Her mother's hand was removed from her face, and her eyes stared at the dark sky outside the window: "If I don't see you, I won't think of Ade's death." I would feel that Ade was always there for me, that I was at peace and that I was very fast. ”

Ah Jing stared at his mother in a daze. Ade is Daddy. Mother is only called this in front of outsiders. Now, are you an outsider yourself?

The mother didn't retract her gaze, still looking out the window, and there was a faint smile in her eyes: "How could Ade leave me?" He said that even if he dies first, his soul will be by my side. I really felt it, he was sitting next to me. I'm afraid I'll cough. Don't dare to smoke. ”

"Mom!" Ah Jing screamed softly. The mother did not respond. Suddenly he smiled: "Ade said, Lan Ying, don't look at me like that." When you look at it like that, I want to be a hooligan. ”

"Mom!" Ah Jing raised his voice, but tears flowed again. When my mother heard this, she looked back as if she had just woken up, looked at Ah Jing in confusion for a while, and suddenly smiled: "I'm fine." Let's go. When you're gone, my life will be peaceful. ”

Tears fell straight down like beads of broken threads, and Ah Jing stood up, picked up his schoolbag, and walked out slowly. The mother looked at her steadily, and suddenly whispered, "Ah Jing, I have deposited all my living expenses on your card." Save yourself and use it slowly. If you don't have any, just come back and tell me. ”

Ah Jing turned his head suddenly, but his mother lowered her eyes and said lightly: "The money should be enough for you to graduate from college." Let's go. Nothing to do, come back less. ”

Ah Jing walked slowly to the door. The sky was dark, and Ah Jing looked up. This black sky is really like a big hole in my heart.

Very good, very good. Daddy is dead. Mom is crazy. She was abandoned. This home is scattered.

The night breeze in early spring is cool. It was so cold that Ah Jing shivered. She carried her bag on her back and walked slowly with her broken bicycle. The tears were cold, and two marks hung on the face, and they were cold and painful. The left eye socket was bruised and swollen, and the flesh became swollen, affecting the vision. Ah Jing felt that he could only see a very narrow line in his left eye.

It doesn't matter, even if you're blind, it doesn't matter. Nothing matters anymore. Including life.

Ah Jing slowly pushed his bicycle, pushing through the alleys in the night wind and darkness. The wheels creaked. Occasionally, dim street lamps illuminate a blur of light and shadow. When Ah Jing arrived under the street lamp, he would stop and squint at the hanging lamp. That light is so warm. It's far from her, though. It's so high, just looking at it, I feel warm. It's also good to take a look, though. At least know. In the dark, there is also a street lamp to keep the moths warm. Where does her street lamp hang high?

The evening breeze was cold, and there were not many people on the road. The night was getting deeper. There are fewer and fewer people. I don't know how long I walked. There was silence around, and there was no one around. There was not a single sound. Even the barking of dogs in the distance seemed so far away.

Ah Jing didn't know how far he had gone. I don't know where I've gone. The wind in front of me was blowing, with some fishy smell. She stopped. It seems to be in the suburbs. Ahead, in the darkness of the night, there is a high white embankment.

Ah Jing dropped his bicycle under the embankment and slowly climbed up. In front of him, a huge surface of water suddenly appeared. In the glimmer of the night, the shimmering waves of the Tao can still be seen. The evening breeze blows, bringing the fishy and fishy smell of the water ashore in bursts. Ah Jing sat down on the embankment. The strong wind blew her clothes and hair, fluttering straight back.

There is an occasional crackling sound in the reservoir. There must have been fish jumping out of the water to play.

Dad, you were so happy and so bold when you were alive, you must be in heaven now, right? I won't be as lonely, so miserable and sad as I am now. Mom loves you, crazy in love. I love you too. Shall I come to you? I came to you, and then you told me, what the hell happened. Why does mom hate me so much? Why does my mother hate me so much?

You're going to want me, aren't you? I'm coming to you. If I find you, I will be as happy as ever. You take me to climb heavenly mountains, to play ball, to go fishing, to go to pubs. We are as happy as ever. The two of us bless Mom together. Bless her well. Bless her for a happy future life.

Ah Jing laughed softly in the night wind, slowly stood up, and walked down the slope of the embankment step by step. Here's the water. The water is very deep, deep. Step in and happiness will come.

Ah Jing leaned down slowly. Put your feet in the cold water. The edge of the reservoir is trapezoidal. Near the shore, there are uneven cement blocks, and my feet hurt through my shoes.

Ah Jing took a few steps inside. The icy water slowly flooded his legs and waist.

Mom, I'm gone, like you said, far away from you, you should be happy, right? I won't make you feel miserable anymore. You don't want to hate me, do you?

Closing his eyes, Ah Jing slowly walked down. It's peaceful and calm. The tears have long since dried up. My heart doesn't hurt anymore. It's a pity that I got into a fight with someone else today. His face was covered with scars. It's blue and swollen. The eye sockets are also black. This last night was not pretty. Tomorrow, I'm afraid I'll scare others, right? If my mother saw it, would she be scared too?

Mom said, "For your father's sake, you have to live a good life, and you can't miss a single hair." "I'm going to my dad now, and there's really not a single hair missing. I would jump in front of my dad and call him to hug him.

Live well? Ah Jing suddenly hit a spirit. Frozen by the cold water, he was struck by a spirit. The water was already up to his chest. Ah Jing suddenly stopped. Daddy is dead. I don't know why he died yet. Mom has always said that for the sake of Dad, you have to live well. What does that mean?

What am I doing? Ah Jing suddenly came to his senses. Drowning in this lake like this? Do you want to be a water ghost for a thousand years in the future? Daddy must have wanted me to live well. If you don't live well, how can you find out the cause of Dad's death? If you don't live well, who will take care of your crazy mother?

The icy water became bitterly cold. Ah Jing couldn't stop shivering. His feet shook suddenly. No, don't die. Can't die.

Ah Jing turned and climbed to the shore. The clothes became wet and heavy, as if they were being grabbed by a pair of hands, and dragged them all the way into the water. Ah Jing's soul is scattered. As soon as his feet became weak, he fell into the water. Gu Dong Gu Dong drank several mouthfuls of dirty water, it was cold, and it was dark in front of him, Ah Jing's feet slid down, and the person sank straight into the water.

Don't, can't die. Daddy won't want me to die!

There was a loud fluttering sound in the quiet reservoir. Water splashes. Ah Jing groped frantically in the dark, planted himself in the water, drank a few more mouthfuls of dirty and smelly water, and in a panic touched the raised stone at the bottom of the water, and with a hand of support, he jerked his head out of the water, and hurriedly kicked off his shoes. Holding on to the cement with his bare feet, he struggled to his feet, climbed up the slope from the edge of the reservoir, hand and foot.

Returning to the solid embankment, Ah Jing's whole body was weak, and his soaked clothes were dripping with water, Ah Jing whimpered, and fell on the embankment like a dead man, unconscious.