Xiao Jing has no time for dance rehearsals, study, and rest every night, because they are crowded with my appointment, I don't know why, as long as Xiao Jing does not have the task of performing in other places, I want to see her very much, only she is in front of my eyes, my heart is steady, I always feel that she is a gorgeous and colorful soap bubble, there will be no more at any time, will suddenly disappear in front of my eyes, she is God's perfect masterpiece, is the embodiment of truth, goodness and beauty in the world, how can I get her?

I'm really nervous, often in nightmares, crying quietly with red eyes: "Yuchen, I'm really tired! I really want to give up everything, sleep beautifully, sleep all the time, never wake up again, do you know Yuchen? Do you know how deeply I hurt? Do you know my depression? I often want to give you hints, and I'm afraid of hurting your self-esteem, and I want you to work hard, but you always can't see it, always laugh and laugh, always let me down again and again, do you really love me? If you really love me, why can't you give me peace of mind? Yuchen, it's really not that I don't love you, it's just that my heart has turned into tears......"

Jing, slowly flying farther and farther, I desperately shouted, desperately chasing, but no matter how hard I tried, I tried all my strength to catch Jing, but I didn't catch anything, Jing's figure that left like Chang'e, slowly disappeared in front of my eyes, at the moment Jing flew away, I completely understood the pain of loss, the taste of life is worse than death, the disappointment of red dust and death, it is really only people who have committed suicide will understand.

I'm afraid of Jing leaving, I'm afraid of losing Jing like this, it seems that I can only have a moment of peace if I stick to Jing every day, so I go to find Jing whenever I have time, and I will be with Jing like glue with endless sweet words, although Xiao Jing wants to study, perform, and be hugged by me, but Xiao Jing is not tired of it, she understands my heart, she knows my love for her, she knows my inferiority complex, what she can do is to give me the most beautiful and gentle smile.

As a man, what reason do I have not to fight? Even if I die, under Jiuquan, I will smile, I will silently tell Jing: "Jing, I worked hard, but you are too noble, I jumped up many times, every time I almost took your hand, I really have no strength, the last time I was all the strength in this life, I finally grabbed your hand, but the hand slipped, I fell, this time I fell to pieces, Jing, please don't think I have no strength, I really tried my best!" Shaking his head suddenly, I don't want nightmares, I want beautiful quiet.

Tonight is Christmas Eve, my silence is really beautiful, a silk white beautiful dress makes the beauty to the extreme, just like Audrey Hepburn in "Roman Holiday", holding Jing's little hand, walking on the street of Nanjing Hunan Road Pedestrian Street, the satisfaction of the sublimation of the soul makes me feel like a teenager walking through a dream, isn't it? I'm still a teenager, hehe. Countless little stars began to blink mischievous little eyes at us, and the moon girl probably hadn't gotten up yet, had she refused to come out in the clouds, and the red lanterns on both sides of the street were hung high, and now the red lights were on.

My Jing stood under the red lantern is very beautiful, like a red silk scarf on his body, the faint red light is reflected on Jing's face, it is so beautiful! The background is an antique street, the buildings of the Ming and Qing dynasties seem to have crossed time and space, and the happy earthlings walk by Jing's side, as if they are in a different era, PS picture? Jing is really so beautiful, is she a beauty of this era? Her temperament and her beauty are like fairies in the sky, or a princess of national color once in a thousand years.

Just looked at Jing stupidly, Jing stretched out her little hand in front of me, and five slender Qianqian fingers playing the piano shook left and right in front of my eyes: "Yuchen, what's wrong? Is it stupid?" "Yes, stupid," "Why?" "Because of you!" "Why because of me?" "You are so beautiful, the beauty makes me feel that I have not crossed over, is it an ancient princess standing in front of me," Xiao Jing looked at me and looked at me affectionately:" Yuchen, if, I said if, one day I am gone, or I am no longer in this world, what will you do?"

Like a jewel bright eyes looking at me without blinking, my heart a burst of inexplicable sadness, I want to say that there will be no if, but life and death parting this is human nature, I answered the question and said: "I will not let you go, if the words can move you, I want to say to you: Jing, I will write a book for you, if time can prove love, I want to say to you: Jing, I will wait for you forever, if there is a reincarnation in the next life, I want to say to you: Jing, I will have to marry you!" Quiet, turning my face sideways, in that moment, I saw a crystal teardrop falling in the wind......

In the VIP private room of the Peace Theater, there were a lot of delicious snacks on the small coffee table in front of the sofa, and a few bottles of drinks and milk tea bought for Jing didn't take a sip of it, Jing leaned softly in my arms: "Yuchen, take me to watch some sad movies again?" Why don't you even tell me the name of the movie, if people are made to cry by you again this time, you will be responsible," "Of course I am responsible, I want to take you into my arms and take care of you forever," The movies in the VlP private room of this theater can be watched on demand, and this time I brought Xiaojing over to watch the classic old movie "Manhunt" that I carefully prepared for her

The male protagonist of this movie has touched several generations, and the actor who plays the male lead, Ken Takakura, is someone I admire, let's put aside his nationality first, and his personality charm is really remarkable. The movie (君よ, angry の河を渉れ) is directed by Junya Sato, starring Ken Takakura, Yoshio Harada, Akira Nishimura, Ryoko Nakano, Kunie Tanaka, Mitsuko Doushi, etc., adapted from the novel "The Man Who Crossed the Rapids"

Released in Japan on February 11, 1976, it was introduced to China in 1978, and it is also the first Japanese film introduced by China.

Actor Ken Takakura's own private life is very sunny, under his cold appearance is a heart that is extremely dedicated to love, he has no children in his life, only gives everything for a woman, when that woman died, Ken Takakura has been alone for her life, has never remarried, and every year he goes to her grave to put a bouquet of flowers, decades have never stopped, such infatuation, how can such a character not be admired?

Especially the heroine in the play, Mayumi, she is the daughter of a parliamentarian and the daughter of a big chaebol family, and Du Qiu (Ken Takakura) met Mayumi by chance on the way to escape, and the two fell in love at first sight, I feel that my current situation is like Du Qiu, I am secretly being hunted by the "agency", although I haven't really done it yet. And Xiao Jing's life experience is like Mayumi, such an obvious "voiceover" smart Xiao Jing must be able to understand. The story of the movie ends in the majestic theme song music, quiet, black and bright beautiful eyes staring at the screen blankly, and the excitement in her heart cannot be calmed for a long time.

Holding Jing gently in his arms: "If I am a murderer who has absconded, are you afraid? Will you still love me?" Jing, leaning her head on my chest, soft but unusually firm: "I'm afraid, I'm afraid that my heart will turn into tears, I'm afraid that my heart will turn to ashes, but I love you without regrets! If you are a murderer, I am the murderer's wife!"