December 3, 2012, today is a completely dark day for me!

My unborn daughter Meng Meng is gone today!

I don't know when her heart stopped beating, Meng Meng's due date is December 20th, which means that my daughter is due to be born in 17 days, but she left me today without warning, leaving her mother.

From the news of pregnancy to now, Meng Meng has been in good condition, except for two small bleeding symptoms in the first three months, two progesterone injections, I asked my wife to resign and rest at home, and then once a month for physical examination, Meng Meng grew up bit by bit, and my heart was full of happiness.

Six months,I did three color ultrasound,I saw a cute photo from the color ultrasound list for the first time,She has the same straight nose and slightly upturned mouth as me,I happily scooped the color ultrasound list,Send it to every friend of mine to see,Share my happiness and joy。

I anxiously awaited the birth of my daughter.

Mengmeng, do you know? Before you were born, your father had already prepared a small bed, a small cart, a quilt, a small clothes, a bottle, a bib, a diaper...... On the day of Double 11, Dad searched for things you will use in the future on Taobao all day long, and it was almost 12 o'clock and grabbed two packs of Kao's diapers for you, and my wife said that I bought too much, but I stupidly thought that you would be able to use it in the future.

Mom applied for QQ for you, saying that it will be used for you in the future, and I proudly wrote "Coco's little lover" on the QQ signature, but Coco is your father's nickname......

The time is getting closer and closer to your birth, and every day I fantasize about what your future birth will be.

Until yesterday, December 2nd, I took my wife to the hospital for a physical examination, and the doctor said that your heartbeat was normal and you were in good health.

Daddy's heart settled down, thinking that in seventeen days, we would be able to meet, and what else could stop me from meeting my little baby.

Just this morning, Mom washed out all your little clothes, Dad wiped down the small bed for you, put it on the balcony to dry, and then took your mother to the hospital for another fetal heart rate monitoring, just while I was waiting, the doctor suddenly came and said that your heartbeat was not detectable.

Dad was blinded at the time, but I still held on to hope, and the doctor comforted me that this machine sometimes has problems, so we changed to a machine, but the machine suddenly ran out of power, I still felt in my heart that God was joking with me, so with a trace of apprehension, Dad took your mother to do B ultrasound.

Outside the ultrasound room, the waiting time was particularly long, more than every time before, my father walked around the door anxiously, and the uneasy premonition in my heart was getting heavier and heavier, and finally, the door of the ultrasound room opened, and I saw your mother with tears in her eyes.

Do you know how much Dad's heart hurt at that time?

When I got the ultrasound test for the stillborn baby in utero, I felt that this was the end of the world, this was my end.

I collapsed in the hospital and couldn't hold back my tears in front of the doctor.

I don't want to believe it's true!

But after repeated examinations again and again, my last glimmer of hope was also dashed, Meng Meng, my good daughter, you are gone!

When you saw your father in seventeen days, you left ruthlessly.

Sorry, I can't write anymore......

I'm sorry, I'm putting my pain online because I really have nowhere to vent, I'm a very homely person, writing books is my job, I can only vent it here!

I may not be able to write in the last few days, my wife will go to the hospital tomorrow to induce labor, I am in a bad mood, I will continue to write when I am in a good mood, after all, no matter how cruel life is, it must go on......