"Okay, you can continue to go back to the classroom to study, it's already good to have this heart, but you still have to pay attention to the distance."

Xiao Fan was in a hurry to get off work, and simply explained to them and left.

"This matter has passed, why do I see you still so unrelenting?"

After returning to the classroom, Yu Yingying was obviously much more restrained.

"No, isn't that listening carefully?"

Lip service, but she was still entangled in this matter in her heart, and in the face of the teacher's accusation, she sensitively remembered every word.

Teacher Li's eyes when she looked at her and the tone of her voice were amplified in an infinite loop in her heart.

Could it be that in Teacher Li's heart, she has been associated with words like arrogance and indistinguishability?

Memories of light-heartedness come and go, but she easily remembers the details of life that frighten her, and as long as she gets close to that place, even if it is just a fleeting glimpse, the memories that she has worked so hard to bury will easily surface.

When she got home, she still felt ashamed. Why can others keep a good distance from boys, why is she so unlucky to be misunderstood by the teacher, and she has suffered a lot of losses.

"Mom."

During dinner, her mother was chatting with customers on her mobile phone.

Since her father's unexpected death after the high school entrance examination, the quarrel has finally completely disappeared from her life, but she occasionally feels extremely ashamed because of this sense of relief from violating filial piety.

Her mother has not changed, and she is still the strong woman who does things in a hurry.

The words "strong woman" are the labels that Yu Yingying put on her mother.

In the past, when her father was sick, she was entrusted by her mother to a relative's house, and she took her father around to seek medical treatment, but she still failed to save his life.

"Mom!"

Yu Yingying called her again, but she ignored it, answering the customer's questions attentively, and politely and tactfully voiced to different people.

"Mom! Mom! ”

Yu Yingying was completely ignored, and suddenly became irritable and angry.

"Are you nervous? Can't you see that the adults are busy! ”

It's familiar again, and even the tone hasn't changed for more than ten years.

Her mother glared at her with a frown, and Yu Yingying poked the shredded potatoes on the plate with chopsticks.

"I called you first, you ignored me!"

She didn't understand, and in response, did she have to queue up with her group of customers?

"That's an adult who is busy with something, can't you see it!" She was yelling at her again, "Who am I so busy for every day?" Why do you get more and more ignorant as you grow up? ”

Yu Yingying's eyes were sour, and he lowered his head and picked up the rice one bite at a time.

She has always been the most spineless person.

A few years ago, the family of three lived in a one-room, two-room rental house in the city.

Occasionally, there have been warm and sweet family moments, but she can't remember it clearly.

Most of the time, they will quarrel over some family trivialities. At that time, she hid in her room, covering her ears to escape the war.

It wasn't until later that I didn't know who blamed her for being too cold-blooded, and she didn't even know how to persuade her parents to quarrel.

So she cried and helped her father when he was drunk and fell to the ground bleeding from the stairs, but she was still too weak and was blamed by the adults who came for being too clumsy.

Later, she knew that she was stupid and stupid, and she couldn't do anything well, so she cheekily hid in the corner and became a turtle with a shrunken head.

"Adults are busy, don't you know to be considerate of adults? I'm busy replying messages can I hear you! ”

Mom snatched her bowl and continued to talk as she poured rice into the bowl.

"Is it easy for me to raise such a big family by myself? Ah, am I easy? You can't be obedient and understand something, is it so difficult! ”

Yu Yingying lowered her head and held back her tears, and couldn't help but blame herself when she heard her mother's words.

Dad was not angry, he couldn't save money or control his alcohol addiction, and he sent himself to the hospital again and again. For the sake of this family, his mother took him to seek medical treatment alone, and maintained the expenses of the family alone.

It's all for her. Mom said that if it weren't for her, she would have divorced her dad a long time ago.

"I'm not eating."

couldn't hold back her tears, and she didn't want to be seen by her mother, Yu Yingying pretended to be calm and casually picked up two mouthfuls of food, and hurried back to her room.

Why am I so unlucky?

Lying on the bed, Yu Yingying felt that life was really unsettled and rising again and again.

Speaking of which, she will always be the unluckiest person.

Why do you want to tutor with Ren Xuxing in the classroom, why do you want to talk to your mother when she is working.

She's so stupid and ignorant.

Yu Yingying thought that it would be nice if there was really a regret medicine in the world, although this was a dream she had since she was in elementary school.

People like her, who always do wrong things, have this kind of thing and can freely go back in time and avoid these wrong things.

"If I become a mother in the future, I will definitely ignore him/her no matter how busy I am."

In the autumn of her sophomore year of high school, Yu Yingying wrote this line in her diary.

"Welcome!"

When Yu Yingying was tugging at her head to write her math homework, her mother started calling her in the kitchen.

“......”

Obviously there was a fight just now, why can she pretend that nothing happened?

She ignored her. She's getting down to business, too.

"Welcome!"

The voice was getting closer and closer, and Yu Yingying was still pursed and staring at the blurred workbook on the table.

She quickly wiped away the tears that welled up again, and vowed not to show weakness in front of the woman.

"Yu Yingying, are you deaf?"

Turning her head, her mother's expression showed no signs of anger.

Yu Yingying suddenly became fearless.

"Hmph, I'm busy with business, and I can't hear you."

"Yo, you're pretty good, and you're still playing with me in this set of for?"

Mother's face sank suddenly, and Yu Yingying suddenly felt bad.

"Tell me, what are you busy with?"

“......”

She can't say she's busy with her math homework.

"What about you, huh? What are you busy with? ”

Mom glanced at her, "Don't think I don't know what you're thinking, why don't you improve your grades with this kung fu that competes with me?" ”

Yu Yingying still didn't speak.

Her mother thought that she was still fighting with her, so she suddenly got angry, put down the fruit she peeled and slammed the door.

Yu Yingying was even more aggrieved now, and hid in the quilt with her throat and cried for two whole hours.

She obviously never does bad things, she just feels aggrieved and wants to fight back, but the facts tell her that she will always be the unlucky person who will be scolded.

She cried until the end, and finally figured it out.

Her mother didn't think it was a fight, she was just teaching her a lesson.

A quarrel is a matter of two people, and it is possible to fight back. But the lesson is an adult's business alone, and she becomes ignorant when she fights back.