"I ......"

Ruan Shang'an let go of Tang Ning, she hugged her knees and asked with some hesitation.

"Can I tell you a story?"

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Nguyen does not like to explain anything to others, because everyone's experience may not be empathetic.

It's like, no matter what her psychiatrist tells her, her mother is her mother and she is her, and she will never be able to get out of the shadow of her mother's suicide.

It was a memory from a long, long time ago.

Ms. Nguyen could not remember how many times her mother had hysterically banged her head against a wall in front of her, as well as the handfuls of pills scattered in her bedroom and the blood-stained bed sheets when she was six years old.

After replaying some scenes in her dreams and in her mind many times, Ruan Shang'an was able to repeat the scene very calmly, but she still thought-

"I don't have a mom anymore."

There is no more mother.

When he was a child, Ruan Shang'an didn't understand why his mother did that.

Ruan's father is an engineer, and he is quite powerful, so the Ruan family's family conditions are relatively good, and Ruan's mother can be a full-time housewife at home, so the mother and daughter spend a lot of time together.

Ruan Shang'an was also a quiet and well-behaved child at first, and after witnessing the scene of her mother being entangled by depression many times, she did not cry out in panic, but developed into another, more messy aspect.

Especially after her mother committed suicide, Nguyen began to have some symptoms of aphasia and autism, and she didn't like to communicate with other children and classmates because she couldn't say what happened to her mother.

Every child's action of throwing himself into his mother's arms, and every word of a child showing off his mother's words, is a wound on Ruan Shang's peace of mind.

If you don't have a dad......

Ruan Shang'an did not completely become an autistic patient, all thanks to Ruan's father's persistence.

Engineer is a very busy profession, Ruan's father is actually a very family-oriented person, but due to work restrictions and Ruan's mother has been hiding his illness from him, Ruan's father regretted it very much after the incident, so he chose to resign and concentrate on accompanying Ruan Shang'an.

An An doesn't speak, it doesn't matter, then we can learn to play the piano, music can guide patients out of psychological difficulties.

An An is not social, it doesn't matter, Dad can also accompany An An to spring outings, to playgrounds, and to various performances and competitions.

Ruan's father does not require Ruan Shang'an to be as lively, flamboyant and energetic as a normal girl, he just hopes that she can experience the life she can experience in this life as much as possible and feel as happy as possible.

Before coming to participate in the competition, Ruan's father also communicated with Ruan Shang'an.

Try to work hard, if you can't persevere, quit the race, and Dad will pick you up as soon as possible.

The first two issues were not difficult, many contradictions and problems were not reflected, and they did not touch Ruan Shang'an's bottom line, Ruan Shang'an has always insisted on it, and now it is ......

She felt like she was reaching her limit.

"I don't want to...... Disappointed Dad. ”

Ruan Shang'an muttered in a low voice.

She was like a person walking on a tightrope, shaking violently in the air, threatening to break her bones at any moment.

She wanted to find a place of stability, she wanted someone to catch her, and this sense of security ......

Ruan Shang'an suddenly stiffened, and a temperature fell on the top of her head, Tang Ning leaned over from the side and kissed her forehead.

"An An, you know what, I don't have a mother either."

Not only did Ruan Shangan have no mother, Tang Ning also didn't have a mother.

In order to avoid being beaten, Ah Meng solemnly declared:

This is the only abuse point of this book, the first text is all foreshadowing, and the latter text is all sugar.

Momoda, love you~~~

(End of chapter)