How can a person who has lost his goal and has no ambition make achievements in the field of scientific research?

He knew that he was not in the right state, so he took the initiative to apply to the school to stop, and after finishing the project in hand, he began an aimless vacation.

He went to a lot of places.

Sometimes I will sit by the lake of Yanda all day, watching the swans and forgetting to eat;

Sometimes I would go to the small building of my mentor's hometown and try to absorb her breath in a dark and lightless room;

Sometimes they go to the streets they have shopped, the places they have walked, and the restaurants they have stayed in......

It was then that he realized that there were so few memories between them.

The so-called year, maybe the real time together is only one or two months.

The rest of the time, she's either busy or he's busy.

She would always take the initiative to call him, and all he could do was show impatience.

The only place he didn't dare to go to was the cemetery, he knew where she was buried, and there were many fans and kind netizens who spontaneously bought flowers to see her, and built a vibrant and flowery cluster for her gray tombstone.

But he didn't dare to go.

Because he was a coward and was afraid to hear all the news about her death.

As if in this way, he was able to deceive himself that she did not leave this world, but only temporarily went to a foreign country that he could not contact or see, and lived happily.

Time flies, months pass in the blink of an eye.

His decadence and frustration, his parents and elders saw it, and they were naturally disappointed.

It's not that they didn't persuade him, but unfortunately it didn't work at all.

Later, a year later, the other elders only sighed when they mentioned him, and only his parents would stubbornly come to him every week.

The turning point was the first anniversary of Ming Dai's death, and his grandmother came to see him.

In fact, grandma is the one who didn't intervene in the matter of him and Mingdai from beginning to end.

When Grandpa meaningfully told him to make a choice, only Grandma patted him on the shoulder and said, "It's good to be happy."

And after seeing my grandmother for a long time, her old man looks older and older.

Grandma said, 'Keep her in your heart and live well, so that there will be one more person in the world who really thinks of her and remembers her.' ’

Grandma's words made him feel like an initiation.

Indeed, a year on, the shock of Mingdai's death has gradually faded.

Occasionally, someone online mentions her in a nostalgic tone, but most have begun to forget about her.

There are too many fresh explosive news in this world, and there are endless newcomers in the entertainment industry, and the roles played by Ming Dai are not classics, so where will the audience stay for her for a long time?

It's up to him to remember her this time.

He said he knew.

Soon after, he returned to school to teach.

He returned to the research project team, and his colleagues around him welcomed him.

But after a long time, they all found that he was not as smart and aura as before, but seemed to be bound by something, and he could not use his hands and feet.

For a long time, he did not publish a single worthy paper, did not put forward meaningful new ideas, began to degenerate into mediocrity, and gradually did nothing.

But he doesn't seem to care, anyway, this knowledge is enough to support him to continue teaching at the university and do these basic scientific research work, but he is no longer as energetic as before.

The elder mentors were disappointed in him, but then thought that it would be good for him to come out of the pain.

After a few years, his mentor died.

The tutor had no children, and most of his inheritance was donated to his alma mater and society, and the only small building in the fishing village was given to him.

The mentor said that it was a pity to see his silence, but as long as he didn't feel sorry for himself, then it didn't seem to matter if he lived like this.

In fact, in the years before his death, his mentor did not treat him well, but among many students, he became the only one to receive an inheritance.

Of course, compared to the Zhou family, this small building is nothing, but the mentor and him both know that this small building is of great significance to him.

He couldn't help but be moved and shed tears.

Confessed his arrogance and arrogance again and again.

Everything he has suffered now is nothing but the punishment that fate has brought upon him.

And he only suffers by himself.

A few more years passed.

He heard that Zhao Xian, who had been dating him at the beginning, was nominated for the Nobel Prize, and there was a high probability of winning the award.

After breaking up with him, Zhao Xian did not stop the pace of pursuing knowledge, but went further and further and became a leading figure among domestic scientists.

If you want to say it, Zhao Xian's former talent can't catch up with him at all, he is the child of someone else's family in the mouth of the elders of the world, and Zhao Xian is just an ordinary person who desperately catches up with the pace of genius.

As a result, the later development was reversed, and he was unknown to others, but Zhao Xian became famous, and finally completed the achievement that he and his elders expected - leaving his name in the textbook.

He was in a trance, but he was not jealous, he just sincerely blessed her.

When I saw Zhao Xian by chance, Zhao Xian still remembered him, came over to say hello with a smile, and calmly mentioned the fact that he was unmarried.

The reason is him, and it doesn't count him.

He just touched Zhao Xian's opportunity to start thinking about the meaning of marriage and family.

When Zhao Xian felt that she didn't need her other half to add icing on the cake, she became an unmarried, and when she was thirty-five years old, she adopted two girls, and now a few years have passed, and she has been very good.

She said that her life has been perfected without regrets, and she hopes that he can also pursue his goal.

And then a few more years.

His grandparents died one after another, three days apart.

The two elders were both 100 years old, disease-free and painless, and died in their sleep, and everyone said that this was the best way to die.

However, the day before his grandfather died, he was brought to him and said sorry to him:

'Grandpa is sorry for you, you shouldn't have been separated in the first place. ’

He shuddered and hurriedly avoided the topic.

The fact was that before Grandpa mentioned it, he hadn't thought of Ming Dai for a long time.

His life is like a pool of stagnant water, and every day is spent numbly, and occasionally a year or two have passed, and his life has not changed in a straight line.

So even he thought that he had given up on Mingdai and forgotten Mingdai.

He once thought that when grandpa mentioned it, all those vivid memories about her poured out.

At this moment, he was extremely grateful to his parents for giving him a smart brain, which was enough for him to recall her smile.

Then he smiled for the first time in a long time, immersed in the memories with her, unable to extricate himself.

Time flies.

Finally, his life was coming to an end due to illness.

His elderly parents looked at him with tears in front of the hospital bed, and his lips curled, and he could only say one sentence:

'I'm sorry. ’

I'm sorry, Mingdai;

I'm sorry, Mom and Dad;

I'm sorry for my expected family;

Also, I'm sorry...... Zhou Yunzhi.