He wants to know who it is, why is it always silent, the crowd is also eye-catching, and eye-catching loneliness is inevitable~, I listened to the song and looked at the moon tonight, it was round like my dream, like I didn't stay in this world, regret? Unfortunately, I sucked the cigarette in my hand, inhaling hard, this is my way of proving that I am still alive, and the burning sensation between my fingers allows me to sober up a little. I don't know if it's the sea or the night, the wind seems to see my sadness, touches my hair, I don't want my parents to cry heartbreakingly, I don't want the white-haired person to send the black-haired person, I try to look back on my short life.

In the early summer of 1993, I was born in an ordinary worker family, I was born eight pounds and eight taels, I will always be mistaken by adults for a fat boy in the future, but I will never eat fat when I grow up. When I was a child, I was a relatively well-behaved child, I liked to play alone with those soldiers in formation, a war often takes an hour to end the battle, a sword, a sheet is my walk in the martial arts rivers and lakes. Time and time, it is the wind and the clouds, the clouds are no longer seen, and the wind does not return. When I was a child, I would look forward to the sunset, and look forward to the future when I grow up.

It is difficult to cross the mountain, who is sad and lost the way, Pingshui meets, all are guests from other places, poems that can't be read when they go to school, and they occasionally understand the hardships after work, the rain in the south always comes, smashes on the glass, falls on the braincase, and wow! In this case, I mostly forgot to bring an umbrella, so I had to protect my head with my hands as much as possible, and I ran under the eaves without caring about the surprise of passers-by. And I'm glad that my clothes didn't get soaked with my precise positioning.

It was only at this time that I would stand on the side of the street for a long time, listening to songs, watching people come and go, and I was waiting for the rain to stop, as it should be. It seems that everyone has their own thoughts, and they rush by, trying to stop a taxi that already has passengers, so that they can go home early, or race in the rain and ignore the critical hits of the raindrops, this kind of ruthless person I admire more. Couples with umbrellas are more affectionate under an umbrella, and elementary school students have endless fun with the rain. "Guard." "Huh?" I searched the crowd for the source of the sound.

Yu didn't want to leave the crying to people, crying about Heyun's love and hate, "It's good to meet you, otherwise the road to the company is destined to be my fight with the rain" I smiled and looked at the woman holding the umbrella next to me, "You fight with the rain, I can't beat you, hahaha" Liu Qingyu smiled and said, "Lu Wei, you don't know about the rain!" I pretended to pinch my fingers, "I calculated that I would meet a noble person today who was holding an umbrella with me, so I didn't bring it." "Yes, the great immortal of Lu will calculate for me when my positive fate will be met" "Positive fate, far away in the sky, close in front of you." "Go on the side, you can't fit the two of us on this umbrella" laughed along the way, making this journey a little faster than usual.

In the face of female colleagues of all sizes in the company, my opposite sex relationship is still very good, today Xiao Wang is here to rub a cake to eat, tomorrow Sister Liu is there to eat melon seeds, nagging at home. However, these dealings are limited to the company. Liu Qingyu is the same age as me, and he also joined the company at the beginning, which is one of the few friends I have in the company, I am relatively vague about the concept of friends, my lonely soul is difficult to integrate with others, I have a lot of friends, as if they are just proof that I have intersected with the world. Most of the time I go to a bar alone, eat alone, watch a movie alone, and stroll down the street alone to enjoy the fireworks in the middle of the night. I'm not a person who is not good at intersecting, but I enjoy being alone, living quietly in my own world, and doing what makes me happy.

Like most young people, I used to laugh during the day and emo in my room at night, which made me wonder if I had a dual personality. Is smoke a cure for loneliness? Probably not, because it doesn't work. Former netizens always say that the post-90s generation is the Beat Generation, rebellious non-mainstream teenagers and girls, unmotivated, only children can't endure hardship, and hedonism. Gradually, as the post-00s grow up, the scolding has also shifted down, the blue is blue, and it is better than the blue, the post-00s lying flat culture, born in a better era, the big era of the Internet, so that these children are more precocious than us and every previous generation. The post-90s generation also bears greater pressure than their parents, facing academic pressure when they go to school, employment pressure when working, and the highest housing prices when buying a house. The fathers always wanted us to hold up a piece of the sky, but we walked with the sky on our backs, unspeakable happiness, and indescribable sadness. Is it the Beat Generation? Or is it a generation crushed by all kinds of pressures? It's still a lonely generation that is happy every day.

Eat a bowl of non-authentic noodles in the noodle restaurant downstairs, it's dinner tonight, you say you're full, you're still hungry, for me, just don't starve to death, a person's life, a perfunctory diet will not affect anything. I bought two packs of cigarettes, dragged myself upstairs, ended the fatigue of the day, lay on the sofa and didn't have to worry about the legs, put on music, and then lit a cigarette, the smoke came out of my two nostrils, this moment is the real me, lonely and comfortable. I stared out the window, occasionally remembering a face like this, only occasionally, a face that faded over time, I can't remember whether it was laughing or crying, but I think of that kind of company.

It was very stuffy, and it made me feel that breathing was a pain, and I didn't know if the heat I inhaled in my body could be expelled by farting, and I laughed to myself at my childish idea. I, who had never been to the south, was forced by the furnace-like weather to turn around and go home. When I saw the university of my dreams, the heat was more than half gone, and I still slowly entered this school that didn't seem very decent. I was still very excited in my heart, but I still couldn't show the same face as those freshmen of the same level who couldn't hide the joy in their hearts.

After all, it has been my hobby since I was a child, after dealing with the cumbersome admission procedures, the hot weather made me no longer able to pretend to be deep, and rushed to the dormitory building like a refuge, no matter how important the face is, it is not as important as the little life of my buddy, and I hurriedly got the key to the dormitory from the dormitory aunt and couldn't care about what she said, the ghost knows what she said, sweat wants to talk to my eyes about the ideal of life, of course I will not let it succeed, and I made a ruthless father behind my hand, blocking their hard-won talks. I used the key to open the little yellow lock on the door, thinking that I would sleep with him later, and sleep the most in the world.

The moment the door opened, I was stunned, why was there a person sitting inside when the door was locked outside? Thief? Ghost? I looked at the little fat man sitting in the chair, a pair of lines that seemed to be open but not fully opened, let's be eyes, and amazingly a pointed chin that did not match his figure at all lifted slightly.

He smiled and said to me, "Hello classmate". "Hello," I walked into one of the beds with confusion and asked him tentatively, "You are also from this dormitory?" He must have seen my doubts, and said slowly in Mandarin with a southern accent, "I came before all of you just now, my stomach hurt a little and I went to the toilet inside, I don't know which classmate also came in, I listened to him put down his luggage, and then left and locked the door." ”

He said this as far as he could, stretching his two lines so that I could believe what he was saying. Years later, every time we got together again, we would talk about it, and every time we couldn't open our eyes with laughter, we would deliberately squint in front of him. As the people in the dormitory arrived one after another, in view of the fact that they were all meeting for the first time, they were going to find a restaurant outside the school to rub a meal, and they were all people with ID cards, so I proposed that we drink a few bottles of beer, and this dinner The four of them in the dormitory can be regarded as the first acquaintance with each other, and everyone is also full of expectations for the next college life, and the first night is quite peaceful.

When I first met her, how to say that I liked her at first sight, white and delicate skin, slender figure made me mistakenly think that her meal should be small and pitiful, and then we fell in love only to find out that she ate more than me. A long white skirt just shows a small jade leg. Dude just likes this feeling of small jasper, and a pair of big watery eyes made me secretly fascinated. However, I still don't stare at beautiful women like most boys, I usually pretend to be garlic, pretend to look at the distance and look at the rest of the room secretly. At that time, I was thinking about how nice it would be if she were my girlfriend in the future.

"Lin Qianqian" "To" "Come to introduce yourself to you" "My name is Lin Qianqian, I am 18 years old this year, I am from C City, I am very happy to meet you, I hope to have an unforgettable memory with you in the next four years, who will come to C City during the holidays, I can take you to play. "The sound of clapping at the bottom of the pop is higher and higher, and most of the boys are there, and I only have two words for this way of patting sycophants to please girls, naïve." My name is Lu Wei, I am 18 years old, I am from G City, it is a pleasure to meet everyone. ”

I pretended to be calm and walked slowly back to my position, I still inadvertently saw the watery eyes staring at me, I pretended not to see it and lowered my head to play with my phone. After I don't know how long, one day a party finally gave us a start, "You don't seem to be very talkative?" She stared at me with those big eyes and panicked" "Well, it's not, because I'm more sullen, and people I don't know much don't talk much." "I was a little uncomfortable.

"Let's go back together later." When she said this, she stopped looking at me, "Okay" I tried my best to hide the joy in my heart. The two of them walked under the street lamp of the school, I put my hands in my pockets, trying to relax myself, not so nervous, but my hands were squeezed very tightly in my pockets, "By the way, I don't seem to have your WeChat" "Oh yes" Lin Qianqian lowered her head and found me from the class group, "Your online name is three o'clock, and you didn't have a home before three o'clock?" "Yes" "Why is there no home before three o'clock" "Oh hahaha I like to go out to play when I was in high school during the holidays, at that time I often played games with my friends in the Internet café, and often played very late, my dad often said that I didn't have a home before three o'clock. I explained with a smile.

She also laughed shallowly, "I see, what game are you playing?" "League of Legends LOL" "Oh? I'm all diamond ranked" "Ah, you play too? It's rare for a girl to play this game," I asked, surprised. "I'm probably not a girl, I'm a tomboy, you boys like to play, and I like it." With the common topic of the game, the two finally didn't let tonight's hard-won opportunity to talk to the end. When I got to the door of the dormitory building, she turned around and waved her hand to me, "See you tomorrow", "See you tomorrow", and on the way back, I couldn't help humming a little song.

In the following days, like most men and women in love, it will naturally and slowly develop together, she goes to the classroom early in class, and will leave a place for me next to her, and I will also bring milk tea and sit next to her naturally. On Saturdays and Sundays, the two of them will also go to the city to eat and watch movies, she is super spicy, which makes me miserable. Fortunately, she saw through a few meals that I was not good at spicy food, and in later days, she would not order very spicy dishes when she ate with me.

The breeze on the bus ruffled a few strands of hair on her sideburns, and we laughed loudly in the car chatting about each other's past troubles, and at that moment there were only the two of us in the world, and I looked into her eyes, as if I had been sucked into a whirlpool. That smiling face was carved into my heart, leaving traces that belonged to us. I watched her dance and tell the story, and I can't remember what she said at the time, but I just recorded it with my eyes like a movie.