44. Only a hug is now

I don't know when the rain has stopped.

The sound of swaying leaves is better than the sound of raindrops falling into puddles of water on the eaves, and the sound of students' footsteps slowly stepping on the soil is accompanied by the crisp chirping.

As soon as Toru Kamiki walked out of the auditorium, he saw Miyuki Nakamura leaning against a pillar, smoking a cigarette leisurely.

"Shenmu, you're quite capable." Miyuki Nakamura said with a wisp of smoke.

"Where's Sakuraba-sensei?" Toru Kamiki asked.

Seeing that he went directly to the topic, Miyuki Nakamura puffed out her cheeks happily and glared: "Your attitude towards me is much worse than your method." ”

"My tenderness is not superfluous enough to be extended to all women."

"Then you just need to be subconsciously kind to me." Miyuki Nakamura smiled faintly, flicked the cigarette ash and said, "Where did you go." ”

She looked down the aisle with wisteria leaves, and at the end was the atrium.

"Thank you, Mr. Nakamura, for offering you good cigarettes and alcohol in the future."

"What~~ So you know very well what I like, you man." Miyuki Nakamura's lips rose in pleasure.

Toru Kamiki walked quickly to the atrium, and sure enough, just like noon that day, Sakuraba Noriko was sitting in the small pavilion, and the leaves of the oak tree fell at her feet in twos and threes.

She was alone in a daze, with a small cherry face, slender shoulders, waist, and legs, which highlighted the plumpness of the upper circumference.

Because school has ended, there are no students around.

"Method, you know what? The Sun we see is the Sun 8 minutes ago, the Moon is the Moon 1.3 seconds ago, and the building 1.5 kilometers away is 5 Subtle Years ago. ”

Suddenly, there was a voice from Toru Kamiki.

Sakuraba's delicate body trembled slightly, her slender eyelashes fluttering up and down like green, and her obsidian-like eyes looked at Toru Kamiki.

It seemed that as soon as I thought of him, he would appear, and it was amazing.

Seeing her looking at herself in a daze, Kamiki smiled and handed her the oolong tea he bought from the vending machine.

"Thank you."

Sakuraba had a smile on his face, but his eyes were always focused on Toru Kamiki, and every time he saw him, he had mixed feelings.

It's like pouring sweet and spicy sauce on a hot okonomiyaki, then throwing minced pork, chopped cabbage, red ginger, and fine yam on a hot iron plate.

Then I smelled the white steam mixed with the sauce and sweat dripping from my forehead.

The feeling he brings is as strange as this unexplained okonomiyaki.

"Oolong tea is delicious, isn't it? Way? Toru Kamiki asked with a smile.

"Hmm."

"So you can face me?"

"Huh?"

Toru Kamiki pointed to the oolong tea and said with a smile, "You have already drunk the drink I gave you." ”

"How can you use such despicable means...... Bad eyes. It looked very childish and funny, and Sakuraba couldn't help but laugh out loud.

However, the smile on Toru Kamiki's face suddenly retracted, staring at Sakuraba Noriko.

"Fazi, I think I like you very much." Toru Shenmu said quietly.

Sakuraba opened her mouth slightly, as if she wanted to say something, but she could only feel her cheeks getting hotter and hotter.

A part of his heart seemed to be pulled by him, and then a warm current caressed his body.

The feeling is like the sleepiness that comes after a full meal, the brightness when you wake up in the morning when you open the curtains, the melted chocolate filling the mold like happiness until it overflows.

However, after this happiness drifted away, it was followed by untold sadness.

Shenmu Toru's gentleness, this heart, how should she face it.

Because there is a huge identity gap in front of the two, it blocks the two of them, and Sakuraba feels powerless about this.

"That kind of affection for the teacher, right? I know, I'm a good teacher! Sakuraba said with a smile as she tensed her body and put her hands on her lap stiffly.

"Yes, indeed." Toru Kamiki nodded, and his voice was extremely dry.

Sakuraba was stunned for a moment, and suddenly felt that a large piece was missing in his heart, and he lowered his eyes and said, "I'll just say, I'm mediocre, how can anyone have such feelings for me." ”

"Method."

"What?"

"Are you oscillating between "not wanting to admit it" and "wanting to monopolize me?"

Sakuraba was stunned for a moment, and at that moment, it was not panic that came up, she suddenly felt very angry.

Angry at why he was so skilled at figuring out women's minds, angry at him just saying it.

"Stupid! Why do you want to say it, so that we can understand whether it will be okay or not? She said forcefully as if she were reprimanding a child.

Sakuraba suddenly had a sour nose, hot air blocked her throat, and her chest was bitter and uncomfortable.

Toru Kamiki stretched out his hand to hold Sakuraba Noriko's hand and said, "I like Fazi, please, please Fazi likes me too." ”

He was like a line that he had memorized in advance, and he said it naturally and crisply.

"I feel very comfortable with Fazi, I don't expect anything Fazi can give me in the future, as long as I'm together, I'm very happy."

"But this kind of thing can't be decided by being happy......" Sakuraba lowered her head and said in a gentle and normal tone as much as possible.

Toru Shenmu said in a clear voice:

"When I was a child, I read 'The Wheat and the King,' and there was a book hut in which the books grew like flowers and plants, so many that they almost pierced the ceiling."

"Faguion must have been burying his head in the pile of books in the golden dust flying in the sky, roaming the world of fantasy and reality, and Fazi and I can breathe freely and easily cross that ambiguous boundary, right?"

Sakuraba looked at the boy in front of him, he seemed to be surrounded by soft light, as if he was a resident of the fantasy country.

"However, if Fazi thinks I'm stupid, just say stinky boy go and study, and say that you don't care about me at all, wouldn't that be good?"

What?

Sakuraba was trembling all over, and her head was almost buried in her knees: "This, I can't say this kind of thing, I don't want to be hated by you......"

Toru Kamiki stretched out his hand and stroked her hair and said, "I'm sorry, I promise that I still liked you yesterday and today, but I can't guarantee that I will continue to like you tomorrow." ”

His voice suffocated Sakuraba.

"I ...... I don't want ...... ...... like this"

Sakuraba couldn't stand it anymore, he was right, between "not wanting to admit it" and "wanting to monopolize him", the latter had the upper hand at the moment.

Seeing the girl come forward to surround him, he felt very uncomfortable, so he hurried out of the auditorium.

"Then you ......"

She suddenly hugged Toru Shenmu and said with a sweet choked voice, "Shenmu ...... I, I don't have anything I want anymore, my father's bakery, Trumpet, in fact, nothing is more important than you now. ”

Toru Kamiki hesitated for a moment, and finally hugged Sakuraba Noriko's soft and warm body.

"I'm so scared, I have to dress up to class every day, I'm afraid you think I'm not pretty anymore."

Toru Kamiki's shoulders were hot from Sakuraba's warm breath, and in the corners of her eyes, something was glowing.

"Stupid way, I've said it all, you deserve better." Toru Kamiki said, brushing the hair around her neck.

Sakuraba Noriko hugged Toru Kamiki tightly, and time seemed to freeze.

The person I saw was the person 3 nanoseconds ago, and everything I saw was in the past, and only what I had was the present.

"Shenmu, can I really do it?" Sakuraba asked, holding his hand in his soft palm.

"There's nothing you can't do." Kamiki said as he looked at her clear eyes.

Complicated emotions slowly seep into the soil like moisture after the rain has stopped.

The two watched, and the concept of time operated alone in the small pavilion.

The lips slowly approached, and finally kissed together silently.

All these worries will be dissipated with this rain, and only the touch of soft lips will be left behind.