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CHAPTER VII

[Do you feel when the destined person appears?] 】

（2022.7.12）

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Do you feel it when the destined person appears? When that person appears, do you feel it in your heart? I think the answer is yes, yes. It's just that this kind of induction is not necessarily immediately apparent, it may be fast or slow. I will never forget the scene of my first meeting with him.

He was wearing a black T-shirt and black pants, the pants were flat and unwrinkled, and the whole person looked simple and refreshing but exquisite. I will never forget that the first time I met, his restrained and calm temperament, deep and loving eyes, and the strong feeling of fatherhood, I was deeply fascinated. His love for me hit my soul and fascinated me like crazy.

I used to think that this is what it feels like for a soul mate to come to me, that my good fortune has finally come, that my hero has finally arrived, that my destined person has finally appeared. However, as fate would have it, we did not run into the future in one go in one go like the fairy tale prince and princess.

He pursued me and came to me, but then I became a high-opener and a low-turner, suffering from gains and losses, and losing all my sense of security. For this reason, I did not go against the grain, but chose to keep withdrawing from this ambiguous relationship that has not yet been confirmed. I quarreled with him many times, I was very tired of love, I was divided and combined, deleted and blocked, and he was coaxed back three times and twice. I've been wondering if the person I'm destined to be is him.

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For one, I don't like that I'm always in the initiative, and he's always in a passive exchange of information. Sometimes I feel as if I am his spare tire, and sometimes I feel as if there is no future between us. My ambiguous relationship with him developed into a self-written, directed, and acted by myself, and this relationship has been tormenting my spiritual world. It's because of my personality.

Second, I did fall in love with this taciturn him, he did not love me deeply at first, and he made no secret of telling me that he was not as deep as me. There are not many love words in his messages, basically three or two words that cherish words like gold or direct conventional expressions. In his honest words, he doesn't want to send messages because his handwriting is too slow on weekdays; Because of the habit of being alone, I am not used to being tired, and I am not used to falling in love through the screen. It's his character.

The flashpoint of our contradictions is mainly due to our personality and where we want to go in the future. I have always been with him, and my ambiguous emotions are not worthy of my love. A sincere heart for a sincere heart, if the true heart can't be changed, stop the loss in time. On the ambiguous road between me and him, our run-in can be described as difficult to reach the sky. None of us are willing to change a lot for each other, and there is no difference between strong and strong under the pull of feelings, and neither party is willing to take a big step back to endure or change, so we staged many sadomasochistic episodes.

Strange to say, no matter how we separate, we are like being pulled back by the wheel of fate, and we can never be truly separated. When I couldn't sleep in my midnight dreams, I always missed him, and I cried countless times because of his usual cold attitude. I forced myself many times to cut off my love and withdraw from this ambiguous relationship as soon as possible, but I found that I had no choice but to miss it more and more.

At that time, I had to believe that the relationship between me and him might be too deep, otherwise how could he coax me back in time when I deleted and blocked him and planned to break his wrist. The real fate of each other can't be broken even if you want to. The so-called positive relationship is not smooth sailing on the emotional road, even after breaking up, it will still get back together. What's more, we haven't confirmed our relationship yet, and it's not a breakup.

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Eventually, I was in a relationship with him, and our long-distance relationship was finally about to begin. And before the relationship was confirmed, we were almost overwhelmed by the storm, and we almost became the most familiar strangers. Unexpectedly, this storm made me a blessing in disguise, and his possessiveness and deep love in his heart were all stimulated, and he did not leave me in the end, domineering me in his arms, and gave me a promise for the future.

It's hard to say whether the promise he gave me is a lifetime, time is the only criterion for testing the truth, and companionship is also the most affectionate confession. Let's live slowly over time, and slowly talk about the long-distance relationship in each other's hearts, which is the longest number of years in terms of time.

Therefore, it is always inseparable from the positive fate, and they will still be together after going around and around, and they still feel that each other is the best, that is, they exist like soul mates, they achieve each other, and they have obtained sacred and pure love for each other.

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This short essay was written by Gong Yi after Gong Yi and Cangxi confirmed their relationship, and Gong Yi went to D City for the first time to see Cangxi come back, and it was a popular original writing challenge released on the XHS app.

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This is the sweetest moment of their love. Gong Yi was immersed in sweetness every day, during which he wrote a lot of emotional sweet love copywriting, took the initiative to disclose his relationship, and received the blessings of his family and friends.

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On June 26, 2022, Gong Yi has been to the temple for three consecutive days to pray for Cangxi. Gong Yi cried and sent a circle of friends with a red nose, and Cangxi's message arrived later. He asked her why her eyes always felt like crying. Then, Gong Yi did not reply to the message, but called Cangxi.

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With this phone call, they confirmed their relationship, in front of the Buddha, in the temple.

Cangxi said: "You remember, only I can love you, you can only give me the love of one person, do you hear!" ”

Gong Yi asked rhetorically: "Then you only love me, and you can't love anyone else, right?" ”

Cangxi replied firmly: "Yes, there is no chance. I only love you one, and I don't share it with anyone! ”

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In the more than 50 days they have been together, the separation and union have finally come to an end. Noisy and noisy many times, deleted blackouts, and the big wind and waves did not break each other's hearts of love, they decided to eliminate all practical pressures and must be together.

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In the more than 50 days they got along, the ambiguous phase finally ended. Even if it is very difficult to run in, and the relationship is in jeopardy many times, in the end, there are lovers who eventually become married, and under the blessing of the Buddha, they have made promises to each other in the temple.

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This commitment has no time limit and is not a lifetime commitment. But Gong Yi is confident that their love for each other is pure, and they will definitely be able to go through this life.

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In the more than 50 days they got along, they loved and killed each other, and the run-in between the virgin man and the Pisces woman was difficult to get to the sky, but in the end they overcame it. With love, all difficulties are nothing. Love can break through all difficulties.

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Recalling the day they confirmed their relationship, Gong Yi went to the temple to pray for him with the pretense of losing Cangxi's love forever. Gong Yi's one-sided love, she doesn't mind giving him all her good fortune, she just wants him to live well, have a lot of money, and be high-spirited.

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At that time, Gong Yi wrote a small essay of complaint and sent a photo to Cangxi, which showed the supplies to be treasured, with Cangxi's name and birthday written on them.

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That day, Cangxi replied with a message:

"It's cold again"

"I feel like I'm holding you every minute"

"My birthday, xx month xx day of xxxx year, lunar calendar"

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At that time, Gong Yi knew that Cangxi had miscalculated his constellation. I think it's funny, but I also think it's sweet. Because she was in a very depressed mood, she felt that Cangxi didn't love her. But I didn't expect that Cangxi loved her so much, and the sentence "I feel like I'm holding you every minute" made Gong Yi feel better all of a sudden, as if he suddenly picked her up after falling from a high altitude. The Buddha blessed the couple, who loved each other, and eventually came together.

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That day was also the day when Gong Yi went to the police. Cangxi wrote a comforting word in the message: "I hope the baby will recover the money as soon as possible [gassho]"

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Gong Yi's life, finally more Cangxi's company, the trough period no longer need to be alone to hold on, the inner satisfaction makes Gong Yi high-spirited, she is extremely yearning for life, she told herself that she must work hard to live positively, and work hard for their future.

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【Diary】

2022.6.26 Sunny day

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2022.5.3 The first time I met you, it was a day of enthusiasm and Arctic cold. After more than 50 days, they did not see each other again, nor did they confirm their relationship, and the days of tossing were very painful, and the mental pressure was huge.

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For more than 50 days, you reminded me. You really have love for me, remember the time we first met, and today is the 50 days we haven't seen each other, and I feel your love for me.

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Recently, Cangxi has warmed up to me, and when I text him, he will respond to the hug emoji, and take the initiative to send me a headshot. His big head photo is so handsome, his big eyes are full of manliness, although his eyes are quite sharp, but I can see that his eyes are clear, that gentle and delicate heart.

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My heart is very sweet, Cangxi thinks about me. But at the same time, I'm scared of what the future holds for us. We haven't confirmed our relationship for more than 50 days, but we love each other, which is a good thing.

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The avatar of Cangxi's MP account, the account screen name: XXX, this is also the only photo of him that I currently have. Originally, this photo was saved to commemorate this love that ended without a problem before the relationship was confirmed, and it is forever kept in the diary. But God still treats me well, my good fortune is supported, let him come to my side, and he has not really left, and there will be many photos updated in the diary in the future.

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Cangxi: "And you, in my heart." ”

I understand, I'm no longer scared and hesitant, I decided to run to you! 2022.6.26 We ended the two-month run-in ambiguous relationship of splitting and merging, deleting and blocking each other many times, and officially confirmed the relationship. I'm your girlfriend, you're my boyfriend.