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Gong Yi sent one last message to Cangxi, and then deleted him. They're finally doomed.

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The final message is as follows:

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Now that I've figured it out, let's delete each other. I can't stand it anymore. I'll never know if you're okay. I don't care anymore. Let me tell you about me these days, I love you so much [lips], I really want to tell you how I'm doing. For the last time.

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1. I didn't sleep for three days and cried for three days

2. I didn't eat, and I dropped 5 pounds

3. After taking the dubbing engineer skill certificate, it cost 980 yuan

4. I am expected to join the organization smoothly and am expected to take the oath next year

5. I leave the MP app

6. I leave the XHS app

7. The novel should not be updated

8. Editing and AU are being learned, and the dubbing order is ready

9. This skirt is newly bought, and I plan to wear it to you, waiting for you to take me to have a good time, but I didn't have a chance to wear it in the duffel bag twice. I won't have a chance to wear it to you in the future.

10. You do give me feelings that no one else can give, and I am so obsessed. I hate who I am now, I disappear completely. It's good how deep the fate bond is, and I can't delete it 11 times. I can't be friends when I love you and leave WeChat.

11. There is a fate to meet thousands of miles away, but there is no chance to meet on the other side. Since you can say that you can't get out of your heart if you love me, or you can be so ruthless that you don't love if you don't love at once, then you remember, never look for me again. We're no longer friends, we're cut in two.

12. May the earth be really round, one day in this life we will see each other inadvertently, you can really call me treasure, hug and kiss, give me the future. In the next life, don't meet again.

13. Say it for the last time, I love you Cangda, deep in my heart. I don't regret it, whether it's feelings or reality, I did my best. This time it's not a trouble, it's you who completely push away the woman who is full of you, then we don't have any intersection anymore.

We say goodbye.

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Once the sea was difficult to water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud.

The time is locked at 3:04 p.m

When Gong Yi sent out the last message, he deleted Cangxi. She then began to delete all the videos and photos between them on her phone and in the online drive.

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Gong Yi's love is extreme, and her love is black and white. When she loves each other so much, she can't wait to record every word and deed of the other party, and if the relationship breaks down, she will not hesitate to give up everything about them, so as not to let herself have the opportunity to see things and think about people's sadness sublimation.

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When everything about them was deleted, Gong Yi began to enter the MP application, intending to delete this 250 pictures, more than 120,000 words of long-distance relationship diary. But when she was about to press the delete button, she hesitated.

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120,000 words, printed into a book with a total of 372 pages, 250 pictures, multiple videos and audios, and a delete button can be cleaned up. Does it really have to be so ruthless?

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Gong Yi was reluctant. That's for sure, this diary is what she spends time recording bit by bit every day, and slowly accumulates 120,000 words, how can you say that you can delete it, so freely?

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Even if she didn't want to keep everything she had with him, she didn't like to waste her time and effort like this, and wrote a 120,000-word diary.

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Keep it, keep it. Gong Yi convinced herself that she had decided to leave the MP app, the sad place of the Internet, the place where they first met.

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Originally, their fate was very deep, from online dating to long-distance relationship, they were deeply attracted to each other, if it weren't for the real problems lying here, they would definitely be able to get married and have children soon. But this is not a TV series, reality is reality, they did not die of light because of online dating, but they were washed away by the torrent of reality.

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The torrent of reality is so violent! In these 125 days of separation and integration, although on the surface there are various problems caused by emotional running-in, in fact, the essential problems are reality.

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Real problems cannot be solved, everything is empty talk. Practical problems will not be solved in a while, this love can only have no future, consuming each other's love.

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Love without a future, break up early and get rid of it early, and breaking up late is the most detrimental to a woman. How many years of youth do women have to afford to wait? Besides, at this time, Gong Yi has entered middle age, how many years can a 41-year-old woman wait for Cangxi?

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Everything is understood, everything can be understood, but Gong Yi can't accept it. She couldn't face the heartbreak moment of the breakup, and she couldn't imagine the scene when Cangxi hugged other women and said love words in the future, even if she thought about it, it would make her angina.

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Love is not the norm, why can't I let go of my heart? The human heart is made of flesh, and the sensibility dominates. Wake up, Gong Yi, the dream is broken.

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（53）

7:25 p.m

Cangxi sent a text message:

"Can't you be friends?"

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The moment Gong Yi received the message, his nose was sour but he couldn't cry. How is it possible to continue to be friends? Can a couple of lovers who once loved break up and still be friends?

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She struggled in her heart and was very uncomfortable, she didn't reply to his message, she was afraid that she couldn't hold the emotions that had already collapsed in her heart, so she chose to ignore it.

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Two minutes later, Cangxi sent a second text message:

"I love you too, but I can't give you a future."

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Gong Yi's tears flowed down all of a sudden. What she didn't expect at all was that Cangxi still loved her, did he really still love her?

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Gong Yi always thought that from the moment Cangxi proposed to break up, he had already weighed the pros and cons and made a decision after careful consideration. He should have forcibly withdrawn in the face of huge practical pressure, and he had already withdrawn his heart from loving her.

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Because of love, so give up. This will only appear in the plot of the movie, how can such a sadistic scene be staged casually in real life? If you don't love, you will propose to break up, it's as simple as that.

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Is it really that simple? Gong Yi would rather believe that the sadistic scene really appeared in their time. She believes in Cangxi's personality very much, he never lies, nor does he disdain to use sweet words to maintain feelings, on the contrary, his poisonous tongue never hides his true emotions in his heart, whether it is deep or shallow, he will tell the truth, so that she often provokes her to suffer from gains and losses, hovering between "he loves me" and "he doesn't love me".

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Cangxi is a big straight man at the same time, but also a typical virgin man. He is very sullen, and it is hard to say that he loves you in his heart. He is also never used to high-profile romances, but only uses actions to prove that he is in love.

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Such a straight man, but at this time they were really going to be exhausted and made "broken", he wanted to redeem it, so he used "tricks" to force him to take the initiative to express his inner feelings, so that she knew that he still loved her.

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He really loved her. He couldn't help himself from loving her, sensibility had triumphed over reason at this moment, and if he loved her, it was a scarce resource.

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Even if Gong Yi really understood Cangxi's love for her, she still couldn't convince herself to find him again. On the contrary, she kept silently hinting to herself that he didn't love her very much, but just wanted to win, and he didn't love her as much as she imagined.

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Gong Yi, who is dead and reasonable, believes that if you really love someone, you will never be willing to take the initiative to break up. Since Cangxi can propose to break up now, it is equivalent to that his love for her is dispensable, that is, he is not in love.

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Gong Yi silently determined that this point of view was so correct, she no longer had any illusions, not that she didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore, but that she didn't dare to have anything to do with it. finally persuaded herself to retreat, if there was any more involvement, she was afraid that she would fall into a situation from which she could never recover.

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Although she temporarily persuaded herself in her heart, she still wanted to send him a message to let him know that she loved him too. But after thinking about it, she immediately shook her head vigorously.

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This can't be said, it's too humble to be necessary, doesn't he know that she loves him? Surely you know, how can you know? Now that they've all broken up, the result of contact is just agreeing to be friends. This is unacceptable to her.

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Cangxi, what's the use of you saying you love me now? Do you have a desire to win or lose against me? Just because you finally know that I can really leave you, even if I love you deeply, I still dare to leave, so now when I am no longer humble to please you, you are afraid, right?

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Gong Yi has been struggling repeatedly in her heart, constantly staging a tragic scene of breaking up and bitter love, she repeatedly recalled the love between them, this love story of you chasing me and pulling each other, falling in love and killing each other.

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They are like springs, sometimes loose, sometimes tight, but they can't be broken. Leaving and piercing the heart, being together and being sad is really a sadomasochistic love, no doubt.

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Rather lack than indiscriminate, love must be restrained, even if it completely occupies the whole heart, if it can't go both ways, Gong Yi will choose to stop the loss in time and withdraw from the pain.

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The ruthlessness of the Pisces woman lies in the fact that no matter how painful it is, she will personally kill the love she cares about, as long as she no longer has any expectations for this love.

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Gong Yi likes an old movie "The Dream of the Covered Bridge" very much, this movie made her understand such a truth: love sincerely is love, and love is also love. Love is not because you meet the right person at the wrong time, and there is no fate.

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8:08 p.m

Gong Yi's phone rang, and when she saw the name of "Cang Dad" appear on the phone screen, she almost subconsciously answered the phone in seconds.

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Putting away the hand that connected the phone, Gong Yi put the phone on the table gently, and looked at the screen intently, accompanied by the ringtone of the mobile phone kept ringing, and the name of "Cang Dad" lit up on the screen.

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After 58 seconds, Cangxi's call finally stopped when no one answered. Gong Yi's heart felt a pimple, and the belief in his heart that he had firmly left him began to waver.