It's all because of you."

The car stops at the red light, and in the early morning, there are no pedestrians in the streets of the city, and in the extra cars, there is no moon and stars, and in the early hours of autumn, all kinds of lights light up the darkness.

"What the hell did I do to you, I'm just a mortal, and I can't do almost anything except play games. Could it be that at that time you saw my potential in playing games, and you were close to me, thinking that you could hug your thighs in the future? ”

Kai Wei rolled his eyes and pressed the gas pedal lightly, turning left onto the empty highway.

"It's not that I see your potential, on the contrary, you see through my disguise, and it was the first words you said to me that made me completely change."

"So what the hell did I say? Can you help me recall? I really don't have a good memory, but that's only before I went to elementary school. If I really want to remember something, I can just type the approximate date into my head and bring up the file for that day. Jing Hee's implication was that if he really said anything to Kai Wei, then he would definitely remember it.

"At that time, I didn't hesitate to make myself embarrassed to amuse everyone, I was like a clown, I always deliberately put myself in an embarrassing and embarrassing situation, causing everyone to laugh, but I was not good enough to make myself a pitiful bullied joke. That time I was doing three eggs in front of everyone and I was secretly watching the video at home for a long time, and I practiced with my dad's golf ball, otherwise I would have filled the whole house with the smell of the farm. After a while, throwing three eggs was a piece of cake for me, but I deliberately made a mistake in front of everyone, I had to surprise them when they were all cheering for me, I let an egg fall on my forehead, both the technique and my realistic acting skills made everyone think it was an accident, not intentionally, I succeeded in causing everyone to laugh, psychological satisfaction, but my face showed an embarrassed expression of mistake in front of everyone. Do you remember that time? You watched from afar, and I saw you, I saw your eyes. ”

"I remember, yes, but at that time, how could I say anything to you?"

"You didn't say it, but I heard it."

"What do you hear? Mr. Auditory Hallucinations. ”

"I'm not hallucinating, I read your eyes, you're saying, I'm pretending."

"I remember it, but who remembers what I was thinking, maybe I just thought you were an idiot? Then again, if my tricks are seen through by me, you should stay away from me. The crazy guy may choose to kill people. ”

"How old was I?"

"But your mind is not like a child, and although you look like you, you are actually a rebellious teenager."

"Well, I did think that it would be nice if I could make you disappear from this world, and I even started to plot my plan, and I watched quite a few high-level crime novels and movies for it."

"But I'm still sitting in your co-pilot?" Jing Xi joked that he wouldn't believe this kind of bullshit.

Kai Wei glanced at Jing Xi, revealing a sinister and vicious evil and distorted smile, if it weren't for all these years of getting along day and night, Jing Xi might really be fooled, thinking that Kai Wei had already done something to himself at this moment, and everything was under his control.

"I didn't kill you because I thought death was a relief for human beings, I thought about liberation, but I didn't do it in the end, not because I was afraid that my parents would be sad after I died, and I was still attached to some things in this world, but because I was afraid of the unknown itself, I didn't have the courage to kill myself, but if someone was willing to kill me, I would be very happy. I'm not going to send you on your way, how could I watch such a good thing happen at the hands of a scumbag who holds my handle. ”

"So you didn't kill me, but became my tablemate, do you want to repay the grievances with virtue?"

"Friends keep secrets for their friends, right?" Kai Wei's tone suddenly became gentle.

Jing Xi was silent and did not respond, he looked out the car window in the early morning, the car drove past the colorful lights of the high bridge, in front of him was a picture of the bay and the bustling city spliced together into a dark blue style.

Jing Xi was difficult to speak, answering yes or no, nodding or shaking his head, he couldn't do it. What he fears the most is to expose the most genuine emotions in his heart.

"I feel lonely, I feel like I'm not human, so I, I see you, I see you as if you're the same kind, I think you're brave, I'm thinking why you don't have to pretend, how can you be brave in the face of the group's strange views and words. Although I know now, it is not like that, and our situation is actually the complete opposite. Anyway, we ended up being friends, and I slowly felt as if I was less lonely and became braver, as if there was someone standing with me against the evil of this world, but I think it might not be how much you can afford it, but when I know that someone is really willing to do that for me, you will become very brave. ”

Jing Xi was moved by Kai Wei's words in his heart, but in order to hide his emotions, he immediately joked and said: "You're sure you like women, right, you're not interested in men at all, right, you'd better think about it before answering, you know I have a pair of eyes that see through everything, just like I used to see through your disguise." ”

Kai Wei couldn't cry and laughed, and said: "Don't worry, I don't have soap at home, and I usually bathe with shower gel." I also hope that you don't have dirty soap in the bathroom either. ”

The two people in the car were talking about each other, and time passed in a flash, as if the accelerator pedal under Kaiwei's feet was on the brake plate, and the moment they switched. They had arrived at Kyung-hee's residence, in front of the house his grandfather had left for him.

Jing Xi stepped out of the car in a daze, and stayed where he was with an expressionless face, staring at everything in front of him.

"Would you like to talk again?" Saying that, Kai left the driver's seat without waiting for Jing Hee's answer and walked to Jing Xi's side.

The two did not speak, but walked to the stone staircase in front of the door of the house and sat down.

"What should I do?" Jingxi said suddenly.

Kai Wei has been waiting for Jing Xi to speak, he has been leading the topic all along, but he has avoided the most critical issues. Because he wants Kyung-hee to say it himself, a person who wants to lock himself in his room, no matter how you ring the doorbell or knock on the door, as long as you don't actually smash the door, you will never want to see that person. The only thing you can do is wait patiently for the occupants to open the door, provided that the owner of the room believes that you are a sick Little Red Riding Hood and not a big bad wolf who wants to eat him.

The Big Bad Wolf and Little Red Riding Hood, sometimes like two sides of a coin, are nothing more than two different options.

"What to do?" Kai didn't pretend to be stupid, but his expression was very sincere, and he has always been good at acting, which was exercised since childhood.

"I was a little overwhelmed by the amount of money that came out all at once."

"Are you overwhelmed with happiness?"

"No, I'm a little scared, in the earliest time, I can also think that I won the jackpot, got rich overnight, and went to a lucky life, but now it's different, the amount of money is suddenly beyond my imagination, I even feel that no matter how much I squander, until the day I die, I can't even spend a fraction."

"It sounds like showing off your wealth."

"Then let's change the position, what will you do if suddenly there is so much money on the bank card."

Kai Wei thought about it seriously for a while, even if he didn't need to think about it at all or think about it for so long, but he wanted Jing Xi to see that he had indeed been thinking about it for a while.