So, I really, really ...... I wonder if heaven is really that good? So good that she won't even give me a dream, woowoo......

If I could, I would have liked to see it, but I'm a bad person, I've killed many, many people, and I'll never go to heaven...... I...... I know

If I die, I'm going to hell, woo...... I'm not afraid of hardship, I'm not afraid of tiredness, I'm not afraid of going to hell, I'm just afraid that I won't see you again, woo woo woo ......"

She sobbed loudly, and every sentence she asked was the most painful thing in her heart, and it was also a question that had been pressed in her heart for more than ten years, and she had never figured it out no matter how she thought about it.

Crying silently, he fell on Jiang Yichuan's body, thinking back to every day he lived, his heart was so distressed as if it was about to crack, and he was miserable......

Every sentence of her made Qin Li and Leng Qing burst into tears, especially Qin Li, who couldn't cry herself, Leng Qing couldn't stop crying, looking at her distressedly, wanting to help her, but feeling so powerless......

"Grandpa...... You must tell her, please ask her to come and see me, okay? Don't ignore me...... I really don't expect anything anymore, I just ......

Woowoo...... I just want to see my mother, even if it's just a glance, I'm satisfied......" She cried breathlessly, and her voice was so sad

The horn sounded at the door, Leng Qing wiped away his tears, walked to her side, and said in a hoarse voice: "Young master, the car is coming......"

After she heard this, she cried even more, holding Jiang Yichuan tightly and refusing to let go, tears like a river bursting the embankment, flowing non-stop.

Choked up and said, "No, I don't want him to be burned, it will hurt, what if he wakes up?" Woowoo woo ......"

The cold and slightly red eyes flashed unbearably, giving Qin Li a look, she cried and nodded, she walked to Jian Junxi's side, and cried and said:

"Young master, you are studying medicine, you should know better than anyone whether Master Jiang is returning to heaven now, let him be buried in peace!"

Jian Junxi's whimpering cry was full of pain and reluctance, and she pulled her up coldly and vigorously, but she still wanted to pull Jiang Yichuan's hand.

Leng Qing shook her shoulders and persuaded sharply: "Young Master, you are stronger!" ”

"Woooooooooo......oo I don't want to, I don't want to be strong, it really hurts to be strong, being strong can't get them a little mercy, if I'm strong, they won't come to see me again

When my mother left me, everyone made me strong, I was strong, no matter how painful and tired I was, no matter how much others bullied me, I never shed a single tear, and the result?

In exchange for more pain...... Woowoo...... I don't want to be strong, why should I be strong? Why do they never consider my feelings?

I didn't even know what I was in their hearts. I don't want that medicine, I don't want to live

Why do I want to be lonely and miserable in this world, I am so painful...... It really hurts...... I've struggled all my life.

I used every minute and every second of my life, trying to climb to the position I wanted, but that was not my dream, it was just the goal I wanted to accomplish at the cost of my life, woo woo......

My dream ...... My real dream is actually ...... I can go to heaven when I die, but I know that I can't go

Woowoo...... You can never go, no matter how much good you do......

(End of chapter)