Chapter 22: Feelings
I don't know what kind of means the above person used, the earth-shattering changes on March 18 were like a breeze blowing across the water, and the waves were not big, and the capital was calm again in two days.
The earth warmed up, and for several days, it was a good weather with bright sunshine.
Zhang Ruyan lazily leaned on the beauty couch, although she was drowsy, she still beat her spirits and gossiped with Zhiyun. may be pregnant, she has always been sleepy these days, but she has been lying down, which is not good for her body, so Zhiyun often comes to chat with her.
Cui Mama stood aside, holding a bowl of drunken shrimp in her hand, peeling it off, picking it with chopsticks, and feeding it into her own Gege's mouth, Zhiyun always said that she was easy to feed on weekdays, and she could eat all kinds of dishes in the north and south, whether it was light or heavy, unlike Ruyandan, who liked the light dishes in the Gusu area, and unlike Mingde, every day was meatless and unhappy.
However, the people who served her knew that her own Gege had a sensitive tongue, and she was the most picky, and whenever there was a little wrong with the food, she refused to eat, although she had never beaten and scolded the people in the kitchen because of the food, but the food was returned intact, which caused Cui Mama to feel distressed, and the people in the kitchen were absolutely not pleasing to her, and because of this, the chefs in Guerjia Mansion have made rapid progress in their cooking skills, even if they are just a handicap, they may have to be among the best in Beijing.
Of course, this has something to do with the teachings of the good cook October.
While eating drunk shrimp carelessly, Zhiyun was thinking about the structure of the space circle, the rune matching, holding a small carving knife only half an inch long in her hand, drawing on a palm-sized square bluestone, the stone chips fell on the snow-white handkerchief on her knees, she moved briskly, and the carved lines were meandering, and she couldn't see what it was, but ordinary people couldn't help but be dizzy after staring at it for a long time, so whether it was Ruyan or Mama in the room, they didn't dare to look at Zhiyun's pair of snow-white soft wattles.
The potted lamp and candle on the table automatically and spontaneously lit up with fluorescence.
July sat in front of the door embroidering a handkerchief, October held the account book, frowned, and a delicate and beautiful little face was full of seriousness.
Zhang Ruyan watched on the side, and admired the kung fu of her sister-in-law, when she first married, she heard that it was the eldest girl next to the sister-in-law who helped the housekeeper in October, at that time she was worried, and always felt that there were no elders in Guarjia Mansion, if the people were too powerful, I was afraid that there was a suspicion of a slave bully, the sister-in-law was young, and the girl around her had been in charge of the home for several years.
But she never thought that the subordinates of Gualjia Mansion were very different, and she didn't mean to embarrass herself at all, and before she could speak, she explained the housekeeper's affairs to herself clearly in October, helping herself to grasp the situation, and she was also very attentive. After getting along for a few months, she immediately found that the people in the house were also honest and responsible, and the family style was very rigorous, plus the population of Guerjia Mansion was really small, and some of the methods she learned in her mother's house were not very useful.
Now that she has a body and handed over the housekeeper's errand to October, Ruyan doesn't feel that there is anything inappropriate now. But-"Tuan Tuan, you're older now, I'm afraid there aren't many days left at home, this housekeeper or something, you still have to learn it, and the rules-"
Ruyan was speechless, as soon as these words came out, she immediately felt that Grandma Cui's face was a little unsightly, but fortunately, she was used to seeing it, and knew that this Grandma Cui was also very disciplined on weekdays, even if she was unhappy, she would not open her mouth to stop the master's words, and she was not angry, but then said slowly: "According to your eldest brother's meaning, my sister's rules should be paid more attention to, and you can't rely on it...... It is still necessary to make it so that no one can find fault with it. ”
Since Mingde received Kangxi's inexplicable will, he couldn't help but worry about the future of his baby sister, and the favor of the Son of Heaven is not always a good thing.
In the past, he felt that although he could still say a few words in front of the saint, but his official position was not obvious, maybe he could move around, let his sister put on the brand, marry on her own, and he could seriously pick a good one, so that his sister could live comfortably in the second half of her life, but now that her sister has entered the eyes of the saint, this marriage problem is probably difficult to be independent.
As the day of the draft approached, these thoughts turned over and over in Mingde's mind, stirring him up a little bit, so that he began to worry about the rules of his sister again, such a trouble, even Ruyan was a little more worried in her heart, and today she took advantage of the chatter to mention a few words about her sister-in-law, and while she was talking, she was more worried, so she couldn't help but muttered the words in her heart-
“…… With my sister's character and appearance, I will definitely be able to promise a good family......"
Listening to her sister-in-law's muttering to herself, Zhiyun was not as shy as ordinary Yunying's unmarried boudoir women, but her heart warmed, she smiled, and said comfortingly: "Sister-in-law is at ease, my sister understands." ”
For marrying, if Zhiyun really wants to choose, she has a way to make herself happy, but, in such an era, what is there to choose, she will not be allowed to be blind, deaf, and disabled, this is enough, anyway, she made up her mind that in the future, the floating city will be built, and she will live on her own territory for at least half of the year, and she has no heart to entangle with a group of women in the backyard.
What kind of palace fight, house fight, it's all floating clouds, maybe when I'm lonely, I'll run down to drink tea, eat melon seeds, and see the excitement, as for getting involved, forget it, even if her mind is spent on her own research, she doesn't feel enough, how can she have time to compete with other women for men.
Ruyan saw that she had been talking for a long time, and her sister-in-law did not move, neither ashamed, nor worried, nor took it to heart, sighed, and was not in a hurry, but she was a little curious about the thoughts of this sister-in-law who had a lot of ideas: "Sister, don't be embarrassed, lifelong events, the most important thing for women, come, tell your sister-in-law, what do you like, is it bold and brave, or Sven is a little handsome, although your eldest brother can't be the master of this matter, but, according to the thoughts in my sister's heart, choose one." , pick one, I believe your eldest brother can still do it. ”
Seeing that her sister-in-law looked like she was coaxing a child, Zhiyun snorted and laughed, so much so that she embarrassed Ruyan, and angrily leaned over and nodded Zhiyun's forehead, this topic still did not continue.
However, Zhiyun looked at the slanting sun outside the window and thought about Ruyan's words - in fact, she also had a time when she was pregnant with a young girl.
This is not surprising, although Zhiyun said that she had a bad heart and was rarely emotional, but in the end she was just an ordinary girl, a fair girl just grew up, fell in love with a certain person, and then fell in love with a certain person, it is no longer normal.
At the time, she was fifteen years old and had just undergone heart surgery.
Her attending doctor is a pediatric surgeon, surnamed Yin, called Xiqing, a very strange name, but he is very good, careful and considerate, gentle as water, although he looks a little ordinary, but he is very good at laughing, and he has two cute little dimples when he laughs, which is very cute.
Yin Xiqing is a rare good doctor, especially likes children, treats small patients, never has the slightest impatience, and is also very methodical, those children who cry and refuse to take injections and medicines, when they see Yin Xiqing, they will always become much more well-behaved.
You know, children get sick, and adults are different, they can't tell their own symptoms, but they need to be doctors to consider all aspects, take it seriously, pediatrics, especially pediatric surgery, is a thankless errand, maybe when they will have to go to court, most of the doctors in China do not like such a profession.
And Yin Xiqing, a surgeon with superb skills and one of the best in the world, gave up the preferential treatment in the United States and resolutely returned to his hometown, no matter how hard and tired he was, he did not complain at all...... Children are not like adults, they always admire heroes, and Zhiyun at that time was no exception, so although Zhiyun habitually curbed her feelings since she was a child, although Yin Xiqing was only handsome, and because of overuse of her brain, tiredness, and early sideburns, even fifteen years older than Zhiyun, she still slowly moved her mind in the intersection of more than four years.
She has no friends, only Yin Xiqing, who is the attending doctor, will bring delicious meals and carefully selected books about the occult to visit her, she has no relatives and elders, only Yin Xiqing, who is both like a father and a brother, will take care of her all night when she is sick and feverish, headache and brain fever, more than four years, bit by bit, her love for Yin Xiqing has finally developed into love.
Yin Xiqing, who was in her thirties at that time, had never been married, and she didn't even have a girlfriend by her side, and she was devoted to her career, Zhiyun thought, she has a chance, if she grows up, Yin Xiqing still has no lover, then she will be his lover.
Zhiyun has been a very calm and intelligent girl since she was a child, whether the person she likes likes herself or not, in fact, it is easy to figure out, like those on TV, he loves me, I don't know, and other bloody plots, most of them are made up by screenwriters, how can anyone be confused like that, when a man likes a woman, how can there be no clues revealed? Therefore, when Zhiyun was seventeen years old, she was sure that Yin Xiqing also liked herself, so she waited for the day when he spoke with peace of mind.
However, Zhiyun waited and waited, waited until her eighteenth birthday was over, and when she was an adult, Yin Xiqing still refused to speak first, Zhiyun thought, could it be that the man she likes is more shy and shy than a girl, then she will speak first, a girl's reserve or something, where is it more important than happiness, but, somehow, every time Zhiyun is mentally prepared and wants to tell him, he will always be interrupted by all kinds of accidents, so delayed, it was delayed for another year......
And later? Later, Yin Xiqing got off the operating table for the last time and collapsed in front of the door of the operating room - cancer.
Liver metastasis of gallbladder cancer, nearly two years ago, when Yin Xiqing first discovered it, it was already the fourth stage, and medically, there was almost no way to treat it......
So, until he attended Yin Xiqing's funeral, Zhiyun's belly was full of words and never spoke, and her first love, which was also the last love in Zhiyun's life, ended like the story in the movie, leaving no trace.
At the funeral, she didn't even cry and weep like the patients who were cured by Yin Xiqing, because her heart couldn't bear such emotional fluctuations......
"Tuan Tuan?"
"Huh?" As soon as Zhiyun came back to her senses, she casually rubbed the bluestone in her hand and said with a smile, "I will learn the rules with Mama Cui, you and your eldest brother, don't worry." ”
I am already very stingy with my feelings, and in this life, in such an era, I am afraid that there will be no more love, so it doesn't matter who is the husband, she only needs children......
Speaking of which, I am so obsessed with my own children, is it more or less influenced by that person? However, he is much more selfish than him, he only loves his own blood, but that person loves all children stupidly.