"That's ......" Xia Xingran seemed to understand something, and glanced at Bai Moyan on the bench, her eyes gradually turned from shock to disappointment, until the star-like light in her eyes completely dimmed.

She bit her lip and pondered for a long time, trying to change into a calm look and tell a white lie.

"I'm mistaken, I'll go back and change my grandmother's medicine in a while, and she won't be so uncomfortable."

Xia Xingran forcibly held back the overturning of the river and the sea in his heart, walked back to Bai Moyan's side, and briefly closed his eyes and took a breath.

When she opened her eyes again, she stared directly at Bai Moyan and asked, "Brother Moyan, tell me honestly, did the grandmother with pancreatic (gland) cancer sign the drug trial agreement?" ”

Bai Moyan's face full of spring breeze instantly turned sharply, his pupils shrank, and his body shook slightly.

Xia Xingran felt that at this moment, her whole world was turned upside down.

"Test the drug without the patient's consent. You are using patients as free experiments, and to put it mildly, you are simply ignoring human life! ”

Xia Xingran seemed to be burning with an inextinguishable fire in her heart, scorching her conscience and making her miserable at the moment, with trembling in her voice.

"Xiao Ran, I'm here to keep her alive, this is the only possible way." Bai Moyan hurriedly argued.

"Then you asked the grandmother if you did. Looking at her physical condition, the new drug is not only killing her cancer cells, but also her normal cells. Brother Mo Yan, can't you see how painful she is? The patient's life is her own, and she has the right to choose for herself, rather than being reduced to a drug testing tool! ”

Xia Xingran's face was flushed, his heart was shocked, for the first time in his life, he yelled at Bai Moyan without grace, and then walked past him.

Bai Moyan looked at Xia Xingran's resolute back, and truly experienced an unprecedented torture in his heart, which made him miserable.

He paced back and forth in front of the bench with his hands on his hips, his head bowed, and after a dozen rounds, he suddenly raised his head and immediately ran towards the office.

……

The first thing Xia Xingran did when he entered the office of the surgical ward was to immediately stop the grandmother's new medicine. Zhong Lin, who had just finished lunch, glanced at the computer and immediately pressed Xia Xingran's hand.

"Xiao Ran, you can't do this." Xia Xingran looked at Zhong Lin in disbelief and said in a trembling voice, "Uncle Zhong, how can you also be in the same league with them?" ”

Zhong Lin sighed and tilted his head unconsciously: "This is Bai Zhengqian's order, if you stop taking medicine without permission, you will destroy the process and data." Do you think he'll let you go? ”

Xia Xingran was stunned, and then sneered: "The hospital is a place to treat diseases and save people, when has it become a test place for doctors to compete for fame and profit." Uncle Bai has been in love with his father for many years, how can he turn his father's hard work like this! ”

"Xiao Ran, it's been five years. The hospital is no longer what it was when your father was there. If you want to stay in the hospital any longer, you have to turn a blind eye. Zhong Lin was full of helplessness, but he also had to compromise for the sake of the family's livelihood.

Xia Xingran's heart experienced a great pain, but his eyes became more and more determined, completely abandoning the worry and anxiety caused by the confrontation with Bai Zhengqian. She pushed Zhong Lin away and held her hand and pressed Enter on the keyboard to submit.

"Uncle Zhong, I'm going to ask the patient's opinion now, and if she doesn't want to use it, I will definitely stop the medicine immediately." When she walked out of the office, an invisible and solid fortress had been built in her heart, and no one could shake her heart.

She looked at the four big words "Save the Life and Help the Wounded" posted in the corridor, which were written by Xia Qingyi when the hospital was founded. I only felt a tingling pain in my heart, and a vague mist gradually rose in my eyes.

She walked steadily towards the ward, and the thoughts in her heart became clearer and clearer: whether it was her father's medical skills or her father's philosophy, she would do her best to inherit and carry it forward.

The sun in mid-spring is not dry, the clouds are ethereal, and the blue sky gradually becomes brighter, as if splashed with a thick golden ink.

……

When Xia Xingran approached Grandma Teng's ward, she was vomiting violently again, and Grandpa Teng's face was full of distress, but there was nothing he could do.

She hurriedly poured a glass of water for Grandma Fuji to rinse her mouth, but as soon as she drank it, Grandma Teng vomited again.

Considering Grandma Teng's condition, Xia Xingran only invited Grandpa Teng out.

"Grandpa Fuji, I'll have something to say. I saw my grandmother's illness, and there was no more possibility. You can also see the new targeted drugs, which will only make grandma more painful. If you insist on using it, we'll continue, but I hope you let Grandma have a good last day. ”

Xia Qingyi taught her since she was a child: medicine does not die of disease, and the Buddha is destined to be a person. Human life must have quality and meaning, and if it is only painful to maintain a breath, it is better to ascend to bliss as soon as possible.

Grandpa Teng didn't speak, Xia Xingran turned his head to look at him, his wrinkled face, like a ravine, criss-crossed, full of tears, woven into a net on his face.

"I'll go out for a walk and think about it. Thank you, Dr. Xia. Grandpa Teng covered his face and slowly got up, and staggered forward.

He cried silently, and walked through one ward after another, until he reached the end of the ward, lying on the railing, bent over his waist, trembling and trembling.

Xia Xingran looked at his back, and a huge powerlessness and remorse rose in his heart. It's like a blunt knife, cutting through the heart repeatedly.

There is the most affectionate person in the world, and it is really cruel to give up the life of the person you love the most.

There was a faint call from Grandma Teng in the ward, Xia Xingran immediately came back to her senses, hurriedly walked in and asked, "Grandma Teng, is there anything uncomfortable?" ”

Grandma Teng smiled kindly and motioned for Xia Xingran to help her open the drawer of the bedside table. Inside was a paper bag containing several dorayaki pieces.

"Dr. Xia, I actually know that I have cancer. My old man has lost all his wealth, and in the end he is only empty of people and money. ”

She held the paper bag, which gradually became stained with water.

"I like to eat the dorayaki of this house, especially the bean paste-flavored one, and for so many years, the old man has bought it for me every few days."

Grandma Fuji's voice gradually choked: "After I got sick, I ate and vomited, I wanted to eat another bite of the dorayaki he bought for me, but unfortunately it didn't work." ”

Xia Xingran turned his face away, trying to suppress the emotion of breaking the embankment and not let himself cry.

"Doctor Xia, I don't want to be treated. You can help me persuade the old man to let me be discharged from the hospital. For the rest of the day, I want to accompany him well, three meals a day, and the morning glow and sunset. ”

Grandma Teng's skinny hands were already pulling up, but she was still holding Xia Xingran with all her might, and her tone was full of pleading.

Xia Xingran couldn't hold back any longer, put her head on Grandma Teng's hand, and cried vaguely: "Okay, I'll convey it for grandma." Grandma, you must be happy and spend the rest of your days with grandpa. ”

When Xia Xingran was about to close the door, there happened to be a ray of sunlight shining into the ward, reflecting on Grandma Teng's almost transparent face.

Grandma Fuji greeted the sun, hugged the dorayaki in her arms tightly, her eyebrows and eyes gradually softened, Xia Xingran seemed to see her at the age of 20.

Time will always be kind to those who have love in their hearts.

……

After explaining to Grandpa Fuji, Grandpa Fuji decided to respect Grandma Fuji's wishes. So Xia Xingran finished writing the discharge summary in Zhong Lin's uncontrollable sigh.

After everything was done, she didn't want to rest, so she went straight back to the surgical clinic to prepare for an early afternoon consultation.

As soon as she entered the door of the department, she saw Bai Moyan leaning against the door of her consultation room, looking like she was waiting for her.

Xia Xingran didn't want to pay attention to him, walked to the table and turned on the computer, and began to arrange the order to prepare for the call.

"Xiao Ran, I'm sorry." In the end, Bai Moyan opened his mouth first, Xia Xingran raised his head, and found that one of his cheeks was swollen and tall, and there were clear red slap prints when he looked closely!

"Your dad beat you again, didn't he?" Xia Xingran's heart softened suddenly, and he reached out to touch Bai Moyan's face, looking nervous and distressed.

"Someone has to solve this matter, and I've already told my dad that he won't trouble you." Bai Moyan raised his hand and held Xia Xingran's hand back, dressed in white and with black hair, his eyes flashed with glass.

"Brother Mo Yan, I heard what Uncle Zhong said, I misunderstood you, and I am the one who should say sorry." Xia Xingran lowered his head, his face full of self-blame.

Hearing this, a rather triumphant smile suddenly appeared on Bai Moyan's handsome face.

"In this case, it is better for you to accompany me to watch the stage play "Pride and Prejudice" after work today, which will be regarded as compensation." Bai Moyan took out two tickets from his pocket and shook them in front of Xia Xingran.

"Wow, this is my favorite novel since I was a kid! Brother Mo Yan, where are you compensating, it is clearly a reward for changing the law! As Bai Moyan expected, Xia Xingran was very surprised.

"That's it, I'll pick you up after work and go together after dinner." Bai Moyan rubbed Xia Xingran's soft and fluffy hair, and there was an indescribable charm in his smile.

He returned to his office, turned on his phone, took a picture of his face, and closed his eyes. The phone screen came with information, and it suddenly lit up, only to see that the page was still stuck in the web search, and the search bar was a bitter meat meter.