One

Before you know it, it's late autumn, and the dim glass windows try their best to resist the harsh autumn wind.

Sparrows that have lost the shelter of their leaves have nowhere to hide but to lie on their stomachs and chirp.

Gu Feng swallowed an ibuprofen capsule, hoping to relieve the headache caused by the alcohol.

Since the school anniversary, Gu Feng and Zheng Xia haven't seen each other for a week.

In the past few days, Gu Feng has had a hangover every night, sticking to the bed in the dormitory like a puddle of mud.

"Lang is talented and ......beautiful," Gu Feng muttered, "Lang, you are a third uncle and grandfather......

Obviously, Gu Feng didn't hear the follow-up of the interview at all.

Zheng Xia did not contact him again.

I guess I've already enjoyed college life with that Li Qian.

Gu Feng drank the last sip of warm water and washed his face fiercely.

Look at yourself in the mirror.

It's as if everything is going backwards.

Bearded face, dark eye circles, messy hair.

It's exactly the same as it was at the beginning.

Maybe that's what you really are.

Thinking like this, Gu Feng inadvertently caught a glimpse of the razor in the corner of the sink.

When I was still thinking about whether to shave.

The phone rings suddenly.

Gu Feng hurriedly wiped the edge of his pants with his hand, and couldn't wait to take out his mobile phone.

Caller ID: Meng Yi.

Gu Feng was disappointed, and his tense heart even wanted to crack a little.

"Hello?" Gu Feng asked lazily.

"Senior Gu Feng!" Meng Yi's panicked and eager voice came from the phone, "Oh no! Senior Sister Zheng Xia is sick! ”

Gu Feng's heart was shocked, and he held his mobile phone and looked at the foggy glass window in a daze.

"What did you say?" Gu Feng preferred to believe that he had misheard.

"Senior Sister Zheng Xia is sick! Now in the hospital! Meng Yi's voice was a little weak, and he could obviously feel that he couldn't breathe anymore, "I'm downstairs in your dormitory, come quickly!" ”

Meng Yi hung up the phone after speaking.

Gu Feng put away his phone, walked to the cabinet in a daze, and slowly opened it.

The white sweatshirt was still lying quietly on the side, Gu Feng hadn't worn it for a long time, but it was still washed regularly once a week.

It's not a good weather to wear a sweatshirt, but it's still spotless.

Gu Feng stared at him in a trance.

Suddenly, Meng Yi's shout sounded in his ears.

Gu Feng immediately took out a fleece coat and ran downstairs in a hurry.

After meeting Meng Yi, the two got into a taxi to the local people's hospital.

Arrived at the hospital.

Gu Feng was the first to rush to the door of the ward, and saw the hospital bed by the window from a distance.

Zheng Xia lay there with a yellowish face, quiet like a leaf blown off by the autumn wind.

"It's acute gastroenteritis," a doctor wearing a white mask told Gu Feng, "because of unstable work and rest, poor diet." ”

Gu Feng took the doctor's examination report.

"Why is this happening......" Gu Feng muttered.

"Because of the past few days when you have been away...... Meng Yi hesitated, pursed his lips, and whispered, "Senior Sister Zheng Xia has been training with us in the training room, and she will stay up late every day, and sometimes she can't even make it to dinner......"

Gu Feng turned his head to look at Meng Yi in shock.

Meng Yi was instantly frightened by his eyes, and hung his head reproachfully.

Gu Feng turned the last page of the report, and could only sit helplessly on a chair in the corridor, holding his head helplessly with his hands.

thought of Zheng Xia in a dance dress, as well as her smiling expression in a dress, and even the way she looked when she was angry.

The girl who was so complete and beautiful at the beginning got such a serious illness because of something that had nothing to do with her.

Gu Feng understood very well in his heart.

Zheng Xia can no longer return to the same happiness as before.

When a person is sick, there is a gap in the soul.

Even if the illness is cured, the gap will not be cured.

"It's all our ...... to blame" Because in the hospital, Meng Yi's voice was very small, and every word trembled, "It would be nice if I didn't let Senior Sister Zheng Xia help......

Meng Yi, who was sitting next to Gu Feng, tried his best to wipe away the tears that kept flowing.

Gu Feng couldn't bear it, so he could only rub Meng Yi's hair: "I don't blame you ......"

"Actually, it's my ...... to blame," Gu Feng said softly.

"It would have been nice if Zheng Xia hadn't been allowed to come with her," Gu Feng said to himself, "if she had been allowed to enjoy her own life...... Dance...... In love...... As long as it weren't for me, she wouldn't have suffered this......"

Meng Yi didn't answer, maybe he didn't hear it, he just kept sobbing there, desperately wiping his tears.

Two

The faint sunlight of late autumn shone on Zheng Xia's face.

The sleeping Zheng Xia is still very beautiful, with long eyelashes and delicate and perfect facial features, like a sleeping beauty in a fairy tale.

Gu Feng stood silently beside the bed, looking at the scene in front of him.

If it was really like in a fairy tale, just a kiss could wake up, and it would be nice to be able to return to the old days.

It was cold.

The hospital's air conditioner simply didn't work in the face of the heavy autumn wind.

The twenty-four-degree heating could not soothe Gu Feng's cold hands.

Gu Feng could no longer remember everything he had seen at the door of the school auditorium that evening.

He just wants the girl in front of him to go back to the day they met.

Let the two no longer know each other.

The doctor said that Zheng Xia would have to stay in the hospital for at least a week.

And a week later, it's the start of the 100 Cities playoffs.

Gu Feng and Meng Yi walked to the gate of the hospital together.

The city in front of me seemed to fall into cold tones, and every brick and tile on the street had a hint of cold pale cyan.

Meng Yi wrapped an orange scarf around it, filling in the missing bit of temperature in the picture.

The two men stood by the taxi stop sign and fell into a long silence.

"I don't think Senior Sister Zheng Xia will leave easily." Meng Yi's two eyes looked at the vehicles coming and going, as if he was tired of crying, and his voice was soft.

Gu Feng turned his head to look at Meng Yi, her eyes were different from Zheng Xia's, but her eyelashes were as long: "Yes." ”

"Moreover, if we give up the game because of her injury, Senior Sister Zheng Xia will be very sad." Meng Yi blinked, and his eyes moistened again.

Gu Feng let out a muffled "um"

But I don't want to make her sad anymore, Gu Feng thought.

Meng Yi waved her hand on the side of the road, and a taxi quickly pulled up beside her.

"Aren't you going back?" Meng Yi took the lead in sitting in the back seat and looked up to ask Gu Feng.

Gu Feng put his hand in his pocket and shook his head: "You go back first, I should have something to do." ”

Meng Yi understood, gently closed the door, and then rolled down the window.

"We will train consciously," Meng Yi's cute big eyes still had a little tear stain through the car window, "You can rest assured." ”

Gu Feng smiled lightly and nodded.

Wait until the windows are closed again.

Gu Feng stood in place, in the relentless autumn wind, looking at the taxi driving into the distance.

Back to the ward.

It was so quiet that you could even hear the sound of the autumn wind rubbing against the glass outside the window.

The sun hides behind the white clouds and refuses to raise the temperature even more.

Gu Feng found a blue plastic bench.

Sitting next to Zheng Xia in silence, he didn't know how to apologize.

And so I sat until the afternoon.

Zheng Xia's condition improved slightly, and her cheeks and lips turned into their usual red and tender color.

"Hmm......" Zheng Xia murmured delicately.

Gu Feng thought she was awake and hurriedly got up to check.

"Gu Feng ......," Zheng Xia said vaguely, "don't be sad...... Don't retire ......"

She was talking in her sleep, and she was talking about Gu Feng's name.

Gu Feng's whole person was stunned, and his ears tried his best to receive this sentence.

"Why ......" Gu Feng was puzzled.

"Huh......?" Zheng Xia's eyelashes trembled slightly, and then slowly opened his eyes.

The two men looked at each other.

A line of tears unconsciously flowed from the corners of Zheng Xia's eyes.

Gu Feng hurriedly found a tissue to help her wipe it clean.

And Zheng Xia still looked at Gu Feng with wide eyes in disbelief.

"Why are you ...... here" Zheng Xia's voice was soft, and it made people's hearts crisp when they heard it.

"I ......" Gu Feng returned to the bench, because of his height, Zheng Xia was just able to look at Gu Feng at eye level, "I received a call from Meng Yi, and I rushed over." ”

Zheng Xia's body is still weak: "I'm sorry ......"

"No," Gu Feng hurriedly denied, "I am the one who should say I'm sorry." ”

Gu Feng didn't dare to look directly into Zheng Xia's eyes, and looked to the side: "If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be ......"

Just as he was about to continue, a white hand suddenly stretched out from the quilt

Zheng Xia barely squeezed out a smile, stretched out his slender index finger, and gently pressed it against Gu Feng's lips.

"You don't understand anything at all...... Zheng Xia's voice trembled, tears appeared in the corners of his eyes little by little, "idiot......"

Three

CrossFire WCG Finals 2013.

The expansive venue was filled with spectators.

Gorgeous fireworks erupt between the stages.

Cheers covered the sky like waves.

Twenty-year-old Gu Feng stood proudly between the stages, and the host excitedly introduced his name in his ears.

Everything is like a movie of heroism.

The young Gu Feng went all the way from the Hundred Cities League to the WCG finals.

No defeats.

The LG team's flag was waved vigorously and fluttered between the waves.

It's as if a legend is going to be played out here.

However, after hours of fierce fighting.

Everything is very different from what everyone imagined the plot.

"Selfish", "naïve", "self-righteous", "self-centered"

These labels became the spears pierced on Gu Feng's back when he left the stage.

In this way, a saga turned into an unbridled scolding from the audience.

"I don't blame them, it's all because of my willfulness, I'm sorry everyone's ......"

This was the last sentence Gu Feng said to reporters.

In the live broadcast screen.

Gu Feng bowed deeply to the camera, and the hand holding the microphone around his waist trembled from crying.

Since then.

Gu Feng was expelled from the club, and the live broadcast room was forever full of scolding.

Leaving the arena, Gu Feng closed himself in a small world.

But he didn't expect it.

From the Internet café of the audition to the venue of the WCG.

There is a girl, together with her cousin, who is always holding Gu Feng's cheering card in the audience.

In the position closest to the stage, the girl shouted for Gu Feng's victory and applauded happily.

"You don't even know the game, why are you still so excited?" Her cousin asked, confused.

"I don't know how to play," the girl blinked, her long eyelashes blocking the hot sweat, "but I knew him." ”

The end of the game.

Gu Feng left the audience in a gloomy voice.

When leaving the venue.

The girl was outside the cordon, desperately shouting: "Gu Feng! Don't be sad! Don't retire! ”

However, Gu Feng wore headphones and hung his head into the club's bus.

The girl's voice was not heard.

That's right.

That girl is Zheng Xia.

Since Gu Feng's debut, she has been silently following Gu Feng.

With Zheng Fan's support, she began to watch the game live.

The picture of the game, the shouts of the host, and the passion of the commentary.

She didn't understand, she only had Gu Feng staring at the screen in her eyes.

Zheng Fan was also elected president of the e-sports club because of Zheng Xia's request to form a team, perhaps......

Maybe Gu Feng can see it.

When he heard that Jiecheng wanted to hire Gu Feng as a coach, Zheng Xia supported him with both hands.

And when he heard that Gu Feng refused the invitation, Zheng Xia was very disappointed

But she wouldn't stop there.

So early that morning, she pulled Gu Feng to watch the HG game.

……

"I... I've called you so many times... Why don't you even look back..."

"Ahh Old friends come to see each other from all over the world! Wouldn't it be a meal to meet here? ”

……

Four

After Zheng Xia finished telling his story, he seemed to be tired, and lay quietly on the hospital bed with his eyes closed.

It was already overcast, and the sunlight had left the room.

Gu Feng buried his head deeply, like a child who made a mistake, and his tears couldn't help but moisten the black fabric on his knees.

"I'm sorry......" Gu Feng's voice trembled with his body.

The emotion of grief lowers the temperature of the body and makes me tremble uncontrollably.

The emotions of self-blame and guilt hit Gu Feng's heart.

Faintly, Gu Feng heard a soft rustling sound

Zheng Xia gently placed his warm hand on Gu Feng's head and stroked it gently.

It was as if to comfort him.

But obviously she was the most uncomfortable.

"Okay...... Zheng Xia's gentle voice scattered the cold mist, "I'm really happy these days, it's completely different from what you think." ”

Gu Feng's eyes were full of tears, and he slowly raised his head and looked at the weak Zheng Xia.

Her eyes were really good-looking, like a full-colored amber.

Zheng Xia showed a familiar smile, shallow, softly like the quietest stream in the forest.

"So," Zheng Xia continued, "I will always be with you." ”

The sun finally left the white clouds, and the warm sunlight shone into the ward again.

Cover the shallow distance between two people.

The secret glacier is melted by hot tears, and the withdrawn teenager witnesses the blossoming of spring again.

In this little ward.

Gu Feng's story has just begun.