The torches were quickly extinguished, and the cave was dark again.

This is the countdown on the bracelet that stands out.

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Lei Jin didn't care much about this countdown anymore, he had been through so much this whole day that he didn't care what else would happen.

On the contrary, there is a faint expectation in my heart about what will be brought after this mysterious countdown is over.

"Am I a good person?" Lei asked Zhang Shisheng closely.

"You're certainly not a bad person, you don't have a heart to hurt others, and you don't want to hurt others. From that point of view, you are sure to be a good person. Zhang Shisheng's words were a bit ambiguous.

Lei Jin thought that his image would be higher in Zhang Shisheng's mind, and Zhang Shisheng would categorically say that he was a good person.

Hearing such an answer, he couldn't help but feel a little lost, and there seemed to be a big gap between his own perception and the cognition of others.

His image doesn't seem to be as perfect as he thinks he is.

"Do my colleagues in the office think of me like that?" Lei Jin was a little unwilling.

"I don't know too much about this, but in general, everyone still respects you very much and still recognizes you." Zhang Shisheng didn't seem to notice that Lei Jin was starting to get serious.

After the torch was extinguished, the cave was already pitch black, and Zhang Shisheng might not be able to see Lei Jin's expression clearly.

"Respect?" Zhang Shisheng used an unexpected word, and Lei Jinjin pondered it repeatedly, but he couldn't find that he had the slightest connection with this word.

"Hmm~~ Or with respect, love?" Zhang Shisheng's wording is getting more and more outrageous.

Lei Jin felt that he was joking, but he couldn't see Zhang Shisheng's expression clearly in the dark.

"How do your colleagues describe you?" Ray was half-joking, half-curious.

"I don't know, there should be very few people who will judge a colleague in person, what do you think of me?" Zhang Shisheng threw the question to Lei Jin again.

"Very reliable, very down-to-earth, loves fitness, muscular man, stupider than me." Lei Jin didn't hesitate to spit out a large pile.

Zhang Shisheng laughed, "You are also too sincere, I said that there is no way to judge a colleague in person." ”

"Are we still colleagues now? The institutes are gone. Lei Jin was a little sad, after he returned to China, he joined the Zhanggu Research Institute, and the Institute was already half of his home.

He raised his hand and looked at the bracelet and muttered to himself, "I don't know if I have a tomorrow." ”

"We are friends!" Zhang Shisheng suddenly patted Lei Jin's shoulder, as if to comfort him.

"You know what? Actually, I don't have any friends, I came out of the countryside, there is a remote ravine, there are only a few acres of mountainous land at home, my parents are honest farmers, only farming, but no matter how hard they work, no matter how hard they work, a few acres of land is only enough to barely eat. Lei Jin began to recall the past, but he couldn't say any more.

After a pause, he continued: "There are a few pigs and chickens at home, and I have all the eggs at home, and my parents are reluctant to eat a bite, and they have left all the good things in the house to me. ”

Lei Jin raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, and the tears flowed down unconsciously, recalling the past made him a little sad.

"You can buy them a lot of eggs now, and you can buy them whatever they want." Zhang Shisheng comforted Lei Jin.

Lei Jin didn't answer Zhang Shisheng's words, he knew that he was rich now, but the suffering he had in the past was irreparable.

"They are very thin, skinny, there is no meat on their bodies, they have to get up before dawn every day, they have been busy in the field until noon, they go home at noon and just eat a few bites, last night's leftovers and leftovers, when it is hot, there is no refrigerator at home, the meals are a little rancid, they simply heat it up and continue to eat, and after eating, they have to be busy with the housework at home, and they have to go to the field in the afternoon until dark."

Zhang Shisheng listened quietly, he knew that he couldn't empathize with him, and he was not qualified to put his beak.

"They regarded me as the only hope for the family, hoping that I would be able to get out of the mountains and no longer suffer from poverty. I only have to study hard and work harder than others, and I can't let them down. I'm afraid to disappoint them. ”

"I was admitted to the city key in the high school entrance examination, the school is dozens of kilometers away from home on the mountain road, it takes more than 3 hours to go back and forth, the school exempted my tuition, but the accommodation fee and catering expenses can only be given a discounted price, which requires more than 1,000 yuan a year. My mother had to tearfully sell all the pigs in the family just to pay for my schooling. ”

Lei Jin choked up a little as he spoke, and his voice gradually became a little deeper.

Zhang Shisheng knew that Lei Jin's emotions needed to be vented at this moment, so he didn't interrupt him, and continued to listen, Lei Jin only needed a listener at this moment.

"At school, I wake up early every day, go for a run, then read English aloud on the playground, and then go to the classroom for morning self-study. I was the last one to go back to my dorm every day. My classmates gave me a nickname, the weirdo of No. 2 Middle School. I don't have time to chat, play, socialize, I just hate myself for not having enough time. Except for the occasional borrowing of extracurricular reference books from my classmates, I had little contact with my classmates, I had low self-esteem, and I felt unworthy of being with them. ”

"When I go to the cafeteria, I always only order one green vegetable, and I only have one sportswear for all seasons."

"My classmates all think of me as a weirdo and avoid me, but I don't mind, I just want to be the first in the exam, and I want to do my best. When I graduated, it was as if I never existed, I was transparent, and no one ever contacted me anymore. ”

Lei Jin whispered about his high school life, maybe he had never told anyone, and it was only in such a dark cave that he had the courage to recall.

"After I was successfully admitted to Aoki University, my family began to worry about my college tuition again, but fortunately, the county sent me a scholarship and a bursary, and the school provided a financial aid for poor students, otherwise I would not have been able to pay the tuition for the first year. In my four years of college, in addition to attending classes in the classroom and reading books in the library, I kept looking for work-study opportunities. ”

"It's ridiculous to say, in the four years of college, except for my dormitory classmates, I can't recognize all the classmates in my class, and I have become a weirdo in everyone's eyes. Isn't it pathetic? ”

Zhang Shisheng was silent and did not dare to answer.

"The person I knew the most in college was my teacher, because I always had a lot of questions, and I went to the teacher to ask questions when I had time, and sometimes I even annoyed the teacher's questions."

"But maybe it's because I'm familiar with the teacher, and my grades have been good, so the teacher recommended me to continue my master's degree directly, and I unknowingly studied for another three years. It was also in these three years that my parents went out to work in the big city, at first doing odd jobs on the construction site, and then after slowly learning the craft, they began to work as masons, and they still got up early every day and stayed up late. ”

Zhang Shisheng couldn't help but think of the construction workers on various construction sites in Donghai City.

"Because of the heavy work and moving bricks all year round, my father's waist became ill, and finally one day he couldn't get up straight, so he could only stay in bed every day to recuperate, and the burden of the family's life was all on my mother."

"They look much older than their peers, and when they are in their 40s, their faces are wrinkled and their bodies are starting to crumble, and they look about the same as people in their 60s. Every time I went home, I didn't dare to recognize them, and my heart felt like a knife. ”

"After graduating with a master's degree, I could no longer continue my studies with peace of mind, although my professor always wanted me to continue my PhD, but my family situation was different from that of my classmates, and I had to find a job to support my family. I'm going to make more money, I'm going to give my mom a good rest, and stop working on the construction site. ”

"Unfortunately, when I started making money, my mother had an accident on the construction site and fell from the 19th floor and didn't wake up again. My dad became ill and passed away within two years. ”

Lei Jin was already crying at this time.

Zhang Shisheng didn't know how to comfort him, so he could only put his hand on his shoulder and put his arm around him.

After a long while, Lei Jin gradually calmed down.

"Later, the institute arranged for me to go to the capital university of country M for further study, and I studied for a doctorate, and then returned to the institute after completing my doctorate."

"None of them enjoyed any blessings, so they all left, leaving me alone. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't go to high school or college, I would work with them, I could go to the big city to work. ”

Lei Jin didn't expect that he could tell all the past things he had suppressed in his heart, and he had never said it to anyone.

After saying a lot in one breath, he himself was a little surprised, has his memory recovered?

"Are you asleep?" Lei Jin asked softly, he was afraid that Zhang Shisheng would suddenly disappear again.

"No, I've been listening, thank you for saying so much with me." Zhang Shisheng listened quietly.

"Am I talking a little too much? Isn't it boring? ”

"No, I admire you very much, I didn't expect your experience to be so bumpy, you are very strong, and you are also very good." Zhang Shisheng's tone was very serious.

"I don't know why I said so much today, maybe I'm a little scared."

"But is this your thunder close?" Zhang Shisheng asked suddenly.

"What?" Lei Jin was taken aback by the question.

Lei Jin didn't know what was wrong, but it seemed to be wrong.

Zhang Shisheng didn't continue to ask, Lei Jinren thought hard for a long time but couldn't find the answer, and the answer seemed to be at hand, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't grasp it.

Lei Jin raised his hand again and looked at the bracelet.

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