My name is He Lan, male, an ordinary office worker, twenty-seven years old this year, high or low, no girlfriend, gradually no longer have illusions about love, thinking that in a few years, under the arrangement of my parents, find a woman to go on a blind date, get married, and live an ordinary life.

What do I think of the crossing, you ask? That's a good thing, traveling to the overhead era, maybe you can cultivate immortals, maybe you can dominate one side.

It's good to travel back to ancient times to have three wives and four concubines, but it's good overall, provided it doesn't happen to me......

Yes? Why am I pessimistic, and listen to me slowly......

It was a summer, I got off work on time at five o'clock, happily sat on the subway, while listening to the song, while asking my buddies to go to shabu shabu, anyway, everything was beautiful, it was hot and early to get off work, and I could go to drink some wine at night to relieve the heat, but these are all calm on the surface.

The thump of the subway in the tunnel made me restless, and I couldn't even listen to my favorite song in my headphones, and the reason I became like this was because there was a pair of eyes staring straight at me across from me.

It's not my delusion, it's not that I'm narcissistic, it's that he's really looking at me.

To prove my suspicions, I twice pretended to look up at the stop sign above his head casually, and when I retracted my gaze, I was always able to meet the eyes of the person opposite.

It was a young man about twenty-three or four, who was taller than me, at least one meter eighty-five, with long and straight legs curled up in a seat only forty centimeters high, aggrieved and uncoordinated.

The young man's eyes are single eyelids, thin and long, but not small, blazing, with a slightly long face, there is an indescribable indifference and handsomeness.

He's not bad-looking, at least among the handsome guys I've seen in my life, he's in the top few, but why are you staring at me with a big man?

I was a little panicked, 'It's hard to do it!' ’

Subconsciously stared down at his crotch, but fortunately the zipper was pulled.

"No...... I thought of a possibility, my hand shook unobediently, and I almost didn't drop my phone on the ground, and my other free hand touched my head.

My bangs are relatively long, and it is hot now, so it is easy to cover acne, in order to save trouble, I will use a rubber band to tie up the bangs in front of me when I am in the office, could it be that I forgot to take them off when I got off work?

If that's the case, it's a big deal!!' ’

Just imagine, a good young man with positive three views, positive sexual orientation, and upright personality, but walking on the street with a pigtail on his head, even if he doesn't stare a few more times, even if he cultivates a pure heart and few desires.

My face was burning red, and I hurriedly raised the phone to the tip of my nose, and saw through the screen that although the bangs were a little messy, the little tugging was indeed put down.

'Okay, even if the bangs are messed up, it's still as handsome as ever. ’

I combed my hair with my hands, and my brow furrowed even tighter as I was narcissistic.

Well-dressed and well-groomed, why is that grandson staring at me? Could it be that Lao Tzu has run into a liar again?

Thinking of the scams I encountered in the past on the subway because of all kinds of lost mobile phones, lost luggage, and wanted to borrow mobile phones to make phone calls and borrow money, I was angry.

I was deceived when I first came out of society.

It was a hurtful autumn, the liar was dressed like a dog, with a Taiwanese accent, saying that he came from Taiwan on a business trip, only Taiwan dollars, no cash, and Taiwan is not popular to scan the code to pay, so he can't take a taxi to the booked hotel now, so I can only ask for help, let me transfer 500 yuan to WeChat for him, and he gave me 700 Taiwan dollars.

In line with the principle of friendly development between Taiwan and the mainland, after confirming that the number left by the other party can be connected, although I always feel that it is a scam in my heart, I still hesitate to transfer 500 yuan to the other party.

At that time, I was still happy that I had earned dozens of dollars more for my kindness and peace for no reason, but when I went to the bank to deposit money, I was ruthlessly told by the staff that it was counterfeit money, and my heart was half cold...... Trust in people has also reached an unprecedented level.

When I walked out of the bank in a daze, I dialed the number again, but of course no one answered, and the grandson pulled the blacklist very quickly!

Even after three years have passed, I still remember it vividly, so every time I am in a bad mood, I always send a message to scold, or hang his contact information on various spam websites.

Although I don't know if the phone number has changed hands, but this does not affect my anger, thinking of this, the fire in my heart is rising again, open the phone to find the familiar mobile phone number, edit, send in one go:

"I didn't pull it out of the toilet today, do you know why not?" Because I'm stabbing you with a stick!!!!

Looking at the message that prompted the successful delivery, I felt a lot more refreshed, and the experience brought by the bloody lesson is that when someone asks you for help, either ask him to find a staff member, or send him a kind heart to take him to the staff.

It can be summed up in one sentence: if you don't have money, you have to run quickly.

When I noticed that the other party suddenly stood up and intended to walk towards me, I secretly screamed that it was not good, I really met a liar, did I have such a deceitful face?

I had a fire in my heart, and I stood up almost at the same time as him, deliberately not looking at him, squeezed through the crowd, buried my head, and walked towards another carriage.

It stands to reason that most ordinary liars will not choose to continue pestering after seeing that their prey is far away, but the person I met now is not an ordinary liar when he wakes up, and it is very likely that he is a pervert......

Because not only did he walk with me to the other carriages, but he was also so close to me that I could even smell the faint fragrance coming from him, and I didn't know much about perfume, so I knew what the fragrance was, and it didn't smell bad anyway.

'Could it be a drug?' ’

The young man's actions had to make me think of him in the worst direction, and I was startled at the thought that he might also worry about my poor waist and kidneys, and subconsciously held my breath, and no longer dared to smell him.

The young man tried to open his mouth several times to speak, his expression was very strange, some indifferent, some hesitant, tangled as if he had compulsive disorder, and also like a nervous disorder.

What if he's really insane?

At that time, if something happens, I will have friction with him, and I will suffer the loss, after all, it is not illegal to beat people with mental illness in these years.

Looking up at the platform getting closer and closer to my home, I gradually became impatient, and all kinds of thoughts went back and forth in my head.

There was less and less oxygen in my abdominal cavity, and when I was holding my face and neck was thick, and my brain was close to lack of oxygen, the subway door opened, which was like a safety signal, and I couldn't wait to open my mouth, gasping for air, and squeezed out with the crowd without thinking.

found that the other party was still pestering and wanted to keep up.

I glared at him angrily, the mud bodhisattva also has three points of anger, such a desperate chase and fight, even if you are insane, I will have to fight with you!

Seeing that there were ground staff not far away relieving the flow of people, I didn't want to think about it, and shouted at the ground staff who were about the same age as me while walking: "Handsome guy, handsome guy, I've met a stalker!" ”

"What, sir, calm down first, where are the others?" The ground staff must have worked in the subway station for several years, and he still has experience in dealing with all kinds of emergencies, and he comforted me while protecting me behind him.

I pointed behind me, "That's him!" I've been with me for several stops! ”

Originally, I thought that this finger might be empty, after all, even if it is a liar, it is impossible to chase and fight to this point, but I didn't expect that he actually followed me off the subway.

The young man's figure is obviously half a head taller than the others, so it is not difficult to see, and his hands are empty, which makes me feel at ease, fortunately, it is not my paranoia that wronged people, so it is easier to explain to the staff.

When the young man saw me pointing at him, he did not flee or pretend that he had nothing to do with him, but walked unhurriedly along the crowd to our side.

The ground crew looked at the other party as a handsome man, and a trace of surprise flashed in their eyes.

Generally speaking, those who can track and follow on the subway are some people who are more obscene and older, but I didn't expect to meet a young handsome man this time.

After being stunned for a while, the ground staff showed professionalism and asked the other party politely: "Hello this gentleman, may I ask, do you need any help?" ”

He didn't easily treat young people as perverts because of my words, not just that young people don't look like people who can do that kind of thing, but also because of their professionalism.

Sensing my nervousness and anger, the young man did not answer the ground staff's words, but whispered to me: "Don't be afraid, I have no malicious ......"

A person who started a series of things actually persuaded me to calm down? I laughed angrily and asked slowly: "Oh, I don't know you, you followed me for a few stops, and you followed me to get off the bus, and now tell me that you have no malicious intent?" ”

Are you kidding? Are you handsome? Can you harass others unscrupulously? So what do you want the police to do?

It seemed as if it was my words that made him realize that his actions were bothering me, and his voice was quieter: "I'm just ......"

He paused, thought for a moment, and then continued, "I want to see how you're doing." ”

The way he spoke was inexplicably a little more cautious.

Look, look at what he said, what is it if it is not a neurosis?

The appearance of a young man is not easy for anyone who has seen him, so I am sure that I definitely do not know the person in front of me.

What do you mean to see how I'm doing?

What he said was ambiguous, and I didn't feel comfortable listening to anything, especially the gaze of the ground staff on us became weird, and I didn't want to retort: "What does it have to do with you whether I'm doing well or not, I didn't know you before today!" ”

Seeing that the green tendons on my neck were coming out, and I looked like I was going to hit someone, the ground staff hurriedly stretched out their hands between the two of us, pushed us away, and said to me: "Sir, calm down, do you need me to help you call the police?" ”

I gritted my teeth: "You have to call the police!" Even if he is mentally ill, I will find out his guardian and ask him what he thinks of the patient! ”

"Okay, sir, please wait in the lounge for a while, and we'll help you contact the police."

At this point, I am almost seventy percent sure that this man is a neurotic with a brain problem, and I don't want to talk nonsense with him anymore.

Thinking that I am a good young man, even if I am not harassed by a woman, and I am followed by a male neurosis, I am even more angry, it is really a good thing not to look for me, and a bad thing to worry about me.

While waiting for the police to arrive, the young man tried to talk to me several times, but I ignored him, he wanted to get close to me, but he was stopped by the staff, so he had to give up.

Ten minutes later, under the watchful eyes of three staff members and a large group of melon-eating people, the young man and I got out of the subway station, and there were already two police cars waiting outside.

On the other side, the progress was not as smooth as mine, and when the two citizens warned the young man to get into the police car, he suddenly became a little manic, and tried his best to get rid of the police and walked towards me.

I was startled, for fear that he would get sick and beat me, so I pulled the police car and got in, and then slammed the door shut with a loud bang, and locked it with my hand.

"What for? Be honest! ”

At the same moment, the policeman who asked me about me burst into flames and joined the ranks of the young people.

There was still a lot of noise outside, and a round-faced police uncle sitting in the car waiting looked nervous and comforted me with a smile: "Young man, don't be afraid, no one dares to touch you in the police car." ”

"Thank you, uncle,"

I forced a smile at him.

The policeman was only a few years older than me, but the habitual thinking of the Chinese people saw that the policeman called uncle regardless of his age, and the round-faced policeman was obviously used to this, so he shrugged his shoulders and did not speak again.

If I were willing to give the rearview mirror a look at this time, I would find that the young man who was in a hurry to let the police let him go, after seeing me sitting in the police car, he was stunned and thought for a few seconds, but he actually stopped struggling and obediently got into the police car, of course, not in the same car as me.

"Tell us a little bit about it, young man."

At the police station, the upright-looking policeman uncle first handed me a cup of hot water, and only after making sure that my mood was stable did he start to take notes.

"That's right, Uncle Policeman......"

So and so and so and so and

When I came out of the police station, it was already past seven o'clock in the evening.

The police said that his behavior was suspected of harassment, and the specific situation could only be judged when the subway monitoring was called up, because the circumstances were not too serious, and there were no major consequences, even if he did have this attempt, it could only be regarded as an attempt, and he should be warned for a few days.

But the only good news is that he doesn't want to get out of the police station today.

"What's the matter?"

I grabbed my hair in a collapsed way, and my good mood was clean, so I had time to open my phone and find several missed calls, and then opened WeChat, and my friend sent a message:

"I don't go out to eat, I have to work overtime temporarily."

The time shows a message sent at six o'clock, and you have to ...... Even my good friends let go of their own pigeons, and I replied with a message:

"You don't even know my ...... while you're still eating."

Before I could complain to him about my experience this night, there was a string of familiar numbers on the mobile phone display screen, and after I was connected, before I could say a few words, there was a call on the other side:

"Xiao Lanzi, the USB flash drive where I stored important documents is at home, hurry up and help me get it, I'll try to get off work early."

He is my classmate, we have known each other since high school for nearly ten years, and in order to save rent, we rented a one-bedroom and two-bedroom apartment, and the places of work are not far from each other, so it is normal to help pick up something, collect quilts and so on.

'It's using me as an errand again!' ’

"Okay, got it, wait for me for an hour."

Although I am physically and mentally exhausted now, I still choose to take a trip with hard work.

You have to ask me why I chose to go on this trip in the middle of the night when something so big happened?

First of all, although I haven't learned self-defense skills and don't have fitness, I'm still a tall man of more than 1.8 meters, even if I have nothing to show on the surface, I won't look so weak like a woman.

Second, as I said earlier, that madman doesn't want to get out of the police station tonight, so I'm safe in every way.

Although I comforted myself in this way, in order not to add other unnecessary troubles, I still chose to take a taxi to solve the problem fundamentally.

"I'll go there, I knew I was going to take a taxi across the road, I might as well call a carpool and spend a few more dollars to let him go downstairs in the community unit and wait for me."

In the dark woods, with the clattering sound of my feet stepping on the branches, my heart jumped with a thud.

The neighborhood we live in has a main road from the side gate, and there is a small forest in the middle, so many people usually choose to cross the forest to the opposite side of the road in order to save time.

I usually take the bus through the main entrance, but today in order to save time, I decided to take a taxi across the road through this forest.

I never expected it...... This small forest, which is less than 50 meters in diameter, will be so eerie and terrifying at night, there is not even a person, in the woods, only my mobile phone light keeps shaking back and forth.

Click......

I don't know if it's because I'm having a nervous breakdown, I always feel a series of footsteps in the direction I'm about to go, but when I shine the light through, I don't see any human figure, my eyesight is not very good, but it's not so bad that I can't even see a target the size of a person.

Unless the other party is deliberately avoiding themselves......

Thinking of a possibility, I shrunk my neck and quickly recoiled in the direction the sound was coming from.

Click......

A strange sound like stepping on a tree branch sounded from my left side at some point! A cool breath ran down the back of the backbone of the whole body, and I reflexively jumped from the right, but the strength was not well controlled, one foot fell into the soft pit, and I almost didn't fall.

As soon as I struggled to stabilize my body, the phone suddenly rang, so that it didn't scare me out of the wolf howl, the screen beat wildly, and the contact note was: Officer Wang.

'Why did he call me at this time, could it be that there was progress in the case?' ’

I trembled and pressed the answer button: "Hey...... Officer Wang, you, hello......"

Because of the call, the light that came with the mobile phone was forced to go out, and suddenly it fell into darkness in front of me, and I no longer dared to stay in the woods, so I chose to run to the community while making a call.

Officer Wang's somewhat gloomy voice came from the other end of the phone: "Hey, Mr. He, listen to me first, the suspect who tried to harass you today has escaped from the police station, for your safety, please try not to go out alone.........

His words made my heart feel like it was stuffed into an ice cellar in this summer season, and my heart was cold and my heart was flying......

Syllable!

I only heard Officer Wang say the word escape, not because the mobile phone signal is not good, but because I bumped into a broad chest in a panic, and the mobile phone was not held steady, and it fell to the ground.

"it!"

I only stayed in the man's arms for a second, and when I felt the man's hands trying to grab my arm, my hair stood on end, and I was electrocuted and pulled away from the man.

Even though it was dark and the moonlight was faint, I could still see the man's signature single eyelid in the blurred outline. How did he get here?

The young man's expression was calm, and he wanted to reach out and pull me.

The corners of my mouth twitched uncontrollably, and without thinking about it, I turned around and ran.

"You wait!"

He shouted behind me, his voice a little angry.

'How old are you?' Let me wait? ’

I ran out more than ten meters in a panic, only to find that I actually ran to the river, watching the cold moonlight sprinkled on the dark green water, my heart sank straight down, and the footsteps behind me were getting closer and closer.

'It's really Nima who has been down for eight lifetimes of blood mold, and a neurotic disease can still run out in a place like the Public Security Bureau, which really refreshes my three views! ’

There is no one around, and it is the best time to kill people and sell goods.

Although the current scene has reached the point of burning eyebrows, it does not prevent me from thinking of myself appearing in the social headlines tomorrow, and I can already come up with a headline, so I write:

'A young man was suspected of being followed and killed by a mentally ill person. ’

Look, I have the material to go to the front page headlines to edit...... Whew, if you give me a chance to write alive!

I feel bitter about my cold humor.

I wanted to choose a new path, but there was no chance, and the neuropathy slowly came out of the darkness and stood in the moonlight and looked at me fixedly. Tiny beads of sweat broke out on my forehead, and my waist was pressed against the unstable fence, one hand gripped the fence and the other stretched forward in a defensive stance.

It was only then that I noticed that my right hand was clutching the mineral water that I had just taken out of the refrigerator, and the bottle was still steaming.

'Water ......'

My eyes rolled.

Although this is a bottle of ordinary mineral water, but the other party doesn't know, if I throw this bottle of water at him while the other party is not guarded, will he think that the water is poisonous or some kind of irritating liquid?

If he is afraid and dodges a little, even if it is only for two or three seconds, then I have a chance to escape.

I was still trying my brain cells to figure out what to do, and the neurotic walked out of the woods with unhurried steps, and said to me, "Calm down and listen to ......me."

"I'll fuck your uncle!"

Escaping from the police station in the middle of the night, and surrounding me in the dark woods, chasing me around like a lost dog, it can't be that they want to ask me for tea, right?

If I really stop running away, I may have to be a wandering ghost in his dreams in the future!!

While he was still talking, I quickly unscrewed the water bottle and threw it at him directly with the bottle.

The clear water was sprinkled in the air in a circle with the bottle, and I was pleasantly surprised to find that the other party subconsciously hid backwards the moment he saw the water spilled.

Now is the time!

Seeing this gap, I took a leg that I didn't know how many meters and turned around and wanted to run, but when I saw a water in front of me, I was dumbfounded......

Fuck you! How can you forget that you have a lake behind you! So my previous battle of wits was playing with the air?? What about IQ? What about IQ?!!

It's too late to regret it...... When I couldn't retract the force I had exerted, and when I felt a sharp pain coming from the base of my leg hitting the railing, I walked against the needle like the bottle of water that had just been thrown out, and I turned over and planted myself into the water.

'Lao Tzu doesn't know water, the sky is going to kill me......'

The drama of this day was more wonderful than my entire life.

What makes me think the most, apart from my parents, is the old friend who has been with me for more than ten years, and I hope he won't laugh at me when he sees the news of someone drowning tomorrow......

Don't cry, and of course don't ask someone to jump on my grave, buddy doesn't have a good mouthful.

Poof, thinking of several long-legged sisters wearing black silk and jumping and jumping in a barren mountain, I actually laughed out loud......

Poof!

With a muffled sound, the bitter and earthy water instantly submerged me, and my limbs instinctively kept paddling in the water, trying to float to the surface, but my feet stepped on the soft mud, and I couldn't do it.

Always when I feel that I can borrow strength and try to stand up, I can't help but lean back, even if my head can barely surface, but I don't even have time to breathe, and I sink instantly......

It's a form of torture.

I struggled in a panic under the water, and for a moment I felt like I had fallen into a wide bosom, and a force tried to pull me out of the water, and I tried to open my eyes, trying to see what was happening in front of me, and all I could see was pitch black.

Goodbye Mom, I'm going on a long voyage tonight......

Before I fell into darkness for a while, I still had a sense of humor.

One = Manual Split Line = One

"What are you doing stupidly? Eat quickly, Taifu will come later. ”

There was a noise in my ears, and I felt someone push me in a daze, and I woke up from my stupor.

Across from me squatted two boys with their hair standing up high, about fourteen or fifteen years old, dressed in ancient wide-sleeved robes, like cosplay.

And they are constantly using chopsticks to pick up pieces of meat from the plate on the ground and stuff them into their mouths.

One of them also made a vague sigh of emotion: "Today's braised pork is really fragrant......

"It's true that I haven't eaten meat since Taifu started teaching."

To my left, another crisp female voice sounded.

I turned my head and saw a very beautiful girl of the same age as the two boys, wearing a long white dress.

The girl's mouth was stuffed with meat, her eyes were full of grievances, and she was also squatting, although her posture was indecent, but it covered up the nobility on her body.

"What else do you say about greed and appetite, it's really inferior, how can you have the strength to read if you don't eat enough."

I looked strangely at the few children squatting on the ground around me, and there were five people in total, three men and two women.

At this moment, we formed a circle like thieves, squatting on the ground and gobbling up the meat on the plate on the ground, and I also found myself holding a piece of fat and thin meat on the chopsticks in my hand.

Looks like I was one of them before, but...... Wait a minute! Am I not drowning? How could he suddenly squat on the ground and grab meat with a group of little children in ancient costumes?

My head hurt a little, and I couldn't understand what was going on.

"Aren't you going to eat?"

At this time, another girl to my right stretched out her elbow and pounded me.

"Ah...... Eat, I eat ......"

The girl's eyes were very clear, so I couldn't give birth to the heart of refusal, and subconsciously put the braised pork in my hand into my mouth.

Before we had time to taste the taste of the meat, there was a trembling sound from the grass next to me, and a head wearing a small blue hat came out, and the man said anxiously to several of us:

"Princes, ladies, Taifu is going this way!"

"Let's go, let's go!"

"Don't eat it, hide quickly!"

Hearing that Taifu was coming, several boys and girls tacitly threw down the chopsticks in their hands, carried the hem of their clothes, and carried their skirts.

"Huh?"

A series of unexpected situations in front of me kept my head crashing.

"Gongzi He, why don't you hurry up?"

The cyan hat urged me, who was still stunned.

"Oh, let's go......"

Everyone else ran away, and I was alone in the same place, I don't know why, I inexplicably felt that it was not bad to stay here, and I actually sent a ghost to the god under the reminder of that person, and I also bent down and began to find a place to hide.

The other children were all very fast, but the little girl in white to my left was the slowest and most conspicuous, and I didn't think about finding a place to hide after her.

'No...... What am I doing this for? Why should I run? Who are these little kids? Where am I? Is it a dream or what? ’

As I ran, my slow-loading head finally had time to think, and on the way I realized that a group of us had just been in a slightly higher garden.

Looking down from the garden, not far away a man in a blue robe was getting closer to the garden, the distance was too far, I didn't see the portrait of the man, his steps were calm and calm, but the speed was quite fast, and it didn't take long to catch up with us.

I took the time to take a quick glance, and the girl in white who was running in front of me disappeared in a turn, for fear of being left behind by her, and afraid of being caught by some so-called Taifu, I walked a few steps quickly to catch up with the girl.

As soon as I caught up, I regretted it, because for some reason, the girl actually leaned forward with her hands in the flowers not far away, fell to the ground softly, closed her eyes, and chose to pretend to be unconscious......

I'm going to go! It's okay to pretend to be unconscious if you can't run......

But I don't know if it's because my brain is pumping, or because I just woke up and couldn't turn around, I actually subconsciously felt that the little girl's practice was very good, without any hesitation, Tian shamelessly lay down and pretended to be dead at a distance of two or three steps away from the little girl.

The little girl opened her eyes and tilted her head to look at me, and with a look of annoyance in her eyes, she glared at me, tilted her head to the side, and motioned for me to find another place to lie down.

How can I have time to take care of her, the footsteps are getting closer and closer, and there is a chance that my kung fu running together will be discovered, how can I do what she wants, find a place to lie again, and I don't see it with my eyes closed.

The little girl was so angry that she made a loud and slapping sound from her mouth, trying to drive me away, but when she was indifferent, she lay like a corpse, and she even wanted to get up and kick me twice.

I opened one eye and rolled at her, and then closed my eyes even tighter, without the slightest shame as an adult.

"He Lan! You go, don't go out! ”

The little girl was half angry and shouted at me in a low voice.

'Yo, you're still driving me away?' ’

My stubborn temper came up, we lay down alone, no one did anything wrong, and drove me away again and again, which is a bit unkind.

My temper also came up, and when I sat up, I saw a stone not far from me, and I grabbed the stone and held it in my hand defiantly.

The little girl was stunned, thinking that I was going to hit her, but she shrank her head in fright and did not dare to speak.

A sneer tugged at the corners of my mouth.

'Hmph, pretend to be dead, I see which of us pretending to be like!' ’

Then, at a loss for what the little girl could do, Deng Dengden climbed to her side, plucked a hairpin from her head, aimed the tip at his chest, and then hammered the hairpin with a stone with his left hand at the tail of the hairpin.

When the hairpin completely submerged in my chest, I smiled silently at the little girl.

'Sample, fight with me?' ’

In the little girl's jaw-dropping, the delayed pain in my chest crept into my mind, I was stunned for a second, then looked down at the little blue flower on my chest, and shouted in my heart, fuck ......

And the man straightened up and fell back into the grass......

What the hell did I tnd? I stabbed myself to death in order to be angry with the little girl?! Only...... It's so confusing to die???

The last scene I saw before I died was when the little girl stood up and patted the ashes off her body, looking at me and me lying on the ground with disdain......