A white-headed young man at the age of twenty, Xu Qing asked herself if she would never see a second one again in her life, and at that moment she knew that she had to fulfill him.

Xu Zhiliu asked her, can she look down on life and death after thousands of sails? As she said, he is alive, a living creature, and how can a living creature be merciless? So many people have abandoned their selfishness and devoted themselves to great causes, so why not allow him to be selfish?

He decided that Xiao Liang was not dead and was still waiting for him.

In the wind and rain, whether he is alive or dead, he has to go to see Xiaoliang, he has to go.

"If you are in the same situation as me, Xiao Liang will be replaced by Cheng Yubai, and you will also go to see him. Xu Qing, if you can understand the unspeakable pain in my heart, you can't stop me anymore. Unless one day, you can give up your journey. I ask you, can you forsake him? ”

Xu Qing can't.

She was speechless for a long time, and went to drink with the spring and summer bowl that night.

Cheng Yubai didn't return overnight, thinking that she was accompanying Li Ke in the hospital, but she called Cheng Yubai at noon, but Cheng Yubai didn't answer. This is very unusual, no matter how busy he is, a scoop of drinks will be opened, he and Xiao Qi, at least one person will stay in the store, but no one can be contacted today.

Xu Qing was vaguely uneasy.

She sat in the flower hall for a while, went back to her room to change her clothes, and took the keys to go out. On the way to the hospital, the mobile phone buzzed and vibrate, and the news in the small group continued, Xia Yang called directly to say that someone had committed suicide in the Magnolia Mansion, and sent a picture of the scene.

When Xu Qing saw it, his heart sank to the bottom.

It's Li Ke.

Li Ke committed suicide.

When he came to Jingdezhen this time, he guessed that his days were not long, and in addition to his clothes, he also brought a box of porcelain. Thin fetal leather lamp, hanging plate, such as Sanyang Kaitai and other precious glazes, all kinds of porcelain porcelain, a large box, are all made by his own hands, in the prosperity of the top ten porcelain factories sold to all roads, sales of tens of millions of pieces.

Now, holding a box of beloved treasures, he has achieved a lifetime of achievements and jumped from the tower of the Magnolia Mansion. The fragmented family, along with the fragmented utensils, "dies" in the present generation.

A few days later, a scoop of drinks hung up a sign that was temporarily closed, and Cheng Yubai took Li Ke back to Yaoli Ancient Town.

Xu Qing was going to go with her, but Yuan Xing suddenly deceived her and found a project for her in Jingdezhen, she had to postpone the plan and meet with the person in charge, who still had concerns about her. She was not reluctant, and immediately went home to pack her luggage as soon as she left, and Wu Yi called her halfway to ask her to come over.

The two masters and apprentices looked at each other in the Wangshan Pavilion where they used to drink, and after a long time, Wu Yi took out a piece of silk gold and said, "Transfer it to Yibai for me." ”

She took it, but said, "He won't take it." ”

"Take it with you, and see if he has any relatives alive."

"I see."

Xu Qing sat for a while, seeing that the time was about the same, and was about to leave. Wu Yi stopped her again and sighed: "Do you know why this pavilion is called Wangshan?" ”

Xu Qing didn't know, Wu Yi said, "A scoop of the pavilion facing the Changjiang River was not called the Wind Pavilion at the beginning, it was called the Herb, two kinds of weeds, it also means overgrown with weeds, I asked Yibai, he said that was his state of mind at the time, I don't think it's good, let him change to the wind, the wind blows the earth, the wildfire is endless, there is a little hope." It took a long time for Ichibai to compromise, so I renamed the pavilion Lookout Mountain. I hope that he can grow from wild grass to a big tree, and I also hope that the soil will become a mountain, not to fight with the grass, and I hope that the overgrown Jingdezhen porcelain industry in his heart can be verdant and verdant. Only his temperament, I have always said, is not enough to be round, and it is easy to be excessive, and he acts mercilessly, and he is afraid that he will suffer a little. ”

Li Ke committed suicide suddenly, and he also committed suicide in the Magnolia Mansion, which must be related to a series of recent events. Although Zhang Shuoyang and others said that they deceived people too much, how could he ever compare his heart with his heart?

"I don't know if he'll be able to get through this time."

Cheng Yubai is good at patience, but he is proud. His father died early, his mother didn't love him, he had few relatives, Li Ke was his master and father, and he went against it, raising him as a grace, and hating him alone.

This is a difficult question to solve.

Xu Qing rushed to Yaoli on the way, a little regretful, the project is not in a hurry for a day or two, but she has such a reputation, and time is tight, if the bet fails, she will be in debt, I am afraid that it will also add a burden to Cheng Yubai. She thought a lot about it at the time, and everything was reasonable, but she forgot that even if he said it didn't matter, he might need her by his side, which was love.

And she, it seems, didn't do a good job. She felt annoyed when she thought of this.

The drive takes about an hour and a half, she set off at six o'clock in the evening, and arrived near Dongbu Ancient Street at half past seven, which is a prosperous area of the ancient town, adjacent to the ancient wharf, with many Ming and Qing dynasty buildings, as well as celebrity ancestral halls and old residences. She walked along the shop for a while, and then she heard the sound of suona blowing, and went deep into the residential area, and not far away she saw the door of a house with white flags hanging on it.

The lights of the ancient town are noisy at night, compared with one, a little white in the dusk, which is particularly dazzling.

Xiao Qi was waiting for guests at the door, and when he saw her coming, he took a few steps forward and talked about the past few days. Xu Qing roughly understood the customs of funerals here, and didn't speak again when he asked about the cremation time, but Xiao Qi muttered about the arrangement of the mansion's suspension of classes, but fortunately, he used the relationship this time, and spent a lot of money, so he didn't let the suicide incident ferment on the Internet.

Capital stepped on thunder, and did not dare to eat human blood steamed buns casually.

This time it was a tacit understanding, several forces were pressing the hot search, Jingdezhen was shrouded in dark clouds, and it was calm for a while. Xu Qing asked him what he planned next, Xiao Qi knew that she was not asking herself, pointed to the room and shook her head.

Xu Qing went in to take a look at Cheng Yubai, hurriedly glanced at the old man in the ice coffin, looked away, and found a corner to sit down.

After nightfall, the number of guests gradually decreased, and Cheng Yubai stayed for vigil. Xu Qing came over with a bowl of clear soup, he took it and drank it, patted the mattress beside him, and asked her to sit together for a while.

In just two or three days, he lost weight, his cheeks were slightly sunken, and his chin was covered with stubble, and he could see that he was very tired, but his eyes were still bright. He asked Xu Qing: "Are you afraid of staying here?" ”

"Afraid of what? I did the same with my grandfather when he left. ”

Cheng Yubai wanted to say that it was different, grandpa was born, old, sick and died, and his face did not change much from before his death, but Li Ke was different, he fell off his skull and broke a few pieces, and now he is covered with silk cloth, and he can think of it if he can't see it, and several young people don't dare to come in.

When the words came to his lips, he suddenly remembered the situation in her family at that time, I'm afraid there are not even many people who can help him, who can't cure the funeral? Besides, his fire has no reason at all.

Cheng Yubai was silent for a while, took Xu Qing's hand, and asked, "Did you blame me at that time?" ”

"To be honest, I hate you, not only you, but also the teacher, and everyone present, you have seen me the most embarrassed, but I still haven't kept my only relative. After realizing that I was going to lose my grandfather forever and that I was the only one in the world from now on, I really hated it to death, I felt that the world was so unfair, and I felt that hard work was useless, and at that time I had a very bad temper, and I was misanthropic and very negative about everything, and I felt that this damn world would not let me go as I wished anyway, so come on, and see when it tortures me to death. After I went to Shanghai, I thought about it many times, but when I thought about it, was I defeated like this? To be honest, it's really hard to calm down, and I'm very unwilling, I don't want to leave like this, and I want to come back...... I thought that even if I came back to see you, maybe I would be happier if you had a bad time. ”

She took his hand in turn and clasped his fingers together.

The candle flame on the altar is shaking, and the mountains outside the courtyard gate of the cave are solemn, this moment is rare in the world, and it is silent.

"I thought I would be happy if you experienced the same embarrassment and the same severe pain as me, but this is not the case, it turns out that revenge on someone is also revenge on yourself."

"What about him? Who is he taking revenge on? ”

Cheng Yubai knew what she meant by these words, she was encouraging him around the corner, he tried to understand, but it was still difficult to accept.

He was very tired, leaning on Xu Qing's shoulder, his eyelashes trembling, and he wanted to close his eyes, but as soon as he closed his eyes, he saw Li Ke's appearance when he died, and he immediately opened his eyes.

"When I went back to the hospital that night, I thought he would still make trouble, so I was prepared, and I repeatedly told myself, don't quarrel with him, don't be angry with him, don't worry about a patient, but you know what? He was very obedient, and took the initiative to talk to me about the Baicai reform, that was the first time in so many years that he was willing to listen to me, I said a lot, about my investigation, the changes of the times, the voice of contemporary ceramic people, I told him, we talked until late at night, this time he did not explicitly object, I am very happy. He also said that he would listen to the doctor, actively cooperate with chemotherapy, take medicine well, and when he recovered, he hoped to go to the mansion to teach.

That's what I want, and of course I'd like to see him cheer up. Seriously, I can't remember how many years it took, we didn't have the same conversation as we did that night, I couldn't sleep happily and smoked outside the hospital for the rest of the night. I thought, even if the sky falls, it doesn't matter, Master is willing to try to understand me, and I am very touched.

But the next morning he disappeared, I went to the hotel to look for him, the front desk said that he checked out, and said that he wanted to go back to his hometown, I immediately went to the station, found that the train number was wrong. I asked someone to find a relationship and check the surveillance, but I couldn't find him inside and out. I know he lied to me, but I don't know where he is. How big is Jingdezhen? But I couldn't find him, and after looking for a long time, they told me that he was in the mansion. By the time I got to the mansion, he was dead.

Xu Qing, tell me, what does he think? Who exactly does he want to take revenge on? ”

In fact, he didn't have a premonition at all, when he calmed down one cigarette after another, he found that Li Ke had changed too quickly. He went to ask Xiao Qi, and Xiao Qi said that after he rushed to the mansion that day, Li Kezeng begged him to go to the mansion together. Perhaps seeing him being attacked in the teaching department and being blamed by Liu Hong and others, Li Ke knew that this matter was caused by him, so he couldn't bear to reconcile with him.

Xiao Qi said, this is a good thing, isn't it?

He knew that Li Ke was a person who didn't eat hard and soft, but he still couldn't help but have a trace of illusion, hoping that Li Ke would really figure it out and stop working with him, but who knew that he suddenly held a box of net worth and died in the mansion.

That's where he conducts his teaching experiments, what does he mean exactly? Cheng Yubai thought about it for a long time, but he still couldn't figure it out.

As a child, he lived in the moral kidnapping of "Revival Baicai". When he grew up, he lived in the rebellion of the "Baicai Reform". He thought he could be alone for the rest of his life, moving forward with unwavering faith. He told himself over and over again that he would never doubt his faith, so he strutted and became invincible.

While he was in pain, he was attached to the love and warmth of the world, and at the same time he woke up and pulled out those bonds.

He admits that he does not want to be alone, and he still holds his faith and vows to die.

To this day, he was suddenly confused and had a vast chill.

"My father, my master, they all loved porcelain as much as their lives and died for porcelain. One day, I'll be like this, right? ”

How does this end? Cheng Yubai asked himself, when he tried his best to implement the Baicai reform, wasn't the worst outcome planned for a long time? What is he afraid of? He looked at Xu Qing, who was thin under the candlelight, heard Xiao Qi's forbearance crying outside the house, and thought of the fat man's regretful return to his hometown, Qin Feng blew up the kiln, and the only master committed suicide in school......

He admits he was scared.

He stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around Xu Qing, his face buried in her neck, and his shoulders shrugged slightly.

At the funeral the next day, Xu Qing did not accompany him and walked around the village of Yaoli. The village is full of Hui style buildings, with high horses' heads, white walls and gray tiles, mountains and rivers, and slow carriages and horses, as if the years can be expected.

Here, you can vaguely look at the Qing Dynasty two hundred years ago.

The water marks on the stone steps of the river port have slowly faded, and the white-haired old people sit idly on the threshold, in groups of three or five, chatting or in a daze, their eyes are quiet and peaceful.

Xu Qing went to the ancient village museum and ancient kiln, and when he came back, the funeral was over, Cheng Yubai said goodbye to relatives and friends, and Xiao Qizheng Zhang Luo removed the white flags on the door curtain, and took the waste to be burned and discarded. There was a brazier at the door, she crossed over with her legs high, and as everyone finished lunch, she followed Cheng Yubai into the house to sort out the old things in Li Ke's life.

Li Ke lived a poor life, the home has not been well decorated, the walls are only simply painted, and the outer courtyard is also paved with floor tiles, in addition to the utensils, blank machines, porcelain clay, saggers, etc., which are normal tables and chairs, large and small porcelain, and no extra ornaments.

They dug out an iron box under the bed, the flowers on the tin box were worn off, and it was filled with Cheng Yubai's childhood playthings, tapes, walkmans, glass balls, Hong Kong star pictorials, and a rattle of unknown age. Xu Qing picked it up and shook it, and said to Cheng Yubai: "I didn't expect your childhood to be no different from ordinary people." ”

Cheng Yubai saw that she was having fun and was a little cute, so he couldn't help but touch her head: "It's the same, it's just that these things often don't stay in my hands for more than three days, and the master will definitely confiscate them." ”

Xu Qing knew that Li Ke was strict, but he didn't expect to be so strict.

"I think if he goes back to ancient times, he should be one of those teachers in the palace. I remember one time I secretly watched TV after doing handwork, and before he could finish an episode of the anime, he sold it, and we never had a TV in our house again. ”

"No wonder I didn't see TV at home, wasn't your childhood boring?"

"It's a little, it's okay, it's fun to play with mud, play with tricks, and there is a lot to learn, every time you learn the same, you feel that there is more to learn, and gradually learn deeply, which is also a lot of fun."

"Xueba is really perverted."

"You don't have bad grades?"

"I'm different from you, I studied purely to get a high score and left my hometown, I hate that place."

"Everyone has something to hate, and it's great that you left there with your own efforts, and not everyone can escape."

The two sat side by side on the edge of the bed, with a peeling white wall outside the window, and a gray dove perched on the ridge. Xu Qing looked at it, then turned his head and asked Cheng Yubai: "Are you doing it as a pleasure in suffering?" ”

"Sort of entertaining yourself." Cheng Yubai took her hand and rubbed it in the palm of her hand.

She sensed that he had something to say, just as he had stopped talking about the previous night. This time she didn't interrupt him, and waited quietly for him to speak.

Her eyes are black and white, and the black places are always splashed with thick ink, which should not have been given anything, but for some reason they are so translucent. Cheng Yubai stared at her, but he didn't dare to look at her, and somewhere in his heart began to wrinkle and became uncomfortable.

"Xu Qing, when I really came to this point, I realized how difficult it is to reform, and I don't know how many obstacles and dangers I will encounter in the future, follow me, and your career will also be affected."

"Yibai, you don't have to go around the bend."

At this time, she was still thinking about him, Cheng Yubai listened softly, her fingers brushed the corners of her lips, and she almost gave up, but she still spoke after a long time.

"Have you ever thought about breaking up?"