A gust of wind rose, and the crape myrtle tree planted outside the hall shook slightly, and a leaf left the branch, turned around, and landed on Zhang Yan's clothes. Zhang Yan twisted it up, smoothed the placket with her fingers, and a sneer gradually appeared on her face.

Guan Sheng was speechless under such a sneer, and cold sweat oozed slightly on his forehead.

He is not from Chang'an, he was born and raised in Yunyang. When he was twelve years old, he entered the Lin Guang Palace as a chamberlain of the flowers, and he had a little cleverness, but he had never seen the emperor, let alone the sixteen-year-old queen mother. - The emperor went out to find his wife who ran away from the palace, Han Changliu, who was the head of the inner chamberlain, wanted to stay in Lin Guang Palace, and maintained the illusion that the Son of Heaven was still in the palace. From the first day he followed the emperor, he knew that this was the only and perhaps greatest opportunity of his life.

Because of this, he hoped more than anyone else that Empress Zhang would be able to return to Chang'an with the emperor obediently.

His fate was based on Empress Zhang's departure from the palace. Although he didn't understand how anyone didn't want to be the queen of the Han Dynasty, he resolutely left behind his relatives in glory and wealth, and came to such a cold and desolate place as Shanan silently. But obviously, in the emperor's heart, he valued this young wife very much. If the emperor can successfully welcome back Empress Zhang, everyone will be happy, he Guan Sheng has relied on this period of close proximity to serve and ascend to the sky in one step, he dare not say that he is comparable to Han Changliu, the chief of the inner chamberlain, but it is not impossible to become a famous nobleman;

But if this matter is not followed, I am afraid that the emperor will be sad and unwilling to see the personnel related to Empress Zhang again, including this trip to Shanan and him during the trip to Shanan. Then, what awaits him will be to be knocked back again after rising to the clouds, but I am afraid that after that, he will not even be able to go back to be the little chamberlain of the flowers and plants in the Lin Guang Palace.

"Why don't you continue?"

Zhang Yan's lips pursed into a straight line, cold and sarcastic, with a noble momentum, and a kind of majesty that has been cultivated for many years. The pressure of the tube rose involuntarily, and cold sweat soaked out. It's about time. Only then did I really realize that the sixteen-year-old girl in front of me was not just a bright and delicate girl by the river in the house a few days ago. She is also the daughter of the late Zhao Wang Ao and Lu Yuan, and the queen of the Han Dynasty in the world.

"I've never seen such a presumptuous chamberlain as you." Zhang Yan's voice was clearly understated. Listening to his ears, there was a feeling of being sharp on the blade, "Be your master's inner servant." To be clever and clever is to have it all. But more importantly, you must be able to look at people's faces and grasp the inches of your palms. You should be glad that I am calm now, if it had been half a year ago, with these few words alone, I would have been able to kill you. - Go back. ”

"Big lady—"

Zhang Yan was stunned in the hall for a while. When I returned to the room, I saw Qingkui coming up, with a simple and cheerful look on her face. "I've moved a few pots of flowers from the yard into the house, is there anything else I want to order?"

"Huh? Oh, there's nothing to worry about. Zhang Yan replied. The slightly gloomy mood, under the light of such a smile, couldn't help but raise shallowly. In her life in Shanan for the past six months. Being able to have such a simple, enthusiastic and energetic girl by her side has brought a lot of bright colors.

Zhang Yan changed her clothes. Walking out barefoot on clogs, it was as if I heard the sound of strings flowing in the air, but when I listened carefully, there was no movement.

She wiped her face with a wrung out handkerchief, threw it back into the copper basin, sat down at the dresser, and removed all the makeup from the day. From the bronze mirror, I saw Qingkui standing behind him, wanting to leave, but he didn't leave, hesitating, and asked with a chuckle, "What's the matter?" ”

"Lady," Qing Kui asked with round eyes, "Do you know the Langjun by the Fu River today?" ”

"He has nothing to do with us." Zhang Yan straightened her face and said lightly.

Qing Kui hesitated for a moment and answered softly. Pack up the used copper basin and get ready to leave.

Zhang Yan sighed softly, "He is my old friend from my former family. ”

Her voice sounded a little floating, "Our two families have a family friendship, and I have known Lu Langjun since I was a child. He takes good care of our family, and it is okay to even say that he is kind to our family. However, I always feel that if two people want to be together, they always have to be interested in each other. If one party is reluctant, it will be meaningless. So, for me, right now, he's just a guy who doesn't have a relationship. ”

She didn't hear movement for a long time, and when she turned around strangely, she saw that Qing Kui's big eyes were already red, but she couldn't help it, and only replied in a self-righteous tone, "The slave knows." ”

Zhang Yan couldn't help laughing, "What are you thinking?" Go back to the house and go to sleep. ”

"By the way—" she suddenly called to her, "do you hear the sound of silk?" ”

"Nope." Qingkui was stunned, listened carefully again, and smiled disapprerovingly, "Lady, you heard it wrong." ”

"Maybe. Go back to your room and go to sleep. ”

Looking for spring all day long, there is no spring, and the mango shoes break through the clouds; Returning to smell the plum blossoms, spring has been very much in the branches.

The dwellings are small, and the rooms used as dormitories are only seven or eight zhang square, and a set of table tables are set up in the direction of the bed, and a bluegrass is planted in the blue-pottery daffodil pot on the windowsill. There was a stove of Suhe incense burning in the corner.

Zhang Yan walked to the west wall, pushed the window leaves, and the fluttering night breeze blew in, blowing her still wet hair straight back.

The quiet sound of the piano flowed steeply.

The qin music is a meticulous music, which was called a gentleman's self-pleasure and self-appreciation. The window leaves didn't open just now, and when I asked Qing Kui, the two of them were talking, but Qing Kui didn't hear it. And when everything is quiet, the sound of the piano is revealed.

It always seems that after the loss, you realize what you have missed. But if you want to get it back after you lose it, should the person who has been abandoned happily wait for mercy?

The corners of Zhang Yan's lips were slightly hooked.

No.

"Regret it?" A voice suddenly rang out from the silence of the night.

Zhang Yan seemed to have been prepared, and was not shocked, but said in annoyance, "Meng Guan, if you don't speak, no one treats you as a dumb person." ”

There was a chuckle outside the window, and Meng Guan didn't come in. It's just hiding somewhere I don't know, only a voice came out, and Youyou asked, "This person who plays the piano is the one who was with you that day, right?"

In the moonlight, there was silence.

"Speaking of which, with his status and status, it is extremely rare to be able to come here in person. Looking at the scene of your day, you are not unintentional about him. Why not ......? ”

"Meng Zeran," Zhang Yan interrupted him hurriedly, "I have something to do with him." If you don't know what's going on, you don't have to say it anymore. - Do you like Sister Dongge? ”

“…… Nature. ”

"No matter what happens in the future, do you like it?"

Meng Guan was silent this time.

When he and Han Dongge want to be together, their hearts are naturally sincere and warm. It's just that. After actually getting married, I found that there were differences in their values that could not be reconciled:

Dong Ge likes to be stable, and in his blood is the spirit of the ranger's unruly and adventurous spirit. His nature is like the wind, drifting everywhere. Dongge wanted him to stop and become a tree. Nowadays they are still willing to compromise with each other, but. When the differences are so big that they can't tolerate each other, can they really be happy for a lifetime?

He understood what Zhang Yan meant, the relationship was too complicated, and outsiders were not qualified to comment.

Zhang Yan said leisurely, "I admit it." I used to have a relationship with him. However, the two want to be together. Feelings alone are not enough. Until now, my requirements for you will not change, you will stay by my side and protect my safety for a year. A year later, my food gift and marriage promise were wiped out. Other than that, we live each other and don't interfere with each other. ”

Why, after she had given up completely, she chased after her?

And since she has already turned around and given up, what's the point of being courteous?

Zhang Yan closed her eyes.

When he left Weiyang Palace, he didn't say goodbye in person. She thought that between the two of them, it would be over. But it took a lot of effort for him to find her again from the vast sea of people and come to her.

The shock of seeing him again still lingered in my heart, but the decision to turn around and leave remained unchanged. Between them, there needs to be a settlement after all—if there must be a settlement this time, then it is in this Shanan City.

"I am now in love, and it is difficult to be in love for a long time. Life is fearful, and it is in danger of morning dew. Worry because of love, fear because of love, if you leave your lover, you are carefree. ”

Zhang Yan picked up the sheep's hair pen and copied this verse over and over again on the white jade paper, hoping to calm the irritable heart in his chest because of Liu Ying's arrival with the ethereal words of the Buddha.

"Big lady," Xiaodao came in from outside, and reported, "There is a Lang Jun surnamed Zhao at the door of the house, saying that he wants to ask to see him." ”

"Zhao?" Zhang Yan raised her eyebrows, put down the pen in her hand, took the name post, and saw that it was written:

"Respects to my cousin Shujun - Hangu Zhao Qin."

The handwriting is vigorous, and there is a momentum of breaking the back of the paper.

There was a thoughtful look in his eyes.

She has no old grudges with Zhao Qin, and she owes him a love when she was in Hanguguan. Therefore, she could easily refuse Liu Ying, but she was embarrassed to treat Zhao Qin coldly. He got up and commanded, "Invite him to the middle hall." ”

When Zhao Qin entered the hall, he saw a pair of tea sets on the long table in the hall, and the small red clay stove was burning fiercely next to the couch. Zhang Yan sat alone on the couch behind the desk, dressed in a dark cloud pattern robe, lined like a quiet black lotus.

"Sister Ah Yan is hiding it from me, so hard." Zhao Qin raised his eyebrows and said with a smile, "What are you talking about the cousin of the Lu family, until a few days ago, I didn't know who I was escorting that day." I can't complain about ......"

Zhao Qin's mother Lu Qiang and Zhang Yan's mother Liu Manhua, the eldest princess of Lu Yuan, are cousins, and in terms of it, he and Zhang Yan are cousins separated by a layer. When Lu Yuan married Zhang Ao, the son of King Zhao, it was still at the time of the Chu and Han wars, he was still young and was in his hometown with his parents. When the family moved into Guanzhong, Princess Lu Yuan had already gone to Zhao with Zhang Ao. By the time Zhang Ao was deposed as the Marquis of Xuanping and settled in Chang'an, he had already traveled with a sword, and he had no face-to-face relationship with the Marquis of Xuanping, who was known as a beautiful woman. Naturally, he couldn't recognize Zhang Yan, who looked like Xiao's father.

Zhang Yan stared at him with a smile, "I have never been surnamed Lu." There was a sly glint in his eyes.

"yes." Zhao Qin smiled lightly, "You're just misleading me." ”

In the final analysis, he has resentment about Zhang Yan's original use and the troubles he brought to him.

Zhang Yan sighed. Stand up on the couch. The right hand pressed the left hand, folded it in the center of the eyebrows, and solemnly thanked him, "Zhang Yan thanks my cousin for helping me that day, Yan really had no choice but to deceive the cousin of the Zhao family at the beginning." Please also ask my cousin for forgiveness. ”

Zhao Qin avoided and didn't dare to accept her courtesy, "Niangniang's status is precious, so there is no need to be like this." ”

Zhang Yan's eyebrows frowned slightly, and she laughed at herself. "I'm no longer a queen now."

Zhao Qin was silent and did not speak.

—On Hanya Road that day. I said my name is Shujun, and I didn't lie to you entirely. Shujun is the nickname given to me by my eldest mother in the past, because few people evoke it, only Ah Weng and Ah Mother know. Now, my cousin only calls me Shujun. ”

"Sister Shujun." No matter how much you don't think so. Hearing this, Zhao Qin's face couldn't help but soften.

“…… Since the first day of the new year, I have gone to Gangnam. A month ago, I went to the Northland again. My cousin found out about me and ordered Lang Wei to take me to Lin Guang Palace and carefully inquired about my whereabouts. Later, when he came to Shanan. I also piggybacked. ”

Zhang Yan was ashamed, "...... It's me who bothered my cousin. ”

Zhao Qin smiled leisurely, "Since Shujun still calls me cousin." I naturally support you. "What is the burden of the matter?

"If it weren't for me, my cousin would be traveling in the rivers and lakes now, how could he be trapped in this Shanan county."

"That'...... Not necessarily. Zhao Qin thoughtfully, "Seek benevolence." Sometimes, things develop. It may not be as good as people want. ”

The meaning of what he said was vague, and Zhang Yan couldn't understand it very well. He looked down and smiled. "My cousin has come from afar, so I might as well try a new tea."

She lifted the boiling copper-handled pot on the stove and poured it into the two teacups in front of her, making a small splash of water. The tea soup is green, and the boiling water brings out the fragrance of clear tea, with the black lacquered wood teacup, which sets off each other and is beautiful.

Zhao Qin took a sip, only to feel that the taste was refreshing, and his heart gradually calmed down, and praised, "Good tea." ——Since His Majesty used the tea in the Weiyang Palace. In recent years, hand-copied tea has risen very quickly. Chang'an Lu made a lot of money by making tea. ”

"When I traveled in the rivers and lakes, I also tasted Lu's tea, and now Shujun's cousin lives in Shanan, and the tea in the house is even better than Lu's tea. Shujun's noble family was born, and he has been pampered since he was a child, and even drinking tea every day is so expensive, and the north is bitter and cold, how can he get used to it? ”

The smile on the corner of Zhang Yan's lips gradually retracted, and she looked at the man in front of her with a hint of defensiveness in her eyes, "My cousin came to visit, talk to me, and talk about my relatives, I am very welcome." But if you want to intercede for him, you don't have to. ”

Zhao Qin smiled bitterly, "This trip is considered that I came here privately." But I feel it, since Shujun doesn't like to hear it, I won't mention it. ”

"Thank you, cousin. It's just a matter of habit becoming natural. When I was a teenager, I also lived in Xinping County for a few years," Zhang Yan gradually relaxed, "Now I have lived in Yunzhong for three or four months, isn't it still good?" - I'm not as delicate as you think. ”

After thinking for a while, he said, "Anyway, I owe my cousin a favor." His cousin has something to ask for, and if I can do my best, I will not shirk it. ”

"In this way, I will thank Shujun."

"You're welcome." Zhang Yan smiled, "Shall I make a burner of incense for my cousin?" ”

"Incense?"

"Hmm."

Zhao Qin smiled and said, "I heard that Shujun is making incense now, but I don't want it to be true." In this case, thank you Shujun. ”

"You're welcome." Zhang Yan smiled, "In a few days, I will have someone send it to your house." ”

"Okay."

It was nearly noon, Zhao Qin said goodbye and left, Zhang Yan sent him to the hall, Zhao Qin walked along the corridor, turned around, and saw Zhang Yan standing under the osmanthus tree, a dark skirt spread out like a drop of water, young and quiet, suddenly a pity mood came up, and couldn't help asking, "Sister Shujun, why are you suffering?" ”

The husband's letter is heavy and favored, and countless women in the world are looking forward to the position of the pepper room in Weiyang Palace, and the honor of the world of motherhood has been held in her hands, but she has abandoned it.

Zhang Yanqiao's face couldn't help but stiffen a little, and put on a posture of resistance, "Cousin, there are some things I don't want to hear." ”

"Although I am not close to you," Zhao Qin still refused to give up, and in terms of words, it was because the blocks in his heart had been depressed for a long time, and he poured down like clouds and water, "But since you call me a cousin." Naturally, I wish you well. At the beginning on Xingyang Road, you said that you left home only because your husband didn't like it. But when my cousin in Lin Guanggong asked me about your news that day, my heart was quite turbulent, and I was willing to put down everything in Chang'an to come to you in person...... I watched coldly, and I really have a lot of affection for you. And since you and he are husband and wife, what hurdle can't you get over? You might as well take a step back to have a fulfillment. ”

The sun seemed to be shining well that day, shining on the crape myrtle flowers in front of the hall, creating a golden color. Zhang Yan's long hair is combed into a double mustache, although she has been married for more than four years, she still dresses up as an unmarried, slightly screw-headed, and her smile is very clean.

"Cousin, you're not me, so you don't know the three flavors. I had so much to do with him, but I ended up walking away. How much do you know about the suffering? Why did you say to me so softly and skillfully, take a step back, and you can be satisfied? ”

Zhao Qin was dumbfounded, "Maybe I'm really reckless...... It's just that I have been walking in the rivers and lakes all these years, and I understand a truth, it is not easy to get such a person who is dedicated to you. ”

He said this from the bottom of his heart, but he looked at Zhang Yan again, she leaned under the crape myrtle tree, lowered her eyes and said, "I know." ”

The smile was shallow, as if there was no wave at all.

——5058 words, revised on May 4, 2011