Luan wanted to pull her up. Ah Jing twisted his body and coquettishly: "Don't move, I'm tired." ”

"Well, let's go wipe and go to sleep." Lu An coaxed her.

"No, no."

"Good, wipe it clean and change your clothes and sleep." Lu An helped her up.

Ah Jing looked at him drunkenly, reached out and touched his face: "Mom? You're not a mom? He lowered his hand and suddenly began to cry: "Mom, why do you hate me? Why are you driving me away? Don't you want me, okay? ”

Lu An helped her to the bathroom. Ah Jing lay his whole body on Lu An's body, lying still: "Mom, you speak!" Mom? ”

Lu An looked at her with his head down. His eyes were red and swollen like lanterns. His eyes were full of confusion and sadness.

He gritted his teeth and hugged Ah Jing horizontally. The soft body is cold and light. Recently, it's thinner. What's wrong with her? And what injuries and blows?

Ah Jing hugged Lu An groggily. He was warm and strong. She leaned tighter into her warm arms, closer to the warmth, and began to delirish in a daze: "Daddy? Father? ”

Lu An lowered his head and pressed it against Ah Jing's face. Still cold. Who knows how long she froze in the rain? The weather in Lake City is warm like spring all year round, but it does not rain, no matter summer or autumn, the weather becomes cold when it rains. Therefore, there is a saying that "one rain becomes winter".

Therefore, it is very strange for people in this place to wear clothes, and when they go out on a sunny day, they wear a suspender. But you always have to put a coat in your bag. Otherwise, if it rains, you will shiver from the cold.

What to do? Thinking about how to waste yourself and belittle yourself. No matter how much you toss, you can't toss your body, even if it's a body that is not bad, you can't stand it like this, right? I don't know how to cherish myself. Lu An sighed secretly.

The bath was soon half filled with water. Lu An looked at Ah Jing, who was curled up in his arms, tested the water temperature, thought about it, and directly took people into the bath. Plumbing. Ah Jing was put in, opened his eyes and looked around, but he didn't wake up. In a trance, I felt like I was in a warm quilt. There was a blur in front of me. He snorted comfortably and wanted to turn over.

Lu An put one hand around her slender waist and bent over to support her. Seeing that Ah Jing was about to turn over and face inward, he hurriedly held it with his hand, half a pool of water, drunk into a semi-comatose person, where would he dare to let go, I was afraid that as soon as he let go, Ah Jing would indulge in this warmth and suffocate and fly to heaven!

It's tiring to bend over like this, Lu An is uncomfortable, and Ah Jing is even more uncomfortable. Twisting his body, there is always something tightly tied to his waist. Twisted a few times, a little impatient, and muttered to reach for it.

"A-Jing?"

Luan tried to call.

Ah Jing regained some of his senses in the warmth. Hearing the sound in a daze, he opened it and took a look, and saw Lu An's handsome face and blue eyes in the vapour.

He laughed. The hand let go and pointed to his nose: "Anzi? Why are you here? What are you doing? ”

"Get up, take a shower and go to sleep, the bed is warmer."

"Am I not in bed? It's so warm. "Ah Jing's words are average.

Lu Anba sat up and turned around to find something to cushion behind Ah Jing, and put her back and head higher.

Ah Jing stretched out his wet hand and grabbed him, with some horror and crying: "Don't go, Anzi, don't go." Talk to me. ”

"I'm not leaving."

Lu Abe pulled her sleeves tightly, and squatted down by the bath in the heat, and the water was full of water. He put Ah Jing around and sat up half-seated, and lay on the edge of the bath. In this way, the hot water will overflow, and it will neither catch a cold nor slide down.

Ah Jing enjoyed this posture very much, leaning his feet against the inside of the bath to make himself more comfortable, his head was on the two overlapping arms, and the two swollen eyes were soaked, I don't know if it was mist or tears, the water was shining, and he looked at Lu An stupidly.

Lu An reached out and took a small stool to sit on, faced Ajing, looked at her for a long time, and said softly, "Are you better?" ”

Ah Jing didn't speak, and laughed after a while: "Anzi." ”

"Hmm."

"You're hosting a great show."

"Hmm."

"Every time I listen to it, I feel that this world is still interesting."

"Huh?"

"Anzi, why do you think I'm not going to die?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Lu An glared at Ah Jing. Reach out to comb her wet hair. He couldn't figure out now whether she was drunk or awake. ”

"There are so many short-lived people in the world, some are sick, some are poisoned, some are hit by cars and die, and some fall off cliffs. ”

Ah Jing whispered, tears flowing down like a stream. But he didn't cry out loud, but just sobbed again and again, as if he wanted to pull out his heart: "God must not torture me enough." That's why I want to suffer a lot of sin. It's not done yet. Take some more, and when you're done, you can take me. ”

"A-Jing!"

Lu An hugged Ah Jing and patted her gently. "Don't say that. Everyone has their own suffering. When it is gone, it is necessary to put it down. Don't make it infinite. Doing so will only make yourself more miserable. ”

"How do I put it down? How can I let go? Ah Jing raised his eyes, his face full of tears: "Anzi, you have never experienced it, you don't know how to feel like that." You don't understand. If I can let go, why should I live so hard? ”

"Then tell it out and tell me. Give me half of your hard work. I'll take it for you. Believe me? Ah Jing? Lu An shook Ah Jing's hand.

Ah Jing looked at him silently. Ban Xiang didn't speak. Lu An held her hand and looked at her quietly, his eyes were calm, like a clear spring. Tranquil and deep, without waves.

Ah Jing sighed softly. His eyes looked faintly ahead, as if he had penetrated time and space, and went back to eight years ago: "I was so scared. When I went to school, my father kissed me on the forehead and gave me a kiss on the forehead and told me to cross the street carefully. But how come back and fall to the ground covered in blood? So much blood. Dad must be in a lot of pain. When I think about it, I feel like my heart is shrinking. When you close your eyes, the whole world is full of blood, the whole body is red, everywhere is red, with a fishy smell, covering the whole world, wrapping people in it, making people breathless, and there is no way to escape. But he couldn't die, he was trapped in it like that. ”

Ah Jing shuddered. Lu An held her: "It's all over, Ajing, it's all over." Change your clothes, go to bed, and tell me again, okay? After soaking in this pool for a long time, the skin will wrinkle. ”

"I'm ......" Ah Jing looked at a pool of water and laughed sadly: "It's just a little wrinkled, it's nothing." ”

She turned her head and grabbed Lu An's hand: "Anzi! While I want to say it now, let me tell you! I'm scared, and as soon as I get out of here, I won't want to talk about anything anymore! I retracted back into my snail shell! ”

"You say." Luan sat down again, took off his coat and tossed it aside. The bathroom is filled with hot water that is constantly emitted, and the small space is filled with moisture, and it becomes hot.

"Mom was right next to her, dumbfounded, with nothing in her eyes, as if her soul had gone with her father. I pulled her and pulled her, and I cried and screamed, and she didn't say anything. But when she sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me, she suddenly hated me like that! It's like I'm not her daughter all of a sudden! My eyes were so cold that it made my heart freeze! She hated me so much, she looked at me with resentment coldly, at me like an enemy, like, like ....... ”

Ah Jing was suddenly shocked, and suddenly stood up from the water, drenched like a water ghost, his face, which had been red from the heat, suddenly turned pale, his hands were twisted together, and his body trembled: "It's as if Dad was killed by me!" ”

Lu An stood up and looked at her quietly. Ah Jing's eyes suddenly opened wide and became very bright, as if he suddenly rushed out of the fog: "It must be like this, Dad's death must have something to do with me!" So, Mom hates me! Mom hates me so much! ”

Ah Jing jumped out of the bath, turned around all over the floor to find shoes, rushed to the corner to get the bath towel, took it in his hand, twisted it into a ball, but threw it on the ground, turned his head to take the mouthwash cup on the sink, raised it and put it down, picked up a toothbrush, held it tightly in his hand, and pinched his hands white. Suddenly, he dropped it again, and suddenly reached out and swept it fiercely, and swept all the hand sanitizer and facial cleanser cosmetics on the table, and suddenly there was a chaotic sound of ping-pong, and then he slowly slid down against the wall, squatting in the corner of the wall and crying.

Luan walked over and reached out to wrap his hand around her.

Ah Jing buried his head in his arms, snuggled up to him all over, there were tears in his eyes, and he couldn't tell whether he was laughing or crying: "After so many years, I'm so scared." I never dared to think about it, and I never wanted to remember. I never understood, why did my mother hate me? Why do you hate me so much? You don't know how painful I am. Over the years, I have lived in hell, tormented by my mother's hatred all the time. I wish I could die at any time, and it will be easy and happy from now on. If it weren't for my father once saying that the people of the Song family, no matter how hard they work, they would not seek death, I would have committed suicide thousands of times and tens of thousands of times. I'm alive like the walking dead. Unwilling, but I don't know where the way out is. I love my mother, but I can't even look at her head-on. I never knew, didn't know why my mom hated me. It's just now that I figured it out. I didn't figure it out until today! ”

Lu An didn't speak, he stood up and hugged his weak body tightly. Ah Jing cried on her chest, buried her head and muttered a lot. She gently pressed her forehead against her wet hair and gently patted him on the back, as if comforting a lost child who had just found his home.

From the first time she saw her, she felt the heavy sadness hidden behind her. He felt her pain, he felt that she was hurt deeply. From that moment on, he wanted to embrace her, relieve her worries, and share her worries. Just by looking at it, he understands in his heart: if there is a house with a warm lamp and a warm bed, he hopes that there will be her in that house, under that lamp, and on that bed.

It was love at first sight, right? Is it a glimpse for life? He is Luan. Gentle and steady Lu An. Therefore, he knew that a man who had walked quietly in the forest for so many years would finally meet his companion in the sunlight that shone through the gaps in the leaves.

His pain was shared by him, and her knot, he was there to help her untie it.

The door to the outside slammed. Xiaoqing came back from work. I saw the bathroom door open, heard the sound of rushing water, and probed in. Lu Anba Ajing picked it up and put it in the bath, and after standing for so long, his whole body was cold again.

Ah Jing wiped away his tears and lay quietly on the edge of the pool.

Lu An turned around, looked at Xiao Qing's eyes as big as cowbells, and smiled: "Xiao Qing, go find clothes and help Ah Jing change them." She drank too much. ”

Xiaoqing hurriedly ran to the room to find a set of pajamas. Ah Jing woke up, asked Xiaoqing to go out, rushed casually, changed his clothes and came out, and sat silently on the sofa.

Xiaoqing didn't dare to ask more, but Lu An was there, so she was relieved and hurriedly went to the kitchen to cook.

Lu An found a blow dryer and came out, stood behind the sofa, blew Ah Jing's hair half-dry, and said, "Have a good night's sleep, toss for an afternoon." Ah Jing nodded, staggered, and stood up as if he had collapsed. Lu An helped her in, covered the quilt, gently touched her forehead with her hand, and said softly, "Sleep." I'll talk about what I'll wake up to. Ah Jing looked at him, and within a minute he was starting to fight. It's really tiring to toss.

Lu An came out and sat on the sofa, holding the TV remote control in his hand, but he didn't turn on the TV for a long time.

Xiaoqing took the time to run out of the kitchen, took a look, and asked softly, "Sleep?" Lu An nodded. After thinking about it, he said, "Call me when you finish it, and I'll boil some porridge for her." Xiaoqing agreed, and laughed happily.