Chen Yansui returned to the hotel in despair, did not turn on the lights, did not change clothes, sat alone on the carpet, he turned on the projector, and the figure of Right Fanshuang performing at Huada that night appeared on the screen.

She is as beautiful as the soul of a bright lake, clear and sad.

The lyrics are so painful, they are the memories he once left for her.

"It's easy to wake up from a good dream, and there's no time to return/

My flesh burns with thorns/

Love Spreads in the Wind/

I'm waiting in agony/

Hold on to your vanishing April 17/"

The light was dim, and only her figure was projected in front of her, Chen Yansui muttered and sang along with her, but she felt her eyes sour after not saying a word.

"Someone's face left traces on you/

But I can't wake up the memories that have you/"

It turned out that at that time, she was completely disappointed in him, and found someone with traces of him on his face to replace him.

On the night of the BGI Fellowship performance, she cried and threw herself into the arms of another man.

The fragile and slender body was buried in the other party's arms, crying as if no one was around.

At that time, it was destined that no matter how much she liked him, she would let go at that moment.

He reached for the projection to turn it off, but accidentally touched the book that was sitting next to him.

The textbook on the Administrative Procedure Law fell from the table, and the pages flipped up, but a card fell out of it.

Chen Yansui subconsciously picked it up, but what fell into his eyes was the smile of the right frost.

The girl's smile was as bright as the sun, and her eyes were bright, and the brightness seemed to spread from her beautiful eyes all the way to her entire body.

But in the photo, she is leaning on the shoulder of another man.

The man didn't look at the camera, looking at her with a cold face, but he was a little gentle for a while.

It's Su worried.

Directly below the photo, there is a line of writing.

Ah Yan, April 17, I lost you forever.

Chen Yansui's hand as he picked up the photo froze in mid-air.

The date of the shooting is written in the corner of the photo, which is three years ago.

His heart faltered, and for a moment, his mind went blank.

Three years ago, April 17.

It took him almost a long time to understand what he meant.

My head was buzzing, and I couldn't find a point to stand on as if I was weightless.

It seemed that the whole world was turned upside down, the tides did not depend on gravity, the sea poured into the land, and the whole world changed completely from what he had always thought to be another.

On April 17, he broke up with Right Fanshuang, her mood that day was inexplicably poor, her face was pale, it happened that he found out the relationship between Jumang and her that day, he was not confident, but when he mentioned breaking up to test her mind, she lost her soul and turned around and left.

That was the only time, and Right Fanshuang didn't even bother to be perfunctory, even if he was right in front of her, she didn't seem to see him.

Because it was April 17 when she and Su were worried.

Her sad eyebrows slid in front of her eyes, those sad tears, calm words, eyes that never loved.

But his first reaction was to laugh in a broken heart, and Qingjun's face was filled with a funny and sad smile.

He picked up the photo, clenched it tightly, and looked at her sunny smile, smiling sadly and brokenly, her eyes red.

Lonely and frantic heartache spread, and her gentle but calm voice sounded in my head.

"Chen Yansui, you don't actually need to tell me about it, I don't mind."

"It's okay, you can ignore me like before."

"Your eyes are like drowning in the sea, this similarity makes me want to be the one who saves you, I look at you, I always feel unbearable."

"Ah Yan, what should I do, the water in Jinghu Lake is so deep, I really can't find it."

He laughed madly and desperately, like a mad man.

But he smiled and laughed, and suddenly realized.

Ah Yan, Ah Yan...

His heart fluttered.

He lowered his head to look at the pair of beautiful people leaning on it, their eyes full of love.

It turned out that what she was calling was Su Weiyan.

I thought it was because she was unconscious and muttered in the wrong tone, but it turned out that her name was not him at all.

She never called Ah Yan.

Whether it was when she was drowning in a coma or when she was drunk, she called Su Weiyan.

Every month, the light and the shadow of the broken moon overlap, and what she is in love with is Su Weiyan.

Chen Yansui almost fell into suffocation, and his heart hurt so much that his entire chest was aching.

I didn't expect that the person who really looked like each other was himself.

Those calms and silences turned out to be proof that she didn't love him.

Chen Yansui held the photo tightly, but her heart was in pain, the green tendons on her hands flare, but she couldn't bear to wrinkle her eyes.

She had never smiled at him like that, she had never been calm.

But he self-righteously tempted her, hoping that she would give him clear love.

But she didn't love him at all, so how could she love him?

In the past, when he was drunk, injured, or sick, she would come over immediately with a phone call, a message.

But it turned out that it was all because she loved another person.

Hot and hot love is something that he can't reach in his life.

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Su Yanyan led the right frost home, the right frost was rare, and he also bowed his head lightly beside Su Yanyan, a little silent.

Su Weiyan bent down: "What are you thinking?" ”

Right Fanshuang raised his eyes and met his eyes that were as gentle as water: "Ah Yan, I don't think I made it clear, I want to make it clear to him and make an end." ”

Su Yanyan was silent for a moment and held her shoulder: "I'll go with you." ”

You Fanshuang shook his head: "Ah Yan, if you are worried, you can ask the assistant sister to accompany me, I want to make it clear, I don't want to stimulate his emotions, try to explain it at once, I am also at fault in this matter." ”

Su Yanyan looked at her with lowered eyes, stared at her for a moment, but looked at her gently, and said softly: "I love you." ”

The tender love in his eyes almost made people sour.

Right Fanshuang's eyes were slightly red: "Me too." ”

Right Fanshuang sent a message to Chen Yansui, about near the school park where they first met.

Chen Yansui replied after a long time.

When she arrived, Chen Yansui was sitting alone on a bench under the street lamp, surrounded by scattered cigarette butts.

The tall figure was lonely for no reason, the snow-white light fell, and a straight silver line was outlined from the forehead to the bridge of the nose, obviously there was no snow, but he seemed to be watered by snow, and his handsome face was a little pale, cold and lonely.

Like when she first met him.

Right Frost walked towards him, her steps were light and there was no sound, but he still noticed her arrival for the first time.

She sat down lightly on the other side of the bench, as calm as ever, as detached as ever.

Chen Yansui extinguished the cigarette butt and threw it all into the trash.

It seems that she is delaying and escaping with this action, but she still hears her say I'm sorry.

He raised his head, her eyes were so gentle and calm, but he repeated again: "Chen Yansui, I'm sorry." ”

Chen Yansui's heart ached, but he smiled self-deprecatingly: "What did you say I'm sorry?" You are the one who suffers during these days. ”

You Fanshuang still said softly: "I said I'm sorry because I started six years ago, and the only thing I liked was Su Weiyan." ”

Chen Yansui's voice was slightly hoarse: "I know." ”

Right Fanshuang looked at him: "I also wish you to forget about mangoes as soon as possible and start your new life." ”

Chen Yansui smiled bitterly: "You always think I like Jumang? ”

You Fanshuang calmly asked, "If it weren't for my personality like a mango, would you choose me?" ”

Her face was so white and alienated under the opposition of the moonlight and the lights: "I am not as resolute as Mango, not as smart as her, not as likable as her, you are very gentle, but also because I am like her, if it weren't for the fact that you like Jumang, how could you choose to be with me?" She's the one you've liked for four years. ”

Chen Yansui clenched the cigarette case in his hand, almost kneading the cigarette box in half, and his voice was dull, as if it came from a far away: "Right Fanshuang, why do you think like this?" ”

Right Fanshuang turned his head, his eyes were like a dark green and deep quiet lake: "I actually understand, and I have never been angry because of it, because you have never liked me, so you will treat me like that, I don't care about that, because I am also wrong, I don't care about you either." ”

Chen Yansui closed his eyes, and his eye sockets were inexplicably sour.

For two whole months, he changed his ways to stimulate her, just to hear her say that he liked it, but she said that she never cared.

Chen Yansui said in a low voice: "Do you remember the first time we met here?" ”

Right Fanshuang said softly: "Remember some." ”