This night, Xu Qing dreamed of many things when he was a child.

"Xu Qing, your dad is going to touch the porcelain car again! I heard that I touched a luxury car this time, and people gave him a lot of money. My mother said that this was the most successful time your father touched porcelain, so he broke a little skin, didn't go to the hospital, and went to the other side of the river to gamble! ”

"Xu Qing, I just saw your dad come back, and grandpa chased him behind and scolded him. I listened to that as if he had taken all the money that my grandfather had recently made from selling benches and chairs. My mother said that your father is a debt collector, and sooner or later your grandfather will tire him to death and be angry, why don't you cut off relations with him? ”

"Xu Qing, your father called and said that grandpa was sick and he had no money to pay, so let you hurry over."

"Xu Qing, the classmates initiated a donation, the money is not much, you take it to see your grandfather first. I heard that the old man is tired of illness, and when he is better, you have to take good care of him, and tell him that you can't skip meals and sleep, nothing is more important than your body and bones. If you have any financial difficulties, the teacher can help you apply for poverty assistance from the school. ”

……

From childhood to adulthood, if Dad is the shadow cast on her, then Grandpa is the sunshine shining on her. Grandpa was ill for many years, diabetes caused many complications, and finally the kidneys failed, and the most dangerous rescue occurred on the eve of the college entrance examination. Just a little bit, Grandpa was gone.

She failed the college entrance examination.

She has no capital to repeat her studies, and she can only obey the adjustment, and choosing a major that looks the most glamorous and can make money is the only fate she can decide.

Every day, she looks forward to making money independently as soon as possible, taking her grandfather over, leaving the muddy countryside and far away.

She sketched out everything related to her grandfather, and in the end, he disappeared from her life. It didn't die at the hands of the sick, and it didn't die at the hands of that garbage daddy.

Because of her, she died at a thank-you banquet.

Xu Qing suddenly lost his breath, crying and being pulled back to reality. When she opened her eyes, the pillow was already soaking wet. She got up and changed her clothes and went to the window.

The Changjiang River is as turbulent as ever, and her ending lurks on the other side.

Later, Jiang Yi learned of the recording incident and made a big fuss with Xu Qing. I first heard the sound of her throwing a cup in the pantry, and then saw her being dragged to the conference room by Xu Qing, until the door was thrown shut, blocking the curious eyes of the people who ate melons.

Xu Qing threw her into a chair: "If you want Gu Yan to know that you are wearing small shoes for me in the Moguan Cup, you can just shout out." ”

"You ......" Jiang Yi gritted his teeth, "Don't think that if you have Gu Yan's backing, I will be afraid of you!" Xu Qing, you caused my aunt to be replaced, I will definitely not spare you in this matter! ”

"Changing the guard?"

"Do you know what it means to change the guard at the association? I almost posted a notice directly to tell everyone that she made a mistake, and she didn't fire her directly because of the situation! My aunt has been working hard in the director post for 30 years, and she will retire in two more years, just because of your report, she has lost all her face! Speaking of the back, Jiang Yi covered her face, tears burst out of her eyes uncontrollably, "Now she can't raise her head at all in the association, she is depressed every day, she doesn't speak and refuses to see me, she used to be the ...... who loved me the most"

It can be seen that she has a deep relationship with her aunt, crying tears and snot together, completely losing the dignity of the usual delicate pig.

Xu Qing rarely gets a similar preference from his family, and when he thinks about it, he is the only grandfather. If one day Grandpa is humiliated because of her, she probably can't ...... It's unbearable.

She took the tissue paper and put it in Jiang Yi's hand.

"I didn't report it."

"Not who will you be? Auntie said, you have my recording in your hand. Jiang Yi swept away the facial paper, "I don't want you to be pretending to be kind, Xu Qing, you are so despicable!" ”

Xu Qing's eyes turned cold: "If you hadn't made small moves behind your back first, how could Director Jiang be pinched by me?" Isn't all the face she lost because of you? ”

"You talk nonsense!" Jiang Yi trembled, pointed at her nose and scolded, "My aunt loves me the most, so she won't ...... It's all your fault, it's all your fault, you're filthy, you're shameless, you're ......"

"Jiang Yi! If it weren't for your incompetence, you wouldn't be able to clean up an acre and a third of the land in the office, would your aunt come forward to help you? In addition to tossing the little girl's things all day long and running after Liao Yifan, what other thing did you do well? ”

Her words were too ruthless, and she directly nailed Jiang Yi in place.

"You have to have the ability, go on your own, I won't leave."

Jiang Yi held back his tears and stared at Xu Qing for a moment. In fact, they are about the same age, but Xu Qing entered the society earlier than her, and there are many things that her peers do not have.

She's deeper, more sophisticated, more marginal, and unpredictable.

After an unknown time, Jiang Yi said, "Okay, you wait." She turned to leave, when she suddenly remembered something, and paused, "Give me back the recording." ”

Fortunately, the phone just broke the screen before, and the recording is still there. Xu Qing took out his mobile phone: "Give me the original video of the day of the dinner." ”

"What original?" Jiang Yizhi frowned, "I don't know what you're talking about, what original video, I don't know." I'm not like you, record this and that, do you have persecution paranoia? Otherwise, someone has nothing to do all day and has a recording on. ”

Jiang Yi wiped his tears, and the person came back to life, "I will admit everything I have done, and if I haven't done it, you also want to frame me!" ”

Xu Qing pondered for a while, nodded, didn't say anything, and deleted the recording in front of her.

But if it weren't for Jiang Yi, who would be the person who threatened her with the video to give up "The Great Power"? Xu Qing seemed to be walking in a fog, reaching out and not seeing his five fingers, and his body was full of dangers.

Luo Wenwen is in dire straits, and she proves to her all the time that "a Jingpiao wants to gain a foothold in Jingdezhen", and designers have to face not only front-end users and terminal development, but also countless dark tides, such as unspoken rules such as internal determination and buying, such as plagiarism, imitation and other chaos, such as voyeurism hidden behind the wall, and the heart of the beast under the human face.

Today she can use the recording to coerce Director Jiang to ensure that she enters the finals, and tomorrow others can also use the video to coerce her to give up "The Great Power Heavy Weapon". Today she can let Xu Xiaohe use the media to build momentum, and tomorrow Cheng Yubai can also use her title to brush off her works. She can report the internal audit corruption of the Chunyuan Porcelain Association, and the Chunyuan Porcelain Association can also arrest her as a traitor.

What kind of world is this?

If you step on it, is it an abyss?

At night, Xu Qing sat by the river and drank, and Xu Zhiliu asked her, "Do you regret it?" ”

She shook her head.

I don't regret it, I'm a little hesitant. "Before I came back, I thought about what the road ahead would be like, and I expected the ups and downs and difficulties, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult."

When I really got involved in it, I realized how powerless it was. is not a one-way trip to Bai's side of resistance, Luo Wenwen himself is also a pool of deep water, plus he is coerced by capital, whether it is "The Great Power Heavy Weapon" or the Chunyuan Porcelain Association, there are too many untouchable coldness. Xu Qing couldn't help but sigh: "What I want to do, what I want to do, what I want to achieve, what I want to achieve are too far away." ”

"Want to give up?"

"No way." She laughed, and the wind blew her hair flying. A pale face, with glass earrings shaking, shaking her whole person bright and moving.

Xu Zhiliu remembered the conversation she had with Gu Yan that day, about seeing her struggle in the Moguan Cup, and at the end Gu Yan said: "When you came to Luo Wenwen to report on the first day, I said that you have something in you that others don't have, guess what?" ”

She had already guessed what it was, yes, ambition.

Liao Yifan showed a little strangeness when he saw her resume, just this subtlety made Gu Yan, who was incompatible with him, change his prejudice against "million designers" and take the risk to give her a chance, and she also used her strength to prove to Gu Yan that not all million designers are bubbles.

This young girl, who seems to be a little quiet and withdrawn, occasionally laughs with a sharp edge in her eyes. No one knew that when she returned to Jingdezhen, she had greater ambitions and intentions.

At this moment, Xu Zhiliu couldn't help but think of Xiao Liang. When Xiao Liang is not smiling, he is inconspicuous in the hidden crowd, but when he laughs, his curved eyebrows and eyes are deeply sunken dimples, and the whole person is radiant. That boy was a bright light in his dark life, which he could not deny, could not avoid, and could not even forget.

Every time he closed his eyes and was eaten by maggots, he also longed for their arrival.

He picked up the beer beside him and gently touched Xu Qing: "The wins and losses of a person's life are just a game with themselves, Xu Qing, you know what you want." ”

Xu Qing raised his hand, and the cans made a crashing sound in the night.

"The moon is also very big and round here. Xu Zhiliu, if you have a chance, I will take you to see the starry sky and the polar night. "Even if you can't live under the same moonlight as your deceased, when the moonlight falls, the pain and longing in your heart will be immortal.

The young man's heart was vivid: "Okay." ”

"Then it's settled."

Xu Qing looked up at the moon, "Until that day comes, I will never admit defeat." ”