"Why do you want to be a janitor?" Chu Zihang asked.

Lu Mingfei rolled his eyes to look at the sunlight cast outside the parasol overhead, "Because you can do whatever you want, I had a lot of strange ideas in my head when I was a child, and I read idle books when I had nothing to do, fantasizing about how I am."

"When I was a child, I looked around and wished it could be a little more fun and weird, but now I can't figure out a lot of things, so I don't think strange things will be fun."

"There's still something you can't figure out?" Chu Zihang was a little surprised, "I think you live quite comfortably every day."

"There's a lot going on." Lu Mingfei said thoughtfully, and suddenly drew a sharp turn, "For example, I can't figure out one thing right now."

"What's the matter?"

"Senior brother, have you ever thought about what you will do when you graduate in the future?" Lu Mingfei stared at Chu Zihang seriously.

Chu Zihang was silent for a long time, then shook his head, "I didn't think about it."

"I think you should think about it, the four years we spent in Kassel are not short, nor are they long."

"Youth is such a thing, you don't think it's good when you have it, but it's out of your hand all at once, and then you regret trying to grab it, and from time to time you remember memories that you didn't think were so good before."

"Before I entered Kassel, I was quite confused, the day I received the admission letter from Kassel, I was very impressed, and I had to take the college entrance examination in three months and four days." Lu Mingfei's feet hanging outside swayed, as if he didn't care.

"Those countdown days are always dangling in front of my eyes, as if the whole world is roaring in my ears."

"It tells me that the end is coming, and that I should be refreshed and pounce on the mock exam papers like a murderous fighting, showing my determination to stab my head on the beam."

"I can't find any good in myself to be proud of, for me, the future should be to go to a university that is not famous, fall in love in college, and come out to find a job and rent a house."

"Maybe my unobtrusive parents will occasionally urge me to get married when they think of me, so I got married, had a baby, went to work every day, and lived my whole life."

"I used to think that the days of chaos were long, but it ended on a sunny morning when the acceptance letter from Kassel arrived at my house."

"I didn't want to go, because I had a girl I liked at that time, senior brother, you should know, although I don't like her now." Lu Mingfei asked.

"yes, I know." Chu Zihang nodded, "Chen Wenwen."

"Yes, it's Chen Wenwen, she often wears that white dress that seems to be full of sunshine, her back is straight, her hair is like a waterfall, and she holds a few books in her hand that I have never heard of."

"I suddenly felt a great sadness come over me, because my time was running out and I had only a few days left to see her if I didn't scrap that Kassel offer."

"After that, we'll be separated by the great Pacific Ocean."

"But can I revoke that notice? What am I going to do with that notice? My aunt filled out more than a dozen applications to American universities in those months, and my whole family was struggling with that American letter."

"I suddenly had a terrible feeling that I was really going to graduate, that I was running out of chaotic time, that there was a fork in the road in my life, and that if I didn't choose it, I would have to live my life in a daze as I said before."

"I hesitated, and then something happened, the role I played in it was quite funny, so I won't tell you about it, senior brother, so as not to embarrass me."

"I actually do." Chu Zihang suddenly spoke, "In your resume when you entered the school, the first eighteen years of your life were clearly written."

"Hey, brother, you're going to make me feel embarrassed." Lu Ming shouted dissatisfied.

"I'm sorry." Chu Zihang apologized silently.

"Forget it, it doesn't matter, it's been so long."

Lu Mingfei twisted his buttocks and changed to a comfortable sitting position, "Senior brother, since you know what is going on, you should also know who came to fish me out, right?"

"Nono."

"Well, Senior Sister pulled me out, so I have no choice but to choose that fork in the road, and go along with it, even if there is a mountain of swords and a sea of fire in front of me, I can't turn back."

"Fortunately, I met the love of my life at a fork in the road." Lu Mingfei narrowed his eyes and looked at Nuo Nuo's dark red back in the distance, "I have no regrets about choosing this path."

"So, senior brother, do you understand what I mean?" He asked Chu Zihang very seriously.

"Probably ...... Your youth?" Chu Zihang thought for a while and then replied.

"So to speak."

"But I'm not like you." Chu Zihang's tone became a little gloomy, as if he was suppressing some kind of anger, "I chose this path by myself."

"Odin?" Lu Mingfei asked coldly.

"How do you know...... Chu Zihang turned his head to look at him, and thought of something again, "Forget it, it's not a strange thing for you to know."

"Odin, let's not talk about it for now." Lu Mingfei shrugged, "Let's go back to the previous topic, Senior Brother, what are you going to do when you graduate in the future?"

Chu Zihang thought about it very seriously this time, and replied, "I should join the executive department and search for traces of the dragon clan all over the world until ......

"Until one day you died in an accident on a mission?" Lu Mingfei interrupted him, picked up the lemonade and took another sip, "It's very similar to your style, senior brother, chasing dragons all over the world, either you die in the mission, or you lose yourself completely due to excessive blood."

"Hmm." Chu Zihang said, his face was pale, and he was not surprised at all by the path he chose and its ending.

"Here's the problem." Lu Mingfei snapped his fingers, "That's why I said, Senior Brother, you have been very tired."

"I don't think so." Chu Zihang said, "Since I have chosen this path, I will not regret it."

"Eh, senior brother," Lu Mingfei suddenly approached Chu Zihang with an ambiguous expression, "What do you think of Xia Mi?"

"What do you mean?" Chu Zihang frowned.

"Literally." Lu Mingfei frowned, "Don't you think Xia Mi has a bit of that meaning for you?"

"I don't know." Chu Zihang couldn't help but glance at Xia Mi in the distance, "I just think it's a little strange."

"What's weird?" Lu Mingfei asked.

"When you went to bring breakfast this morning, she talked to me about some things in her family, about her brother."

"To be honest, I just asked casually, but I didn't expect her to tell me everything directly, for example, her brother is a demented child who was beaten by several boys on the way out of school......

"Everyone is not familiar with each other when they first meet, and they are half strangers to each other, why do you have to talk about all these touching and inexplicable things?" Lu Mingfei said, "Senior brother, you want to express this meaning, right?"

Chu Zihang was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head and said softly, "Almost."

"I don't want to speculate maliciously about Natsumi, I just think it's weird."

"Lu Mingfei, if you really know everything, you should also know about that rainy night."

"Everyone has something to hide in their hearts, just like the absolute realm in EVA, the absolute realm of the mind, you don't want others to walk in."

"Wow, senior brother, you've seen EVA, it looks like I have to retract my evaluation of you, you can be regarded as a little bit of childhood." Lu Mingfei happily interrupted.

"Well, I watched some of it when I was a kid, but I didn't finish it." Chu Zihang said, "In my absolute realm, there is a viaduct that never ends, a never-ending rainy night, and a Maybach full of holes."

"I don't think I'll share it with anyone else in my life, but Natsumi just showed me her absolute realm so lightly, without any defense."

"I heard her say these things

At that time, it was very strange, I suddenly felt that Xia Mi's heart was an amusement park? And that long path, she walked through in a white lace-trimmed sundress, followed by a younger brother who was smiling silly......

"Senior brother, don't you think it's too rash?" Lu Mingfei gently sucked the lemonade.

"Hmm." Chu Zihang replied, "Why did Xia Mi take out these things that should have been buried deep in his heart and share them with me?"

"I think I'll probably spend my whole life sitting silently on the Maybach in my heart, listening to the Irish folk songs that are played over and over again."

"I don't quite understand, so I think it's weird."

Chu Zihang felt that he had never talked to someone for so many days in his life, and his mouth was a little dry, so he picked up another glass of untouched lemonade on the small table next to him and took a sip.

"Is there such a possibility," Lu Mingfei stared at Chu Zihang's golden boy that would never be extinguished, and said slowly, "Xia Mi, she likes you."

The cold lemonade choked into the trachea, and Chu Zihang coughed violently.

Lu Mingfei patted his senior brother's back intimately and helped him calm down.

"Senior brother, don't think I'm joking." Lu Mingfei looked serious, "Think about it, what kind of person does a girl usually face will unscrupulously take out the things in her heart and share them with that person?"

"It's someone she likes, brother."

Chu Zihang was silent and did not speak.

Lu Mingfei suddenly hummed the most impressive song of Chu Zihang in "ONCE".

「Andifyouhaveso】

"But how could a man understand, even if he asked, she wouldn't say it after all."

"Maybe that's the way girls do it, sad little stubbornness."

"I'm actually a person who doesn't understand both love and girls." Lu Mingfei suddenly laughed as he spoke, "Otherwise, I wouldn't be so embarrassed to fall in love with my senior sister."

"What kind of relationship is the man and the flower girl, in fact, I don't have any conclusion, is it love, but the ending is not a happy ending, on this vast planet, they met once, and they sang a lot of songs together."

"Everything is the most appropriate ending, in a note where there are no borders and no differences, everything has reached its most perfect state, it looks good, right?"

"Perhaps." Chu Zihang lowered his head, his long bangs hung down to block his eyes, "This ending is quite good for them."

"But are things really as you said, senior brother?" Lu Mingfei asked, "Obviously they can be together, obviously the ending can be better, obviously there are so many beautiful things in the world that people can witness."

"Why can't it be them?"

"Why ......," Lu Mingfei whispered, "can't it be us?"

Chu Zihang didn't speak, he didn't move, his eyes were still hidden under his bangs, so that people couldn't see the emotions hidden in them.

Lu Mingfei stopped talking, watching the lake gently suck lemonade.

He hated the silence, it was so insane, he wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say.

"Hey! Brother! What are you doing there?" Natsumi shouted in the distance, breaking the backwater-like atmosphere between the two of them, "Why don't you come and play together? Or are you all dead houses?"

"Nonsense!" Lu Mingfei glared, stood up and prepared to walk over there, "Your Senior Brother Lu, I'm a big boy in the sun, I'm just afraid that I'll come and knock you all down!"

"Lu Mingfei." Chu Zihang suddenly stopped him, "I seem to understand a little bit of what youth means."

Lu Mingfei was stunned for a moment, and then changed to a sunny smile, "Senior brother, youth is a catastrophe of eternal ambition."

"It's a period of time when so many dreams and the girl's silhouette melt into light and foam."

"It's not sacred, it's not eternal, but it's important to each of us, because it's free and great, because it goes and doesn't return."

"So, grasp the person in front of you, senior brother!" Lu Mingfei shouted, wearing a pair of big pants and running to the lake.