（BGM—《affection》Yo Trane）

Just as Cheng Mo was about to sip scarlet cherry juice, Athena suddenly raised her hand and pushed Cheng Mo's chin to avoid it, and she said coldly: "Change the way, this won't work." ”

Cheng Mo is no longer an ignorant teenager who doesn't understand emotions, he already has enough knowledge and understanding of women, and he knows that he can't back down at this time, but he can't treat the other party roughly, but he needs to be more patient. He didn't rush for a moment, just relaxed his body, slightly distanced himself from Athena, and turned his head to look at her.

At this time, Athena's eyes were still very cold, even a little empty, and Cheng Mo stared into her eyes, as if she was watching distant stars, beautiful, indifferent and unreachable. Her heart is a piece of ice, and to ignite the fire in her heart, human instinct alone is certainly not enough.

What's more, it's still in such an environment.

He could actually understand Athena's mood, which was not the right time for him or for Athena, nor could it create a romantic atmosphere.

Cheng Mo felt very sorry for this, but he had to continue, so he hugged her a little tighter, and let Athena lean back into his arms, "Didn't you say you wanted to hear the story of me and my father? At that time, I said that what we needed was not an exact point in time, but a campfire, beer, starlight and barbecue, at that time you didn't quite understand what I meant, and now I say, in fact, campfire, beer, starlight and barbecue are all symbolic references, campfire can be tent, beer can be hot cocoa, Starlight can be snowflakes, barbecue can be ice fields, in fact, it doesn't matter what they are at all, what matters is the atmosphere that fits the mood of the moment, such as the moment...... The noisy diesel, the cramped mezzanine, the hot temperature, and your ex-fiancé, who is also my enemy....... The enemy who killed my wife......"

Athena didn't speak, her head was buried between Cheng Mo's neck, Cheng Mo couldn't see her expression, he curled her silky blonde hair with his fingers, and said unhurriedly: "You may think that this kind of environment is really terrible, you can't live if you don't live, how can people want to tell others at such a point in time? But I've long been used to such an atmosphere where I can die at any time, to be honest, this feeling is familiar to me." I said, I used to have a very serious heart disease, you are a doctor, you should know what it means to have a single ventricle, patent ductus arteriosus, aortic misalignment, pulmonary artery stenosis, every day I live is a miracle for me, you know? Before I became the chosen one, every day I woke up, the world would show me its beauty and cruelty, and the more beautiful it was, the more profound this cruelty became, so many times when I watched the rising sun, I would think, why didn't this world just destroy it?"

Hearing Cheng Mo's curse from the bottom of her heart, Athena blocked the hand between the two bodies, but instead of resisting like just now, she slowly relaxed.

Cheng Mo understood the meaning of this, he knew that this was a good start, and he knew that the communication of the heart was the key to opening the delicate flower of Athena, he paused and continued: "At that time, I had no friends, the only relative, my father was a scholar with a high IQ and low emotional intelligence. Cheng Mo chuckled, "Just like you....."

"Professor Cheng is a respected scholar and I can't compare to him. Athena said heartily.

"Thank you. Cheng Mo smiled, "We Chinese people don't believe in religion, pay attention to 'ancestor worship' and 'cautious pursuit of the future', so we pay special attention to genealogy, the genealogy will not only record the relationship between the eighteen generations of ancestors clearly, but also pay special attention to the record of 'scholarly honor or official rank', probably because we Chinese people understand the importance of 'genes' very early, so we believe in the lineage theory of 'dragons give birth to dragons, and phoenixes give birth to phoenixes'." My father's college entrance examination (National College Entrance Examination) took a national champion (Number One), the college entrance examination in China is equivalent to the Bac basic exam in France, but the competition is much more fierce than in France, you must know that the number of people who participate in the college entrance examination in China every year is about 10 million, and it is not easy to do one out of ten million. As a result, my father was not only on television, but was also recorded in the family tree as a major event. For those people in my hometown, my father's achievements are enough to glorify their ancestors, and they all talk about it to this day, and they also make up a favorite story, saying how diligent my father was when he studied in the countryside many years ago, but because of the poverty of his family, he could only be forced to give up his studies and go out to work, and then the principal found the city to persuade him for a long time, and because the work was too tiring and did not make much money, so my father went back to school and began to study hard, and burned a whole sack of light bulbs at home when he was in his third year of high school. But in fact, this is not the case, my father only has enough money to live on the school scholarship, and can also subsidize the family, as for studying, he didn't read much when he was in school, and his favorite thing to do is to buy some old things in the countryside, take them to the city to sell for money, and then buy some books to read at home. One summer vacation, in order to make more money to buy books, he also met a TV host in the antique market in the provincial capital, when he took a fancy to an inkstone that my father bought, so he talked with my father, and found that my father was knowledgeable and knew antiques, so he asked him to be a staff officer, and bought several things, the original host of the show did not have much hope, but later from the mouth of the real player he gained a lot, for which the host also went to the countryside to find my father ......" (Shen finally chased away: The old refers to the careful handling of the funeral of parents and the devotion to distant ancestors. The latter also refers to prudence and remembrance of the former sages. From "The Analects of Learning". )

"Did you find it? Did you give your father a lot of money?"

Cheng Mo did not answer immediately, and the conversation between Napoleon VII and Clotter Gaion and Morris continued outside, talking about how to deal with Tulzi and Iselie, and how to manipulate the direction of the international situation. Cheng Mo was silent for a moment, and then continued to say softly: "I don't know if I found it, I only know that later this host opened a bookstore, and the name was still given by my father, called 'Jianwei'." These things were told to me by my uncle, and I never knew what kind of person my father was during his lifetime, I only knew who he was on the surface – an anthropologist. In my heart, I was proud of his identity, but I never said that he gave birth to me and raised me, but I didn't know him at all, I didn't say that I loved him once, and I didn't even hug him after I became sensible......." He sighed, "It's a pity that there is no chance now." ”

In a sigh, Athena moved closer to Cheng Mo until the two could feel each other's hearts beating.

Cheng Mo clasped Athena's hand, but he didn't make any extra movements, just clasped her slender and silky hand, "I had low self-esteem when I was a child, everyone else has a complete family, but I didn't, in fact, it doesn't matter much, and there are not very few children in single-parent families, but I can't exercise because of heart disease, and I will faint even when I am frightened, which makes me not only go out to play, but also don't even go to school." My childhood was very lonely, my world was only 67 square meters of old houses, and the only thing I could get into contact with the world was books, and the long wooden lattice windows on the balcony. In addition to reading, I often lie on the balcony railing to watch the children in the yard frolicking, playing football, driving toy cars, flying kites, their laughter is so loud, and the cheerful cries are also very loud, I am always very envious, until they seem to have found me again, so they laugh at me, laughing very happily, I don't understand why they laugh at me, I panicked, I felt that my heart beat completely stopped, I stumbled back to my room, I never wanted to go to the balcony again, and I especially hated the noise in the yard. Every day at home, I turn on my father's gramophone loudly, and no matter what music it plays, so that I can't hear the annoying noise outside, I think they don't deserve to play with me, I am a child who 'loves wisdom'. When my mother was still there, she would carry me along the long trail full of camphor trees, and first take the car to the nameless rice noodle shop near the hospital to eat a bowl of shredded pork rice noodles, the taste I will never forget, the white rice noodles soaked in soup are smooth and flexible, and the mouth is very smooth, and the stewed shredded meat tastes fragrant, boiling out the taste of luncheon meat, but it is not as many additives as luncheon meat, and the texture is not so thin. After my mother left, I asked my dad to take me to eat, but I couldn't find the noodle shop, and since then going to the hospital has become a painful thing for me, and anything in this world will make me feel pain. I was a little better off reading philosophy books under my father's teaching, but I was watching TV at home, reading comic books, and seeing that my peers were all going to school, but I couldn't read at the age when I should be studying, and I was so depressed and depressed for a long time that I didn't even want to go to the hospital, and I thought, what's the point of living like this?"

Cheng Mo caressed her with his other hand, the engine room was too hot, and the cheap fabric was always extra light after being soaked, this touch was like peeking at another person through a thin gauze curtain, hazy and faint, but the burning heat of the sight could be clearly perceived.

However, Cheng Mo was not confined to this wonderful ambiguous feeling, his thoughts wandered in his memory, and this wonderful feeling only provided him with a comfortable environment for memories.

He closed his eyes, held his breath, restrained his inexplicable impulse, and whispered softly in Athena's ear as if he were self-deprecating, "I don't know what your childhood was like, but I don't think you will be more lonely or unfortunate than me, at least you won't have to face death at any time......"

Athena still didn't speak, and the two of them fell into a lengthy silence again, Cheng Mo was not in a hurry, he was cautiously tentative while waiting. People tend to ignore Athena's figure because of her face, but if you see her back first, you will definitely think that only such beauty can be worthy of such a figure.

Cheng Mo didn't know how to describe it, he couldn't describe it, just touching the heartstrings tightened the feeling, which is not something that words can describe at all, only personal experience.

In this narrow space filled with the smell of engine oil, the two Khan Czen people hugged each other, feeling the slight vibration brought by the crankshaft movement, originally this vibration was not obvious, but at this moment, the reciprocating motion of the piston wrapped in engine oil in the crankcase, the friction between the steel and the steel, generated a huge amount of heat, which radiated to the two people hiding in the claustrophobic place, so that Athena had to rely on the little cold air provided by Cheng Mo.

There are some things, the closer you are, the more you need them, the more you ask for them, and the more you ask for them, the more you rely on them. Athena didn't know that once upon a time, Cheng Mo was like this meager cold air, so that she couldn't let go, maybe from the beginning of allowing him to hold hands, he gradually invaded her life. Three k

Maybe it was too hot around her, which made her a little dizzy, maybe it was Cheng Mo who made her feel the power of dopamine and adrenaline for the first time, and she finally couldn't stand the long-term silence in the roar like a cloud, Cheng Mo's quiet.

She couldn't hold back the throbbing in her heart, and whispered in Cheng Mo's ear like a dream: "I lived in my mother's laboratory when I was a child, I don't know how big it is, but it's definitely much larger than your sixty-seven square meters, and I haven't been able to walk through it yet." It's said to be a laboratory, but in fact it's an island, an island within an island, and it's probably hard to imagine how wonderful it is to have a freshwater lake on a desolate island full of primeval forests, and there is an island in the middle of that freshwater lake. All in all, it was a beautiful place, but I found it boring, there were only staff who didn't know English or French, except for my mother, who just did chores every day, and didn't dare to talk to me, and my mother didn't talk to me much, she was either doing experiments, or preparing for experiments, and even when she rarely talked to me, she was doing experiments, she put the electrodes of various instruments on my body, and then collected data, and I remember that one of the words she said to me the most was 'perfect'. When you were a child, you couldn't make friends or play games, and when I was a child, I didn't have any friends to make and no games to play. There are no building blocks, no puppets, no other children, at first I can only do intelligence test questions, and then when I grow up a little bit it becomes math problems, and no one teaches me classes, my mother is very busy, she only takes one or two hours a day to teach me, most of the time she relies on me to teach myself, she just assigns me tasks and checks my progress......"

"So you're all self-taught?" Cheng Mo whispered in Athena's ear, his hand running through Athena's hair.

Athena let out a soft "um", like a long aria.

"Will there be a punishment if you fail the assessment?" Cheng Mo slightly increased his movements.

"No, she didn't punish me, but she rarely praised me, and the strange thing is that although I was a child, I was looking forward to her praise, but she really wanted to give me an appreciative look, and I don't know why I couldn't be happy, so I might as well have dinner with her........ Happiness should not be said to be happiness, it should be contentment, maybe it is only when my stomach is full that I can feel a full satisfaction......."

Cheng Mo opened his eyes and asked, "You haven't been able to secrete adrenaline, dopamine and serotonin since you were a child?"

"I didn't know about it, I thought it might be like this, but later I realized that there don't seem to be many people like me, but there are still some people. It wasn't until these days that I knew I was different, and maybe I was born with my genes lowering the secretion thresholds of adrenaline, dopamine, and serotonin. I guess it's important for humans to get excited and excited, but it's also a double-edged sword, it can bring out the potential of people at times, but it can also make people radical and uncontrollable, and for a test subject who is required to be perfect, stability is everything. After a pause, Athena didn't have much emotional bluntness, "It's like a machine." ”

"You're not a machine. Cheng Mo said, "I'll prove it to you." ”

A white T-shirt was thrown aside, it leaned softly against the box wrapped in bubble wrap, the plastic film was so white, under the light of the "Seven Sins Sect", it seemed to be smoother than snow, it was covered with round particles, it was very cute, Cheng Mo remembered that when he was a child, such bubble plastic film was a plaything, and the children were always happy to pinch the bubbles on it, waiting for a crisp sound.

The bubble plastic film is just an extremely ordinary thing, but in this interlayer, it is covered like snow around Cheng Mo, and the black and heavy steel plate forms a strong contrast, but it is a white color, it is gorgeous, plus a wisp of gold rendering, it is like a world famous painting, there is a strange and indescribable wonderful atmosphere.

Cheng Mo originally just wanted to draw out Athena's emotions and put himself out of the matter, but he didn't expect to be a little trapped, he encountered not a quagmire, but a hot spring, the wind and rain outside, only here is a warm source that can give him comfort and rest.

Athena's body trembled slightly, and her tone became unnatural, "I remember that in the lake that surrounded the laboratory, there was often a white seabird flocking to feed. When I feel that my eyes are a little tired, I will squat on the edge of the lake and count the number of birds, and I will watch them catch fish in the lake full of lotus leaves, they are so dexterous, maybe because there are too many fish in the lake, there are more and more birds, and there are fewer and fewer fish. I asked my mom what kind of birds they were and why they ate fish? My mom set up nets in the woods by the lake, and we caught many, many birds, big and small, and my mom took me to dissect them and make them into specimens, and I wasn't really interested in dissecting birds, but it was better to be with my mom than to be alone. I didn't like the feeling of blood and feathers on my hands, but it was nothing when I got used to killing, and then it wasn't just birds, my mother took me hunting on the island with a shotgun, from birds to animals, and I spent my childhood in mathematics and taxidermy until one day the island was burned to the ground. My mom gave me to my dad and asked him to take me, I didn't expect it to be the final separation, and even if I did, I probably didn't know what sadness was......."

Cheng Mo got up slightly and stared at Athena, her face was still pale and cold, but there was lava-like heat boiling in her pupils, making her eyes seem to be covered with a layer of mist, and she was like a towering iceberg. He tries not to let himself think too much, but he is inevitably seduced by the infinite scenery.

He rolled his dry throat, looked down at Athena, and said, "I always thought that my father's life must have been more meaningful than mine, but he died without knowing it, leaving me only one Ouloporos. I vividly remember the last time we met, he had just returned from the capital and said that he was going to the lighthouse country to hold a seminar. Our family hasn't started the fire for a while, he doesn't know how to cook, so he hurriedly made a side stove, which is also a kind of hot pot, for him, this is his most popular dish, but I still hate why he doesn't order takeout. After eating, the two of us went to see a very touching movie together, and then walked home, no popcorn, no coke, no tears, and we didn't even discuss the plot, he said 'good night' to me before going to bed, and the next day he went to the lighthouse country, and never came back. Then I received the news of his death, I didn't cry on the day of the funeral, I felt that I was a cold, selfish and heartless person, and I took it for granted, until I got the Uloporos he left me, and found a way to use it in last year's birthday present, that I realized how wrong I was......"

Cheng Mo gasped for a moment, and he stroked Athena's cheek again, "That Uroboros not only extended my life, but also changed my fate. I got a lot of happiness because of it, but the world was so cruel to me that it was ridiculous, it was terrible, you know what happened in Paris, I killed countless innocent people, I killed many people with my own hands, my lover also paid for my life because of my fault, she didn't deserve to die, she was such a beautiful and kind girl, she fought against those bad people and bad things for the sake of this world, but that was just a drop in the bucket. I know that this is inevitable, that human selfishness is painful, and that we can never get better, and I know this, and I try to accept it, because I can no longer face it with her death!

Athena raised her hand and slowly uncovered the human skin mask covering Cheng Mo's face, she also stroked Cheng Mo's cheek and asked, "How to escape the pain?"

"Every time the world shows me its beauty and cruelty again and again, I will bow to desire, I want to care about him, there are so many tragedies in the world, a moment of indulgence can let me avoid as long as I can, I know that you are a tragedy, I am also a tragedy, we are all a tragedy, then, don't be stingy with your little love, don't hesitate what kind of person I am, let's do our best to give each other a little comfort!"

Cheng Mo lowered his head and kissed Athena, this time Athena did not dodge, the temperature was scorching, the air was viscous, making the steel deck hot, and the hoarse noise of the diesel engine became charming, the propeller stirred the sea, the sound of the water was dripping, and the fish swimming in the deep sea seemed to have discovered something, and they seemed to be shy as if they wanted to hide away.

But in fact, it was just a long kiss, but just a kiss made Cheng Mo feel like a century.

Until Napoleon VII outside, let out a cold shout: "Who's inside?

This sudden outburst of anger put a stop to everything that was about to fall into place.

Cheng Mo's face was as usual, he stood up on the deck, gently rubbed Athena's delicate lips with his fingers, and whispered in Athena's ear: "I don't know how much comfort I can give you, but you just need to give me a kiss is enough......"