"I will free all the power of the mind demon to open a passage for you." She said, "You're going to run out." ”

Li Zheng froze, he thought that this café was really gloomy, only a large piece of light poured in through the window, almost engulfing her slender figure.

"There should be a way...... he muttered to himself, "the academy will notice that our signal is gone, and reinforcements will be sent over......"

"Don't be stupid, this is the best way, one of us must survive."

"Only by surviving can we get the news of our attack at the gates of hell to the school, so that we don't all die in vain." Ji Yan finally turned his head, "Do as I say." ”

"Why me?" He said.

"I am your senior, and the seniors naturally have to pave the way for the juniors, not to mention that you still have such great dreams, you shouldn't die here."

"But ......," Li Zheng tried to fight for something more.

"I know you like me, and I know what I think I'm like in your mind, but I shouldn't be as good as you think." She suddenly interrupted Li Zheng, "I told you about it when I was a child. ”

"Hmm." Li Zheng nodded stiffly, he wanted to smile at her, and wanted to say in a relaxed tone I actually don't like you, I don't even know what it is like to like someone, let alone like you.

After living for so many years, I can't even find a person I really like, and it's quite sad.

But he couldn't laugh, the environment at this moment didn't allow him to laugh, he just felt that he would be very uncomfortable if Ji Yan died, really, really, very uncomfortable.

"I think you're a bit like me when I was a kid."

"Helping you all the time, in fact, is such a simple thing, helping you, just like helping your former self." Ji Yan said softly, "I always eat with you because I feel guilty, because I brought you in, and I feel that I owe you." ”

"I'm sorry if you misunderstood something."

"......" Li Zheng didn't know what to say.

"I know that I have a bad reputation in the academy, many people say that I am green tea, and I have an affair with anyone," Ji Yan continued, "Lin Yu, you have also seen it, do you think I will not know that Lin Yu likes me?" Everybody knows and then I don't know? ”

Li Zheng shook his head.

"Maybe I'm a green tea." She laughed self-deprecatingly, "If I were a good girl, I should have deleted all his contact information a long time ago, and when he came to me, I ignored him and never had contact with him again." ”

"When I tell you about my childhood, I tell you that I am not the good girl you imagined, I have never been perfect, I have done a lot of immoral things before, and hanging those boys who like me is one of them."

"I have a lot of thoughts, and I'm good at finding all sorts of reasons to forgive myself, and I think those boys like me just because I'm good-looking."

"There were even boys crying and shouting that he would love me for the rest of his life, but so what? There are so many people who like me that I can't handle it. ”

"I never believe in this kind of thing, there is no one in this world who will always accompany anyone, no matter how much you love to die and live, it will disappear in the end."

"Anyway, any boy will have a period of time when he somehow likes someone, and then one day he somehow doesn't like her, and I think they will always grow up to understand things, and I'm just a passerby in their long life."

"That...... I want to say that I really don't like you. Li Zheng tugged at the corners of his mouth and showed an ugly smile.

That's a confession, right? Listening to her confide in her, she can still say such things without heart and lungs, and her emotional intelligence is really hopelessly bad.

"Whatever you say, I'm just saying what I want to say, the first time I say this to someone, it may be a bit of a word, just listen to it." Ji Yan was silent for a while, and suddenly stepped forward to tidy up the messy tie for him, he always didn't like to tie it well.

"I heard that those top demon hunters wear suits and ties when they go to battle, and they clap their hands after solving them, and they don't have a drop of blood on their shirts, and they are very chic."

When she said this, her long white forehead hair hung down, blocking all her eyes, but Li Zheng thought that even if he didn't block it, he wouldn't be able to see anything from it, Ji Yan's pupils were always deep but not bright, like a layer of fog that hid everything.

"Don't you want to be that kind of person, I'm sure you can, you're so good." She finally straightened her tie and slipped another thing into his pocket.

Li Zheng was just about to touch something, but Ji Yan suddenly grabbed his wrist, "Don't look at it, wait until you go out." ”

Her hand was so icy, so cold that it was even a little biting, but soon, she let go.

Li Zheng still wanted to say something more, there were too many things to say, but Ji Yan didn't give him any chance, the girl looked up at the void, her white hair flew up, and even the pink that the ends of her hair were dyed, "I'm willing to give all my ......"

The last thing he heard was, "Put the starry sky on my grave." ”

And then he was pushed out.

It's really powerful, it's really majestic, and the last words are "Put that bunch of stars on my grave", there is no miserable parting, and there is no regret about going to the point of no return, just a simple sentence "Put that bunch of stars on my grave".

"What the hell...... Li Zheng looked back at the small café, but he couldn't see anything, and he definitely couldn't see anything, it had been isolated from the nightmare space, isolated from the world in the real sense.

His head was buzzing, and a tiredness that seemed to come out of every blood cell was running down his veins, and he wanted to sit down and rest.

"I have to report to the academy." Li Zheng said softly, "Otherwise, Ji Yan will really die in vain." ”

So he walked slowly in the direction of the academy again, his head was so heavy that it seemed like he was going to break his neck.

"Bad luck ......" The pedestrian glanced at Li Zheng with disdain, treating him as a drunkard who bought drunk in the middle of the night.

Li Zheng looked back at him viciously, his gaze was so dangerous that he could kill a dinosaur, "Lao Tzu doesn't drink!" ”

The pedestrians were even more disdainful and hurried away.

"Why do you come casually, everyone thinks that I am a mud that the regiment can't support the wall." Li Zheng felt very annoyed in his heart, and now he just wanted a bed in front of him, and he could lie down flat, and for the first time there was a deep sense of powerlessness that made him want to do something.

Why? Is it because Ji Yan is dead? It doesn't matter if I like it, maybe I just don't want to watch her die in front of me, and she dies so aggrieved.

He sat down on the edge of the road, and the night breeze ruffled his forehead.

"I really don't have many friends, I'm really going to be very uncomfortable if you die......" Li Zheng muttered, habitually reaching into his pocket to touch the mints, but he touched a square box, which Ji Yan had stuffed into him before.

He took it out and saw that it was Marlboro, a sign he often smoked.

"You are ruthless enough, you gave me a pack of cigarettes before you died, do you wish I could come down and accompany you quickly?" Li Zheng was happy, he couldn't be happy when he was happy, stuffed the cigarette case back into his pocket, sat on the curb with his knees crossed, and looked at the empty West Nanjing Road.

The only taxi passed by with a sign that read "Johnson & Johnson", and a faint rain mist rolled up behind the car.

After thinking about it, he took out his cigarette case again, he still had to smoke one, otherwise he would go crazy.

The Marlboro black ice logo reflects the dim glow of the street lamp.

What does it mean in English? Marlboro, is made up of the initials "Men always remember love because of romance only".

Translated meaning: Men only remember love because of romance.

Li Zheng, male, 20 years old this year, wants to love someone seriously, but no one can make him love, someone will be moved to tears because of the love story behind Marlboro, and he can't understand it, and his empathy ability is so bad that he is dead.

The people who don't understand love the most like to smoke the most romantic cigarettes, and it's funny enough.

He pulled out the middle one, put it in his mouth, and hit the lighter several times, but it didn't light it.

"Damn it, it's unlucky for people to do anything when they have their backs." Li Zheng thought, took the cigarette out of his mouth, and was about to stuff it back into the cigarette case, but Yu Guang suddenly saw the words written on the cigarette.

He was stunned for a moment, looking at what was written by the glow of the street lamp.

"Don't be a decrepit, remember to fix yourself." A line of graceful handwriting lay quietly on it.

It was that time with Ji Yan in Xinzhenjiang, she asked, why don't you always shave?

Li Zheng was busy stuffing steak into his mouth, and casually replied that I had to do a chemistry experiment for a few days in the past, so how could I have time to shave......

His hand trembled, and the cigarette slipped from his fingertips, but he didn't pick it up, but looked at the smoke that fell on the ground, and felt something seep out from the short smoke, like Medusa's gaze, he didn't dare to move, and if he did, he would collapse, and he would drop stone dust all over his body.

After about a minute, he pulled out a second one.

"Eat on time."

It was that time when he chatted with Ji Yan, he mentioned that his three meals were always irregular.

Oh, then you remember to eat on time, otherwise it will not be good for your health.

She said so, with a nonchalant expression.

"Don't drink tea before going to bed, you will have insomnia." The third root.

I couldn't sleep that night, so I texted Ji Yan to ask if she slept.

She said she was getting ready to sleep, why didn't you sleep yet?

He said that I drank tea before going to bed again, and there was no way, because I couldn't change the habits I had developed before.

"If there is always a problem with the vending machine, just kick it." Fourth.

"Don't read miscellaneous books, don't think too much." The fifth.

"Daydream less, good things won't wait for you." Sixth.

……

……

"I wish you the best of luck." The penultimate one.

"Hopefully your world will never be enough." The penultimate one.

"Smoking less cigarettes is not good for your health." The last one.

He took one out and threw it away, and there was no more cigarette in the cigarette case.

The so-called parting, probably like this, right? The sunshine, wind and rain of the past, those pictures are flashing like a movie, what you want to give up and what you want to forget, everything is so beautiful again, don't you like it? OK, then you'll never see it again.

Are you happy?

There's something going on inside you, you want to hold it down, you say no, no, no, you fucking shut up.

"Such a big person, how can you believe this kind of nonsense ......" Li Zheng muttered in a low voice, "But I'm not qualified to say you, if you write on the cigarette and smoke it, you will remember what you wrote or I told you." ”

He slowly closed the lid of the cigarette case and put it in his pocket.

I couldn't help but start thinking about whether Ji Yan had done this on her desk one night, and there might be a small lamp next to her, whispering the words she wanted to write, and pulling out the first, second, and third ...... One by one, they were carefully written on it and stuffed back into the cigarette case.

Can't you tell him in person? Before, he was very chic, and he didn't leave any thoughts for him, as if he wanted to cut off all the potential things, and he did it really beautifully.

What kind of plane is he, he's just a science student, it's okay to calculate chemical equations, but he doesn't understand people's hearts, especially women's hearts, and the most unconfident thing in his life is to guess women's hearts.

The feeling of powerlessness welled up again, and it went straight to his throat.

suddenly remembered Chen Kaige's "Fatal Temptation", which was a little-known small film directed by Chen Kaige in Hollywood, and he sat in the cinema at half price on Wednesday to watch it.

The heroine falls in love with her handsome and brave mountaineer who is leaving her live-in boyfriend, who returns to her rented house, where she – he remembers to be a mediocre fat man – is watching a ball game with his legs crossed.

The woman made up her mind and said I was going to leave you, and the man stood up with his eyes wide in disbelief.

When he finally understood that everything was irreparable, he roared and said, "Why did you leave me, you bitch, you stupid woman, you deceived me, and all the words seemed to hit an invisible wall in front of the woman.

Finally he muttered, why did you leave me, I bought you the subway ticket every weekend......

I bought you the subway ticket every weekend.

Isn't it a little too stingy? The subway ticket，just the one- subway ticket……

In fact, women have not done anything wrong, all this is what men deserve, and men do not deserve to be sympathized.

It's just a little sad.

Li Zheng remembers where he used to read a person's blog, in which he said that his three favorite movies are "Fight Club" because it tells about the anger in the hearts of the eternal man, "The Passion Years" because it tells about the drifting in the hearts of the eternal man, and "Leaving Las Vegas" because it tells the helplessness in the hearts of the eternal man.

Helpless, yes, he is very helpless now, he really wants to save that girl, he wants to be eager like never before, but he is not so capable, he is just a fledgling newcomer, not even a fledgling, at best he is just an ordinary person with a stronger fighting instinct.

He sat on the side of the road for a long time, thinking about the poem he had recently read, "When You Are Old," a poem by Yeats.

"How many people love your youthful and happy hours

Admire your beauty, fake or sincere

Only one person loves the soul of your pilgrim

Love the painful wrinkles on your aging face

……”

For a person who can't understand love, he naturally doesn't understand what kind of emotions are contained in this poem.

I just think Yeats must be very stubborn.

Yeats, who wrote "When You Are Old", was actually only twenty-eight years old, imagine that a twenty-eight-year-old man wrote such a poem, as if he cursed and swore to his beloved girl, "When you are old, you will understand my love for you, and when all the men who admire your face have retreated, you will know that only I still love you."

It was a vow of time and life, affectionate and indignant.

Then he went to see the story of Yeats and the girl, the story was so long that he could write a book, but after reading such a long story, he did not draw any conclusions about the girl's attitude towards Yeats.

He has always been a person who lacks understanding of love, when he was a child, he watched a TV series called "Epiphany Dream", saying that Shanghai fell before liberation, and the hero came to the airport with a gun and gold bars, he put the guns and gold bars on the counter, and said that I wanted a ticket to leave, and then he gave the ticket to his beloved woman who did not belong to him, and turned around and left.

It's also cool, he also wants a woman who can make him do such awesome things, but no, he can't find it.

Ji Yan said, "The first time I talk to someone about this, there may be some words that don't reach the meaning......"

"Fuck you, the words don't make sense, I hate the words the most, can't I say it clearly in front of my face......"

But now it's too late to say, she may still be alive, but she is about to die, or she may be dead, dead in that isolated space, and her body will not even be found.

"Anything...... he didn't want the sparse passers-by to see his face, so he slowly buried his face in his arms, "Let's save her...... Anything you want......"

There was a click, and something loosened in the bottom of his heart.

"It can be seen that the article is hateful, and the potential fairness of the world always can't tolerate you with a pair of good." A playful voice said in front of him, "Isn't it? ”

Li Zheng looked up and saw a face of his own, grinning like a devil.