Jiang Guining sighed and said to Lu Yangsheng.

"And then? Did you go to your father and aunt after dawn? ”

Lu Yangsheng shook his head and said with a wry smile.

"How is it possible, I was only five years old back then. Although Daddy and Auntie sometimes take me into the mountains to collect medicine, it is in the back mountain that is relatively close to the town, and they are all places where you can see the town, and Daddy and Auntie will not take me to places that are too far away. ”

Jiang Guining couldn't help but take a sip of wine and asked strangely.

"And what are you doing at dawn?"

Lu Yangsheng paused before continuing.

"I went to the patriarch, because Daddy said that if something happens when they are not at home, you can go and ask the patriarch grandfather, and the patriarch grandfather will help me."

Jiang Guining suddenly realized.

"That's true. At this time, it is indeed the safest plan to ask someone in the clan to help. I didn't expect you to be so calm when you were so old when you encountered this kind of thing. ”

Lu Yangsheng shook his head.

"It's not that I'm calm, in fact, I really didn't understand anything at the time, just because Daddy said that I could find the patriarch, and I was really frightened, so I went to find the patriarch Grandpa."

Jiang Guining nodded, indicating that he could understand, and then continued to ask.

"And then? What happened after I found the patriarch? ”

Lu Yangsheng lowered his head and said softly.

"Patriarch Grandpa's face was very ugly after hearing that my father and mother had left me alone at home for a night, but he didn't say anything in front of me, just gave me to Grandma Feng, prepared me a little delicious food, and then left in a hurry. That day, it was Grandma Feng who hugged me for a day, and it wasn't until the evening that the patriarch and grandfather came back and brought back ......"

Lu Yangsheng didn't say the following words, but Jiang Guining had already guessed it, he patted Lu Yangsheng's shoulder and comforted him softly.

"Now that the matter is over, let me mourn."

Lu Yangsheng's shoulders twitched, and it was a long time before he continued.

"At that time, when the patriarch and grandfather came back, they only brought back A-Niang alone, and A-Niang not only lost an arm at that time, but also had some ...... Lose your marbles. ”

When he said the word "crazy", Lu Yangsheng's voice was very small, but he was still heard by Jiang Guining. Jiang Guining didn't speak, just poured himself a sip of wine again.

"That day, I learned for the first time that people except for cats and dogs, and after they died, they would never be seen again. It was the first time I really felt death. ”

At this time, Jiang Guining suddenly said.

"Life and death are the most primitive avenues of heaven and earth, even if you have now stepped into the cultivation realm and become an immortal in the eyes of ordinary people, you still can't get rid of the shackles of life and death, which no one can change. It's just that it was indeed early for you at that time. ”

Lu Yangsheng didn't answer at all as if he hadn't heard it, but still talked to himself.

"I was so young that I didn't know anything about funerals, let alone anything like that, so I just cried. I cry when people come, I still cry when people leave, when I want A-Niang to hug me, A-Niang doesn't know me anymore, I still only cry, at that time, I really can't do anything except cry. ”

can't do anything, this is Lu Yangsheng's conclusion about what he did when he was five years old, and it is also the biggest denial of himself now.

Lu Yangsheng's current thoughts were actually very unfavorable to people in cultivation, but Jiang Guining didn't say anything, and he didn't even interrupt Lu Yangsheng. Because he can see that even if Lu Yangsheng, who has experienced enlightenment, has changed a lot, the things of the past have become his inner demons, and this is something that no one can change.

Lu Yangsheng continued.

"Daddy's funeral was organized by the patriarch grandfather and the ninth master, at that time I didn't understand, why the patriarch grandfather and the ninth master wanted me to cry in front of an empty coffin, I didn't want to, they told me that my grandfather was inside, but when I secretly lay on the edge of the coffin, I only saw some of Daddy's torn clothes. I asked them what about my father? They said that my father was away and asked me to take good care of my mother. But I heard someone say that my father is dead. So at that time, in my eyes, death was a long journey. It was only later that I learned that those who embarked on this long journey would never return home. ”

Lu Yangsheng wiped the tears from his face and continued.

"After the funeral, I was left with my mother, but my mother never remembered me, she always held a piece of wood and shouted my name there. At the beginning, I was still crying and telling A-Niang that I was Lu Yangsheng, but A-Niang didn't want to pay attention to me all the time as if she hadn't heard it, I had no choice but to cry. ”

"Later, because A-Niang held the wood for a long time, the body was often punctured, I had no choice but to go to the patriarch's grandfather, and after the patriarch's grandfather listened, I asked A-Niang to wrap a small package in tattered clothes for A-Niang to hold. Then after that day, Ah Niang never let go of the package, and that package became me in Ah Niang's eyes. ”

When he said this, Lu Yangsheng's tone was very calm, but the tears on his face couldn't be stopped.

"Actually, if I can do this all the time, I will also feel very good, after all, after Niang falls asleep, I can still secretly hold Auntie's arm to sleep, in fact, after getting used to it, I still won't be afraid, at least, not as scared as before. I bought medicine for my mother, decocted medicine, bought rice, and cooked. At that time, I was not a mourning star that everyone hated, so these things were still easy to buy, but they would be more ...... It's just a little more expensive. ”

Jiang Guining is so old and spicy, he looked at Lu Yangsheng's eyes and said.

"Is it just 'a little bit more expensive'?"

Lu Yangsheng sighed softly and said softly.

"I'm actually very satisfied, after all, it's because of those medicines that A-Niang can stay with me for an extra year."

In fact, if it weren't for those people who took advantage of the fire to rob, even if Lu Yangsheng and his mother needed a lot of money for treatment, with the family property left by his father, it was enough for the mother and son to live carefree for many years. It's just that orphans and widows, one is a fool, the other is a child who doesn't know anything, but such two people guard a large amount of property, how can this not make people blush? The two of them were able to hold out for a year, thanks to the secret help of the patriarch many times, otherwise, they would have been swallowed up by those bastards behind their backs.

And among these people, the one who eats the best is the Song family's Yuan Rentang, but they also eat the most, and even the Lu family's old house is now in the hands of the Song family.

It's just that Lu Yangsheng really can't say anything more about these things, after all, he was deceived because he didn't know the market here, and he couldn't complain about others. And these, even the patriarch can't do anything, after all, the patriarch is not omnipotent.

The lack of households in the town is a tacit thing for everyone, even if the Lu family has a Lu Yangsheng who can inherit the family business, but no one cares about this.

If you open your mouth, you can eat the meat in your mouth, so there is no reason not to eat it.

So just like Lu Yangsheng said, even though he now knows that he was miserably cheated at the beginning, he still has no way to get justice for himself, because in a sense, this is in line with the "rules". This is a fact that the patriarch cannot change.

Jiang Guining asked with a sigh.

"And then?"

"Later?"

Jiang Guining touched the bowl in his hand and said.

Later, Ah Niang also left a year later. But I didn't cry when my mother left, because I knew at that time that when people died, they were actually too tired and wanted to sleep. I knew when I was very young that as long as I cried, my mother would not sleep well because she had to coax me all the time. So on the day A-Niang left, even though I was going to die of sadness, I still didn't cry because I didn't want A-Niang to sleep badly. ”

Looking at Lu Yangsheng's expression, Jiang Guining couldn't help but say.

"Actually, it doesn't matter, they may not be able to hear it."

Lu Yangsheng looked at Jiang Guining's eyes and said.

"No, they can hear it, right, Daoist?"

Jiang Guining opened his mouth and said after a long time.

"That's right."

Hearing Jiang Guining's answer, Lu Yangsheng lowered his head and continued.

"After Daddy and Auntie are gone, my home is gone, and I have become a well-known mourning star in the town. When others scolded me and bullied me in front of me, I didn't feel much wronged, because I felt that what they said might be right, because Daddy and Auntie, maybe it was really because of me that I died. ”

In a sense, Lu Yangsheng's intuition is right, Jiang Guining knows it, and the people behind the scenes in the town know it even more, but can this blame Lu Yangsheng?

For these, Jiang Guining can't say anything now. He knew that some of Lu Yangsheng's words were deliberately said to him, but he couldn't give him an answer, he only hoped that when Lu Yangsheng knew all the truth in the future, his heart would be tough enough, otherwise, his Dao heart might be completely shattered because of this.

Although Lu Yangsheng lowered his head, his ears kept listening to Jiang Guining's movements, but unfortunately after a long time, Jiang Guining didn't say anything to him, which made him very disappointed, but he was helpless.

He continued.

"In the beginning, there were people who were willing to give me a little food, but then something happened, and someone died because of my family, and since then, no one is willing to help me except the patriarch and grandfather."

"At that time, I was too young, and it was almost instinctive to live, even if I didn't know why I wanted to live, I didn't have the idea of dying, or at that time, I didn't know that when people couldn't live, they could take shortcuts."

"In this way, I lived in the town for an extra year, until that winter, I was too cold, and I had no clothes on my body, so I almost froze to death in the snowdrift, if the patriarch grandfather hadn't found me, I would have frozen to death."

"At that time, I said to the patriarch and grandfather, 'I'm so tired, I want to sleep with my father and aunt,' but the patriarch and grandfather hugged me and told me. Xiao Yangsheng, live, as long as you can live, then your father and mother still have hope underground, as long as you live, your father and mother will not be considered dead. Because at least you remember them, but if even you die, they are really dead.'" ”

When he said this, Lu Yangsheng couldn't hold back any longer, Douda's tears slipped down his face, and his voice began to whimper.

"From that time on, I realized that life and death are not as simple as I understand, and what I thought was death was not real death at all."

The words were very vague, but Jiang Guining understood them, and he asked.

"That's why you remembered this in the morning, and that's why there was such a big change?"

Lu Yangsheng shook his head.

"Dao Chief, it's not like that. I knew these things at that time, and I never forgot them, and what I thought about in the morning was something else. ”