"Mom, what does it mean to die?"

"Ah, death is ......"

"Is it to a far, far away place?"

"Yes, it's a far, far away place. Just like Daddy......"

"Oh, no wonder my dad hasn't been to see me in over two years. In the past, every time my father came back from a business trip, he would bring me toys. ”

"Good baby, what toys do you want and tell your mother, mother will buy it for you, okay?"

"It's okay mom, you don't have to go, the toys sent by my mother are different from those given by my father, although I can't tell what is the difference......

"Oh well. What does your baby want to eat tomorrow? Although mom doesn't pick toys as well as dad, mom cooks better. ”

"There's nothing you want to eat, Mom just watch it. I'm not a picky eater. ”

"Well, the baby is so good."

"By the way, Mom, if death is to go far, far away, then can we still find it? I miss my dad. ”

"Yes, when the baby grows up, mom will take you there."

"But...... However, when I went to play in the next ward this afternoon, Da Zhuang told me that I was also dying, and I was going to a far, far away place, would I be able to see my father soon? In that case, I don't have to wait for me to grow up, my mother is an adult, and if I don't have it, I can go out on my own, so that my mother can go directly to us at that time, and our family will soon be together again. ”

"No, the baby won't die, the doctor uncle will make the baby healthy, and then let's go to find dad together, but don't leave mom to find dad first, otherwise mom will be very lonely."

"Oh, got it."

"Well, good, it's not early, go to bed quickly, go to bed early and get up early to be in good health, listen to the doctor's uncle."

Late at night, the lights in the inpatient unit went out one room after another. The bright full moon hung quietly in the sky, sprinkling the silver moonlight on the ground and throwing it into the window, which was quite cool, adding a touch of holiness to the seemingly quiet hospital.

In the hospital room, a beautiful but slightly haggard woman gently stroked the child's cheek. This hand was light and soft, for fear of accidentally waking the child up, and slowly, smoothed the child's slightly frowning brows and dispelled all the calamities in his dream.

A teardrop glistened in the moonlight, wetting the white quilt on the bed.

The moon through the window illuminates the child's immature but pale face, and also illuminates the corners of the mother's mouth that half of her mouth is pursed, and a crystal eye.

......

The boy's eyes were red, and he stretched out his pale hand to wipe his tears, as if he had been wronged, and he cried very sadly. While crying and walking into the ward, he shouted to the woman who was peeling fruit in the ward: "Mom, you lie to me, when a person dies, he is dead, and he doesn't go anywhere else at all, and the dead person will never see him again, and I will never see my father again!" ”

The woman's hand shook, and the thin, sharp fruit knife made a shallow cut on her finger, and blood oozed out, like a naughty child drawing a line with a red pen there. "No, as long as I still think about that person in my heart, I will see him again."

Tears blurred the child's eyes, and he didn't notice that his mother's eyes were also red, and tears were rolling in her beautiful eyes, but she refused to let any pearls fall.

"That'...... Where is far, far away? Where do I go to find my dad? ”

Mom raised a hand and wiped her eyes, "Far, far away in the sky, every person who dies will become a star in the night, hanging in the sky like that, looking at and bless the people who care about it in life." Daddy is also one of the many stars who will watch you fall asleep at night. Now that you're young, when you're older, your mom will find a way to go up with you to find your dad, okay? ”

The boy nodded, rubbed his sleeve on his face, met his mother's loving and helpless eyes, and quickly ran over and hugged her. After a long time, the boy took his mother's hand, looked at the fingers oozing blood, and blew softly, "Does it hurt Mom?" I'm sorry, if I hadn't scared you by yelling at the door just now, you wouldn't have hurt your fingers. ”

The mother rubbed his somewhat dry hair and said, "It's okay baby, mom doesn't hurt, the apple will be peeled immediately, and I will go to play after eating the apple." ”

......

The tall, thin boy leaned on the windowsill, his figure was good, and his proportions were good, if he didn't take off his hospital gown to reveal clearly visible traces of bones. Pale and bloodless skin with a handsome face shape has a sickly beauty. A pair of eyes seem to exude a glimmer of light under the long eyelashes, and you can see the bottom of people's hearts at a glance, melancholy and deep, hiding countless complex emotions.

The bed and room were as neat as his clothes, and as pale as his face. The main colors of the teenager and the hospital are blended together, and there is almost no sense of disobedience. The door to the ward was still open, and the breeze blew in through the window, and then drifted out through the doorway, taking away the last of the girl's scent.

The younger sister of "Da Zhuang" in the next ward has just come.

The girl is beautiful, with fair skin, big smart eyes, cute double ponytails, and slightly proud curves at a young age, and most importantly, she is very healthy. Since she was a child, she liked to come to the boy's ward under the guise of visiting her brother. She is enthusiastic and lively, always following behind the young man's ass, even if she is disgusted by someone, she will not leave a mouthful of "brother" called very sweet.

From the inexplicability at the beginning, to disgust, to familiarity, and finally, the girl irrepressibly walked into the heart of the teenager. In addition to the mother, the girl is the person the teenager cares about the most.

Hearing that the boy was going to have his last surgery tomorrow, the girl knew that the next day would be the beginning of her high school entrance examination, so she resolutely put down her books and came here to accompany him all morning. Looking at the snacks, drinks and fruits on the table that were about to pile up into a small mountain, the corners of the young man's mouth were slightly raised, as if he was smiling, but the sadness in his eyes was becoming more and more condensed.

Tomorrow's surgery is important, and if it is successful, the teenager will have a new life; Failure is eternal sleep. The doctor said that the surgical technique was very mature, and he was reassured many times that he did not have to worry and that there was no problem. But what the doctor said to his mother in private, he inadvertently heard it when he went to the toilet, and the success rate of the operation was actually only 30%.

Mom walked in and brought the door, "Tomorrow is the decisive battle, we will definitely win the disease, we must have confidence." Even if you are willing to give up your mother, you can't give up that girl, right? She hid her worries and sorrows well under the smiling expression and teasing words, but unfortunately the young man who knew the truth saw through it at a glance.

"Don't worry, Mom, I can't bear you. You have taken care of me all these years, raised me, and did not abandon me because of illness, thank you. Without me, you could have started a better, new life. ”

"Don't say that, you are my mother's only, it is my motivation to live and struggle, without you, maybe I would have gone with your father, where is today, it is you who live strong against the disease, did not give up on yourself, and saved your mother."

"Don't talk about it, I understand what you mean, don't worry about me, I'm considered to have grown up. In fact, there is nothing to fear about death, isn't it just to turn into a star and protect you in another way, and you don't have to worry about it. ”

......

The girl quickly finished answering the questions on the test paper, neatly writing on the answer sheet, looking at the clock with half an hour left, and a smug smile on her face.

She was the first in middle school almost every time, and nothing could stump her in the face of these questions.

Time passed minute by minute, and suddenly, the heart seemed to be slammed by a hand, and it seemed to be stabbed by a knife. The feeling comes and goes quickly, if it weren't for the pain that was deep enough, I would really think it was an illusion in a trance. I don't know why, the tears seemed to be the faucet that opened the valve, and they flowed uncontrollably and quickly wet the test paper. Fortunately, the answer sheet is pressed under the test paper, and the quality and waterproofness of the test paper are also good, so there is nothing wrong.

The boy's mother sat in the waiting area of the hospital, her eyes were a little hollow, and she had to pay attention to her makeup no matter how tired she was, so she let the two tear stains take her makeup, and hung quietly on her face waiting for the wind to dry them. The door of the operating room opened, and the doctor was wearing a mask, dressed very tightly, and there was no joy or sorrow. Listening to the doctor's footsteps getting closer and closer, she raised her head, stared at him like well water, and said quietly, "The operation failed, didn't it?" ”

"I'm sorry, we tried our best."