Jing Shen can't say that he likes the concubine, but he can't say that he doesn't like it, it's plain.

Since being instigated by Mu Jiu, Jing Shen has been busy with state affairs these days, and he didn't care about the people in the harem, and even the flowers and candles in the cave room that should have been on the day of his marriage were because he was too tired and finally fell asleep.

These days have not been talked about a lot, and the concubine has also been vaguely invited a few times, after all, he has been married for so long, and he has not gone to her room, even if she is not in a hurry, others will be in a hurry.

Jing Shen subconsciously still didn't want to go, but suddenly thought of Mu Jiu's words, he was very unhappy, he felt like an evil spirit, but he felt that it made sense, and got up: "Swing." ”

Jing Shen went to the concubine, which caused a storm in the palace, but Mu Jiucai didn't care about this.

It was late at night, but Mu Jiu couldn't sleep, obviously she didn't have it before, she was fine two days ago, but why did she lose sleep tonight?

Rao is she wise and rational, but she is also confused at this moment.

There is something sour in her heart, and there is an answer that seems to be hidden there, and she is about to come out, but she is a little panicked, and that answer ...... It actually made her a little flustered......

got up and went to the ground, abandoned the shoes on the ground, stepped barefoot on the soft carpet, and hung down with a snow-white profane clothes, fluttering like butterfly wings.

When she opened the door, the night breeze was blowing, and it was already autumn, and the night was cold, but Mu Jiu liked this feeling of coldness very much, and she felt that her mind needed to be cleared up.

Stepping out of the house, stepping barefoot on the stone road, the house is also lit everywhere at night, the dim light, not very bright, but you can barely see the road in front of you.

Xiao Qingyu noticed that Mu Jiu had gone out, woke up in his dream, and subconsciously wanted to follow, but was pulled by Weixue.

Xiao Qingyu was puzzled, looked at Wei Xue, and then looked at Mu Jiu, but she didn't follow, but she saw a slight sound in the grass not far behind Mu Jiu, no doubt, absolutely Qingsi'er.

This Qing Si'er, it's so hateful, it's obviously fed it so many things, but it always robs her of the master, since the master accepted Qing Si'er, she hasn't touched her head for a long time, and she feels like she's going to fall out of favor, woo, want to cry.

The Marshal's Mansion was taken care of very carefully, and every stone slab would be cleaned every day, and Mu Jiu stepped on it barefoot, although it was a little hard, and occasionally he would be awkward, but it felt quite good.

Mu Jiu had no purpose, so he kept following this road, his mind was empty, and he wandered aimlessly.

Suddenly, Xiang Yunkai's words suddenly remembered in her mind: "Young Master Wei, do you want to meet someone like that?" ”

Go to the Qin State and meet someone like that......

Mu Jiu's steps stopped, and she stood in place, letting the night breeze blow her hair and make her clothes hunt.

What? How so?

How could she be because she missed him?

She should be indifferent, very indifferent, she will not marry him again, she will follow her own way, what she wants, she will take it herself, and she will get it by any means.

And Xiao Junshu should be what she wants, then she will take him back, but she hasn't thought of how to act for the time being.

Mu Jiu felt a slight tearing pain in her head, but at this time, she remembered another person, Dongfang Yao, no, it should be said that it was Si Lin.

When they met, Si Lin was very embarrassed, he was the prey of her sisters, everything about him was ruined by them, and the original sin of all this was his beauty and body, he was whipped, tamed, and finally could only kneel in front of them.

His dignity, his pride, and his soul were all trampled down, and he was the most despicable slave.

And what about Mu Jiu? Except for the fact that she is not touched by lust, the rest of the world, she is as bad as them.

She saw the hatred that occasionally flashed in Si Lin's numb eyes and was quickly retracted without a trace, but she smiled, as if she saw something very interesting, and then she was like a demon, giving Si Lin a temptation magic fruit.

She used him, made him a sharp blade in her hands, did everything shady for her, and she tamed him, no different from those people, the only difference was that they only wanted his body, and she used him as a knife, stained with sin.

Indifferent and distorted, she felt that she was a pervert, so she deserved to be burned to death.

Mu Jiu felt that her past self was like another personality, and sometimes she felt strange to herself.

But on that day, on the day of the wedding, after Xiao Junshu disappeared, those who were suppressed by her had unconsciously overflowed.

Plunder, wantonness, and destruction......

So she didn't be sad for long, because she wouldn't expect others anymore, she wanted to take it herself.

She will take Xiao Junshu back.

She didn't want to admit that she missed him, why did she think about him?

A man who makes her feel pleasing to the eye and wants to be a possessions, why should she think about it?

But the more she thought about it, the more she felt that her heart was twisting.

Obviously, she didn't even notice it, but there were two forces tearing in her heart, one was reason and emotion, and the other was plundering and ruthless.

She didn't want to see Si Lin, she felt that she and he were people of two worlds, and she felt that he was trapped in the previous life and couldn't get out, but she ...... Is it really completely lost?

After Wei Ce's accident, crazy, paranoid, and desperate, she is still her.

It doesn't matter in her past life or this life, she has never changed, but the balance of good and evil tilts with the circumstances, because she meets a good person, so she will become a good person, and if she meets an evil person, then she will be a hundred times more evil than that person.

So, why is this happening all of a sudden? Why did he finally give up the idea of provoking a war when he had already decided to take him back as his own belongings, and why did he finally give up the idea of provoking a war when he had decided not to be affected by anything anymore?

It was easy for her to drive Yan Guo to send troops to Qin State, even if she didn't use Yan Guo's troops, she still had a way to accomplish what she wanted to do.

But she didn't do anything, but was terrifyingly calm, and what was suppressed under that calm, in fact, she didn't know very well.

And at this moment, in fact, the answer is actually obvious, and it is about to come out, but she insists on the last line of defense and does not want to admit it.

However, the defense line of reason eventually collapsed, and countless emotions poured out.

Sore, aggrieved, bitter, uncomfortable, she ...... Miss him.

Because I am too lazy to choose, I am at peace with the situation.

Because I don't want to waste time with other people, I will be fine.

Because he is good-looking, she is fascinated by sex.

Because you can't get rid of ......

She always seems to have made a lot of indifferent excuses for the two of them to get along, and feels that staying by Xiao Junshu's side is just a dispensable thing, but no matter how she positions Xiao Junshu in her own place, her mood can't deceive anyone.

That person, she thought she didn't care so much, but I don't know when, she actually entered her heart and occupied the world that was not so broad, what she cared about, she cared about very much......

And herself, the paranoia and madness of the past, they are still engraved in her bones, she is a demon, but in the end, she has met so many people, and she has shackled herself layer by layer.

She can't destroy Yan Kingdom, because this is where Wei Ce exists, she doesn't want to snatch Xiao Junshu by any means, just for the resentment and anger in her heart but ignore his situation.

That demon-like Mu Jiu was sealed layer by layer, and when she was stimulated, she would want to break free, and she herself wanted to break free.

But if you break free, so what?

Throw away the people she met in this world, those few people and things that can make her care, without them, she is Mu Jiu in her previous life, and she is alive...... What's the point?

She provoked a war, forced the Qin State to hand over people, or directly killed Xiao Junshu and snatched it, why did she use such an extreme method?

The storm roared in her mind, but she only frowned on her face, everything was just all kinds of thoughts flashing in her heart, but in the end, she didn't do anything.

It's easy to deal with others, but it's extremely difficult to deal with yourself, and the only enemy she really fears in the world is her former self.

Mu Jiu was stimulated and struggled, as if each of us had good and evil sides in our hearts, just a struggle in our hearts, but in fact we didn't do anything.

I don't know if you can understand it, o(╥_╥)o, I'm dizzy to write myself.

(End of chapter)