The relationship and contact between people is not only about appearance and material support, but also about feeling.

Sometimes, the atmosphere, the timing, the right emotion, even if it is a simple holding hand and touching the head, can make people extremely happy and happy.

"I definitely want to be with her!"

Just a kiss, a slightly shy and evasive word, directly ignited Hikaru Kurosawa's heart.

At that moment just now, how charming Miss Ninomiya was, he couldn't even describe it.

But the feeling at that moment was like when he fell into a cliff and all his thoughts were lost, a hand suddenly stretched out and pulled him up, as if he was in a different world, as if he had been reborn.

"How can he ...... like that"

The mouth-to-mouth kiss made Chizuru Ninomiya's brain go blank.

Because Kurosawa has changed the way he addresses her, and even spoiled her, she has not been able to hold the psychological defense, and she is still soft-hearted.

But her soft-heartedness was to promise him and let him kiss his face, not kiss at all.

Still, the kiss feels so good.

The hot breath and the contact of the soft skin were like a warm current pouring into her cold body, which was very comfortable.

This kiss lasted for more than ten seconds before Hikaru Kurosawa stopped.

With the separation of her lips, Chizuru Ninomiya was still a little unsatisfied, and after coming back to her senses, she raised her eyes to meet a pair of dark and beautiful eyes.

The eyes are the windows to the soul...... Through these eyes, she could feel Kurosawa's hot and intense love.

"I'm going back."

Seeing this scene, Ninomiya Chizuru instantly sobered up, her heartstrings were very flustered, and even a little scared, and she immediately turned around and left.

But just as she turned around and took a step, a hand suddenly reached over and grabbed her wrist.

"Don't go."

Immediately after, an eager retainer sounded from behind, causing Ninomiya Chizuru's actions to pause.

“……”

Chizuru Ninomiya instinctively wanted to turn back, but she still restrained the urge in her heart, shook her head, and struggled to move forward.

"Are you going to leave again?"

Hikaru Kurosawa, who was standing in place and pulling her wrist, felt her weak struggle, and couldn't help but say.

With this strength alone, there was no way she could escape the palm of his hand...... But the struggling action was very hurtful.

Is it my behavior just now, is it too much?

But he couldn't help it, how could he stay sane when he felt her closeness and doting.

Hearing these distressing words, Chizuru Ninomiya couldn't help but look back at him after all.

"Kurosawa, I'm afraid I'll hurt you in the same way as before."

Facing his gaze of retention and expectation, Chizuru Ninomiya couldn't help but say.

"Backtracking?"

Hikaru Kurosawa was a little stunned when he heard this.

"I was sorry that day, I thought I could accept that you have three girlfriends, accept that you are a flowery man, so I mustered up the courage to kiss you...... As a result, I found that I couldn't bear it at all, and I couldn't accept such a thing, and I hurt you. ”

After all, it was face-to-face, and Chizuru Ninomiya saw that he was unconscious, so he took a deep breath and confided in his heart.

At that time, she was on the verge of a mental breakdown, and she couldn't bear such a blow at all, so she chose to turn around and leave.

But when she turned around, she faced Kurosawa's retention, but she avoided again and again.

Every time she thinks about this incident, she feels tormented and guilty.

If she could have thought one step earlier, she couldn't accept it at all, and if she didn't kiss Kurosawa, it wouldn't have become like this.

"You don't have to say sorry."

Hikaru Kurosawa heard this, and let go of her wrist, no longer dragging her.

When a person wants to leave, even if you use all kinds of means to keep her and imprison her, you can't break her will.

"Kurosawa, I'm afraid I'm hurting you again...... Can you give me a moment to figure it out? ”

Finding that he let go, Chizuru Ninomiya felt that his mood was very low, and in addition to explaining, he also pleaded.

"How long will it take you? One day? One month? A year? Or for a lifetime? ”

Hikaru Kurosawa took a deep breath and stood with his hands in his pockets, looking at her with complicated eyes.

During this time, he had thought of many ways to reconcile with Chizuru.

Until today, after hearing Fujiwara Rokuka's voice in the office, he thought that he had found the right way forward, that is, admitting his mistakes, and showing his sincerity of repentance, he would definitely put an end to the meeting of several girlfriends.

But in the end, the fundamental reason why Chizuru kept his distance from him was not because of this incident, but because of his character.

Planning and then acting, this is a truth that smart people can learn, and he naturally understands it.

But this principle does not apply to the vast majority of situations in reality, especially in romantic relationships.

If someone can get out of love, grasp the measure, and be calm, it can only mean that this person does not love each other at all.

It is precisely because he is deeply in love with Chizuru Ninomiya that he has a lot of decisions and actions that lack consideration and calm thinking.

"I don't know, you kissed me just now, I wasn't angry, in fact, I'm happy, but until I'm sure I can accept this, we can't do this, that's too hasty."

Chizuru Ninomiya explained in the face of his questioning, a little at a loss.

In all fairness, she really wanted to kiss and hug Kurosawa, act together like she used to, travel together, play together, and progress together.

But she knew very well that it was a completely impulsive act that was reckless.

"We have to see the results clearly before we can reconcile? Do you only read the last page of a book? ”

Hikaru Kurosawa looked at her level, and couldn't help it.

It's unrealistic to have to look at the outcome before you start, unless you have the superpower to predict the future.

"Kurosawa, I'm afraid I'll delay you."

Faced with his pleading and eager gaze, Chizuru Ninomiya was speechless, and then smiled bitterly.

"Are you afraid you'll delay me?"

As soon as these words came out, Hikaru Kurosawa was suddenly amused as if he had heard a joke, and the corners of his mouth rose slightly, and he confirmed.

"I'm afraid that we won't have a future, and I'm afraid that we will be separated in the end...... What I'm most afraid of is that I'm going to hurt you again. ”

Seeing his sudden smile, Chizuru Ninomiya's heartstrings trembled, and she hurriedly added.

"Okay."

Hearing this, Hikaru Kurosawa stared at her, thought for a long time, and nodded slightly.

Chizuru Ninomiya couldn't help but chuckle in his heart when he saw his expression change.

What kind of expression did that...... From self-deprecating ridiculousness, to guilt, sadness, regret, and a deep sense of powerlessness.

"Kurosawa."

Realizing this, Chizuru Ninomiya was very distressed and regretful, and couldn't help but reach out to him and wanted to catch him.

But when she stretched out her hand, just as she was about to touch Kurosawa, it stopped in mid-air.

However, after a brief pause, she continued to reach out and touch his chest.

"Is that really the case?"

Hikaru Kurosawa lowered his eyes to see her every move, and raised his eyes to see her complicated expression, conscious.

He is already fully aware of the facts, even if he has the help of the system, it is difficult to reconcile with her by all means.

Because Ninomiya Chizuru has not reconciled with him so far, it is not because she still holds a grudge against the events of that day, but because she has a psychological shadow.

On that day, he tore her heart apart with his own hands.

Even though her heart gradually healed with the passage of time, the scars could not be erased.

It's powerless, it's too powerless, it's helpless.

His idea was too naïve, he thought that as long as he mustered up the courage to keep and make amends, he would be able to get back together, just like he did at the beginning.

But the reality is very cruel, and there is no way to restore the broken heart to its original state, just like when he hears Ninomiya Chizuru say I'm sorry, he will instinctively feel frightened.

Today's Ninomiya Chizuru, even if he wants to touch him, he must muster up courage.

"I'm sorry, I'm too impulsive, you can go back first."

After thinking a lot, Hikaru Kurosawa took a step back and chose to bow his head and apologize.

"Are you angry?"

Chizuru Ninomiya found that he was no longer holding on to himself, and he couldn't help but feel a sense of panic in his heart.

She felt that if she really walked away like this, the severing bond between the two people would be severed.

"I'm not angry, I just figured it out."

Hikaru Kurosawa shook his head.

Under the influence of the dating task, because he could find that she was distressed and cared about him, he was even glad for it, and he had to inch in, through coquettishness, to let her spoil herself.

He's happy, but what about Chizuru Ninomiya?

She is scarred and wronged in every way, but she still feels sorry for him and spoils him.

He only noticed that Chizuru Ninomiya's love for him didn't take into account her difficulties, but now he realized it.

"What do you understand?"

Chizuru Ninomiya found that his expression became very calm, and the calmness was a little scary.

"Your words remind me...... You say you're afraid of hurting me, but I'm not like that. I feel that if I continue to dwell on you, it will only hurt you more. ”

Seeing her timid reaction, Hikaru Kurosawa still spoke her heart.

The long pain is better than the short pain, looking to the future, everything is full of uncertainty, even if he is determined to reduce the number of girlfriends to see each other as much as possible, there is no guarantee that they will never see each other.

No one can say what will happen tomorrow.

It's like he was dating the school girls of other schools not long ago, and every day was sweet and sweet, but he was sold in a blink of an eye, and he also woke up to the system, and his life has changed a lot since then.

"How could it be...... I'm glad you're still willing to coax me. ”

Hearing this, Chizuru Ninomiya only felt that he was talking about breaking up, and he immediately became anxious.

Although their relationship is very stiff now, and they have quarreled, they were still very angry not long ago, and they are commensurate with their surnames, not intimate at all, not like a couple at all.

But she knew that before the fight, they were more like a couple than any other couple.

Go to the amusement park together, go on a trip together, frolic by the creek, picnic, hold hands, hug, and kiss.

“……”

Hikaru Kurosawa heard her words, but was silent.

What happened that day at the Budokan was a cause for trouble.

He had been saddened, bitter and heartbroken.

She once broke down and cried, and she couldn't cry.

"Kurosawa, don't you want to be like this, okay? I was wrong. ”

Seeing that he was silent, Chizuru Ninomiya stretched out his hand again, grabbed his wrist, and pleaded.

"Don't give in to me like that...... I can't promise that I won't hurt you in the future. ”

In the face of her plea, Hikaru Kurosawa was a little soft-hearted, but he still broke free with a strong arm.

"I'm not afraid."

Chizuru Ninomiya grabbed his wrist again, this time very hard.

"You're obviously afraid, you're afraid of delaying me, you're afraid that we won't have a future, you're afraid that we'll break up in the end, you're afraid you'll hurt me, but I'm not like that."

Kurosawa Hikaru shook his arm, he couldn't break free easily, so he could only harden his heart and spread out the words with her to make it clear, struggling while talking, gradually exerting strength, and his excitement exploded.

After what happened just now, he has personally verified the true feelings of Chizuru Ninomiya.

Letting go early is good for both of you.

"I'm afraid of this, but I'm even more afraid of losing you!"

Although his strength was great, Chizuru Ninomiya still grabbed his arm and refused to let go, but he was also excited and said loudly.

“！”

Hikaru Kurosawa, who was still very excited, heard this cry, as if his soul had been hit by something, and his body, mind, and even emotions were frozen.

The excited look and emotions gradually calmed down, and Kurosawa Hikaru looked at her in disbelief.

"I know I'm accommodating you, but I'm willing!"

Seeing that he was no longer struggling, Chizuru Ninomiya's inner thoughts couldn't be suppressed at this moment.

"I wanted to leave just now, not because I was angry, but because I was afraid that I would not be able to restrain myself and do more things with you on impulse.

I need time to think it through because I'm afraid that I will be like the day before, I promised you, gave you hope, made you so happy, and ended up making you so sad.

Even though it's hard to accept, I'm still slowly getting used to it, just because I really don't want to lose you!

As a result, you are like this, and you still say that you can't be entangled anymore, do you want to break up with me like that? ”

The emotion completely exploded, and Chizuru Ninomiya found that he was silent, and his voice was louder and louder.

She was really scared just now, so she was very angry.

"If I really wanted to break up with you, I wouldn't have messaged you before. I said at the beginning that I would respect your decision, but I still had the cheekiness to message you because I didn't want to lose you. ”

Hikaru Kurosawa looked at Chizuru Ninomiya, who was clenched with fists clenched in front of him, excited and anxious as if he was very angry, and also responded.

"When I went to your house before, even if you stared at me with negative eyes and said all kinds of weird things, I still stayed with a dead face, just because I didn't want to lose you.

And what do you say that you are afraid that you will hurt me again, I never felt that you hurt me that day, because I stepped on three boats, and I was not brazen to the point where I dared to be angry. ”

The two of them faced each other and spoke loudly as if they were arguing, completely losing their usual calmness and reason.

"Really?"

Revealing his heart, Ninomiya Chizuru was not afraid to look at him so angry and excited, but asked.

"It's all true."

After the excitement, Hikaru Kurosawa calmed down a little and affirmed.

"You never felt like I broke your heart?"

"Nope." Hikaru Kurosawa shook his head.

"You obviously have, but when you looked at me at that time, it was very sad, painful, and desperate!"

Ninomiya Chizuru didn't believe his nonsense.

"I was like that because I saw you crying and it hurt me."

Hikaru Kurosawa was really speechless.

"I'm crying because I like you so much, I can't be like them, watching you kiss other girls, and I can't easily accept that you are intimate with other girls."

"I feel sorry for you because I know I love you, and I know that what I did hurt your heart, and I thought I was going to lose you, so I was so desperate."

"I ......"

was returned to him with color, Ninomiya Chizuru originally wanted to respond, but when the words came to his mouth, he choked.

Because after she calmed down, she found that such a conversation was very shameful and not reserved at all.

After the big noise, it calmed down, and the two looked at each other speechlessly.

After reviewing what happened that day face-to-face and revealing their hearts, they realized each other's true hearts.

Without mind reading, no one can guarantee that they know what other people really think.

Maybe you can feel the general idea, but the specific details are not clear.

Because I love you, I will collapse so much when I see you kissing other women.

Because I love you, I will be so desperate when I see you leaving.

The feelings of the two people are similar, but after this quarrel, they clearly feel the other party's intentions.

I don't want to lose you, I want to be with you.

"Take a sip of water."

Chizuru Ninomiya felt a little thirsty and couldn't help but say.

"Hmm."

Hikaru Kurosawa nodded.

With that, Chizuru Ninomiya sat back in her previous position, and then picked up a glass of water.

As for Hikaru Kurosawa, he stood and picked up the water glass and drank it violently.

The cool water ran down the throat and washed away the heat of the body, but the heartbeat of the two people was still very fast.

Because when people quarrel, they are often very emotional.

Soon, Hikaru Kurosawa finished drinking a glass of water, licked his lips, and looked at Chizuru Ninomiya on the side.

At this glance, he met a pair of eyes, but quickly staggered.

Compared with his heroic way of drinking, Chizuru Ninomiya's way of drinking is very ladylike and elegant.

She sat on the sofa, her snow-white and slender beautiful legs, put together on her side, holding the cup in one hand, drinking it slowly in front of her mouth, and peeking at him.

It's just that after looking at each other, she pretended not to look away.

"You really don't want to lose me?"

Seeing the change in her arrogant little eyes, Hikaru Kurosawa's heart moved, and he mustered up the courage to walk up to her and sit down next to her and asked.

"If I wanted to lose you, would I still be sitting here now? Is it bad for me to go to bed earlier? ”

In the face of his movements, Ninomiya Chizuru glanced at him, very speechless.

Knowingly asked, I made it so clear just now.

"That's right."

Maybe he asked knowingly, but Hikaru Kurosawa was happy to do it, and he smiled.

The relationship between people is maintained by social software, and it must be in constant contact so that the relationship will not fade, but it is impossible to get better.

Couples who are disconnected, even more so, relying on mobile phones alone to maintain the relationship between two people is not helpful at all.

Instead of hiding behind social software and suffering from gains and losses, it is better to meet and speak clearly.

Only in this way can we make feelings go further and bring courage to people.

One more, but this chapter has more than 5,000 words, which is almost equivalent to two more.

(End of chapter)