There are always people in the relationship who will endure and let go, and some people will get an inch, and become more greedy for this other person's pay, in the final analysis, this game of love, the person who pays loses half a game, and the person who accepts it is step by step, and the move is fatal.

I have heard the "chess love" of the older generation, unlike the heroic fighting in the gladiatorial arena, not like the flesh and blood of the bullring, it is a kind of mutual consideration, gentle but step-by-step attack love, you come and go, in the end I don't generalize you, you don't eat my handsome "dead chess love".

I've been writing about people, writing stories, and I've been exploring the answers hidden in my heart, but I've never thought about it, I've asked so many people, I've recalled so many things, what I'm looking for, until today, when I went downstairs to buy cigarettes, I met him, and I realized that I had been looking for him and his unwillingness.

The funniest thing I told him was that in the early stage of the relationship, I kept giving, and he blindly accepted, and in the later stage, he kept giving, and I kept accepting it as a matter of course. But feelings have always been equal, and they are doomed to be fruitless from the beginning.

After separating from H, I thought I would be sad to death, I thought about getting drunk, I thought about cigarette paralysis, and I thought about poetry and distance, but his appearance interrupted all my fantasies silently.

When it rains, no matter where I am, just tell him, and I can see him waiting for me with an umbrella from afar; When it's cold, he always has an extra jacket on his phone; When eating, there are always carrots and green peppers in his bowl that I don't like to eat, etc., and his good is so good that I can't count it, so that I forget to be sad, and only think about how to return that good to him every day.

I began to rack my brains to be nice to him, and before I realized it, he had filled the empty space in my heart. Until one day he went on a business trip without bringing the required documents, and I recklessly chased after him and arrived at the place where he was on a business trip. I'm white, I may have fallen, but I told myself, it doesn't matter, maybe I can control it, you see how ridiculous, feelings are this thing, for a sensual person like me, once it appears, it will be difficult to recover, I actually believe that I can.

After more than two months, the two of us were together. At the beginning, I was always thinking about why we were together, and I always felt that something was wrong, of course, at that time, I didn't think about it, even if I figured it out at that time, we wouldn't have a future.

I don't understand why we're together, but he does, he knows that because he has accompanied me through the time when H left, and also accompanied me through the days of unemployment and default, I have the greatest dependence on him, but it is not like or love, he understands, but he didn't say anything at that time.

In a reciprocal relationship, as long as the Libra is one-sided at the beginning, the relationship, no matter how long it goes, will not have an ending. I didn't believe it once, and then I didn't believe it, until we quarreled and broke up for the first time, and I didn't understand the meaning of this passage, not about equality and inequality, but about who loves more and who doesn't love more.

The first quarrel was because of H, and maybe the countless subsequent quarrels were because of H, but at that time I understood it, I only knew that when I loved him, he didn't love me, and when I didn't love him, he gave everything, and I naively thought about reconciliation, but the first seed was only planted with dependence and dependence, and the result could only be like that.

We've traveled a lot, we've met a lot of people, and we've had a broken relationship for years. I used to think about going on like this, regardless of whether it was good or bad, what the result was, and just keep going like this, I needed him, and he loved me too, enough.

But what I didn't expect was the last straw that crushed our relationship, it was actually an ice cream.

When I got home from work, I thought about going down to buy ice cream, and I forgot about it, so I called him to come over for dinner, and brought one, but when he came, he brought a bouquet of flowers and a basket of fruits, but there was no ice cream I wanted, I suddenly felt broken, and I didn't know what was wrong there, I cried desperately, he didn't coax me, didn't hand me tissues, just sat on the floor opposite me, kept looking at me, and after a long, long time he hugged me and said, "Maybe we should have broken up in the first place." Without warning, we broke up because of an ice cream.

After him, I never fell in love again, and I always always think back to the days when we were happy and unhappy together, and I wasn't really unhappy, I was happy, at least I was very happy, and I was secretly throbbing.

In the second month of separation from him, I entered his blacklist, and it was only then that I completely collapsed, I knew that we might not owe each other anything, and that my days of full calculations would be gone forever, and I asked my friends to ask around about the cause and effect, and got a "I'm afraid I'm sorry for her again" result. After a long time, my friend asked, "Are you satisfied?" The answer? ”

I shook my head and didn't speak, because I didn't know what to say, satisfied? Satisfied with what? Satisfied that he still has me in his heart? Not satisfied? Not satisfied with what? Not satisfied that I was expecting him to come to me, but he didn't? But in love, I have always been greedy, I have been asking for no bottom line, and it has intensified, what right do I have to be dissatisfied?

After a long time, I started to write about people and the past, and I tried to give everyone a good ending, and it wasn't until I met him again that I got the answer.

The brand of cigarettes I want downstairs is gone, I will deal with it in the past, but I don't want to today, I drove to the supermarket not far from home, and forgot to pull out the key when I closed the car door, so I suddenly stood in front of the cashier with cigarettes and fast food, fortunately it was the second half of the night, there was no one in the store, the cashier lady enthusiastically lent me my mobile phone, let the family pick me up, I shook my head in frustration and said: "Forget it, I don't want it, my family is in the field."

The cashier smiled a little awkwardly, she probably thought I was pitiful, I could only go out to buy things by myself in the middle of the night, and I was an unkempt, lonely and poor woman.

I laughed to myself, and as I turned to leave, I heard the voice that was both familiar and unfamiliar: "How much?" I'll pay for her." I burst into tears, and just because of a word, the cashier probably thought I was inexplicable, and hurriedly handed me a tissue. He was still so gentle, he hugged me gently, it was strange, it felt like a dying man grasping at a life-saving straw, and I hugged him tightly.

When I calmed down, he said, "I'll send you back, why are you so sloppy." Before closing the door, the cashier lady said with a happy face: "Don't go out alone to buy things in the future, and don't forget to lock the car key in the car, not every time your husband will come to save you."

He took me by the hand and responded to the cashier, saying, "Okay, I'll take good care of her."

Instead of shaking off his hand, I shook it, and I cried and asked, "Why, why, why did it suddenly appear again?" He looked at me without saying a word, like the day we broke up, the difference was that this time he hugged me, wiped my tears, and when I finished crying, he asked me very gently: "Are you better?" Can I start talking? A few words to defend yourself"

I nodded. He said: "I think it's better to forget it like this, you may still have H in your heart"; He also said: "But this year of separation, I haven't asked for a day whether you're doing well, whether you're reconciled with H, and then I felt that I was wrong, Yin Yin is the first thing I made you like me, Yin Yin I understand you, but I'm still so irresponsible to leave you, I also thought about apologizing and returning to you, but I'm afraid you won't forgive me, I can only wait for another opportunity"; Finally he said, "I love you, and you love me, so we should be happy, right?"

I didn't hesitate at all, I told him, "I love you, I always love you."

Really thank you to my Mr. L, thank you he's still waiting.