She is a girl, with short ear-length hair, she wears a pair of black-framed glasses in class or self-study, her skin is fair, and she is also beautiful.

I can't let go of her, not because I like her, but because I hate her. Even though I was relieved of a lot of things later, I still knew her name clearly and remembered her appearance.

The first time I noticed Shen Yan was when I first entered junior high school one afternoon, when the security of the campus was not as good as later, during the lunch break, the class was locked, and the key to the class was also held by the life committee, so when I arrived at the school early in the afternoon, I could only wait at the door of the classroom for the life committee to open the door.

That afternoon, the life committee member came very late, and groups of people gathered around the door of the classroom, and Shen Yan was standing in the middle of the crowd at that time, speaking very loudly.

"I really can't stand my tablemates, it's so smelly, she doesn't even take a shower? You don't know ......" she used all the words she could to scold her tablemates.

At that time, her tablemate was not me, it was a girl who was a little fat, but had a good academic performance, and the girl was not there at that time, Shen Yan was in front of so many people, saying loudly that her tablemate stinks, and she also had a very disgusted expression.

At that time, our school was divided into day students and dormitory students, and the dormitory students lived together in the morning and evening, so a small circle was formed.

Shen Yan has a social circle, which includes almost all the girls who are dormitory students, and those girls were next to her at that time, echoing her, expanding things infinitely, and even at that time, I thought that her table stinks.

But then I got to know her tablemate, and the girl had a good personality and didn't have as much of a bad smell as she said.

At that time, I was just out of a state of mind, but when I really got to myself, I realized how painful it was.

Because I stink too.

At that time, it was adolescence, and the body and mind were in the process of development, and when the endocrine system was unbalanced, the body would have a smell. After sharing the table with Shen Yan, she emphasized this point almost every day, she would deliberately cover her nose during class, whispering "smelly", and would also coldly say "Don't you take a shower at night" when she is bored after class? In the winter, even when it was very cold, she would sit by the window and open the window to let me say that it would be a little smelly.

I didn't know why she kept saying that, even though I bathed every day, and even twice a day in the summer, she still told me. For many years afterward, as long as the people around me said "there is a strange smell", I would still subconsciously smell whether there was a smell on my body, and no matter how cold the weather was, I still maintained the habit of taking a bath every day until I died.

At that time, I thought, she said that about me, and I remembered that when I first entered the school, she said so loudly in front of everyone about her former tablemate, so did she also say that about me in front of others? Do other people have the same impression of me?

These disturbing and twisting thoughts made me become more and more silent in junior high school, so that when I saw my classmates on the road, I always felt that their eyes were a little wrong with me, and I rarely greeted them.

Chapter III

I saw that the seat next to Shen Yan was empty, and remembered that I did sit by the window for a while in junior high school, so I went straight to my place and sat down, Shen Yan saw that I was back, and silently pulled his stool away from me, I didn't bother to look at her, shrugged, and pulled my chair in the opposite direction, ready to do my homework.

As soon as I opened the textbook, I felt that someone was poking me with a pen behind me, and when I turned around, it was Shi Yuanyao.

I have a deep impression of Shi Yuanyao, not because he is so good-looking, but because he is the oldest boy in our class, three years older than us, it seems that he started school late.

I still clearly remember that when we were in the third year of junior high school, Mr. Zeng also held an eighteenth birthday party for him, although the content of the birthday party was just that the whole class simply sang a happy birthday song to him, but this was something I couldn't envy at that time, if someone remembered my birthday and sang a happy birthday song for me, I would definitely be moved to cry.

"Hey, you're so powerful, it's just to eliminate harm for the people, and you've wanted to beat Wu Mingtao for a long time."

I laughed twice, and his table mate also came over, "Yes, yes, you are too good, look at your fight, I guess no one will dare to provoke you in the future." ”

I turned to the side, turned around and whispered, "Really?" Then it seems that I will still have to be a little more domineering in the future. ”

Shi Yuanyao was stunned at the same table with him, and then Shi Yuanyao poked my hand with a pen, and said strangely, "Are you evil today, you don't talk much on weekdays." He looked at Shen Yan, approached me and whispered cautiously, "I was bullied by your tablemates quite badly, last time I helped you say a word, you still smiled and said that it was okay, I thought you were happy." ”

I was also stunned, did Shi Yuanyao help me speak, I don't remember, I only know that every time Shen Yan said me, my brain was blank, my ears were buzzing, and my whole brain was in a state of downtime, I just wanted to find a crack in the ground to get into, how can I remember to refute or someone spoke for me, it is estimated that the sentence that Shi Yuanyao said was okay was just a subconscious reaction of my brain at that time.

"By the way, how does the teacher deal with this matter?" Shi Yuanyao asked me.

"No, I haven't spoken since I came back, it seems that I have been deflated."

I nodded, "The teacher asked the two of us to clean the area for a week." ”

"What!" Shi Yuanyao's voice at the table was an octave higher, so that the people around him looked over.

I slapped the table quietly, "Be quiet." ”

I carefully glanced at Shi Yuanyuan's tablemate, but I couldn't remember his name, probably because I didn't notice the existence of this person at that time, I secretly glanced at his textbook, and only then did I know that his name was He Wen.

He Wen looked incredulous: "That's it?" ”

"What? Is it light? I replied.

"It's not light, it's too light, okay?" He Wen leaned over and said, "Last week, two classmates in class 232 had a fight, and they went back to think about it for a week, and there was a fight in the next class last semester, and their head teacher directly asked the two to write a thousand-word review, and they also made a small mistake." ”

"Huh? Is it so serious? "I was shocked.

Shi Yuanyao pushed He Wen's arm with his elbow and said, "How is it the same, is it okay for our classmate Lu Ji to be righteous and brave?" Besides, Lu Ji is a scholar, and the teacher will still favor good students. ”

I gave him a roll of the eyes, "I don't have a backache when I stand and talk, the teacher separated me from Wu Mingtao, I have to clean the entire cleaning area by myself at night, you help me sweep it." ”

Shi Yuanyao patted his chest and said, "No problem, you did what most people in the class want to do, and I can still help you sweep." ”

"Me too." He Wendao.

My heart moved, it turned out that there was still someone willing to help me at that time?

Now that I think about it, my silence, closed-mindedness, and low self-esteem when I was young were like a thick glass cover, covering me in my own protective circle, preventing other people's visits, and not daring to expect anyone to help, like a wounded beast, even if he was about to die of blood loss and coma, he always maintained vigilance against the outside world.

"Hey! You can't finish your evening self-study. Shen Yan turned around and scolded us.

The three of us looked at each other, and I lowered my voice and said, "Forget it, it's just a joke, it's supposed to punish me for fighting, you guys come to help me, so that the teacher can't see it." The three of us nodded, and I turned around to study, when Shen Yan's voice came from the side.

"Stay away from me, stinky."

I was taking my homework hand for a while, and I admit that after many years, my heart still trembled when I heard this sentence again. This phrase ran through my entire gray adolescence, and it was like a shadow, never disappearing.

Although I still resist this sentence, I am not thirteen or fourteen-year-old Lu Ji after all.

"Oh." I responded, pulling the chair farther away, then turning to her and saying, "You pull the chair farther away, you don't smell good." ”