Hearing Dr. Ho say this, Jona and I both breathed a sigh of relief.

Dr. Ho would not have given us such a promise if he had not been sure.

I stood up and bowed to Dr. He, "Then I'm sorry for you." ”

After leaving the hospital, Joanna worked tirelessly to enlighten me in the car.

"Now I feel more at ease, right? Dr. Ho said that he would find a way for us. Dr. Ho is the most authoritative doctor in the field of brain, and he said that there will be a way. ”

Listening to Jona's chatter, I didn't think so in my heart.

Dr. Ho said that just to encourage me, if he really had a solid plan, he would not have any expert consultations.

When I got home in the evening, I looked up the Internet about domestic and foreign treatment measures for brain cancer, and it was basically difficult to save the fetus and adults at the same time.

I didn't dare to have much hope in my heart, and I was even more afraid that my hope would be crushed by reality.

I lay back in bed tired, the tablet in my hand searching for ways to prolong the lives of brain cancer patients.

Just give me some more time so that this child can be born safely.

On the third day of my arrival in the United States, there were only two days left before the date of my remarriage with Li Yunzhou.

In the evening, Li Yunzhou called me with great interest, "How is it?" Is your job done over there? Ordered what time will you fly tomorrow? I'll pick you up at the airport, and we'll get the card tomorrow. ”

Listening to Li Yunzhou's mouth full of anticipation, my heart was like a knife.

I really can't bear to disappoint Li Yunzhou, especially since I know very well how much he has gone to great lengths to do all this for our remarriage.

But I couldn't tell him the truth.

I took a deep breath, tried to calm my heart, and said word by word: "Yunzhou, let's separate." ”

Li Yunzhou on the opposite side was obviously stunned for a moment, and after a moment of silence, he asked in disbelief, "What are you talking about?" ”

Li Yunzhou sneered mockingly, still deceiving himself: "You deliberately joked with me, didn't you?" ”

"I didn't." I endured the stinging pain in my heart, tried my best to control my voice not to tremble, and slowly repeated: "Li Yunzhou, I regret it, I don't want to remarry you." ”

"What are you talking about?! Didn't we talk about it before? Why did you suddenly regret it? ”

At this time, Li Yunzhou's tone was full of panic, as if he had thought of something, and he humbly admitted his mistake: "Do you still blame me for treating you badly before?" At that time, I was really flawless. I apologize to you. I promise that I will put you first in everything in the future, and I will never mention any breakup and divorce again. ”

Li Yunzhou's attitude was already very sincere, I clenched my fists tightly and bit my lower lip hard, for fear that the grief in my heart would pour out.

I know that Li Yunzhou treats me sincerely, and I believe that he will do his duty to be a good husband and father.

It's just that I'm afraid I won't be able to see any of this in the future.

I forced myself to harden my heart and lied without changing my face: "In the past few days abroad, I have thought a lot. I still don't think we're a good fit. ”

"What's not right? Why is it not suitable? ”

Hearing this, Li Yunzhou became anxious, "Are you worried about my mother?" If you don't want to move back to live with her, we just live in the Su family villa. I depend on you for everything. ”

My throat choked, Li Yunzhou had been backing down repeatedly, he really wanted to start over with me.

It's a pity that creation makes people.

I endured the sourness in my heart, deliberately lowered my gaze, and tried to make my attitude cold and depressed.

She whispered: "Li Yunzhou, I'm sorry, I originally thought we could start again, so I promised you to live with you again." But I found that I couldn't. ”

I held back the tears in my eyes, and a sharp pain in my heart made me subconsciously bite my lip.

Hearing my muffled snort, Li Yunzhou asked with concern: "What's wrong?" That's not what you mean, is it? Do you have something unspeakable? ”

"Li Yunzhou, don't be sentimental anymore. There is simply no way to forgive you. ”

As a last resort, in order to make Li Yunzhou die, my words became excessive.

"Do you really think that everything in the past can be erased? How can a mirror that has been shattered not have cracks? Li Yunzhou, we can't go back. ”

Li Yunzhou was short of breath, and I could clearly hear his heavy gasps.

I closed my eyes and suppressed the unbearability in my heart, as well as the wetness in my eyes.

I said earnestly: "In the future, you should take good care of Xixi, you father and son are each other's relatives." ”

"Ruan Shi, what's wrong with you? It's okay if you're angry with me, if you don't forgive me, I can understand. But what's wrong with Hee-hee? Are you really willing to abandon him again? ”

"I'm alone, I can't take two children with me." I pretended to be indifferent and said, "Xixi will leave it to you, and I only want the child in my womb." That's fair to you, too. ”

When I said this, my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe, and my body couldn't help shaking.

For fear that I would be exposed, I hung up the phone directly, and then turned off my mobile phone, not giving Li Yunzhou any chance to ask me.

I curled up on the ground, clutching my knees tightly, tears running out of control on my face like a flood.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door, and Joanna walked in, and I glanced at her with teary eyes, and I could clearly see the distress in her eyes.

Sure enough, Jona should have just heard everything outside the door.

Joanna walked up to me and hugged me gently, "Why are you doing this?" Didn't the doctor say that? There will be a way, why would you push yourself into this situation? ”

I tugged at the hem of my shirt tightly, and cried in a trembling voice: "I don't want to lose anyone, but I can't sacrifice this child." ”

"Even if it's the last thought I left for Li Yunzhou. Even if he hated me, it was much better than remembering that I was full of guilt. ”

"I just hope that their father and son are well, even if they don't have me by their side, they have to live a normal life, instead of being dragged down by me."

I just don't want Li Yunzhou to have any hope, and I know my condition very well.

If I can't be cured, then for Li Yunzhou and Xixi, it will be to snuff out their light with my own hands.

Rather than face something like that, it's better for them to hate me.

Joanna didn't understand what I was doing, but she didn't say anything else. She just stayed by my side silently, patting me gently on the back.

"It's going to get through, it's going to get through."