Zhang Ailing said that if you really love someone, it will be very low, low to the dust......

But whether it can bloom from the dust is not certain.

Xiao Yi still likes to walk around after dinner, when Ren Xianqi's "Heart is Too Soft" has become popular on campus, and there are voices singing everywhere:

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You love that person without complaint

I know you're not that strong at all

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You're always too soft-hearted, too soft-hearted

Fight all the problems yourself

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You don't want to sleep in the middle of the night, are you still thinking about her?

Are you tired of being so infatuated?

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The lyrics are simple and easy to understand, Xiao Yi feels that the people singing in the song are like himself, and also like Liu Yun, in the late autumn season, the song is a little sad, which will always make people think about it.

Within two days, Xiao Yi found that Liu Yun's expression was wrong, and when he saw him, he not only ignored him, but also blackened his face the whole time, he didn't understand what was going on, and wanted to ask Liu Yun to ask and ask people to call in the classroom, but she refused to come out. He wondered if someone was saying something behind his back, so he wrote a letter to inquire about the situation, saying that if something happened, he would fight with her, he thought that as long as the two of them had one heart, there would be no hurdle that could not be overcome, so what about going against the whole world for her? When he saw Liu Yun passing by, he handed over the letter, but he didn't expect Liu Yun to throw his hand away, and later even saw Xiao Yi walking around and cut off all information exchanges with him. Xiao Yi was completely stunned, he felt that the matter was a bit serious, this was something that had never happened to the two of them, it turned out that no matter how awkward they were, they were also worried about each other, and it would be over if they turned around and apologized, and it wouldn't be like this, what the hell is going on?

His mind was full of doubts and a stomach full of words that had nowhere to confide, which made him extremely depressed and worried, and seriously affected his diet and sleep, he only drank some porridge every time he ate, and he couldn't swallow the steamed bun twice and then spit it out......

This kind of day lasted day after day, feeling uneasy, headache, and even depressed and confused, Xiao Yi felt that he could no longer hold on. He used to have a stubborn personality and strong self-esteem, but at this time he didn't want to ask the truth of the matter, thinking that he must be wrong, and apologized directly to Liu Yun, but he was afraid that Liu Yun would not be seen, and even wanted to hide on a certain road that she had to pass through and wait, and when he saw it, he knelt in front of her, admitted that it was all his fault, asked for her forgiveness, and stopped torturing him......

After staying up for the third big break like this, Xiao Yi was about to leave, and found that there was no her in the group of people who walked with Liu Yun, and wondered if she didn't leave? Isn't that just an opportunity? He asked Sheng Wen from the same village to bring a letter to his family, saying that he would go back later.

But what he didn't expect was that he didn't leave when he saw Liu Xing. Was it a coincidence, or was it their agreement? It's so difficult for me to talk to her, I can't go home together, and at this time, I made an appointment with someone to go home with Daxiu, is there really a problem with them, she will step on two boats? Xiao Yi was angry and puzzled, he seemed to understand, no wonder he could cut off information exchanges after a cold war with him for so long, it turned out that she was no longer the girl who only pretended to be herself in her heart, even if she didn't have someone else in her heart, this feeling was not as pure as before, and there was an ominous premonition in his heart, he must find out.

At night, the night is dark, there is no moon and stars, and the campus is very quiet, except for the lights in the liberal arts classrooms.

Xiao Yi walked around the deserted campus, staring at Liu Yun's classroom, where there were several other people. His doubts became heavier and heavier, thinking that if he found Liu Yun and Liu Xing sitting together, he would rush in and ask what was going on, but in the end, everyone went back to the dormitory, and the picture he imagined did not appear, but obviously the two of them agreed not to leave. He felt a little sad: even if Liu Yun was okay with that person, she should communicate with herself, otherwise what was she in her mind?

Sleepless all night, Xiao Yi came to the classroom early the next day, his eyes were glued to the window, waiting for Liu Yun to come over, he couldn't be so unclear, even if it was a breakup, the two of them had to explain things clearly.

Liu Yun finally came out, and was invited by a few boys in their class. Xiao Yi didn't pay attention to it so much, went out to greet him, blocked in front of Liu Yun and asked, "Do you have something to hide from me?" ”

Liu Yun glanced at him and said coldly, "Do you still need to hide something from you?" After saying that, he pulled out and left.

Xiao Yi seemed to have been beaten with a stick, and suddenly froze in place, and the dialogue plot that was being rehearsed repeatedly just now suddenly became blank, and a burst of pain hit his heart, and he didn't move half a step for a long time. After so many years of relationship, Liu Yun in his mind, not only love, but also family affection, he feels that the relationship between the two people is too good, it is so good that they are not separated from each other, although there are awkward situations from time to time, but after all, it is a matter of two people, this time I never expected that she would have this attitude towards him, would talk to him like this, and would use this metaphor to break his heart...... Is this still the girl I really like? Is this still the lover who haunts me and misses me all the time? Is this still the dear Liu Yun who can make him give up everything? Why does it feel so cold and strange?

Everything seems to be understood, what are you doing here? What's the point? Let people see their own jokes? For the first time, Xiao Yi felt so helpless and stupid. He walked slowly back to the dormitory, got on his bike, he was going to get out of here, this was no longer his world, it should be said that it wasn't in the first place!

The sky was overcast, and the autumn wind was blowing all the way......

Xiao Yi's mood is extremely low, the deeper the love, the more painful it is, and the person he once loved has become the most familiar stranger. He came to the fourth middle school for Liu Yun to repeat his studies, and finally got such an ending, the first two months were still a pretentious and confident lion, but now he is embarrassed like a lost dog, thinking about sheltering Liu Yun from the wind and rain, but he didn't expect that he would become the biggest stumbling block to the other party, what a crazy thorn! He felt so humiliated, what else did it mean for him to repeat, and what was the next step? Thinking about riding all the way, I unconsciously passed the seventh middle school, passed a township, and passed a village......

When he finally got home, he tried his best to hide his emotions, and his family asked him where he had been last night, and he said that he had something to do at school, and then went back to his house.

At dinner, he still couldn't get out of what happened in the morning, and he was groggy in bed, when his mother sensed something was wrong and came to him and asked him what was wrong.

"Mom, I'm so uncomfortable......" As soon as the words came out, Xiao Yi couldn't hold back his emotions anymore, and cried out, all the grievances he had accumulated in his heart in the past month broke out at this moment......

Xiao Yi has always been a strong appearance in front of his family, and his days outside are even more good news and not bad news, his mother has never seen him like this, and asked him the reason distressedly, and his grandmother and father also hurried over when they heard the voice.

Xiao Yi said the general meaning, and his mother said angrily: "It turns out that you don't study in the seventh middle school, you have to run to the fourth middle school, for this, such a woman, are you rare to be worth it?" ”

"We've been for years, and she's not that kind of person, it's the one who scared her by dropping out." Although Xiao Yi felt uncomfortable, he still couldn't hear others say that Liu Yun was bad, so he hurriedly defended her.

Seeing him like this, his mother didn't mention Liu Yun again, and said: "I heard that you took a big break yesterday, and your grandmother ran to the entrance of the village to wait for you until the dark, and you asked Sheng Wen to come back late, but he didn't come back overnight, and I didn't sleep well because I had bad dreams all night, and asked your father to ride a bicycle to your way back in the morning, for fear that something would happen to you, and in the end you got such a thing." ”

My father doesn't usually talk much, but at this time he also interjected: "We have a rural family for you and your brother to go to school, and there are a lot of gossip in the village, why don't you study hard and fight for breath?" ”

Grandma didn't seem to understand what was going on: "If we think she's good, let her wait for us, and then pull it when she is admitted to school!" ”

Before Xiao Yi could reply, his mother continued: "In this case, then don't go to school, go to the army, last time Minister Wang of the Armed Forces Department saw your father, and asked who would send you two to be a soldier!" ”

Of course, Xiao Yi is unwilling, he has always had his own ideas: "I know, I still want to go back to review, if I can't take the exam next year, it's not too late to become a soldier, I won't think about this anymore, I will study hard when I go back tomorrow."

Unifying opinions, Xiao Yi returned to No. 4 Middle School the next morning, he stuck the glass with paper, no longer looked out of the window, did not leave the classroom all afternoon, out of sight and out of mind, he was ready to study behind closed doors.

At dinner, Li Jian patted Xiao Yi on the shoulder, sighed, and said to him in a comforting tone: "I want to open up, brother!" It seems that what has happened in the past two days has reached his ears, of course Xiao Yi knows what he wants to say, but he still has a glimmer of hope in his heart, he has to wait for Liu Yun to break up with him in person, so he can completely die of this heart, so he smiled and did not answer. After the first period of self-study in the evening, the night had covered the entire campus, only the street lamps gave a faint light, and he walked on the path outside the classroom, the road was empty...... At this time, a person ran over, it was Liu Xing, after he saw Xiao Yi, he shook the hair on his forehead, whistled, and ran over with a proud look. Xiao Yi was a little sour, thinking to himself whether this was a provocation or a mockery? At this moment, another person ran from the front, this figure was too familiar, it was Liu Yun.

He was surprised in his heart: The two of them went out on a date just now? Or at night? No wonder Liu Xing had that kind of performance just now, his heart tingled, his chest was suffocated and he couldn't breathe, he couldn't believe his eyes and conjectures, but he still further affirmed his thoughts, which became the last straw that overwhelmed his nerves, and he was completely desperate!

How bitter it is to love someone, only you know best, how painful it is to give up a person, only you know, Xiao Yi at this time can no longer hold on, and I feel that there is no need to stay any longer, there is no longer my own thoughts here, it's time to leave......

He didn't want to go quietly, although Liu Yun hurt him so much, but after so many years of relationship, it really came to the day of leaving, but he calmed down, except for being uncomfortable, he didn't have hatred, he felt that he should go and say goodbye. In the morning, Xiao Yi packed up his things, rode on the car and stared at the water pipe in the girls' dormitory, and when Liu Yun finished washing the dishes and was about to leave, he chased after her a few times and stopped her. Liu Yun never looked at him, his eyes were staring ahead, and there was an expression on his face that seemed to be smiling but not smiling. Xiao Yi thought that her emotions were no longer on the same frequency as herself, where could she feel her sadness and despair at this time, maybe this was the result she was looking forward to.

Emotions surged into his heart in an instant, and he couldn't remember what to say, so he only said: "I'm leaving, you can study hard in the future!" "It's exactly the same as the parting words when I went back to junior high school that year, and I got on my bicycle and pedaled out.

It's just that there are no tears in his eyes this time......

Coming is accidental, going is inevitable, all you must, with the fate of the same, the same with the fate, everything is fate, not by the other!